The characters from the game belong to Capcom.
A/N:I'm not english native speaker, so you might find some typos or grammar mistakes, I do apologize for that.
"Dear Diary,
Like the colors in a picture time insists on fading
The memories I kept are all withering away.
When I close my eyes I move to a happier day
In my dreams change a fate so gloomy
The heat of the day involves our hands.
A ghost of time, a feeling that does not come to an end
Mixing love and pain, your smile will always live inside me
When night falls, longing brings
The memory of your face
And a tear becomes a sanctuary
A flower falling in silence does
The memory of this echoing story
Walking the road of the petals
In our flower ties
This is our melody, time insists on wearing
Harmony to resound by a sea of solitude
Two souls intertwine in infinity to dance
Even a river of tears
Has the image of the moonlight
Our dreams can no longer perish
Preserved forever, forever
In my heart
When the flower blooms, the promise will change.
In prayer
Why does God give people the fate of encountering and separating with each other?
These overflowing tears become a river and coffins of flowers will flow on it,
The melody of forever.
When night falls, longing brings
The memory of your face
And a tear becomes a sanctuary
A flower that falls in silence and does
The memory of this echoing story
Walking the road of the petals
In our flower ties
It's what makes us believe
That even a god will not separate us"
A couple of days passed since Chris told the truth to his wife.
Evana, as her usual, needed a time for herself to reflect about the matter. However, this time, she didn't ask him to sleep in separate rooms, even though there was no real intimacy between them either. So far, she slept with her back to him. No touching. After learning the truth, Evana started having doubts of Chris' love for her. An old insecurity that returned to her like waves. Like the phases of the Moon.
The second night, Chris was sitting on the armchair of their bedroom while Evana had left the bathroom and was putting on her nightdress. He watched her moves.
"How long are we staying like this?" he broke the silence
"What?"
"Ignoration"
She exhaled heavily, "As long as I need to put together six years and a half living a beautiful lie"
"I never lied to you!"
She smirked, "Right! You're the king of honesty!"
"What's your problem Evana? I never lied to you! I admit there were things I couldn't tell you about my work, but this is not lying!"
"you've lied to me about Laureen! Your marriage!"
"What the hell?"
"Now it makes sense why you never had the courage to leave the house you lived together… why would you? It was convenient to you playing as her husband and keeping your dumb lover at the same time."
"What? Where is this coming from?"
"It's the truth!"
"Not my truth!"
"Not your truth? So now you deny that you said to me that you were trying a reconciliation with her?"
He gasped, "Ah, yeah, I did try a reconciliation with her before I re-encountered you in Bohma after Yana's email!"
"So now you're admitting that you had husband and wife intimacy with her?"
"Eva? What's your point? I'm not getting you!"
She laughed, "You're not getting me! Doesn't need to be genius to know what a husband and wife do such as kissing and other stuff…"
He frowned making a face, "Yeah…" he cleared his throat, "I told you that…"
"You have a son… so you lied to me!"
"I didn't lie to you! I omitted it, but I didn't lie. I told you I learned about him last year and I'm not even sure if it's mine!"
"How old is he?"
"5 this year…"
"So your logic says you omitted you were sleeping with her! For me you lied because you said you didn't sleep with her! "
"But I Didn't sleep with her!" he snapped
She made an incredulity face
He couldn't help the smile, "Eva… I've only had you all this long. I've been only yours all this long!"
"If that was true you wouldn't be so worried about her son being yours. You have doubts!"
He stepped closer to her, "I do have doubts, but intercourse is not the only way to make babies… there was a moment of peace I had with Laureen after Noah's death and we did try have another child, but soon after we decided that, I was engaged with long distant missions. Just recently I remembered that!"
"So your son is not 4 years old! Noah died way before I stepped into your life!"
"Wait, don't take assumptions. I'm not finished yet"
She sighed
"Because of those missions and a while before the chaos emerged between us, I accepted leaving a stored 'donation' for Laureen to have our child in case I didn't return from a mission. She took a while to make use of that… in the end she did, but always behind my back by faking my signature. The first two tries failed and the third one possibly worked. I'm not sure and the day you caught us in my cabin I was questioning her about it and she told me she had slept with someone else during the same time of the procedure. She says it's the other guy's that is actually her husband now, but I met the kid and I instantly connected to him and saw my child self in him… so I'm not sure… maybe I'm seeing things where there aren't but there's also the possibility that the procedure did work and he's my son… that's why I didn't tell you anything until I had confirmation on the matter because I knew it's a delicate subject for us after all she did…"
Evana let out a long sigh and sat on the bed corner with a thoughtful expression, "So she's the reason of your sudden decision for a vasectomy…"
He joined her and sat by her side, "Not exactly. I'm not sleeping with her and I won't! But I think three or four children is enough for me"
She gave a single nod, "And we have to be extremely careful because women get super fertile period after pregnancies and now that we know that I have the multiple pregnancy gene…is the best option for our case because it's expected that I still have some years ahead until I get in menopause..."
"Yeah. I do love our children, but remember that our plan was to have just another one"
"Yes, I remember that and if her son is yours, that will give you an extra responsibility because I'm sure you won't let go of him and I won't have anything against him because he's the innocent party in the story. I will never forbid you to not have contact with a child of yours and he will be very welcomed in our house whenever he comes! But I cannot tell the same about Laureen… I haven't forgotten what she did to me and I surely don't want her near our house or my children! If you will have to talk to her, do it outside the gate!"
He smiled taking her grip in support, "I know and that was my biggest concern. I haven't forgotten either, but you know my…"
She interrupted him, "You love her". He looked at her not knowing what to say or how to react, "I know there's a part of you that belongs to her somehow… you simply can't stop caring about her. I never was oblivious to that!"
"You think this is love?"
"It's a way to love… you may not desire her sexually, but there are still feeling in there in another form and I never meant to take that from you. I always knew my place in your life. She came first, you watched her grow up. You still have shared more time of your life with her than with me and I respect the story you have. I don't know how I do that but I manage to separate the unit you and her, the unit me and her and the unit you and me"
He laughed a bit, "Thank you for your support. I don't know what I did to deserve you in my life but I have no doubt that I made the right choice running away from that hospital!"
She smiled, "You're so silly sometimes!"
He held her by the waist, "They say that's what love do to us"
"Yeah, that's what they say…but you know? We need to work on something"
"On what?"
"Communication! If you had told me that before in one go, we wouldn't be separated!"
"And you should've had asked instead of just leaving!" he replied
She nodded in agreement, "Yeah, my bad!" she smiled and he leaned over to kiss her to seal their definite reconciliation. There were only two days apart, but they felt like eternity. He loved kissing those lips and feeling her skin against his from the simplest to the most erotic one.
I can feel the magic floating in the air
Being with you get's me that way
I watch the sunlight dance across your face
And I've never been this swept away
All my thoughts just seem to settle on the breeze
When I'm lying wrapped up in your arms
The whole world just fades away
The only thing I hear
Is the beating of your heart
'Cause I can feel you breathe
It's washing over me
And suddenly I'm melting into you
There's nothing left to prove
Baby, all we need is just to be
Caught up in the touch
Slow and steady rush
Baby, isn't that the way that love's supposed to be
I can feel you breathe, just breathe
In a way I know my heart is waking up
As all the walls come tumbling down
Closer than I've ever felt before
And I know, and you know
There's no need for words right now
I can feel you breathe
Washing over me
And suddenly I'm melting into you
There's nothing left to prove
Baby, all we need is just to be
Caught up in the touch
Slow and steady rush
Baby, isn't that the way that love's supposed to be
I can feel you breathe, just breathe
Caught up in the touch
Slow and steady rush
Baby, isn't that the way that love's supposed to be
I can feel you breathe, just breathe
I can feel the magic floating in the air
Being with you gets me that way (Breathe - Faith Hill)
She was resting her head on his chest as she enjoyed him caressing her arm gently after they made reconciliation love. They needed and missed that. Some talk about the 7 years crisis, some talk about the routine of just being with one person. However, they didn't feel that way after 7 years plus together. The sex wasn't boring and even got better because of the mutual trust and knowledge they had about each other's preferences, not to mention open mind in that field that had additions of creativity that made all the difference. They loved the routine they had; boredom was something they didn't live. And that routine was about to change once again and most probably they would have the feeling of being back to Bohma somehow as Chris would spend more time home.
"You know, I was wondering why you have so many doubts about Laureen's child. I'm trying here to imagine him" she commented rolling her index fingertip on his abdomen
"Actually I do have some pictures of him"
"Really?"
"Yeah" he replied reaching his cellphone on the nightstand
Evana in curiosity looked at the screen studying the boy's features. She took a while to examine them and then turned her face to look at Chris making the comparison, "do you have a picture of her husband and the other supposed father?"
"Yeah, he's easy to find. He's a famous businessman" he replied and made a quick search in the browser and showed the screen to her. She took another while to compare both men and the child
"Hummm" she moaned making a thoughtful face
"What do you say?"
"I can see why you have doubts. The other guy is handsome man and has some similarities with you too"
Chris lifted an eyebrow making a face, "You're saying he's handsome, right in my face?"
She laughed, "Yeah, he is! Sorry, but I'm sincere too!"
"Really?!" he frowned trying to get serious
She laughed even more, "My Handsome is jealous, so cute!" she planted a quick kiss on his lips
"So, what do you say?"
Evana opened her mouth to reply to him, but at that moment, they turned their faces in the direction of the bedroom door opening as Charlotte entered running and jumping in the bed to stay between them.
Laura and her mother were alone in the mansion Laura lived with Matt. The brunette women were having a serious conversation at the porch.
"So you met him again?"
She nodded, "Yeah, I did"
"And how was it?"
"The same, he pressed into Nathan's subject"
"Knowing him for fifteen years makes me think that he won't let go until he has a definite answer. He's too stubborn for that"
"I know!"
"That's why I'm thinking! I need to do something…I wish I could disappear again"
"You cannot do that! You have Matt now" her mother scolded her
"Don't raise your voice like that! I'm just saying it! I know I cannot run away just like that!"
"I know you long enough too to know about your 'just saying it' impulses!"
She rolled her eyes
"You know? You should listen to your mother at least once in your life"
She turned to her
"My advise? Give to Chris what he wants. He deserves it and you are aware that that's the only way he'll let go of everything"
Laura shook her head in denial, "He won't! If he learns Nate is his son, he won't let go! And that fucks my life! I need to solve this before Matt returns!"
"You should tell everything to Matt too"
Laura let out a heavy sigh. She had a lot to think, details she could not miss. Her mother left her alone and headed back home.
Laura looked at the lake distantly in her thoughts. The sun was saying goodbye to the day and welcoming the night. She looked up to the stars and then a sudden idea came to her mind just like a shooting star. "Mom, you just gave me a great idea!" She spoke smiling with an unreadable gaze
Chris was locked in his cabin very early in the morning arranging the boxes with his personal objects. He looked forward to start the new cycle with his beautiful wife and children. He looked at the window once again. That would be one of the last times he would have that vision. He sighed with a mix of feelings. A part of him was happy about his decision, but another got really used to that habit. He was learning a new way to be and be more favorable to changes.
The hours were passing and he was arranging some reports when his office phone rang"
"Mr. Redfield, there's someone who wants to speak with you" his secretary spoke on the line
"Who is it?"
"Mrs. Laura Lamonte."
He let out a sigh. That woman had the power to return to his life when he obtained the peace of the mess she caused with her presence. Of course, he was the one to blame too for allowing some things.
"May I let her in?" the woman asked in the line
"Yeah, sure. Let her in…"
He took a long breath preparing himself for another encounter with his ex-wife, wondering what was the reason for the visit since all the previous times she always ran away.
She knocked on the door. He yelled for her to get in. she opened the door slowly and greeted him politely.
"What do you want?" he asked crossing his arms on his chest and resting his back on the chair
"I came in peace"
He gasped lifting his eyebrow, "Is peace possible with you?"
She laughed, "It is!"
"Just go straight to the point"
She looked around noticing the emptiness of the shelves and boards on the walls, "Changing furniture?" she asked in curiosity
He shook his head, "No… retiring"
"Retiring?" she repeated in surprise
"Yeah…so what do you want?"
She sighed looking to the sides, "Can we talk somewhere else?"
"No, I'm not going anywhere with you. If you want to talk, we'll talk here"
She sighed in defeat, "This place brings me lots of memories…"
"Forget them"
She gasped, "You don't need this wall between us…" she referred to his dryness
"You built that wall!"
She looked down. He was right, "Yeah… but I really am here in peaceful terms… we had a lot of peaceful periods too, so I believe we can re-build that again…if needed" she said as she took the seat in front of his desk
He parted his lips to say something but changed his mind.
"I owe you an answer… actually I owe more Nathan an answer…and maybe myself an answer"
He looked attentively at her in silence
"Honestly? I don't know who Nathan's father really is… shame on me, right? Like a slut?"
He made a face of disagreement, "I don't think you're a slut… I guess it all depends on the circumstances… I don't know… all I can say is that I don't judge you about that"
She smiled softly, "The same good Chris…" she spoke with a slightly saddened expression. Staying in that building, especially in that room alone with him brought her inconvenient memories. The couch in the opposite end of the room, that desk, his chair… Inappropriate memories. She had to keep in mind that he most probably used them with his current wife as well. She shall keep that vivid in her mind!
She let out a heavy sigh and looked back at him. A challenge! The years, the divorce and not even his new marriage took from her the attraction she had for him. He still was her first love, that love that has an intoxicating mark, impossible to forget, hard to overcome, inevitably the comparison/pattern to any posterior relationship. Tainted love.
"So? What exactly do you want?" he asked with a calm tone, thankfully breaking her chain of thoughts
"I want the same answer as you"
"A DNA test?"
"Yeah"
"Why me? isn't it easier for you to make the test with your husband?"
"Certainly is easier getting his sample, but he's on a trip again. And different of you, Matt never had the thought that Nate can be in fact his son. Actually he never really cared about Nate being his son or not, I mean, he already treats Nate as his son. He respected my explanation that Nate is my solo project meaning that I will be his mother and father! Though he even commented that he's willing to give him his last name in the future if I allow him to"
Chris frowned exhaling, thoughtful about her speech, "What if Nate is his son? Will he 'adopt' his own son?" he spoke studying her reaction and before she could answer, he caught her hint, "You don't intend to tell him that. you are in fact acting behind his back somehow…" he added
"Don't put it in those words, you're picturing it wrongly"
"Am I?"
"Yes, you are! It's not acting behind his back because he doesn't have the urge you do! He doesn't do the drama you do! He doesn't care if Nate carries his blood or not! And because of that he already is his father! But I don't know the future and I need to have my peace of mind back so I can continue being happy with my husband, My family and you are not allowing that! So let's end this once and for all!"
"Okay… so what if it's my blood in Nate's veins?"
"Well… you shall let things be the way they are for now. Nothing will really change."
"What?!" he gasped
"You asked for an answer, I'm giving you that, but that didn't mean you will have participation in MY son's life! I haven't asked you that!"
"Are you out of your mind?!"
"No, I'm not out of my mind! That's the reality. Nate doesn't need and you don't need him!"
"That's not gonna happen!"
"Why do you have to be so stubborn? Damn it!"
"I won't let go of my son!"
"Yes you will!"
"Why will I?"
"Chris? Why do you want MY child?"
"Because you stole that from me!"
"For God's sake Chris! Why do you want more trouble in your life? Isn't it enough you being happily married with three children? Do you think this will be fair to your wife to have to live with your crazy ex-wife in your lives? You begged for your freedom to be happy with her? Why you need to put me back into your lives? Will that be fair to Nathan to be like a ping-pong? Use your brain god damn it!" she shouted
"I won't give my son if he's mine! You should also use your brain and think if it's fair to him not knowing the truth? Is it fair to him living a lie? And for your information, just like your husband, my wife will accept him in our lives, actually she already knows everything that is going on between us… different of your husband!"
"The saint Evana…" she couldn't help rolling her eyes
Chris stared her deep in the eyes. There was the real Laureen he knew –jealousy.
She noticed his gaze, "Well, there's not much difference between her and Matt either on that matter… I'm sure she will respect my decision of keeping my solo project without your interference... Why can't you do the same and avoid an unnecessary responsibility?" she shrugged
"Because Nathan is not a project! He's a person that will grow up. He doesn't need to live a lie either! I gave you my material and permission to have your so wished pregnancy and maternity dream. I never gave you permission to do a solo project! I gave you my material and permission for you to have Our family and not to use it behind my back, except in the case of my death. I'm not dead! So I won't let go of my son whether you like it or not!"
She exhaled, "Alright… fair enough."
"Is it?" he couldn't believe she was convinced by her reaction
"Yeah, I told you I came in peaceful terms. Just tell me when you want do the exam and I'll bring Nate"
"Tomorrow?"
"Sure!"
"Oh and it has to be a lab of my choice"
"No problem! Like I said, I want the answer too"
"Okay… so I'll see you tomorrow morning"
"Yeah, we will be here"
Chris watched the brunette woman leave and close the door. He let out a deep breathe. So much going on in his head. He looked forward to the next day, but he won't keep much expectation, he knew Laura could be only playing with him to get some time to silence him.
Thank you HerpDerp and silver scropion for your words :D You guys are great!
Phew, I managed to finish this chapter! I can't believe it! Time is running and I'm running out of time xD
The song I used for the diary is the translated version of Hana no Kusari by Marina del Ray and Maki Ikuno.
Well... the storm is about to come. Eva is still our sweet Eva who still thinks more about the others and want them to be happy.
I wonder what Laura has in mind! xD
And as the usual...
Stay Tuned!