"Yeah, maybe I do. I thought, I do love her but it turns out I can't love her the way I love you, as much as I love you." Caleb said walking towards her, wrapping his arms around her waist crashing his lips to hers in a rough kiss. Hanna froze for seconds not realizing what is happening till' it sinks in her brain that Caleb is really kissing her, she responded urgently putting one arm around his neck and one hand running through his hair. Caleb sucked on her bottom lip asking for entrance to her mouth that she willingly responded to, slipping her tongue into his mouth deepening the kiss. They kissed passionately for a really long time and they just don't care with anything in the world. It might seem wrong knowing that they are both tied in a relationship, he was engaged and she had a boyfriend but it feels right. It feels right how they felt shivers down their spines when their lips collide and how they imagined fireworks everywhere.
Suddenly Hanna got sobered up and come up to her senses, she pulled away from Caleb and run away from him. Caleb was left standing there looking at her moving figure.
Hanna ran for a while doesn't have any idea for how long she'd been running away but all she knew is that she needed be away from Caleb. She came to a stop when she felt her feet already aching she removed her five inch heels and run barefoot to her apartment building.
When she finally reached her apartment building, she quickly stepped in the elevator to her apartment floor. She sprinted towards her door and get in. Soon as she closed the door, she leaned by it and slides down to the floor crying. She wanted to regret and change back everything that happened that night but she can't. Another part of her mind never regret everything that has happened because if it weren't for what happened she's not gonna be able to know that Caleb still loves her. She wanted to smack herself for spilling out her feelings towards him but maybe if it have gotten worst she might even spill out about Carter and she don't want that to happen. She never wanted Carter to be part of the mess.
After it seems like forever of her sitting on the floor by the door, she finally stopped crying and wipe her tears away with the back of her hands. She stood up from sitting on the floor and grabbed her bag and shoes to walk to her room. Upon arriving inside her room she dropped her shoes on the floor and threw her bag in the bed. She stripped off her dress and went to her closet to pull out pyjamas. After changing into her pyjamas, she headed to the bathroom to remove the last of her make-up in her face that have been already ruined by the flood of her tears.
Once she was satisfied, she walked out of the bathroom and rummage through her bag for her phone. Maybe hearing her son's voice would make everything better. He might be sleeping at this hour but maybe she could ask Jamie to let her hear Carter's slight snore and breathing while he was sleeping. She pulled out her phone and looked at the screen. She had ten missed calls and one unheard voicemail. She clicked through the voicemail and immediately heard Penn's voice.
"Hey, It's me. I really am sorry if I scared you away, I should have known better, I'm such an idiot. Please talk to me, Call me. I can't lose you Hanna I just can't so please call me. I'm willing to give you time and space, I'll be going out of town searching for a new job and I hope you would talk to me when I get back. I love you." Penn said sounding broken.
A tear slid down her face again, she blinked it away and quickly wipe it. She decided to call Jamie first and deal with her love issues later. After few rings, Jamie answered.
"Hey Hanna," He said cheerfully through the phone.
"Hi Jamie, is Carter still awake?" Hanna said.
"I just tucked him in." Jamie said.
"Oh, Can you just hold the phone to him? I just want to hear his breathing and even his soft snoring." Hanna said.
"Uh... Okay," Jamie said knowing that something is wrong with Hanna but he can't get himself to ask, he doesn't want to invade her privacy anyway.
Jamie walk back to the guest room that Carter usually occupies when he was with him. He strode to his bed looking at his peaceful face while he was sleeping.
"Here he is." Jamie said through the phone before he hold the phone near Carter's face just enough for Hanna to hear his soft breathing. Right in an instant she already felt better. After a while of just listening to Carter's breathing, Jamie came back up on the phone.
"Is that okay?" Jamie asked.
"Yeah, yeah, Thanks Jamie." Hanna said.
"Are you okay, Hanna?" Jamie asked.
"Yeah, I'm fine. I just missed him that's all." Hanna said.
"Alright, don't worry I'll bring him back tomorrow morning." Jamie said.
"Okay, Thanks again Jamie." Hanna said.
"No problem, I'll just see you tomorrow then. Bye."
"Bye." Hanna said hanging up.
She put down her phone in her nightstand and climbed into her queen size bed. She just lied there looking at the white ceiling. What just happened that night keeps playing back in her head, especially the kiss that she shared with Caleb. That kiss made her feel complete again like it was a missing puzzle piece. She loved the way she can feel shivers down her spine and hear fireworks everywhere. She never felt that way when she kissed Penn. Caleb's kisses made her feel safe, secure and contented at the same time. She continued to think about Caleb not realizing that she was touching her lips. She was like that till' she drifted off to sleep.
Caleb was sitting on a chair by the window staring distantly into space with a can of beer in hand, drinking it occasionally. He have no idea why Hanna ran away from him. He was more than happy knowing that she still love him and having a chance to kiss her made his night even greater.
He had been dreaming of kissing her again, every day in the last six years that they were apart. She's the only girl who made him feel home when he kissed her. Her kisses, drives him crazy, the way he felt shivers, the way he felt his heart race, and the spark he felt. He never felt all of that with Olivia.
After downing five cans of beer, he lie down across his bed and drift off to sleep. Murmuring Hanna's name every once in a while.
Hanna was woken up by the knock on her apartment door. She quickly stands up from her bed and put her hair in a messy bun.
"Coming." she yelled walking towards the front door.
She opened up the door and Carter run and jump to hug her.
"Mommy," Carter exclaimed.
"Hey Baby," she greeted hugging her son.
"I take him home early as promised." Jamie said.
"Thanks Jamie." Hanna said smiling still hugging Carter.
"I missed you, Mommy." Carter said pulling away from the hug.
"Me too, so what do you want to do today?" Hanna asked Carter.
"Can we go to the park?" Carter said.
"Sure, anything for my Baby." Hanna said swaying Carter's arm.
"Hanna, I should go now. I still have few errands to run." Jamie said.
"Thanks again, Jamie." Hanna said standing up.
"It's nothing, I love spending time with Carter as much as I love looking out for him." Jamie said.
"Bye Grandpa, see you next weekend." Carter said waving.
"Bye Carter," Jamie said walking to the elevator.
When Jamie already stepped in the elevator, Hanna and Carter walked inside the house. Hanna carried Carter's bag to his room while Carter plopped down in the couch.
"Carter, Mommy is going to take a shower before we go to the park. Watch a movie or play with your toys while waiting for me." Hanna said when she walked out of Carter's room.
"Can I watch toy story?" Carter said.
"Okay, I'll put it on but please behave. Don't jump in the couch or anywhere while I'm in the shower." Hanna instructed Carter.
"Okay," Carter said sitting properly on the couch.
Hanna put the movie on and headed to the bathroom to take a shower. She closed the bathroom door and open the shower while she stripped of her clothes. When she stepped into the shower, Caleb and the kiss pops up into her head again. The warmth of the water in her skin also reminds her of their first shower together and even all those showers they shared where they always end up having sex. How she missed his touches, his lips on her body, and how she missed how he screamed her name. She wanted him so badly but she was too scared to take a chance with him again. She was thinking like 'What if he walked out on me again?' and 'What if I let him to know Carter and he'll leave again?' it will be just fine if she's the only one getting hurt she have done it before and she knows she can do it again but with Carter, she doesn't want him to get hurt. He's too precious for her and she can't let him get hurt.
"Mommy, Auntie Em, Auntie Aria, and Auntie Spencie are here." Carter yelled snapping her from her train of thoughts.
"I'll be out in a minute." Hanna said.
After drying herself and putting on a robe, she walked out of the bathroom and saw her three best friends sitting on the living room, watching tv with Carter. They turned in her direction with a concerned look all over their faces.
"Let me just get dressed first, okay? Before you guys give me that look." Hanna said before walking in her room.
Once she got dressed she peeked through the door of her room and called out for her friends.
"Guys, will you come in here? Carter, just stay there, okay?" Hanna said.
"Okay, Mommy." Carter said.
Spencer, Emily and Aria do what they were told and headed to Hanna's room. Once Hanna closed the door she faced them. Aria and Emily are sitting on the bed while Spencer is on the chair near the bed.
"What happened last night?" Spencer asked.
"You know I don't like marriage. I planned wedding for a living but it doesn't mean I wanted to plan mine." Hanna said.
"Penn was really upset." Emily said.
"I know but I just can't say yes." Hanna said.
"Hanna, he really loves you so much. He can even give up everything for you well he already did when his dad asked him to marry someone for their business he left him because of you." Aria said.
"I know that and I love him too but not as much as I love-" Hanna started to say bit stopped mid-sentence.
"Do you still love Caleb?" Emily asked. Hanna gave her a guilty look.
"You finally figure it out." Spencer said starting to smile touching her baby bump.
"Stopped it Smart ass, I still can't, okay?" Hanna said.
"So, do you?" Aria asked.
"I kissed him last night." Hanna blurted out.
"What!?" Emily, Aria, and Spencer said in unison.
"How?" Aria asked.
"When?" Emily asked.
"Where? You left early, right." Spencer asked.
"He found me by the swings last night." Hanna said.
"Your usual spot." Emily said commented.
"And?" Aria said commanding Hanna to go on.
"I was drunk, when I left the restaurant I had some few drinks at the bar and I went there to think." Hanna said.
"Go on." Spencer said.
"He came and I started blaming him about my fears why I can't say yes to a marriage proposal and I kinda tell him that I still love him and he said that he still loves me too." Hanna said.
"And you kiss?" Emily said.
"Yes." Hanna said.
"What did you do after? What did he say?" Spencer asked.
"I ran away." Hanna said.
"What?!" Her three best friends said again in unison.
"You can't blame me I'm scared I don't want to go through that pain anymore. I've had enough of that in the past years." Hanna said.
"Don't you think what you ran away from is what can make you happy too?" Spencer said in an intelligent way.
Hanna was taken aback by what her best friend said. She was right. He can make her completely happy too but there are people who might be getting hurt too.
Caleb was sitting on the couch in his apartment with the tv on but he doesn't pay much attention to it. He keeps replaying what had happened last night with him and Hanna. He just can't keep himself from thinking about the kiss. He wanted her back. He wanted to be with her and he wanted to make it right. As soon as he saw Olivia again, he will make it right for him and Hanna to be together. He will break it off with her and he's going call off the wedding. He doesn't want to hurt her but he doesn't want to be unfair to her either. She had been a great friend to him and he doesn't want to ruin everything that they had. He made up his mind and he will make everything right. He heard a knock on the door, snapping him back from his train of thoughts.
He walked to the door and opened it. Olivia was standing there with a wide smile on her face.
"Good Morning, Babe." She greeted.
"I'm glad you're here." He sighed.
"I'm glad to be here too." Olivia said giving him a quick kiss. He pulled away immediately.
"Can we talk?" Caleb asked.
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