Monday: November 25th 2013
Time – 7:00 AM
Point of View: Fi
Step. Step. Step.
I continue down the sidewalk on my way to school. My backpack is securely attached and my head held high. School isn't that far of a walk; why don't I do this more often? I listen to the upbeat music pumping through my headphones and happily trek along. The music is interrupted by a loud 'ding' that is far louder than it should be. I guess I'm just not too used to people messaging me. Zelda doesn't have a cellphone, and Midna only does every so often unless I initiate the conversation. I pause the song and enter in my passcode. I smile when I see it's from Ruto. I had almost forgotten that today will be the first time we interact in person after becoming an item. A small amount of excitement wells through me as I walk.
Step. Step. Step.
I stop at a crosswalk and wait for my turn. Everything is actually pretty good today. Right before the light changes, a school bus catches my eye. That's because I recognize the number… Bus 13… My bus. I freeze for a moment, knowing what comes next. A few seconds later I see Zelda looking out the window. Her eyes meet mine. She looks confused and raises her arms. I don't respond. I just look down and text Ruto back. How could I respond anyway? What am I supposed to do in a situation like that? It was unfair of her. There wasn't a realistic way to communicate my reasoning in such a short amount of time; especially without words.
Step… Step… Step…
I try to forget about it. I listen to my music again and slowly fall back into the calm state I was in before. 'Ding!' I look down to my phone. Must be Ruto. I sigh when Midna's name appears on screen. This is the third message I haven't replied to.
"PALADIN. YOU'D BETTER BE DYING RIGHT NOW. NO OTHER EXCUSE. I WILL SEE YOU IN HOMEROOM!"
Why won't she just leave me alone? Why won't any of them just leave me alone? So what if I'm dating someone? So what if it's rather sudden? Ruto's cute… Okay she's not exactly cute. 'Hot' is a much better word. She's on the swim team, and even informed me that swimming is her 'favorite thing in the world'. Her backyard has a pool and she even has a membership to the local country club. I'm not sure if her family is wealthier than mine or not but they certainly act like it. As a result of all that swimming, her body is a perfectly sculpted dream. Her skin is smooth and her form is incredibly tempting. I would know, seeing as she's sent me multiple photos of her favorite swim suits. She was in them of course; I had to get the 'full experience' as she would say…
Getting her to talk to me was certainly easy enough. In fact, getting her to stop has been the true problem these past two nights. She's the kind of person that's impossible to hang up on as well as stop texting. There's always 'one last thing' or 'hold on'…. But I don't let it get to me. Everybody has their quirks. And besides, it just means she enjoys talking to me a lot. Is that really something to complain about? I make it to the building and stop. What do I plan on saying to Midna? She's most definitely going to confront me about Zelda… Then again, I say that it's my place to do that. The way she texted me out of nowhere Friday… There's no way that she thought Zelda was straight. The only question now is why did she hide it from me?
I reluctantly enter the building and walk down the halls. After stopping at my locker I head to homeroom. Like always I sit in the seat right in front of the back left corner. Midna takes the spot behind me three minutes later. Here we go. She taps my shoulder and I immediately turn to meet her eyes.
"Why didn't you tell me that she's gay?" I question before she's even put her bag down.
She seems surprised. I suppose anyone would be with how sudden that was. I give her a moment to compose herself.
"Wh-What? Why didn't you tell me about Ruto? Unless of course that happened late Friday night… After I told you about Zelda."
I just stare at her blankly.
"How long?" I ask.
"Like, two minutes before I texted you! I promise." She assures me.
I nod.
"How can I believe you?" I question, knowing it's the truth.
"Because I want you two together! That's how."
I believe her. Midna has been my biggest supporter throughout all of this. How could I possibly question her? What am I even doing? I feel a weight pressing into my stomach… I don't like it…
"I'm sorry…" I whisper.
She gives me an expression I rarely see on her. One of complete and total sympathy. I don't resent it… In fact it's exactly what I need right now. She puts a hand on my shoulder.
"Listen, I understand. But Ruto? Do you even know her?" She raises a brow.
I shake my head.
"We've texted for a total of fourteen hours since Friday night…" I admit, laying my head on her desk.
She begins to rub my head. I appreciate it. The touch of a friend is always welcome in my books. I just enjoy contact.
"There, there, I know that life's tough dude. Just tell me that you're not using that poor girl."
I look into her eyes, unsure.
"I don't know…"
She sighs, leaning on her elbow.
"It was pretty easy to date her. Which means she's been crushing on you for a while. Look at it this way, what if Zelda dated you just to get the attention of someone else?"
No… That can't be what I'm doing to Ruto… There's no way she's as attached to me as I am Zelda so soon… The pressure in my stomach continues and I begin feeling physically ill. I shake my head at the mere thought.
"Devastated…" I mumble.
"Are you willing to devastate Ruto?" She smiles.
I shake my head. She flicks my forehead.
"Then you know what's gotta happen."
I turn and sit correctly. Everything's so much more complicated than it was last week. Even if I break up with Ruto, Zelda will still be seeing that mystery girl. What can I do? More importantly, what should I do…?
Monday: November 25th 2013
Time – 12: 15 PM
Point of View: Fi
I walk down the hall on my way to lunch. Ruto and I are planning to spend this period together seeing as this is a study hall for her. I hear rapid footsteps behind me and step out of the way. Sadly, they weren't rushing towards me. I nearly give and fall to the ground when someone grabs and hugs me from an all-out sprint. Arms wrap around me and a head is currently buried in my neck. If I were to take a wild guess, I'd assume that this is Ruto. She's taller than me for sure. That makes sense seeing as I'm five foot two on a good day. Eventually she pulls away. I take this opportunity to turn and greet her.
"Hey, Ruto! You startled me." I laugh.
Goodness, she's beautiful. She's around five foot seven if I had to guess, and her clothing choice is at the very least eye catching. Her skirt can't possibly meet the dress code. I can see so much of her legs. On the other hand, it is quite appealing to see such nice legs on the girl who adores you… What's wrong with me? She smiles, her big blue eyes lighting up as they look into mine.
"Hey Fi! Sorry, when I saw you I just got so excited, y'know?"
I nod, when in all actuality I do not in fact 'know.' I've met people who act this way, but have never actually comprehended the mindset needed to tackle acquaintances and assault them with affection. I completely understand enjoying being close to someone you care about, but people like Ruto cling to everybody. Of course, I don't vocalize any of this as I continue so laugh and nod.
"Yeah, sometimes your body just moves on its own."
"Like this?" She leans in and kisses me.
"Mmmph" I try to push her away.
What is this girl thinking? We're in a hallway! Sure, it's lunch and this is the longest route, so traffic is very scarce. I look towards the end of the hall and can't see anybody. And I assume she can see past me. If anyone were to come, we would see. She lifts my head and kisses me deeper. I have to admit, kissing such an attractive and defined woman is certainly enjoyable. If we were in a more secure place I might even be happy to continue. But we're not, and I pull away.
"Y-Yeah, like that." I laugh, fixing my hair.
She's rather forward. I've heard of kissing on the first date, but the first time you meet as a couple? I laugh nervously and start to blush. It seems strange, but I had just assumed that I would be the top of the relationship. I mean, she wants me, I'm giving… Now that I put it into words I can understand how that sounds like the more submissive role. Do I like that? It feels like I do… You learn something new about yourself all the time. She wraps an arm around me and starts walking. I guess we're walking.
It's a rather strange sensation, walking as a couple. She's still holding me… Her arm is gently but obviously pulling me against her as we continue down the hall. Anyone looking in our direction could easily identify this as an intimate gesture. Why am I okay with this though? I always assumed that my sexuality would be better hidden. Upon reflection however, I can't actually find a single reasonable excuse as to why. I suppose it's because I was ashamed of my infatuation for Zelda? Funnily enough, Zelda is the last thing on my mind as this girl holds me close…. Holds me tight. I'm actually wondering what she enjoys… Her favorite color, her opinions on things. The stuff you'd like to know about your… Girlfriend.
Ruto is my girlfriend. We just kissed. Publically. In the hallway. And seeing how unannounced and possessive that kiss was, I believe it's fair to assume her lips aren't done with mine for the day. The idea excites me. A beautiful girl who randomly shows me signs of affection throughout the day? I've been so lost in my thoughts that our destination has just now piqued my interest. Where are we heading anyway? The cafeteria is behind us as well as the courtyard. She leads me to a door and opens it.
"A broom closet?" I ask, puzzled.
She grins.
"This one is so out of the way that it's never used. Which means we won't be interrupted."
Oh…. This is starting to make sense…. We're supposed to make out in there? I've never made out with a girl before. What are you supposed to do? In fact…
"What about lunch?" I laugh, hoping that she genuinely forgot.
She grabs my shirt and kisses me. I let out a rather high pitched sound of shock before accepting the embrace. She has a hand on the back of my head and one on my back's arch. I'm effectively squished against her as she tenderly kisses me. I don't pull away, I don't worry about being seen, I simply enjoy the experience.
"You're not hungry?" She smiles.
I shake my head.
"Good…" She walks into the closet, beckoning me.
I hurry inside. She closes the door and grabs me. I giggle as she pushes me against the wall and kisses my lips yes again. Her tongue begins to trace my lips, and I slowly part them for her. Before I know it she's exploring every inch of my mouth. I let out a small moan, to which she pulls away.
"Shhhhhhhhhhhh" She blows against my face.
"Right… Sorry…" I smile.
We continue kissing for the rest of lunch.
Monday: November 25th 2013
Time – 1:50 PM
Point of View: Zelda
What's going on with Fi? She's not answering any of my Facebook messages…. She walked to school today just to avoid me… She wasn't at lunch. Then again, she skips lunch very regularly nowadays seeing as math gets harder as time goes on… I'm just worried about her. Dating Ruto Sapphire? Not answering? None of this is like her. I haven't even had the opportunity to tell her that I'm gay! That seems like something best friends should talk about. I don't know… I can feel us drifting apart and it terrifies me. I absolutely refuse to lose her. She's too important to me. But as I feel her tugging further and further away, it's becoming more and more worrisome.
I sit down in Mrs. Flat's room and get all of my literature crap out. Saria sits next to me and I smile. It's been a few days and I'm really happy to see her. I had hoped to see Fi after school, but seeing how those odds are so low I'd definitely accept if Saria asked me. She grabs her binder and I note how empty it is. Starting a class halfway through the year sounds like absolute hell. I'm very impressed by her work ethic to keep up these grades despite her constant travel. She's no Fi, but c'mon, no one else is like that.
And now that I know about Fi's sexuality, it's time to bring something incredibly awkward up… Do I like her? At first I could declare that there was just no way, as she was straight. But now? Now she's dating a very attractive athlete and I know that she's not. Either way it shouldn't matter, right? I'm dating Saria. But Fi and I have such history… Which is exactly why we shouldn't date…. Or why we should? UGH! I hate being this confused for this long. Would I drop everything and date Fi if she broke up with Ruto for me? What kind of a person does that even make me?
As I look back through the past few months I see that all of the signs are pretty clear. Right from the start I had a crush on Fi. But I also have a crush on Saria… I can't help but think about how much simpler things were a year ago… That also leads me to fear how much more complicated things will get in another. I rest my head on the desk, sighing heavily. I feel a hand on my back, gently scratching. I look up and see that it's Saria… She's comforting me… And what exactly has Fi done for me lately in terms of emotional support? Nah, I'm sticking with Saria… Besides, Fi likes Ruto anyway…
Monday: November 25th 2013
Time – 2:50 PM
Point of View: Fi
I hesitantly unlock the front door of my house. My father won't be home for around seven hours… What am I so worried about? And even if he were to come home unexpectedly early what would it matter? Ruto's just a friend as far as he's concerned. I smile and walk inside with Ruto close behind me.
"Take your shoes off please, lots of carpet." I explain, taking mine off as well.
Ruto walks around the entrance; clicking her tongue as she eyes everything over. She places a hand on her hip and smiles.
"Very nice place… I like it."
I hang my backpack and hoodie up at the door and join her. She looks at me now with that same smile as before. The smile that sends shivers down my spine. I blush. It hadn't even come to mind, but I'm just wearing a black tank top, no bra. I always wear my hoodie so it's never really been a problem. She stares at my shoulders and chest. While I'm not actually exposed, I feel incredibly naked.
"Tell me, Fi, am I your first woman?" She asks, sitting on my couch.
I let out a nervous laugh.
"Is it that obvious?" I join her.
She places a hand on my leg, slowly rubbing it up and down. I take a deep breath. This is far more intimate than I expected. Surely she doesn't expect us to go all the way? I would politely shoot her down.
"I've been waiting for this moment for months…" She smiles seductively.
"Months?" I'm interrupted by her lips.
She pushes me down onto the couch and lies on top of me. I'm pinned down by her longer and larger frame. Not that I mind… She kisses me for a few minutes. After that, she kisses down my face. Next thing I know she's nibbling on my neck. I let out a sharp sound of surprise and pleasure, lifting her head up.
"Woah… I guess my neck is pretty sensitive…" I giggle.
"I guess…" She smiles, going back to it.
I lie there uncomfortably as she nibbles on and kisses my neck. It's good, don't get me wrong, but what if it leaves a mark? My mind quickly goes elsewhere when I feel one of her hands squeeze my rear. I squeal, causing Ruto to laugh.
"You are so adorable…" She rubs her nose against mine. "And you're all mine…" She whispers.
I don't respond due. She squeezes a little harder.
"Right?"
I nod my head.
"Y-Yeah! Of course…
"Good girl." She kisses me. I feel strangely gratified by this.
I completely tense up as she rests a delicate hand on my blue jeans. More importantly, the crotch of my blue jeans. She slowly rubs in circles, causing my breathing to grow rapid.
"I wanna see your bedroom." She smiles.
I can do nothing but nod.
Monday: November 25th 2013
Time – 4:30 PM
Point of View: Zelda
Saria walks in and I smile. She's holding snacks! After turning her TV on she joins me, cuddling up under a blanket on her bed. I take a sip of my drink, looking at the screen.
"You have to watch Scrubs. I can't believe you've avoided it for so long." She laughs, navigating through the menu on her Xbox.
"Isn't it like, nine seasons?" I question, afraid of commitment.
"Only eight good ones. And what's the problem? We'll watch some every now and then." She rests against me, looking at the TV.
I smile, enjoying how close she is. We actually haven't kissed since Friday, and that's okay. I just enjoy her company. Fi still hasn't messaged me and I've decided that she'll just have to apologize before I spend any more energy on her. Saria is nothing but kind to me and just wants to spend time together. Meanwhile getting ahold of Fi is feeling more and more like a chore every time I try. Saria laughs, pointing to the screen.
"That's JD, he's great. He and his friend Turk are like, soul mates." She explains.
I raise a brow.
"Isn't this from 2001?" I laugh.
"Oh, they're both straight. It's truly tragic. But don't let that deceive you. They're gay as hell."
We laugh together, and I watch 'Scrubs' for about four hours straight. Gotta admit, it's hilarious.
Monday: November 25th 2013
Time – 4:00
Point of View: Fi
I lie in my bed completely naked. All of our clothes are cast aside, thrown haphazardly around the room. Ruto is silent… Perhaps she's asleep. All I know is she's currently the 'big spoon' in what I can only assume is this 'spooning' I've heard so much about. Her bare legs are tangled with mine, and her thighs are pressed against my rear. It's a very intimate positon. Much less intimate than what we were doing ten minutes ago… She kisses the back of my head.
"I'm going to take a nap." She whispers.
"Okay… Me too." I reply.
Her hands wander to my stomach. She rests them there, pulling me against her. I feel completely trapped, but in a good way. It's safe… She's here for me… I'm… Wanted.
Author's Note: Alright. I haven't done one of these up until now but I suppose it's necessary. Yes, the characters depicted are fifteen. They are minors. Not adults. No, I do not believe that adults should have sex with minors. But minors most definitely have sex with other minors and that is okay. Also, I'm quite aware of the undertones in Fi and Ruto's relationship. Ruto holds a power over Fi. Fi has been pressured into doing things she otherwise would not have dreamed of doing just to make Ruto happy. This is not healthy. I am not condoning this, merely writing it. I just felt like this was needed. Thank you so much for reading this far, and I sincerely hope you stick around.