Wednesday: November 27th 2013

Time: 2:35 PM

Perspective: Zelda

I walk into the cafeteria with my backpack. Everyone always waits here for the busses to be called after school. Today is especially busy because everyone's making arrangements for the long weekend. Normally I'd be excited but for very obvious reasons I'm not too chipper. Fi hasn't talked to me in almost a week. She's Hylia knows where during lunch, walks to school every day, and Ruto drives her home. Midna got me some helpful information however. Ruto always has swim practice at 2:30 on Wednesdays. Meaning Fi has to either walk or take the bus. Whichever she chooses I'll follow. We are talking this through. I spot her walking out the front door and quickly do the same.

For a block or two I stay a fair distance from her. Eventually when she's stopped at a crosswalk I speed up and stop at her side. Without looking at her, I mumble.

"Did you develop a fear of busses?"

She doesn't respond. When the light changes she proceeded without second thought. I clench my fists and follow her. After calling out to her several more times, I see that she has headphones in. I'll admit that this is uncool, but in a fit of anger I rip them from her ears. She turns to face me. I put one up to my head and note that no music was playing in the first place. Now I'm very upset. She looks at me, unable to say anything.

"Start talking!" I throw her headphones at her.

As hard as I'm trying to refrain, tears begin to moisten my eyes. I hold them back, staring at her.

"About?" She asks plainly.

"Fi! It's been five days! We haven't gone five days without talking since we met. You're obviously avoiding me, and I just want to know why!" I try to reason with her.

She just turns and keeps walking.

"Well, it's gonna be pretty awkward seeing as we're spending the next six nights together!" I laugh, keeping up with her.

"Huh? No… I'm staying at my house this weekend." She explains.

"What? You've told me how much you hate sleeping in an empty house…" Then it hits me. "No…"

She doesn't even look at me.

"Ruto? Ruto? You're spending the long holiday weekend with Ruto?" I hiss, stopping her.

"And you weren't planning on spending it with Saria?" She frowns.

"What? No! What is this? Saria's going to visit her family back in Kokiri you ass! I won't see her until Tuesday." I can't help it, I'm definitely crying now.

"Call Midna. Or Malon." She looks away.

"They both have families! We're the ones who are supposed to be there for each other. We're all we have! Don't you remember? We have out distant male family members and spend most of our time alone! It's part of what made us so close. The amount of times I've stayed the night at your house… The nights I spent in your hospital bed. It's the two of us against the world Fi…" I sob.

She won't look me in the eyes.

"DAMMIT! Look at me!" I cry.

"I have someone else." She whispers.

"Someone else…?" I repeat to myself. What does that even mean?

"Ruto? So what? I'm not spending all of my time with Saria! Why is she suddenly the most important person in your life?" I grab her, honestly at a loss.

She looks into my eyes with a coldness I haven't seen since day one. The look of utter apathy. The look I never thought I'd get from her again. My hands shake, but let go. I step back, my face scrunching up and losing control.

"What the hell? What did I even do?" I beg.

She begins walking again, brushing off her shirt. I follow her all the way home, trying to reason with her. She doesn't respond again. Finally, at her front steps, she turns to face me.

"Just tell me what I did! You just became cold all of the sudden. Ruto hasn't been a problem until now… You've been dating for over a month!"

She just stares at me again.

"What's WRONG with you?!" I scream. Why won't she just talk to me?

"Zelda." She says softly.

I look up, smiling. Did I get through to her?

"You're trespassing." She mumbles, walking inside.

I'm speechless. I just stare at her from the bottom step as she walks inside. I stay out there for fifteen minutes hoping that she'll come out and invite me in. Eventually it becomes pretty obvious that it's not happening. I walk home alone. On my kitchen counter is a note from Link.

"Hey kiddo! Listen…. Please don't kill me! I have to work tomorrow. Five PM to Five AM… Effectively avoiding any opportunity for dinner. I'll leave my card and you can order anything you want! I guess Fi will just have to replace me this year. Anyway, I love ya, and I'll be home late tonight. We can spend the morning together before I work! ~Link"

My hand shakes even more than it did on the sidewalk. Tear drops rain down onto the note. I can't even spend Thanksgiving with my brother? I'm gonna be all alone? I sit down and sob against the counter. I don't want much from life… I don't care that we can't afford a cellphone for me… I don't care that everything I eat is microwaved or takeout… I don't care that I hardly ever see the only family that I have left… I just want one thing from life… To have a family. To have people there for me. To have a safety net of sorts… Fi helped with that tremendously… And now because of something I did she's rejecting me… I cry harder and louder, sniffling as I look out the window. The sun is so bright, and the teardrops on my eyelashes reflect it. It's too nice of a day for this… Yet here I am.

I sit down in the living room. What am I even supposed to do? Malon's family is on vacation. Midna has family in town… Link's at work until late… And Fi hates me… All of my activities depend on other people. I open my laptop and try to unfreeze it. After a few minutes is slowly chugs back into the world of the living. Fi is online… I could message her…

I click the chat box and hover over the keyboard with my hands. What can I even say? This is cut short by the text box vanishing. I'm confused, but not for long. My heart stops when I see the little notice on screen.

Fi Paladin has blocked you. You can no longer message her or view her profile.

I stare at that message for ten minutes before slamming my computer shut and taking a nap. I don't even want to wake up…

Wednesday: November 27th 2013

Time: 2:55 PM

Perspective: Fi

"Zelda…. You're trespassing." I mumble, walking inside.

Once the door's shut, I sprint upstairs. I don't want her to see me through the windows. Once I'm in a secure place I hit the floor and cry. I cry for so long… What am I doing? Why am I doing this? Zelda's words echo throughout my mind…

"What's WRONG with you!?"

I smile weakly. She's right… Something is wrong with me. Something very wrong. Every single bone in my body is screaming to run outside… To make it right. To invite her in and hug her and hold her close and sob with her… But I don't. And I won't… Because despite all of that I still can't bring myself to talk to her. My phone sounds off. I already know it's Ruto… Midna stopped trying days ago. I raise the device up and read.

"Hello, my sweet Fi, did you make it home okay?"

I type faster than I knew possible.

"Yes! And I didn't talk to Zelda. Just like you asked."

My heart breaks as I type this. Why am I so desperate to do as she says? Why do I want nothing more than to hear that I did a good job from Ruto? To hear her moan…? To please her… I still haven't orgasmed yet during any of our… 'Sessions'. When she's done we just cuddle and kiss naked in my bed. Every time. That's honestly fine though. Receiving that kind of treatment from Ruto would be odd. I wouldn't let her preform oral on me if she tried… Well, that's a lie, I would let her do anything. But I would desire it. Pleasing her is all that I need… She replies.

"Very good girl…"

I smile. That right there… That's what I need. She messages me again seconds later.

"I'll be at your place at around six. We haven't even started yet. Do you know what you can do to help me wait?"

I shake my head.

"Anything! "

"Send me a picture of my two favorite things."

I pause. My… Breasts? She wants me to text her a photo of my naked breasts… I lift my shirt up and take a selfie. I look into the screen like I know she loves. My innocent face… With my lower lip raised slightly. My chest takes most of the attention of course. Without second thought I send the picture. A few minutes later replies.

"I just rubbed one out in the locker room… You're so sexy… Such a good girl. That picture was amazing, and when I get home you'll be rewarded."

This lights up my entire face. She liked it that much? For a single moment I feel like my old self again. For one fleeting moment I feel smart… Confident… Attractive. And then it's gone. Just like that, I've returned to the self-conscious mess I truly am. I need to feel like myself again… I need Ruto to help me become the real Fi…

"Now, I need you to block Zelda on Facebook. You two talk far too much. If you want to date her, date her. But I won't tolerate that kind of closeness while you're dating me."

My eyes widen, but my hands know what to do.

"Yes! Of course."

Zelda Harkinian is no longer on my friends list…

"What the fuck is wrong with me?" I whisper to myself, crying on the floor.