Wednesday: August 20th, 2014
Time: 6:43 AM
Perspective: Zelda
Cheating. The word itself sounds gross. Repulsive. Like a cheat. I don't know why exactly. It's pretty normal as far as sounds go. It's not like "moist", or "cringe." Those words are just off-putting. But "cheating" is an entirely different beast. It sounds wrong. It makes my stomach sink. Maybe that's just the guilt? Who knows? I skipped the school bus this morning. Instead, I'm sitting on the front steps of the Paladin's porch. I told Fi that we could walk today… It'd give us more time to talk. School doesn't actually start until 7:35, even though the bus gets us there before the turn of the hour. I'm nervous. There's a text from Saria burning a hole in my conscious, but I can't bring myself to read it. From what I could see on the lock screen, it's an incredibly sweet "good morning" message. How could I face her? Saria is nothing but good to me… For nine long months she made me feel happy and safe. She's comfortable… But do I love her? Or is that something I'm just saying? Are sophomores even capable of love? Are we too young to know what love really is?
My thoughts are interrupted by the door clicking behind me. I tense up a bit knowing what comes now. Fi closes the door and walks up to me; standing awkwardly as she thinks of something to say. I sigh, stand up, and brush my pants off.
"Hey, Fi…" I mumble, looking at the ground. It's still very awkward between us.
"Zelda.." She replies, and then steps down and begins walking.
I bite my lip and follow her. What am I supposed to say? Am I the one who needs to initiate the conversation? We need to talk about our shared problem. We need to talk about getting her life back on track. We need to talk!
"Zelda…." She begins softly. My ears perk up. "I'm sorry. I should never have kissed you. And I contacted Saria last night."
I feel my soul drain from my body. My life is over.. She did what? She contacted my girlfriend? Hours after I cheated!? What did she say? Why am I thinking this?
"What did you say!?" I question. Much better.
"Everything. It was quite the awkward conversation. I told her about Ruto… My situation… And that I kissed you last night. I then informed her that you shut me down, and went home. After I apologized nearly three hundred times, she assured me that everything was okay, and how sorry she was that I am in this position." She explains.
I have to stop walking, too much on my mind. If that's how it really went down…. I might be okay. If Saria is truly fine with it, I think that I'll be able to face her. I get my phone out and tap her icon on messenger, taking a deep breath. It reads,
"Good morning, my Zelda. Can't wait to see you third period. And listen.. Fi messaged me last night. It kind of explains why you didn't text me much. I need you to know that I understand… She was confused, hurt, abused, and alone. She had feelings for you… And she did something dumb. I'm not mad. I'm not upset. I'm just happy that you talked to her. If there's anything I can do to help, please tell me. Love you."
My heart flutters. I am dating an angel.. An angel that I don't deserve. Because I doubt Fi mentioned the time that I kissed back… She didn't talk about how I pushed her back down and kissed her with all my being. She didn't say how much I liked it… How much I want to do it again… Oh dear Hylia, what am I going to do? How can I fix this? I finally notice that I just stopped walking for seemingly no reason, and Fi is politely standing a few feet in front of me. She's just watching… So calm… So quiet.. She's like a little blue bird perched on a branch. So lovely and observant. I could probably stand here for an hour without saying anything and Fi wouldn't move an inch. She's too good for me too… But I can't date her! I cannot date Fi. Finally, I clear my throat.
"Fi… Can you tell me something? And answer me honestly." I say nervously.
She nods her head, expressionless. But I can tell she's serious.
"Do you think I'm a good person?" I ask quietly.
Now she emotes. She has a look of utter confusion. Like I just asked if she thought the sky was blue. I know what her answer will be…
"Zelda Harkinian… When I first met you, I thought good was all you had going for you. You're not wealthy… You have B's and C's in your classes… You're not very good at studying, writing, drawing, cooking, planning, singing, or anything like that…" She begins.
Ouch… Maybe she could lay off me a bit? Is this supposed to be a compliment?
"But… You were always nice. You took me in.. You stayed with me… You made me feel safe. Your smile is so warm it could melt the ice caps and kill every polar bear through indirect cause and effect. You're kind." She says with such a genuine voice.
I can't help but laugh. Was that her idea of a compliment? She said that I was a terrible student, bashed my singing, my art, my cooking, and multiple other things…. She then said that my smile could kill all the polar bears… She's not very good at this. But despite all of that, I find myself laughing. My cheeks turn pink, and I shake my head. She looks a little confused, but I laugh for a few more seconds.
"You…" I walk over and hug her. I'm welcomed by her pleasant scent. It's nothing feminine or anything like that. It just smells like her home. Modern, clean, nice… I can't put a word to it. It's just nice. She feels a little stiff in my arms. It's obvious that she's confused, but I don't care. After a few seconds I sigh. "I missed you, Fi… No one would ever talk to me like you do…"
I feel her hesitant hands rest on my back. "Like I do…? I merely told you an honest fact about yourself… And I reinforced how true the positive fact was by giving you some blunt negative ones…"
I just laugh a little more. "I know, Fi. I know. But you're honest with me… And I like that. Saria would have just said, 'Yes! You're the nicest person I know!' And that would have been that. But I believed you."
She doesn't respond, but I feel her embrace the hug. Her chin rests on my right shoulder and I smile. "Well… Thank you. You are the nicest person I know, though. And if you ever need anything, just ask."
I don't think of Saria. Or Ruto… Or anyone else. I'm just content standing in the middle of the sidewalk hugging my best friend. It's the greatest feeling in the world, and GOD have I missed it.
Wednesday: August 20th, 2014
Time: 7:24 AM
Perspective: Zelda
Zelda and I arrive at the school a few minutes before I have to be in homeroom. It's a good thing too, because I nearly forgot about one very important stop. I awkwardly depart from her; saying I have to use the bathroom. In all honesty, I have to meet up with my girlfriend in the bathroom. I head to the girl's locker room. Athletes are allowed to use this as a restroom during the day, and I'm permitted to enter with Ruto. I walk inside to find the place empty. After waiting a few minutes, I hear footsteps. To my own disgust, I feel my heart skip a beat with joy. I am in love with Ruto. That much is certain. She comes in, towering over me in height. She's so tall and strong… Her tanktop hugs her frame so nicely, and she's wearing shorts likely too high for dresscode. I straighten my posture and smile. I know what I have to do, since we're alone.
"Hello, Mistress Ruto!" I give a formal bow.
She smiles fondly. Such a smile makes my stomach rise with pure glee. I made her happy. Something I did made Ruto happy… I run up to her eagerly and feel two arms wrap around my waist. I have to tilt my head all the way up to look her in the eye.
"Hello, little bunny. Were you a good girl?" She asks in a deep, condescending tone.
I nod my head, reaching into my book bag and grabbing a binder.
"Yes, Mistress Ruto. I did all of your homework. Your paper is almost done as well; far before the due date!" I explain.
Why am I writing her paper? It's "What I did over the summer." I was there for her entire break, so writing it is rather easy… But why am I doing it? For a smile? A kiss? An orgasm? I've only gotten the latter three times from her in nine long months. They were sublime, though. She smiles again and rubs my back.
"Good bunny. Here's your reward." She purrs.
I know what to do. I open my mouth wide and go "Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaawh." Like a little cute bunny. It's demeaning, but Ruto loves it. And, honestly, a part of me likes being degraded. She puckers her lips and spits onto my top lip, and it trails into my mouth. I let out a rehearsed moan, knowing very well to accept whatever she gives me like a gift. A part of me wonders how abusive this really is… She's never hit me… I just listen to her every whim. She's thrown the word "Sub" around a lot. Is this normal? Or… Well, not "normal." Is this "okay?" But as her spit drips down my tongue and into my throat, I don't feel abused. I feel loved. Perhaps I'm truly into this "submissive" nature. Do I want Zelda to spit on me…? The idea certainly sparks my interest. I wait for her to speak again, never initiating any type of conversation.
"How about I treat you to something special after school? A little, 'I love you' gift?" She smiles. My eyes widen, and I nod. A gift? Of course! I love feeling loved. And a gift is one of the most effective methods of displaying that you know a lot about a person, and care for them.
"What is the gift, Mistress?" I smile.
She just chuckles. "How would you like a little playmate to please me with? A little fox, and a little bunny getting along."
This perplexes me. A fox? Is she referring to another girl? A three-way? I'm not entirely opposed to the idea.
"With whom, Mistress Ruto?" I ask politely.
She shows me her phone. A texting app is up on it currently. "Kik." It's a messenger used to protect one's phone number, but still be able to text freely. The name of whoever she's texting is "KitsuneGirlXXX" and the picture recently sent in the chatbox is….. Oh my. I read the text before it, sent by Ruto.
"Let me see another picture of my little fox all dressed up."
Below this is a picture of a girl with green hair dressed up as a sexy fox. Cute ears, a tail, and no bra. The girl.. Is Saria. Zelda's girlfriend is sexting Ruto…. I have several questions.