Later that evening, we finally got Koga to rest along with the rest of his tribe. Sesshomaru told InuYasha about what happened, minus the part about him having another brother. Sesshomaru told us not to say a thing to InuYasha but never gave us a reason for it.

I hadn't spoken to InuYasha at all, in fact I'm avoiding him as much as possible. When he tries to speak with me I find something to do. As the day progresses I find less and less to do. I know I'll have to speak with him sooner or later but I didn't want sooner to come. I saw InuYasha coming my way so I turned the other way very subtly and went to one of the hurt men and checked on him. Thank goodness I did because his bandage needed to be changed.

"Kagome." I froze but looked at him quickly before finishing my task.

"What is it," I said, suprising normally.

"Are you okay? It looked like you were avoiding me."

"Why would I have to avoid you? I've been helping around with Koga and his tribe."

"Yeah but-"

I accidentally wrapped the man's arm too tightly from nervousness and he let out a yelp. I apologized and loosened the wrap.

"InuYasha, I'm sorry you felt like I've been avoiding you. Everything is just so busy, as you can see here."

"Oh, I see. Guess I was just being paranoid."

"Why would you be paranoid?" I saw him freeze and thought he would finally tell me that he was leaving with Kikyo but he looked away from me.

"No reason. I'll let you get back to this now. Meet me by the river at nightfall. I have something to tell you." With that he left and I'd finished with the bandages. I looked down at my hands and realized they were shaking in my lap. I felt eyes on me and looked over to my left to see Sesshomaru staring at me so I gave a small, fake smile and rose to go give the dirty bandages to Kaede.

I waited until a little past nightfall to go to InuYasha but he wasn't anywhere there. I walked up and down the water's edge but didn't see him so I went to look for him.

Is he going to tell me about Kikyo? Is this it?

I walked aimlessly but paused when I heard moans of pleasure soumd through the woods. My blood froze when I realized that it was Kikyo's. I didn't want to stay rooted to my spot but my body wouldn't turn around. In fact it went closer, as if wanting to prove my heart wrong. I followed the sound and came to see them. Both embracing each other in the spurs of pleasure. Each thrust of his broke my heart and each moan from her produced a sob to hold back.

Sesshomaru

I watched her as she looked at my younger brother with the reanimated shrine maiden, Kikyo. I didn't understand why but watching her cry saddened me and angered me. Maybe it was this friendship that she spoke of. Whenever she's around everyone she acts as if she is okay but everyone can see through it.

Kagome turned around and walked away, drying her eyes and putting on a mask to hide the pain she was feeling.

"I'm okay, everything is fine," she said aloud. She continued talking to herself as she walked back to the camping site of the wolves. I looked at InuYasha once more, just to see if he realized what he was doing or at least sensed the girl was so close but he didn't. I walked away myself and continued gathering information on my older brother.

Kagome

I went to Koga, who was arguing with Hakkaku and Ginta.

"Kagome said that you need to rest, Koga," Hakkaku said.

"Yeah, we don't want you getting worst then before," Ginta said.

"I'll be fine, I need to see if she's still alive! She can't be dead! The three of them could still-"

"Koga, I'm sorry but they're dead. We checked and even tried to bring her here for you but... but..." I saw Ginta getting ready to cry and decided intervene.

"Koga, you need to rest now," I demanded softly, "if your wounds reopen you will die."

"I don't care about that! She can't be dead. I had just learned to love her only months ago! We just had the pups weeks ago! I refuse to believe-"

"Koga," I bent down to hug him in comfort, making him stop his rambling, "I get it. I really do. When my father died, I was young but I understood that he was never coming back. It was hard to take in but after a while I realized I had to accept it. Its okay that you feel pain but you need to accept that she and your children are gone. When you do that, everything falls into place. Besides, your the leader of your tribe. Your people are still out there waiting for you to heal so that you can lead them!"

"Kagome, is it okay to cry?" I nodded and a moment pasted before he hugged me back and we sank to the ground as he cried. His cries were full of agony and sorrow for what he's lost. Hakkaku and Ginta had left us a while back, probably to get more bandages and stuff. After a while, Koga's cries had seized and he let me change his bandages.

"So, Kagome, what's been eating you?"

"Huh? What do you mean?"

"Don't play dumb. I was in love with you at one point so I can tell when you fake that your okay. Now tell me whats wrong." I looked at him and hesitated to tell him but caved anyways.

"Please promise me that you won't say anything to anyone."

"Kagome, I-"

"Just promise me. I need to hear the words."

"Okay, I promise." I nodded and continued changing his bandages.

"Kikyo is still alive."

"Kikyo? Whos that?"

"She was the first woman that InuYasha loved. I'm her reincarnation."

"Whoa, slow down! What are you talking about!"

"Before I came to the feudal era, InuYasha and Kikyo were in love but Naraku tricked them by making it seem like InuYasha tricked Kikyo for the Jewel. She sealed him to a tree for fifty years but he woke up after I came to this world and unsealed him. Not too long after the jewel got shattered someone brought Kikyo back from the dead, nearly killing me since I'm her reincarnation. For the longest I thought she hated InuYasha but she learned the truth and wanted to die with him. Countless times on our journey together he's snuck off to go see her, even though I made my feelings clear to him. But what he's doing now is-" I felt Koga wipe a tear from my face and gathered my feelings.

"Anyways, we thought she died and I felt nothing but grief, even though I had every reason to hate her. Even now, I can't bring myself to hate her at all. I do feel jealousy and anger but I don't hate her."

"So that slime bag InuYasha is doing it with Kikyo now?" I blush and nodded.

"Why don't you want to confront him on it! Why not leave him!"

"He did it once before this time and told her he was going to tell me about them and leave me. I'll wait until then and keep acting oblivious."

"But Kagome-"

"He made the choice so he will own up to it. I'm not going to keep doing this to myself. I've left everything for him; my home, my family and friends, everything." I finished his bandages and just sat there.

"Kagome, you need to be the one to end it. Don't wait for the mutt to tell you because it'll only hurt you more."

"It'll hurt either way."

I got up and took the old bandages to Kaede then sat by the water staring at the fish that swam by.

"Koga has a point you know." I looked up to see Sango, Miroku, and Sesshomaru.

"You guys heard all of that?"

"Why didn't you say anything," Sango asked sitting beside me.

"Like I told Koga, he made the choice so-"

"Kagome," Miroku said, "you should know by now that InuYasha will cower out to save him from your grief." I couldn't argue with that but still.

"I'll be fine guys, really. I just need to clear my head. You can go back and I'll come right behind you."

"I'm not leaving you, Kagome. You don't need to be alone right now." I was going to tell her to go again but Sesshomaru sat on my there side facing away from me and Miroku sat next to Sango. We stayed like this until it grew dark and I fell asleep on Sesshomaru's back.