Name?: The Fall

Summary?: Rin saw no way out, he couldn't run, the Vatican would kill him, he didn't want to be killed, not by someone else, no, he was going to die by his own hand.

Rating?: M

Pairings?: None but Yukio x Rin if you want to see it that way (not that I blame you XD)

Warning?: Attempted Suicide, Suicidal Thoughts, Coma, Bullying, Death Threats, Major Angst, Isolation, Loss of Friends, Life Support and Medical Tests (also tube down throat and removal scene), Needles, mention of Seizures, Happy Ending, Swearing.

Nicciomimi96: Okay, I was asked if I was going to do this in a review and I replied saying yes! This is now going to start getting different peoples POV's about what happened with Rin, I hope that I can give you some good chapters, okay, here we go!

"That brother of yours!"

"Fucking Demon."

"Don't be surprised when he's killed."

"Only you should have been born."

"He's dangerous, swinging his sword and flames around like that."

"Why is he even a student here?"

"He's going to hurt someone! Then what will you do?"

"The Vatican should have killed him the moment they knew about him."

"He deserves to die."

Yukio had to listen to these comments everyday since Rin let people find out what he is, or rather who he is, of course Yukio expected this but it still made him angry with Rin, he could have just let the exorcists handle it but no, he had to jump in and put his life in danger by letting out his flames and then wonder why people turned against him and thought he is the danger. Of course they were going to think that, they had learned their whole lives that Satan is evil, Satan has blue flames meaning anyone with blue flames is evil, he should have known that.

Of course Yukio wasn't blind to Rin's feelings, he knew he was upset, down, looking lost sometimes and he knew the cause, it wasn't the teachers, the Vatican, the exorcists, anything like that, it was his friends reactions...well, could they be called his friends anymore?

Konekomaru was scared, that was his reason, Yukio saw him shooting terrified looks to Rin during classes, it made Yukio sad, sad to see that someone who was usually so nice to his twin become scared to even be in the same room as Rin. Of course Yukio knew why, he could see it in Konekomaru's eyes, it was the flames, the blue flames from that night that still haunted the young boy...if only he could do something to help.

Shima was torn, Yukio could see that, he wanted to be Rin's friend as he had been before but also angry that Rin had lied, of course Bon didn't help the issue, Shima followed Bon, probably would follow him to the end of Assiah. Yukio was stumped with the pinkette, if only he wouldn't follow Bon and just do what he wanted to do, which was probably shout at Rin some before sitting with him and being his friend again.

Bon...he...Yukio didn't know what to feel besides anger, Bon was bullying Rin the most, he hadn't seen anything being done physically but he had a feeling there was, he had also heard what Bon had been saying, he didn't exactly hide it, even getting others to join in. Yukio didn't know what to do, in the classroom he could say nothing, he was their teacher but outside he didn't see it so couldn't do anything about it.

Shiemi was too upset to be near Rin for long, she didn't know what to say, she actually came to Yukio for advice and to talk sometimes about Rin because she didn't know how to make things better and that made her guilty. Yukio had tried to tell her that talking to Rin was enough but she still kept he distance, Yukio couldn't blame her for anything, she wanted to help after all but felt powerless, just like him.

Izumo was a mystery to him, he knew she said something to Rin to brighten him up for a couple of days but she stayed away afterwards...he didn't know what to think but he was glad for those few days, it was like he had his brother back. However...it didn't last. Yukio wasn't sure why Izumo didn't continue talking to his brother but he guessed it was just the way she was which was a shame she would have been a good friend to have.

However, though all this everyone was still okay with him...he wondered why...they were brothers, twins and shared the same blood, he was Satan's son too, was it because he was their teacher? Was it because he was still mainly human? Was it because he didn't have the blue flames? If he had been the same as Rin...would they have all turned on him as well? It was too confusing to think about...the main question that he wanted to ask them though was 'why?'.

Yukio had tried to learn a lot in his life, especially when it came to Rin, he had tried to learn all his tells, his faults, his strengths and weaknesses but even he didn't know how to deal with this slump Rin was in, it confused and frustrated him to no end. He wondered if maybe he was one of the causes, he hadn't exactly talked to Rin about what was happening, he had tried to distract his brother with studies but he wasn't sure if that was the right way to go.

He was thinking all this as he stood in front of the class, mindlessly talking about weapon types, he knew everything off by heart so I didn't need to pay much attention and stared at Rin, his eyes were glazed as if he were in a world of his own. Yukio wondered what was going through his head, he had just stopped saying what to ingrain on the weapons to give most effect when Bon raised his hand, Yukio nodded at him for him to speak and he said, "What kind of symbols would be the best to cut the son of Satan down?"

Yukio paused, he was shocked, what should he do? He didn't know what to do...he could stand up for Rin but then he would be ignoring his duty as a teacher, once again he was torn but he had to push his personal feelings aside for the class right? and it wasn't like he was going to let them use the information so he replied, "The son of Satan is a high class demon, he won't be affected by a lot, you would need multiple symbols and passages on your weapon for it to work on him, the best material would probably be a blade made in holy fire, seeming as a sword is his weapon of choice yours would have to be too to go into battle with him because a gun while useful would be a hindrance once he got too close."

Once he was finished he knew he shouldn't have said it, Rin sank low in his seat and had a crushed expression, he wished he could tell him that he wouldn't let them use the information against him, that he would protect him but he couldn't let his emotions out in front of the class so he continued on with his lecture. As they had covered the basics he went through the more tricky subjects such as weilding the weapon correctly and which bullets you could use in a gun.

"You can use many different bullets, holy water bullets are the most effective against lower class demons, they will exorcise them straight away, for higher class demons you would need more complex bullets, such as bullets made with certain materials and symbols engrained onto them for the maximum effect, such as for a ghoul you would need..." He continued but lost himself in his thoughts, he was looking at Rin whose expression seemed to get darker and darker with every passing moment.

He wanted to know what his brother was thinking but shook his head and finished his speech, he opened the draw of his desk and got out the forms of consent that he had been told to give everyone before they went on this trip. The trip was simple, it would be a training mission, he was confident that they could all pass but only time would tell, "You all need to fill out these consent forms, its the usual but I want you to look them over thoroughly before signing them, it is important to know everything your-"

His temper snapped a bit when he noticed Rin still wasn't paying attention, "Rin!" Rin jumped and looked to him and Yukio felt his frustration and anger rise, he just wished his brother would pay attention, he had to know these things, he was missing out on vital information that may one day save his life. Yukio knew he wouldn't always be around to protect his brother and just wished for once that Rin would take things seriously.

"Yeah?" Rin asked, leaning forward on his desk and propping his chin on his hand, Yukio felt his anger rise but took a calming breath, it would do no good to start shouting, he had to be professional, this was what it means to be a teacher. He had to keep his cool, Bon tisked and Yukio knew the other boy was just as angry but probably for other reasons, once his temper had cooled a bit Yukio relaxed.

"Please pay attention, this is important." He said, the please was for politeness of course, he really just wanted to strangle his brother but knew it would make things worse so he looked around the room at everyone else, they were watching his brother, Yukio didn't like their expressions especially of Bon, Shima and Konekomaru so he cleared his throat to get their attention, which worked, he was glad for this, then they wouldn't be looking at Rin so...

"The mission we're going to go on will be your toughest one yet, it's going to be training of course, not a real mission but it will be the closest one to a mission you've had so far, you'll all be filling out these papers before we go, make sure to read them thoroughly, you won't be told what it entails until we reach our destination." Yukio said taking himself out of his thoughts and began walking round the classroom handing out the pieces of paper, three for each, he didn't look at Rin as he handed his brother his own, knowing if he did his anger would rise again.

Yukio went back to the front of the class and sat behind his desk, he pulled out some sheets of paper with the names of all those in his class, today's performance was suppose to be put down...Bon did well, again he was a great student even asking questions, though not one he liked, Shima was quiet but wrote everything down, Konekomaru was distracted but that was to be expected and Izumo and Shiemi were as usual the perfect students, when he got to Rin's name he frowned...shaking his head he stood noting that they all had finished signing and collected the papers from their tables before going back to his desk and stapling them together.

"Okay, now that's out of the way, I'll be seeing you tomorrow with the when and where so you can start getting ready, dismissed." Yukio stood before leaving the class, he needed to get these filed straight away, he walked down the long corridor before walking into the teachers lounge, several of the other professors were sitting down on the sofa sipping tea or coffee, he went straight to the desk and set the papers down.

The other teachers nodded to him and he set about filing the papers, he checked all the places had been signed and sighed in relief that they all agreed, he was surprised especially at his brothers signature, some of the stuff that was on the form he thought Rin wouldn't agree with but then again he wasn't sure his brother had read it all through. Putting the papers in their appropriate folder he then pulled out his sheets and signed.

It was mandatory after all that the teachers also sign when the students had, he was brought away from his thoughts by a knock on the door, the other teachers made no move to stand so he sighed and stood from the desk. Walking over to the door he opened it to see Rin standing there shuffling his feet and Yukio felt his frustration rise again and pinched the bridge of his nose, "What have you done now?"

"Nothing, just wanted to say thanks." Rin said, his words coming out a bit rushed, Yukio stared at him for a moment, not sure what to think, why was he saying thanks? What for? He hadn't done anything recently to be thanked for...he pushed the thoughts out of his head and looked over his brother, he seemed tense, the shuffling getting more and more the longer the silence went on, Yukio just shook his head at his brother, it was probably just one of those things he did now that Yukio wouldn't understand.

He started to close the door, Rin's face seemed crushed again but Yukio didn't think about it, he had papers to file and get to the headmaster before the day was up, he didn't have time to think about this. Before the door completely closed he heard Rin say one more thing that further confused him, "Goodbye."

It sounded final, Yukio closed the door completely and heard the click, he walked back over to the desk and continued sorting out everything but for some reason that goodbye stuck in his head, he heard the other teachers talking about something but it was all background noise. Why would Rin say goodbye? They would be seeing each other back at the dorm later anyway and it wasn't like Rin was stupid enough to run, seeing as the Vatican would hunt him down and make their lives a living hell.

He put the folders together and walked out of the teachers lounge, heading down the hallway, he couldn't get it out of his head, it was at the back, niggling and squirming, he tried to push it away with no success. Reaching the end door he pulled out the key to the headmasters office and put it in the lock, stepping through and walking over to the desk where the eccentric demon sat, "I have the papers, they are all signed and ready, we just need your signature to complete it."

Mephisto turned to him and smiled, "Oh, Okumara-kun, you finally got the signatures did you? Even your brothers?" Yukio stood up straight, he knew that Mephisto was trying to get under his skin, of course, Yukio knew what he was talking about, did Rin really just sign over his life? Did Rin not object and make a big scene about not letting anyone else sign it because then their lives would mean nothing? Of course, that's what the normal Rin would do, the Rin with friends, the Rin who would put his life on the line for anyone but this new Rin, he hadn't even twitched.

"Oh? So he did huh, that's interesting." Mephisto said, taking the folders from Yukio, Yukio saw him look them all over, for some reason Yukio felt twitchy, like he was meant to be somewhere but he couldn't remember anything on his schedule...what was this feeling? It was like his stomach was tied in knots, his palms were sweating and his heart kept jumping...something wasn't right...then Rin's goodbye came to mind...was something wrong?

Mephisto seemed to notice that he was restless and smiled, waving his hand for him to go, Yukio bowed before leaving the office with his key, he took it straight to his next appointment but even there he couldn't focus, Shura seemed to notice. He was suppose to be training with her to blow off some steam like he did everyday but he was distracted...something wasn't right...something wasn't right with Rin...

"Oi, if your not going to pay attention then just leave, you obviously want to be somewhere else." Shura said leaning on his shoulder, he pushed his glasses up his nose and nodded, he had somewhere he needed to be, something told him his brother needed him, his brother might do something stupid. Of course this feeling came sometimes lately but he had ignored it but this time it was so clear that he felt like something was going to happen now, "Sorry Shura, next time."

"Sure, just make sure next time you give me a challenge like you usually do, you were worse than Rin today." She said before going into the locker room, Yukio picked up his coat and slipped it on before going at a brisk walk to the dorms, he knew he had a key to get there straight away but something told him not to, something told him to walk outside. What was this feeling? Why was it there? Was something bad really going to happen?

His walk got faster, something telling him he needed to be there now, he passed students and teachers alike some of the girls tried to stop him to talk but he just gave them a smile and said that he would get to them later. Not that he would of course, he didn't like how girls flaunted themselves at him because of how smart he was, sometimes he wished he could be more like Rin in the popularity sense, of course that was before he had lost all his friends in cram school and everyone turned against him.

He was coming up to the dormitory now, he was only a little way away but he still felt the need to speed up more, if he did then he would be running so he held himself back, telling himself that he shouldn't run, it wouldn't be a big deal if he didn't. He turned the corner and saw the dormitory in sight, he slowed, okay, everything was fine, just calm down, Rin's probably inside cooking dinner with Ukobach with Kuro sitting down watching them like always.

Something moved. Looking up to the roof he saw a figure, who was that? It looked like Rin...what was he doing on the roof? Of course he knew he went up there sometimes to train with Kuro but he wouldn't do that with so many people around would he? Was that the bad feeling? That someone would see what Rin was doing? If so then Yukio would have to have a stern talk with him when he got there.

Rin fell.

He ran.

Make it. Make it. Make it. Make it. MAKE IT!

He didn't make it.

"RIN!"

No. Please no. No, not this. He skidded to a stop at his brother motionless body, there was so much blood, blood coming from his head, from his arm which was twisted the wrong way and from his leg that had been crushed under his chest...he looked so peaceful...why? why would he fall? Yukio knew he was going into shock, he had to do something before he lost himself, his medical side kicked in.

Call an ambulance. Don't move him. Check his pulse. Check if he's breathing. Put compression on his head. Hold it. Don't leave him. Yukio did all this in a haze, his body moving before he could even fully acknowledge what he was doing, his voice shook when he called the ambulance, he should have done it first but he had been too busy trying to stop the blood. So much blood.

"Hello, what is your emergency?" The female voice that answered his call was kind and calm, he sat there in shock for a moment, how could anyone be so calm? This was his brothers life on the line here, how could she be so calm? Distantly he knew he was in shock and tried to push his voice out from his throat as the woman said, "Hello?"

"My brother..." He found the words, "My brother, he jumped off our dormitory building, he's unconscious, he's bleeding, I think his arm and leg are broken, he's breathing but his pulse is weak, please, help him, I can't...I didn't...you need to help him please..." His words became broken as he started to sob, the woman on the other line became stern, she repeated everything he said to someone else before asking.

"Where are you?" Yukio looked around, where were they? His brain seemed to be fizzing out on him, he didn't know where they were, how could he tell this woman? He looked around for a sign and saw on top of the door a label saying 'Boys Dormitory'...right, they were at True Cross academy, the abandoned boys dormitory.

"We're at True Cross Academy, the abandoned boys dormitory, please...hurry..." His voice faltered at the end, he could hear how desperate he was, the woman repeated what he said to someone before she said something, he couldn't hear her though, his ears were ringing, he looked down at Rin, he was so pale...why was he so pale?

"Sir...your name...listen...in shock..." He heard her talk to him and then someone else but couldn't really hear, his body was shaking, he dropped the phone and stared at his brother...why had he done it? What had made him do it? The last words Rin spoke to him echoed through his head, 'Nothing, just wanted to say thanks.' Thanks for what?

'Goodbye.'

Distantly Yukio heard a siren, it seemed to be coming closer but he was too absorbed at looking at Rin, the way his body was angled, the blood, how pale his normally healthy cheeks were, how he could have missed it. How could he have missed it? How could he have not known? He should have run, something told him to run, he should have run. The sound of doors slamming snapped him out of his thoughts and three men came over, two of them went to Rin and the third came to him.

It was all a blur after that, he remembered them talking, them putting a blanket on him, lifting Rin up onto a stretcher with some kind of thing around his neck and a face mask to help him breath, they were both put in the back of the ambulance. Yukio watched the men work on Rin trying to keep him alive and then reality hit Yukio, his brother might die...he might never hear Rin's voice again, taste his cooking, laugh with him, fight with him...it might all be taken away from him forever...

"What's your names?" Yukio snapped out of it and saw one of the men sitting in front of him, his blue eyes were kind and reminded him so much of Rin's eyes that he felt a stinging, would he see Rin's eyes again? Would they open? Would they shine with happiness? Darken with anger? Would they look at him ever again?

"I'm Yukio Okumara and my brother is Rin Okumara." Yukio said in an emotionless voice, the man smiled at him and wrote something down on paper before going back to his partner and continued to work on Rin, what would happen? So many thoughts went through his head and the stinging he felt turned into tears, he sobbed into his hand as he held his head, what could he do? He should have done something, should have said something.

They made it to the hospital and Rin was rushed off somewhere, Yukio was held behind and found himself in the A&E on a bed, a nurse came in and covered him with blankets as he was laid down. She told him to sleep but how was he suppose to sleep? His body was too numb, his heart beating too fast, his mind too frazzled, his eyes too clouded with tears, how was he suppose to sleep now? With his twin so far away from him...

...

...

...

He woke up sometime later, his body felt heavy and his mind jumbled, he opened his eyes to see a nurse sitting next to him, she was looking over some papers with a frown. He sat up and she looked up at him with a jump before smiling, she stood and came over to him, "Okay, Yukio Okumara right? Well, I'm going to need to do some tests now that your awake, okay?"

"What happened to my brother?" Yukio asked, he needed to know, the nurses face fell a little before she smiled again, she went round the room and collected equipment for the tests she was going to run before speaking, "I will tell you about your brother once I've done the tests okay, then you can go see him but first we need to know that your alright, okay?"

Yukio nodded, he let her do the tests from temperature and blood pressure to a blood test, once it was all done Yukio looked to her expectantly, she smiled and sat down across from him, "Now, I have some good news and bad news for you, the good news is that your brothers alive, he's been stabilised and his bones set so they should heal fine, he had to have an operation on his head but everything went smoothly, he is now resting in room 203 on the fourth floor, Dolphin ward."

He sighed in relief, his brother was alive, it was everything he could have hoped for, Rin was going to be okay, he was breathing, he was living, they could get through this, it was going to be okay but then just as he thought this he remembered that the nurse had said that there was bad news...he looked up at her and she sighed before leaning forward and saying, "The bad news is your brother is in a coma, I have to be honest and tell you we don't know when he might wake up or even if he might wake up, unfortunately its too soon to tell."

His breath caught, Rin was in a coma? A coma? But he would wake up right? People come out of coma's all the time don't they? It would be fine, so what if he was in a coma for a week or two? He would wake up and smile his goofy smile and everything would be alright, things would work out, he was alive after all, it would be fine...everything would be fine...

Of course, nothing had been fine, they had forgot to tell him Rin was on life support or rather they hadn't wanted to, when he had walked into Rin's room he had cried at the sight of his brother, wired up, tube down his throat, the heart monitor beeping at a steady but slow pace...that was when his hope had been chipped away a bit, he had sat down and held his brothers hand for what seemed like forever.

That was six months ago.

He remembered leaving the hospital a week later, going to the class and telling everyone what happened...their reactions hadn't mattered to him, he could only think of his brother, he had then gone to Mephisto and booked time off, as much time as was needed for Rin to wake up. He then came to live at the hospital with his brother, he ate when he got told to, he washed when he got told to and only looked after himself when the nurses said that if he didn't then he would be given a bed as well.

Shiemi had been by sometimes, like she had told him that she was going to be here today, he knew she was worried, he knew she wanted to help him but didn't know how just like she had felt with Rin. It was driving her crazy with worry and sometimes when she turned up she would spend the whole time in tears...he didn't know how to help her either.

He walked back into Rin's room, thinking over what the doctors had said, they wanted to take Rin off life support, of course they had been telling him this since the forth month but Yukio didn't care that keeping him alive was draining his money, his brother wouldn't have given up on him, he wouldn't give up on Rin...he sat down in his usual seat and started talking, "Rin?"

No reply. Of course, he didn't expect one anymore, most of his hope had been taken away little by little every day that Rin didn't wake up, he had so many questions, he had said them all but he wasn't even sure that Rin could hear him, the doctors didn't know either. One question he repeated every day...the one question that burned inside him, the one that always slipped out of his mouth before he knew it had been asked.

"Why?" He asked again, then he remembered everything he had found out, every look, every spiteful word, everything and he scoffed before saying, "I know why...I just...didn't think it was that bad...well, I did but I thought you were okay...your words...your last words to me...thank you...goodbye...I should have known something was wrong...I just thought you were being your normal self but...when I think about it you hadn't been your normal self for a while before that had you?"

"Yukio?" Shiemi's voice came from the door way and Yukio looked up in surprise, her visit was a little earlier than usual, she had tears in her eyes and he knew she had heard what he had said, her next words confirmed it, "Are you still talking to him? You know it's been six months...they say...he probably won't wake up but..."

"I'm not giving up on him." Yukio said a bit more harshly than he intended and Shiemi's face took on a panicked look as she started to stutter, Yukio sighed before standing and walking over to Rin, "I know you don't mean it that way it's just...I can't give up on him, if our situation was the other way around he wouldn't give up on me, I love him, I've lost too many people, I didn't think I would count him as one...I never want to count him as one..."

"I know Yukio...will you at least eat something? You haven't been eating for a couple of weeks now, you need to have some strength for..." Shiemi trailed off and shuffled her feet, Yukio took Rin's hand into his own, he knew he needed to eat, if he didn't the nurses would really give him that bed they kept threatening him with but he didn't want to miss a moment with Rin, he didn't want him to wake up without him there.

Twitch.

Rin's hand moved...it was a small movement and it made Yukio's breath catch, he looked down at the hand in his own in shock...it couldn't be could it? but moments later Rin groaned only it ended in a chock and Rin's other hand moved to hit throat. Yukio reached out and stopped the hand, leaning over he pressed the buzzer, his heart pounding in his chest with hope, "Nii-san, calm down, please, open your eyes, please open your eyes."

He begged with Rin, he saw his brothers eyes screw shut as he continued to choke, his body was wriggling and Yukio hung onto every moment before the nurses and doctor came rushing in, they moved quickly and pinned Rin down to the bed before the doctor spoke to him in a rushed voice, "Do you know if he's awake or seizing?"

"I don't know, I tried to get him to open his eyes but he didn't." Yukio said back feeling adrenaline pump through him, Rin was moving, he could be awake, the doctor told the nurses to take the tube out and Yukio watched as they took it out of his throat, not even feeling sick from the look of it he just wanted to know if his brother was really awake. Please be awake. Rin coughed, Yukio took his place back at his brothers side and stroked his hair gently, then, those too blue eyes opened, he was awake, Yukio felt his face stretch into a huge smile but didn't care, his brother was awake! Rin was awake! He could barely believe it and cried out, "He's awake!"

He saw Rin look around at the people surrounding him, a confused look on his face which darkened a bit and Yukio knew what he was thinking, how was he alive? Rin tried to sit up but the doctor pushed him back down, he saw Rin look into the doctors eyes with a bit of glaze as though he was distracted by something before the doctor spoke, "Don't try to get up yet Rin, just relax, can you follow my finger for me?"

Yukio watched the doctor wave his finger up and down, side to side in front of Rin and felt a huge relief when his brothers blue eyes followed it steadily, the flashlight showed that his pupils were reacting normally, Yukio let out a breath that he didn't know he had been holding as the doctor said, "Well, your fine, you gave us all quite a scare there, you've been in a coma for six months so your going to be weak for a while but I think your going to make a good recovery don't you?"

Rin didn't say anything, that dark look crossed his face again and Yukio shared a look with the doctor, knowing that the doctor would leave this to him but if Rin showed any signs of doing this again then he would have to be hospitalised, the doctor gave him a subtle nod before saying, "I'm going to leave for now, though we're going to keep an eye on you while you recover, you won't be leaving for a while so get comfortable."

The doctor and nurses left, leaving Yukio alone with Rin and Shiemi who at a look from him stuttered a goodbye before leaving, it was dead silent. Yukio leaned over and brushed some hair out of Rin's face before sighing, he knew he had to start this conversation, Rin wouldn't and said, "I...I know why you did it Nii-san, I know but...I just...I want to know...how long had you been thinking about it?...why did you keep it a secret?...I want to know...please, just tell me everything...please..."

Rin looked at him and Yukio could feel his eyes sting with tears but wouldn't let them fall and tried to show Rin through his expression that he understood, that he knew why, he just needed his brother to tell him, Rin closed his eyes and tried to speak, his voice was raspy and cracked so Yukio picked up his plastic cup and helped Rin have some of the water to help before lying him down again and gesturing for him to speak and Rin did.

He told him everything.

From start to finish Yukio listened, he didn't speak not wanting to interrupt Rin, he just sat down in his chair and held his brothers hand as he spoke about what people had said to him, what he thought of himself, what he thought everyone else thought, how he had planned everything and from the first time he thought about ending it to the last. Then he spoke about his last day, what had finally broke him and the words that did it, Yukio watched Rin through this, helping him drink when his voice cracked too much and by the end of it Yukio's heart was so heavy it hurt.

"You know...I was the one who found you, I saw you fall, I saw you hit the ground, I called the ambulance, I sat with you all these months...I thought about a lot of things and said a lot of things to you that I'm not sure if you heard or not..." Yukio said before his voice faltered and he broke off, the flash images of Rin's unmoving body went across his mind and he couldn't talk about it anymore so he moved on, "I told everyone what happened, I stayed with you, I didn't let them take you off life support when they wanted too because they didn't think you would wake up...I..."

He felt tears running down his face and put his head in his hands, he felt arms come around him and knew Rin was trying to comfort him, Yukio gripped onto his brother for dear life, feeling his heartbeat, hearing him breathing, feeling the strength in the arms around him but Yukio couldn't let Rin do too much and pulled away before saying, "I thought about what I would say to you when you woke up, I thought about how angry I would be, how I would shout and tell you how stupid it was but the more I thought about it the more I understood and now your awake I don't feel angry, I just feel relieved that your awake, that your here with me again...that I still have you."

Rin looked conflicted, like he had too much to say and didn't know what to say first but in the end he just shook his head and smiled, Yukio felt relieved, he thought that Rin would yell or cry or even try to run but he didn't he just layed back down and curled onto his side obviously concious of the drip in his hand before looking up to him and saying, "You know...I don't blame you...I used to before I woke up, I thought you hated me like everyone else but...you stayed with me, you kept me alive and didn't give up on me when everyone else did...you..still love me right?"

"Yes, of course." Yukio said without hesitation, he didn't want Rin to question it anymore, he leaned forward and started to brush Rin's hair through his fingers, Rin smiled and leaned into his hand a content look on his face, Yukio remembered when they were younger, how he had always had a facination with Rin's hair because even though they were twins it was so different from his own. Rin sighed, Yukio watched his face, it was the most peaceful he had seen his brother in what seemed like forever before Rin opened his eyes and said, "Then that's enough for me."

Yukio felt his smile widen again feeling relieved, they stayed there in silence for a moment before Yukio spoke again knowing that Rin would question it later, "I...I told the others what happened...they all reacted in their own way, Shiemi cried you know, she's been visiting you every week, she talked to you too, you missed her apologies, though she will probably tell you herself when she comes back."

Rin's face which had fallen lifted up into a smile before frowning again, he seemed to be deep in thought and Yukio worried for a moment that he had said something wrong before Rin spoke, "I'm sorry." Yukio raised his eyebrows in shock, Rin continued, "I was in such a dark place...I couldn't see the people that cared...I didn't think anyone would miss me, I thought it would be easier for everyone if I was gone."

"I know." Yukio said, he had known, after being able to think about things for a while he had come to that conclusion, he leaned forward and kissed Rin's head which caused his brothers face to flush, he smiled, he knew he hadn't been this affectionate since thier father died and had regretted it so he would make up for it now, he frowned "Nii-san...you know...you know that things are going to be hard...some people...they won't like you for who you are, what you are but...I will always be here for you, I promice, I will stick up for you when you can't do it yourself and I will always be a person you can trust and lean on."

"Thank you Yukio, for everything." Rin said as he closed his eyes and yawned, Yukio chuckled at the childish way he did it and Rin smiled, Yukio continued to brush his hair with his fingers, he knew that things would be hard but hopefully he would be there next time that things got bad, no, he definatly would be, he wouldn't let his professional life stop him from being there for his brother but for now he would help Rin heal.

His brother was awake and that was enough.

Nicciomimi96: Aaaaaaaaand done! Whew! That was harder than I thought it was going to be, I hope you liked Yukio's point of view, I'm thinking about doing some more so don't forget to Review to tell me what you think and if I'm going to do more who you want to show up! xxx