As the shadow she casted onto him disappeared, his eyes snapped opened, a fire raging inside them. He forced himself to stay still until she disappeared from his sight. He'd sense her agitation as she faked sleep, and tested her. He'd figured that maybe if she attacked him first, he would come to grips with killing her. He would have brought her head to his master in atonement, silencing the struggle inside of him. Now, he was lucid enough to face the truth: he would never kill her. Not tomorrow or the next day, not even if she was really asking for it. He needed a minute to grasp that fact, scaring him to the core. Even now, when she was trying to escape despite the fact that he'd saved her life, he wasn't even that angry. He expected nothing less from her, the impulse to punish her dull in his heart.

He followed her, expecting her injuries to slow her down considerably but she was quicker than he anticipated, gaining ground on him. He was tired, hadn't slept in almost 3 days and walking through this sticky jungle with his winter clothes had done a number on him.

She, however, practically flew over the branches, the moss and the dirt, knowing she probably had very little time. She ran up the ramp and into the ship, going straight for the bridge. She nervously programmed the ship for takeoff and ignited the engines. It sort of made a weird sound instead of coming alive, her blood running wild in her veins. He must have altered the initializing sequence, she thought, the computer staring to beep loudly, demanding a password. She feverishly pressed a bunch of buttons and tore away an electronic circuit, managing to bypass the main console after a couple of minutes. She lifted the ship in the air slowly, and exhilaration ran through her. She was escaping, at last. She pushed on the steering to go straight forward.

She frowned when the ship didn't obey her command and went left instead. She veered right but it only accelerated her incorrect course.

She was flying straight for a cliff. "What the hell!" She exclaimed, grabbing the controls with both hands, trying to sway the ship away from its doom. It was no use, she couldn't do anything, not slow down or turn. She braced herself for impact when the ship turned slightly right and the hull grazed the rocks instead of colliding head on into it. It immobilized about five hundred feet later, at the bottom of the cliff, the impact absorbed mostly by the thick bed of moss present. "Shit!" She cursed, running outside to see how bad the damage was. She went around to the left wing and winced: it was pretty bad. A part of it had been shaved off. She turned around and gasped loudly at the sight of Ren walking towards her, livid and out of breath.

"Fuck! He cursed loudly, seeing his ship badly bruised from her failed attempt to escape.

He looked ripe for a fight and her body tensed up, thinking she couldn't defend herself from his lightsaber and preparing to run but he just brushed past her.

"Good grief, I should have never have given you a head start," he spat, looking at the damage.

"What?"

"I screwed up the ship's lift off sequence and direction, just in case you tried something like that. I wasn't that worried when you scampered off. I hadn't imagined you would manage to crash the ship. Why would you do that?" He'd made sure she wouldn't be able to fly out of here, what the hell had happened? Had she figured out his password? Impossible, she'd had five minutes on him max.

"Why‒" She was at a loss for words, crossing her arms as annoyance bubbled up in her chest. "I wanted to escape, obviously."

His eyes bore into hers meaningfully. "You have escaped, haven't you realized by now this is not another First Order base?

"I couldn't care less about the First Order, I'm talking about escaping you!" She yelled, holding his intense gaze. Her breathing was labored with stress and frustration. She closed the distance between them as she continued accusingly: "I saw it in your mind. You were going to leave me here, until you figured out what to do with me."

"So were you," he raised his eyebrows at her, defying her to deny it.

She opened her mouth and closed it, busted.

Her cheeks reddened, even he she knew she had nothing to apologize for. "Now, we're both stuck, bloody brilliant!" She added, sarcasm thick in her voice. He was the one that had kidnapped her. He was the one holding her prisoner. He was the one to blame for this mess, not her.

They stood there, inches away from each other, eyes locked, their breathing in synch before their fury gradually deflated and Ren turned away.

I'm going to take a closer look, just stay here.

He was mad, of course: she'd crashed his ship trying to escape, but he was also kind of relieved. He was almost glad that this choice was taken away from him. He no longer had the option of returning to his old life, to Snoke. He was stuck, but in a way, it was liberating. He wouldn't have to say goodbye, for now.

He stepped toward the wreckage, a serious look on his face. She followed him despite his order to a stay put. He went to check on the worst first: the left wing. There was a huge boulder over it. It had probably fallen down the hill at the impact. Even if they had everything aboard to fix the hull and electric systems, that boulder was pinning it all to the ground.

She was about to remark on that when she spotted him raising his hand at it. She huffed in disbelief. Sure, she'd seen him move small things once in a while, but that rock was huge. His face was wrinkled in concentration, his eyes closed, as he focused hard on his objective. It took a few seconds, but it started to move slightly. She held her breath as the rock slowly shook to life, and he raised it in the air and away from the ship. It took a few minutes, and she had to hold a gasp a few times when he seemed close to dropping it, but he managed to clear it.

He opened his eyes, now completely drained but pretty happy with himself. He caught her gazing at him in awe, and he chuckled.

I told you, you need a teacher, there's a whole lot you can do using the Force, if you're properly taught.

She narrowed her eyes at him, frustrated. And I told you: I'll never learn anything worthwhile from you.

Calm down, I wasn't offering.

The hell you weren't! She was infuriated. He was telling her to calm down, like he wasn't the unstable one with the erratic behavior.

He ignored her last sentence and continued his diagnosis. He crawled under the rumbles to see if the wing had been severed or not. It wasn't but it was definitely stuck in the wrong position, putting a lot of stress on the rest of the structure.

It's not that bad, thankfully I managed to sway the ship a little and spare most of the damage, we'll be able to repair it.

She frowned at his optimistic words, so unexpected coming from him. "We?"

He raised his head towards her. "What, you want to stay here?"

Hell no! "Can't we just call for help?" She knew she sounded ridiculous, but the possibility of being stuck here with him alone for the unforeseeable future was more than she could handle.

"Who are we going to call, Rey?" He started, pointing out that if they were to call for help, they would probably attract enemies, one way or the other. "Besides, this is a fucked up planet; my long distance transmitter is useless here."

She contemplated what he just said, her heart pounding.

"You're lucky, I'm pretty good at repairing stuff," she ultimately pouted in acquiescence to his plan. "But I warn you, I'm going to reprogram the ship's computer so you can never fly this thing again without me on board. I have no intention on living on this moon till I die," she spat, thinking he better not cling to his original idea to leave her here, because she wasn't going to let that happen.

He nodded curtly, his previous plan was dead anyway.

I'm going to hike back before it gets dark, bring the water, we'll definitely need it now, she added spitefully, turning on her heels, effectively ending the conversation.

His fists contracted and he cursed under his breath as he watched her walk away from him. She's so infuriating.

All his life, he'd dream to be part of something big, memorable; to belong. He never felt right at home with the Resistance, following his mother from planet to planet as she tried to recruit important people to her cause. They all ignored him, not interested in the tall lanky kid along for the ride. He wanted to matter, to be noticed. His father was nowhere to be found most of the time, away on a new mission or adventure supposedly too dangerous for him to come along. He'd grown restless, too temperamental, too unpredictable, and his mother had sent him to his uncle, the best fucking Jedi in the galaxy. She'd hoped he would find a reason to love the world, a goal to achieve, a path to follow, but he could never have lived up to her expectations. He didn't want Luke's life of sacrifice, denying himself all the fun of being human for the greater good.

His desire for power coupled with his disdain for patience had brought him to Snoke and to the Dark side; a greedy combination that took more than it gave. He'd allowed his soul to be corrupted, embracing the darkness and disowning the light inside of him. It seemed obvious there could never be something more worthwhile and alluring to chase than that tenebrous power. He was starting to think he'd been wrong about that.

(When this began)
I had nothing to say
And I get lost in the nothingness inside of me

(I was confused)

Looking everywhere only to find
That it's not the way I had imagined it all in my mind
(Nothing to lose)
Just stuck, hollow and alone
And the fault is my own, and the fault is my own

[Chorus]
I wanna heal, I wanna feel what I thought was never real
I wanna let go of the pain I've felt so long
(Erase all the pain till it's gone)
I wanna heal, I wanna feel like I'm close to something real
I wanna find something I've wanted all along
Somewhere I belong

Somewhere I belong – Linkin Park

Hey guys, so I basically had two options, I chose to keep them together a while longer. God I love those two ! : ) Thanks for the reviews, they mean the world to me, and if you're following my story please take a minute to leave a comment, either a song you recommend or what you would like to see or really anything !

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