Author's notes
I'm surprised people are reading this piece. Thanks for the encouragement and kind words some of you have given me. Again, same rules apply as the other chapters and improvement via grammar or story is greatly appreciated.
[L/N] - Last name.
Also, quick side note, the - (dashes) indicate a change in character (sometimes focuses on you or Monika). That's pretty much it. I also got an announcement at the end of the chapter so look out for that.
Last side note, I swear. The italics are to indicate that it is a in thought quotation and the bold AND italics are a whole different story. Also, the ones with the stars (*) and italics are what the students are really saying without saying it or that's what you're reading from them. Whichever one takes your pick, take it. I tried doing something new this chapter and I'm not quite disappointed with it. Hope you all think the same
Now on with the chapter.
-The Club?-
"[Y/N]?!"
"Monika?!"
You stood there confused and in shock. From all the clubs that were open, you wondered why it had to be this one and with Monika no less. Why did the rom com gods have to do this to you?
Wait... Aren't we forgetting someone?
"Oh. Do you guys know each other?" [T/N] starts wondering. You and Monika had completed forgotten about her presence in the room. To acknowledge her existence, you begin to answer but Monika beats you to it.
"Sorry Sensei. But yes, we used to know each other. He was in one of my classes last year! We used to chat and talk and were even paired up for a project!" She says somewhat beaming and regaining her composure from the earlier shock.
"Wait. Wasn't it that one about describing your partner and what you think of them?" [T/N] begins to wonder. Ah crap you begin to think. How does she still remember that incident?
Monika thinks for a moment and says, "Yup! How do you know?"
"Let's just say your teacher from last year was *concerned* about [Y/N] after your description of him" [T/N] says sinisterly.
"If the both of you are done talking about me then may I ask, Sensei, why did you bring me?" You ask so the conversation about you won't continue.
"Ah right. I completely forgot about that. [Y/N], I want you to join this club!" She says with an optimistic smile.
What?
Monika seems surprised by the comment [T/N] said as well.
"Not to sound ungrateful Sensei but are you sure this is all right? I highly doubt [Y/N] wi-"
"I reject" you say coldly while interrupting Monika.
Monika and [T/N] look at you with a surprised expression but you didn't give into their gaze.
"A-ah... I see" Monika says under her breath sadly but that didn't stop you from hearing it. Her expression seems just like the one you saw before you left her with her friends earlier today.
The face of emptiness.
You tried your best not to look at her face but something about it made you hate it. If only you knew why.
"[Y/N]. May I know why?" Monika asks with eyes filled with sadness. All you could have done there was stand. You didn't know how to answer her question. Why did you reject this club? Was it because you disliked the fact about interacting with others? Was it because you didn't want another rumour?
Or was it because you were afraid being hurt by someone ag-
You slap yourself hard enough to return you back to reality and the floor. Monika was surprised by this move and goes towards to check on you. [T/N] seemed unfazed by the situation.
"Are you ok?! Why did you hit yourself? Are you hurt?" Monika asks with tears on the edge of her eyes. You snapped.
"Just leave me alone" you say, slapping your hand and try getting up and head towards the classroom door.
"I'll see you tomorrow, Sensei" you say towards [T/N]. You try to ignore Monika's existence and head outside. You hated this feeling. The feeling of regret and pain but it was the only way.
You can't see it happen again.
Once outside, you head towards the gate and see a group of friends laughing with one another. If only they knew the truth behind friendship. That it was just a pointless graveyard of hope. With that thought and Monika still lingering in, you begin to walk home to go to bed
You truly did hate this feeling.
Monika and [T/N] remained in their spots, deep in thought. Monika caught a glimpse of [T/N] and she saw the saddest expression on [T/N]'s face. She was at a loss of words. She began to feel guilty. If only she didn't form this club. If only she didn't know [Y/N]
If only she didn't *exist*
"It's not your fault, you know" [T/N] says as if she read the thoughts Monika was having. Monika looked at [T/N] questioningly. How was this not her fault?
"[Y/N] wasn't always like this. He used to be a happy kid who viewed life in the best way he possibly could" [T/N] continues. "He liked everyone and so did everyone towards him. He was quite optimistic, and I believe that is the reason everyone was drawn to him" [T/N] says but cuts off to collects her words, wondering what to say next.
Monika was confused. Why is she telling her this? As if right on cue; [T/N] begins again, "He lost his mother and shortly after his father"
Monika looked at her teacher with wide eyes and shock. She didn't realize that [Y/N] had to go through such a problem.
"Later on, he started losing his friends and [Y/N]'s optimistic behaviour died. He's never told anyone why or how he's lost them, and I wasn't going to pry him for information after what he told me. He's more of a 'realist' as he calls it" [T/N] sighs. "He trusts no one or rather doesn't bother with anyone. He believes that following the rules of society would make him go into a fake world where he'll lose himself. He'll join your club, Monika. He needs time" [T/N] reassure her with a hand on her shoulder.
"Sensei, you don't need to force him. I don't want him to join unwillingly" Monika says sadly. [T/N] blinked at her before smiling at her. "You don't get it do you? He wants to join but he's afraid and besides, he does need to join to graduate at all. Also, you need 4 more members to make the club into an official one" [T/N] tells Monika.
Monika sighs. "I know, Sensei. I know" she says before staring at the sunset through the window.
"AHH" You open your eyes with a cold sweat. Another stupid nightmare... you thought. You check your phone to see the time. 4:27 AM and a message? Are you still dreaming? You pinch yourself to check just in case and to your surprise you were awake.
you gulp down the lump in your throat and check the message. It was Monika.
"Hey! I know we might have left on a bad page yesterday, but I would like to talk to you at school in the club room during club hours please. If you do not wish to then it's okay! :)"
what the hell
How did she get my phone number? There's no way that I sh- realization hit you harder than you thought. [T/N] you say with a venomous tone. You sigh.
You unlock your phone and begin to text.
"It's not your fault, Monika. That whole event was on me and sure. I'll be there once class ends." You reply.
It's not a bad reply for someone that is inexperienced with socializing. You were proud of it too.
You put your phone down and go to the kitchen to get a glass of water. Once you came back you saw your phone light up brightly. Is she still up? you wondered. You go towards your phone to check the message and your previous suspicion turned out to be true.
"Great! See you tomorrow! ^_^" She replies. Cute you thought. She seems to be feeling better than before. You knew how you reacted and you hated it but something in your mind just forced you to go with it. You hated how much pain you may have put her though
Or maybe she didn't care. Just like the rest of them. The venomous voice said.
You pushed that thought away, so you wouldn't be fixated about it. While preparing to go to bed again, your phone lights up once more. It was Monika again.
"Also, you have to improve on your texting, [Y/N] :P"
Your eye twitched.
"Oi. For a person that doesn't text at all I believe I did fairly well."
"Don't tell me you were proud of your reply?"
"Uh..."
"OMG. You were?! Ahaha!"
"OI! Leave me alone."
For the entire night; you and Monika texted until she mentioned that it was time to go get ready. You still couldn't believe that you texted her for 2 hours. You wondered what she would want to say today but whatever it was, you were ready for it.
And with that, you begin to go get ready yourself.
Monika was making breakfast while looking at the conversation [Y/N] and she had last night. She giggled to herself and wondered about what today has to offer.
Maybe [Y/N] will say yes to my question she thought.
Nothing eventful happened at school and you were at the last period of the day. [T/N] didn't confront you for the scene you made yesterday, and you thanked her mentally for that. You still wondered about what Monika wanted to ask you. Maybe it was just a forgiveness even though it wasn't really her fault. After a while of guessing, you decided to give the thought a rest and focus in class.
The last period had finally ended, and you decided to pack your things. While packing you forgot to apologize to [T/N] during first period. You guessed that meeting her in her room would be the best choice after your discussion with Monika. You finished packing and got ready to go. You were almost through the door until you heard something. Something you probably shouldn't have.
"Isn't he that guy that made Monika feel depressed or something?"
"*look at that piece of shit. First a loner and now the talk of the gossip society. He really is an attention seeking asshole*"
"Oh my God. You're totally right. What a terrible guy"
"*I don't want to be the laughing stock of the group, so I'll agree and disagree with anyone, so I don't risk my reputation*"
You were never meant to be happy. N. E. V. E. R. You're just a disgrace like everyone says yo-
"GET OUT OF MY HEAD"
Before you realized it, you had yelled exactly where the girls were talking. You were about to apologize but the girls for paralyzed with fear. You decided to just mutter a sorry and leave before your mind continued to play tricks on you again.
You tried to forget about what happened earlier and decided to go to the third floor. Hopefully you weren't late. You checked the time and you still had a minute or two to make it before club activities go into motion. You make your way to the club room.
You made it to the club room and knock to check if anyone was in there. You heard a gentle "Come in" and slid the door open.
"I'm glad you came, [Y/N]!" She says while beaming a smile.
"I did say I was going to come, didn't I?" You ask. Monika's cheeks were tinted red for a while but regains her composure. "I suppose you did" She states. All you could do was nod in agreement and take a seat to the opposite side of the desk.
Both of you remained silent for quite some time now. You both were staring at each other. Green emerald eyes to [E/C]. You couldn't help but be memorized by her eyes, but you couldn't fall in love with them.
You know you shouldn't.
You sighed in your mind. As if finally finding what to say, Monika begins her request.
"[Y/N]. I would like to apologize for the events that occurred yesterday"
No. It wasn't your fault.
"I believe that I should have chose my words more carefully"
Stop. Please.
"But. I'm not going to let you hear any of that anymore" She says while resting her chin on her hands which are overlapping each other. "I don't want you to hear anything that you don't want to" She states while smiling and staring into you. Trying to grasp the meaning behind your soul.
"I... I'm sorry. I shouldn't have said any of those things yesterday. I was not in the best mindset during the time" you finally muster the courage to say.
"It's all right [Y/N]! But this isn't my request" She says while blushing a bit. You eyed her to see if you could look through her to find out what she's going to ask. You failed miserably.
"[Y/N] [L/N]"
Wait...
"Will you please..."
No. It can't be. There's no way.
"Join the literature club!" She finally finishes. You look at her dumbfounded.
"What?"
Author's end notes
Yo everyone. I hope you enjoyed chapter 3. I was thinking about adding a QNA during the end of the chapters. I'll give it a shot and see how it'll fair, so if you have any questions or comments that you would like to have featured in the next chapter just add a comment.
Later.