trigger warning for panic attacks/anxiety
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There was too many people around and I'm in the thick of it all. It makes no sense why this should happen now. This is my fourth year at Hogwarts. I've done this three other times. When I was eleven, when I was twelve, and when I was thirteen. This year, something is different.
This year, being in the crowds of people seems suffocating. I told my parents not to follow me into Platform 9¾, but maybe I should've brought them through. I usually don't want my parents around when I reunite with my friends, but what I would give for them to be here now…
There's something pressing on my chest and it's getting hard to breathe. It's like all of the people here are stealing my oxygen from me but I know that can't happen. My brain is being irrational, though.
Is this what a panic attack is? I've heard of them, but this can't be one. I've never had a panic attack before, not even when I nearly failed the Care of Magical Creatures exam last year. It can't be one because why now?
I need to get out of the middle of these people. Maybe go on the train…?
No. The train, with its scarlet sides, seems even more suffocating. I want to go home. Maybe I'll just miss Hogwarts this year.
I can't go to Hogwarts if I can't breathe.
I feel like an idiot, but there are tears that come down my face anyway. Now people are going to think I'm a crybaby now. Why can't I just apparate there? This is too much.
Too much.