I woke to a tingling sensation to see Godric leaning over laying kisses upon my shoulder. I was on a bed with tan sheets, I ran my hand over the sheets.

"This is a dream." I said softly, as he trailed soft kisses down my arm to the inside of my wrist. "This dream is torture." He told me, "Why?" I asked. "Because I can feel you, yet I cannot see you." He said as he lavished the pulsing veins in my wrist with his tongue, his fangs peeking out.

I gave a soft gasp as he ran his fangs along my wrist. He was setting me aflame with his gentle teasing. "Then should we not enjoy it while it lasts?" I asked a little breathlessly. He growled out, "We should." As he pinned me to the bed. He practically had me spread eagle with my wrists in his hands. I let out a little laugh as he lowered his face to my neck. "This is not what I meant." I said to him. "What else could you have possibly meant?" he asks as he loosens his hold on my wrists.

I watch his face as his lips formed a cute little pout, I was suddenly very thankful for my young looks. His beautiful sea green eyes straining to try and see me. I moved one of my hands from his hold and reached to caress his face, his own hand tightly gripped my reaching one. "Will you not let me touch you?" I asked him, he hesitantly let go. I caressed his face brushing my thumb underneath one of his eyes. "Has anyone ever told you how beautiful your eyes are? Because they are beautiful, that is." I said to him, as I moved closer to him embracing him. "You can see me?" "Yes." "Why can't I see you?" "Because you are not ready, but I long for the day you are." I said to him as I held him he had yet to return the embrace. "This is not a dream, is it?" He asked me. "It is, and yet it is not." I told him gently. His face turned furious, "Who are you to invade my dreams!" He asked as he threw me on the bed and jumped off.

I scoffed, "I am your mate! Godric, I could never hurt you." I said to him. He gave a disbelieving laugh, "I would know if I had a mate, I do not have a mate!" I looked at him in disbelief, "Are you so blinded by shame that you cannot feel me? I am apart of you, why can you not find me?" I asked my heart hurting. "I do not know who you are but it is a serious offence to use magic especially against a sheriff."

"You are a fool Godric, did you not hear me! I can feel you! I have felt you for the last hundred years, I have known your name for the past two weeks, and I have seen you for the past week. You are beautiful, you are sad, you have so much regret inside its painful." I sighed as he said nothing to my words. "I was on my way to see you, this very second. But I see now that this was a mistake, you are not ready for a mate just yet. That's fine, I can wait." I told him sadly, my heart aching so much I thought it was tearing in two.

"I do not want you here again! I want you gone!" He spoke with such hurtful rage. He's like a wounded animal pushing away it's saving grace, just because they're scared. "I see, well I am not to sure on how I got here. So, if it does happen again I won't be able to stop it. But I won't come see you when we wake like I had planned. I will do my best not to show up in your dreams again." My voice breaking as tear trailed down my face. I was suddenly extremely grateful that he could not see me. "Are you crying now?" He asked me, I answered with a resounding. "No. I now wish what caused this dream had waited. I would like to wake up now." The dream started to fade, my heart breaking with it.

When I was sure I was awake, I put my hand over my mouth to quiet the sobs trying to escape me as the tears just flowed down my face. I took a shaky deep breath, let out a short sigh and wiped my face. I sat up straight in my seat and looked out the window. I could feel tears trying to build again from the view, not because of the view itself but because it's his home and he had basically told me in no certain terms I was no welcome in it.

I sighed standing up to talk with the piolet, "Hey, find a place to land, we're here." The piolet started flipping switches and I went back to my seat. I let out a sigh as I settled against the seat again.

'He hates me, and he doesn't even know me' I laid my hand upon my stomach feeling tiny twitches, and I smiled for the first time since I woke. 'At least, I have you little one.'

"Please fasten all seatbelts as we are about to land." I heard overhead on the planes intercom.

As the plane start to descend I felt slight drop in my stomach and a slight jerk as the plane touch down. When the plane came to a stop I unfastened my seatbelt and stood. One of the eldest men had already opened the door, thanking him I started to descend the stairs. "Wait, Miss Zelena!" I heard the piolet call out from the doorway as he hurried down after me. "it's just Zelena actually." "Well, Zelena, I have been told to inform you that there are vampire hotels here and to help keep you off the radar our employer will provide for your every need. As such we have made reservations at the hotel Carmilla for you." He informed me. "I see, well point in the correct direction and I will promptly make my way there."

"A car will be here shortly to drive you there." I just nodded my head at him in acceptance. It did not take long for a black unmarked car to pull up to drive me there. The drive stepped out and opened the door for me, I thanked the driver as I got in. I didn't bring anything with me other than the clothes on my Lucian's coat and a black little burner phone he gave me to keep in contact. Along with my weapons, of course. A death dealer can't really go anywhere empty handed.

The drive there didn't take very long it seems the airstrip and the hotel they booked are connected. The Hotel Carmilla very public and attention gathering. The brick seemed to be a brown at night. I'm sure it would look very generic during the day, but at night the lights were what really made it stand out. Bright lights coloring the bricks red, it was the perfect hotel for a vampire at least. When we pulled up I waited for the driver to open the door, as he opened the door he offered me his hand and I accepted his help it was only polite after all. "Thank you." "Your welcome, my lady." When I went to leave he stopped me to tell me he was my assigned driver and should I need him I only need call and he would come, with that he handed me his card and left. I sighed as I look up at the hotel, "Well, this is it." With that I walked inside, a woman was there to greet me. "Hello! Miss Zelena, we have been expecting you, I can take you to your room to settle in or there's the bar if your hungry. We have Trueblood and we also have donors, if that is your pleasure as well." She offered me. "I think I will try a donor first." "Very well, follow me please. Do you have a preference, we offer every blood type available?" She asked as she led me to a sitting area. "No, just bring me someone. I would also like to try this Trueblood as I have never heard of it before." "someone will be with you shortly. I will have them bring you a sample tray of Trueblood with your donor." "thank you, you have been very kind." She smiled brightly bowed her head and left to fulfil my order.

I looked around the room. It had red lounge couches, gray flooring, and red walls. While it looked expensive, it was also very plain. I decided I would try the human after the Trueblood, just in case it did not suit my tastes.

A very tan young man came towards me holding a tray of Trueblood samples. "I assume you are to be my meal for the evening?" I asked him, he just nodded yes and I gestured for him to have a seat. "I wish to try this Trueblood before I taste you, is that fine with you?" I asked kindly. "Yes ma'am. I recommend the O- or AB+ they seem to be the most requested." "Then I will try them both starting with the O- please." He handed me the O-, it was in a little shot glass. I raised the red liquid to my lips I swallowed.

For a few seconds it satisfied my hunger slightly, then I felt the worst pain imaginable and started spewing the terrible tasting liquid. I gripped my throat falling to the floor, I curled up into a ball. All the other vampire patrons sped to their feet, their fangs dropping. The human male meant to be my meal quickly dropped the tray getting on the floor with me he put his wrist to my mouth trying to help me. I quickly grabbed his wrist, "My bite would turn you. I have a blade in my coat, use it to make a shallow cut on your wrist carefully." I whispered hoarsely, he froze for a second the realization of what he almost did sunk in. "quickly, please" he nodded searching my coat quickly finding my blade slicing his finger in the process. I grabbed his hand on stated sucking on his finger he moaned.

His blood tasted great but for some reason wasn't doing much. I quickly through his hand away and started coughing again. A vampire came up and gripped him by the throat. "What did you do to her human?!" he stated chocking him, "please! I tried to help her!" the human gasped out. I grabbed the vampire ankle, "Let him go, he did nothing wrong." I whispered sternly my eyes blazing blue glaring up at him. "You drank Trueblood that he delivered and you drank from him." "As I said he did nothing wrong just take me to your sheriff, I need help that neither of you can give. Let the human go." I ordered him. He threw the human down and picked me up bridal style. "It's your death wish, the sheriff has been in a bad mood tonight." "Just hurry." With that he sped through the night taking me to the one place I needed and yet I dreaded to be.