Naruto was again found himself in the cafeteria of the hospital alone, still wearing his white coat. He was sitting on one of the tables there with his elbow was prompted up against the table, face buried on the palm of his hands. It was Wednesday, almost a week already after his meeting with Sasuke, and he felt like crap than he had already was. His eyes were heavy, body was tired, but mind wouldn't shut down. His mind kept having these scenes he didn't remember before if it had really occurred in his past or not.

After the meeting with Sasuke, his dreams became more frequent. After he woke up from his dream, he would felt lonely afterward. That resulting in him having sleepless night. This was getting worse each day. His head was pounding it was deafening! He tried to pull his hair just to lessen the pain but it only did him justice for a moment and he just couldn't keep doing that forever, could he?

"Fuck…" He yelled under a whisper. He heard somewhere that cursing could reduce pain by 20-ish present. He didn't know if it was true but at least it felt so for him. He hissed. He needed to take a day off but he just couldn't leave his patients. What should he do?

"Go home, brat. Don't force yourself." A gentle voice said to him. Without lifting his head, he could feel Tsunade, the owner of the gentle voice, took a seat across him.

"But granny, I still have-"

"Lift your head, brat. It's impolite to speak to someone older than you like that."

Naruto heaved a deep sigh and raised his head from the palm of his hands eventually. "I'm sorry."

It was an understatement to say that Tsunade wasn't shocked upon seeing Naruto's face. "Is it that bad?" She gasped.

Naruto closed his eyes through knitted eyebrows and nodded.

Tsunade frowned. "I took this from my shelves. Go home and drink some. This will help."

Naruto looked at Tsunade's hand which was holding a bottle of wine. "But this is-"

"Go before I change my mind."

Naruto put a small smile on his face. "Thanks granny. But I don't think I could drive." Naruto sighed and buried his face on the table to emphasize his words.

"It's that bad, huh?" Tsunade sighed back before she continued. "Sai is on his way."

"Huh?" Naruto lifted his head again to see Tsunade in confusion.

"I called him an hour ago."

"Hmm…"

"While waiting for Sai why don't you tell me what happened?"

Tsunade was a neurologist, the head of the hospital and also his late-grandma's sister, and from her Naruto took a liking to become a doctor. He already thought of Tsunade as his own grandma. So Tsunade knew all about Naruto and his conditions but not many people knew about it. She was the one who became Naruto's doctor when he was hospitalized few years ago because of the incident that particular night. There was a blood clot on his nerves that had wiped out his entire memory.

Naruto put his chin on his hands again as his elbows were prompted up on the table. His head was heavy but he needed someone to hear his troubles. Tsunade could be more understanding than Kakashi. With a sigh for the nth time that day, he spoke. "Have I told you about meeting Sasuke?"

Tsunade nodded. "Yeah… I met Itachi before when little Uchiha was admitted to the hospital. Poor kid…"

Naruto worried his bottom lip, feeling pressured and guilty.

Seeing that, Tsunade interrupted. "Don't worry. It's not your fault. You don't have your memory and he is too sensitive. You know, being Uchiha and all… When it comes to feeling, they fall hard. I know because I was friend with one."

"How about Sai's condition? Have I told you about it?"

"Cancer?"

Naruto casted his eyes down, feeling even guiltier.

"I knew that that kid has something wrong with him. So what about it?"

"Sai came out with a stupid plan. Long story short, he wanted me to meet Sasuke to patch things up."

"What? Is he mental?" The older doctor couldn't believe what she was hearing.

"Reasons are one, he will die. Two, he won't let me by myself when his time come, saying that I must have someone to replace him comforting me when I need it."

Tsunade was silent at first but nodded eventually. "Understandable." The guy must have loved Naruto too much to have such plan. Poor kid. "I recommended you to keep your mouth shut about this to Kakashi. You know how he can be."

Naruto agreed. "Sai told me as that."

"Be careful."

"I will…"

"And? Is that why you have that bags under your eyes?"

"No… I met Sasuke for the first time, for what I remember, few weeks ago at the coffee shop. Only when I met him that I began to have these weird and frightening dreams."

"About what?"

"Frightening dream is that I was seeing these visions of my own accident of that unfortunate night. It was too real I always woke up like I had been running for miles nonstop. It was too scary. The weird dream is about me being stuck in a dim room with someone I don't know who kept calling my name and ordered me to get out of that room but I just couldn't. That was confusing, I was always woken up feeling lonely. My dreams only appeared like two times, but after the meeting with Sasuke almost a week ago, thanks to Sai, the dreams become frequent. I have it every night. And even when I want to try to take a nap, the dream would start again. I can't escape…"

Tsunade was watching Naruto intently, seeing the kid was getting desperate by now. "That's why I give you this bottle. Try to drink this after you arrived home."

"But, it's still ten in the morning-"

"Screw that. Drink it up."

"…"

"Anyway, did you sleep alone all these time?"

"Yeah, why?"

Tsunade almost face-palming her face. "Idiot. What's the point of having Sai if you still sleep alone?"

"Umm…"

"How far are your relationship with Sai going?"

"Far like what?"

"Have you had sex with him?"

Naruto choked and went red, unable to reply to that.

"You are sooo stupid, aren't you?"

"What should I do then?"

"Sleep together, kiss, having sex, what else?"

Naruto had turned redder each second, gapping his mouth like a fish outside the water.

"What have you done with him these past two years then?"

Naruto looked away. "Making out…"

"Not even blowjob?"

Naruto went impossibly redder than ripped tomato.

"Handjob?"

Naruto shook his head, feeling embarrassed.

"Not even dry humping?"

"Ugh…"

Tsunade slapped his forehead. "I can't believe you…"

Naruto worried his bottom lip and got himself a drink from his mineral water he had with him before and drank them all in one go.

"Good morning, Tsunade." A voice interrupted the two, Tsunade stood up. It was Sai. Sai gave Tsunade a peck on her cheek before he eyed the blonde man. "Let's go, Dickless."

"Ohh… That makes sense now…" It just downed to Tsunade now why Sai gave Naruto that nickname. "He hasn't seen your dick, has he?" Tsunade teased, and she laughed and left when Naruto went redder than he had already was if it was even possible.

Sai knitted his eyebrows. "What you guys were talking about?"

"Nothing. Let's go." Naruto took the bottle of red wine with his right hand and grabbed Sai's pale hand with the other and left the place feeling humiliated.

~o0o~

Naruto decided that he would cook dinner for the two so they ended up going grocery shopping. After they bought anything they needed, on their way back from shopping, Naruto voiced his thoughts.

"I want to spend the night with you. Think we can drop by my apartment first to get my clothes?"

Sai nodded, grinning. "Do whatever pleases you, Dickless."

Naruto went red. "Stop calling me that."

Sai shrugged, still grinning. "I will stop after I see if you have one."

Naruto gave the driver a look.

Sai sensing this, he asked. "What's with that look?" Still grinning, once in a while stealing glances toward the passenger.

"I want to wipe that stupid grin off of your face so badly."

"Prove me."

"Huh?"

"Prove me something so I can stop calling you that."

Naruto stuck his tongue out to the driver and averted his eyes to the road.

They eventually arrived at Sai's apartment after getting Naruto's clothes from his apartment.

"Do you want anything as a side dishes?"

Sai shrugged as he watched the Dickless from the kitchen table. He was sitting on the kitchen stool with his elbows prompted up against the table, hands supporting his chin, still grinning.

Naruto glances at Sai behind and frowned as he saw him still grinning. "What's with that face?"

Sai shrugged. "I just love seeing you cooking. Probably my favorite thing to do."

Naruto scoffed. "You are so hopeless." He commented with a smile. "How's your condition?"

"Apart from the constant nose bleeding, fatigue, and worn out too fast, I'm good. I can handle them… What do you have in mind to cook?"

Naruto set aside the vegetables he had chopped into pieces and put them on the boiling water. "Chicken soup and brown rice for you. Maybe a couple of- oh right! While you are waiting," Naruto paused as he searched through plastic bags, he took an apple when he found it and washed it thoroughly. He dried the apple with tissue paper on the kitchen table and threw it to Sai. "eat this as a snack." Sai caught the apple perfectly.

"An apple a day keeps the doctor away." Sai commented before he started eating the apple.

The rest was Naruto cooking while Sai watched him cooked while eating his apple. When they finished eating, Sai was still there watching Naruto washing the dishes. Sai didn't know what to do, he unconsciously studying the man in front of him.

Naruto was a fine man. He was tall, having broad shoulder, and proportional muscles here and there. His skin was too sexy to ignore it was like Naruto was kissed by the sun itself. He was like a Greek god, except Naruto was half-German half-Japanese. Blue eyes, blonde hair… The epitome of walking summer, or what was it? If Sai were to say, Naruto was a god of summer. Naruto was too sexy. What could it feel to have Naruto under him? The thought sent shiver down his spine, his junior jolted excitedly.

Sai stood up, couldn't resist seeing Naruto's backside. He could see those toned cheeks through the fabric Naruto was wearing. He rounded the table and went to stand behind Naruto. He circled his arms around Naruto and he could feel Naruto startled from it.

"Sai, I'm busy…" Naruto retorted but it was weak. Sai smiled as he buried his face on tan neck and began sucking it. He could feel Naruto shivered.

"Sai…"

But he ignored it. He continued sucking and licked sensually on the tan neck. "You smell great." Sai breathed in the scent. It was unique, totally Sai's favorite. He continued his ministration from the juncture of tan neck up to the back of Naruto's ear. He didn't know what he was doing anymore. He was so turned on! He was a normal man with sexual desire! He had been dating Naruto for about two years now and so far they only did was making out, and he never touched Naruto's part because Naruto always refused to do it.

"Naruto…" Oh god. His pants were getting tight! He sucked the spot on the back of Naruto's ear and it resulting in making weird noises. He could feel Naruto washed his hands and dried them on the white apron he was wearing the whole time.

"Sai…" Sai smiled and began nipping at the earlobe. His hands had traveled up and disappeared behind the apron. He tried to slid his hand under Naruto's shirt to find hot skin of muscles underneath. He traveled his hand further up to find nipple, and he began playing it with his fingers. He was pleased when he received a breathy moan from the man.

Sai didn't know why but usually Naruto would get away with it. But today Naruto seemed to be submissive, which he liked it.

Meanwhile Naruto was closing his eyes. He actually liked it. He was turned on and he had trouble keeping his balance so he held the sink to keep him from falling. God was it felt good. The pleasure was sent straight to his groin!

"Should we move to your bed?" Naruto asked between breathy voice. Was it the wine doing? He was the only one drinking the alcohol, and it had its effect on him already. But he didn't feel strange or anything. He was still aware of his surrounding. Maybe it was the frustration he had been feeling all this time that had been waiting to be released.

Naruto suddenly felt his body was being spun around and his mouth was attacked by the slightly taller man, but not that it was significant. His lips felt cold against his burning skin, it was maddening. He was being submissive and all he could do was responding to Sai's kisses, while Sai's hands traveled to all of his body. "Sai…"

Sai eventually broke the kiss and grabbed the tan hand on his pale one and dragged him upstairs. Once they entered Sai's room, the two became eager as they removed all of their clothes, as if they were being chased down and they needed to hurry up. It didn't take long for the both men to be on their birthday suits.

So the night continued…

~o0o~

Naruto was the first to wake up. It was five in the morning and he felt something strange. Not only his backside hurt that he had to choose the right angle to sit, but something just didn't seem right he couldn't pin –point what was it. On the bright side, he could have his sleep.

He looked at his left. Sai was still sleeping with his chest raising up and down in a steady rhythm. The white blanket was only covering their lower part. Naruto noticed that there were blue dots on Sai's pale skin. He studied the dots. They were strange looking. Did he put them there? But he didn't remember ever doing that. He remembered he only did some on the neck area. He averted his eyes from the strange looking dots on Sai's pale abdomen to the neck area. He put one on the shoulder blade. They were different. Then it all downed to him. The dots were from the leukemia.

Something was vibrating and he scanned the area to check where it was coming from. When he noticed his cell phone upside the nightstand, he took it and notice that today was Thursday, his meeting with Sasuke.

Sasuke…

He slapped his face and stood up. He went to the drawer nearby and took a paper and a pen. He scribbled something on it and changed to his fresh clothes he brought yesterday. With that, he grabbed his keys and wallet before he left the apartment.

~o0o~

Sai woke up at seven in the morning to an empty bed. Naruto was nowhere near sight. With a sigh he stood up. Somewhere in his heart he felt a pang on his chest. Could it be Naruto ran away? Why didn't he wake him up?

Sai sighed and sat up. He was about to stand up when something caught his attention. It was a note from Naruto on the nightstand.

"Sai, I'm sorry I left. I don't have the heart to wake you up seeing you sleeping so peacefully. Something came up so I need to hurry. Go and take a shower. There are leftovers I have prepared the night before in the refrigerator, all you need is to just heat them up in the microwave. After that, please take some rest. I will be back later tonight after the schedule with Sasuke.

Ps. Something that came up is that Kakashi needs a documents he left in his computer. I have to scan and send them to Kakashi asap.

Yours truly, Naruto."

After reading that, Sai smiled. When he stood up, the world spun and he fell as blackness took his vision away.

~o0o~

Naruto arrived home feeling worn out, which didn't make sense when he got to sleep last night without those stupid dreams.

He knitted his eyebrows with eyes closed, temporarily waiting for nobody but himself to gather his thoughts, or more exactly to calm his heartbeat down. His hands began sweating while still holding on the steering wheel. His head was pounding. He opened his eyes to see straight. Could he be anemia? To prove his point, he tilted his head to the side like a puppy always did when it was curious about something it saw. He held onto it for about fifteen seconds before he straightened back his head. Instantly his vision blurred for a moment before it went back to normal. Yes, he was anemia.

With a sigh, he exited his car and went straight to the house without forgetting to lock the car behind. He fished the keys inside his pocket and put it inside the keyhole and twisted it. He opened the door and locked it from inside before he headed straight to his room, knowing that Kakashi was still abroad. He lied to Sai that Kakashi needed him for the documents. He just wanted to calm his hectic mind down. This was insane.

He rummaged through his drawer and found a medicine for anemia. He downed one before he removed all his clothes and headed to his bathroom. He sat down on the floor, just right under the shower head after turning it on and set it to warm water. It took about few minutes before it turned to the right temperature. It felt great when the warm water hit his tensed muscles. He didn't make any attempt to stand up, so he let the water ran down on him, sitting there on the wet floor, too tired to move. He let his head rested on the cold wall and his legs sprawled on the floor.

He had slept with Sai, period. They were a couple and it was a general thing to do. So why did he feel like he had betraying someone? Who exactly? His mind trailed off to one Sasuke Uchiha. Did he betray him by sleeping with Sai? Could this be anymore maddening than it had already been? He felt guilty. He felt nervous and somehow the back of his mind said that he shouldn't meet Sasuke today because what he had done last night.

Naruto scoffed but it didn't reach his eyes. His eyes were empty. This was ridiculous.

As time went by the warm water's temperature began to rise.

He began to wonder… No need rocket science to know that Sasuke's mere existence was the main reason of the dreams and sleepless nights he had been having. The man's presence was too strong to ignore. The man was gorgeous and from their last encounter, he could judge that Sasuke was a sweet guy, even though from the outside, or if people didn't know him, they would think that Sasuke was cold and the aura that was emitting from the man clearly screamed "don't come near me", as if the guy seemed unapproachable. The guy seemed to be on his own level.

What was he thinking?

His head had started to become lighter. What's wrong? His skin had started to feel hot. He wasn't sure if it was because of the heat or because of the feeling he felt inside was too overwhelming to the point that breathing was difficult. Not long after that, blackness took his already blurry vision away.

TBC

Published: Tuesday, November 28th 2017 12.53 PM (JST)