Altruistic:
Showing a disinterested and selfless concern for the well-being of others; unselfish.
A painful ringing noise coupled by deafening silence rang through my head making it hard to hear my own thoughts.
Feeling the stares of tens of people, I looked beside me, Vanderwood was standing there, brown eyes open wide as he held an arm towards me. Turning back to look at Saeran, who was in front of me holding a silver gun, I feel a sharp pain in my chest taking my breath away.
Sucking air through gritted teeth I feel my legs weaken and give out.
Collapsing to the ground I hear multiple people scream my name, just barely audible from the ringing. As I hear quick, muffled footstep I raise a hand to where the pain felt greatest, I notice my arm is shaking. Ignoring that I go to put it on my chest when a hand grabs my wrist and pulls it away. Focusing, up I see someone, their face is too blurry for me to see properly by I do notice blue hair. It must be V… I remember running in front of him now… I guess Saeran shot me.
As I see a small amount of pink, I guess V said something I couldn't hear. Moments later I hear another scream, much louder than the others before.
"MC!"
V looks up and to somewhere else only for me to see him disappear from my sight completely, a bright hue of red replacing the blue. I see the faint colours of yellow on the person and I smile.
"Saeyoung" I say softly.
I see him kneel to get closer to me and the ringing begins to fade, the voice around me becoming much clearer.
"MC… MC…! Please, please do you hear me?! Please MC!" I Hear him plead, his voice cracking with each word.
I hiss and clench my eyes shut as I feel the immense pain in my abdomen return. Through the pain and running thoughts I hear Saeyoung shout again, his arm moving through my vision.
"Vanderwood stop! Stop!"
Another voice that I sort of recognize as Vanderwood speaks up "Do you want him to die? Cause stopping me will let him die! Now calm him!"
Saeyoung looks back to me as a feel his hand touch my face. I know it to be his hand because it's filled with only the warmth I remember him having, his finger gliding down my cheek.
"MC…! Please can you hear me…?" He says through a sob.
I continue smiling through the pain Vanderwood causes and nod. "I hear you" My voice sounds and feel weaker, coarser.
I see him faintly smile as another sob escapes him. I feel my head begin to shake as it set on someone, most likely Saeyoung's legs.
"MC…" He turns around to look behind him, I see the amber of his eyes disappear slightly in a blurry glare before he looks back to me "Why… Why did you run in front of" He hisses his next word "V?"
Opening my mouth, I don't speak. I feel my body become number. Sighing I raise one of my arms, Saeyoung quickly catching my hand in his, squeezing it tightly.
The pain, Saeyoung's reactions. I fear the worst...
Feeling a tear escape my eye and run down the side of my face, I keep my smile firm and ask "…Am I dying?"
Saeyoung freezes, his body continues to shake but he makes to movements. Turning away from me for a moment he looks back and leans closer to me. Using both hands to grab my face.
"No…" He lets out a quiet cry "No. You're not dying… You're going to be just fine" I feel something wet fall onto my face "You're going to be fine and… and we'll get something to eat…! I… I learn to cook, just to make something good for you…!"
I try to speak but I feel my voice become worse with every word I speak "It's alright… I'll… I'll just do better next time…"
I imagine doing it again. Befriending the RFA, laughing at Saeyoung's jokes. Meeting up with Zen to get bread fish. Waking up at C&R after run over by Jumin, talking with Jaehee. Scaring Yoosung at the library. Fearing the bomb only to be relieved when Saeyoung says he'd save me.
Being fed sushi by Saeyoung. Listening to Saeyoung talk to me about Saeran… Almost kissing him on the bed, only to be interrupted… sleep next to him… Spending a night with Saeyoung, marking each other with love…
I feel more tears run down my face "I don't wanna go back…!" I cry out. I don't want to go though it all again, 11 times is enough, why couldn't I live a life?!
Why did I have to be damned to this endless cycle of live-love-and die! In what life did I screw up so bad that the universe wants me to be unable to help my friends through their problems?!
Why am I unable to do anything but accept it?! Live only to-
"MC!"
I snap my eyes open at the yelling in my ears only to see Saeyoung staring at me, tears running down his cheeks, some falling onto me.
"MC…! Please… please stay calm. You're going to be alright but only if you stay calm!" Saeyoung gripped my face, his hold lessening as he leaned in closer to me.
"Can you do that for me, stay calm…?" Feeling my throat burn from my crying I nod. I try to see his face more but the tears in my tears prevent me.
Feeling myself become numb, my eyes feeling heavy, I feel my tears start back.
"Saeyoung" I cry quietly to him, the pain in my chest becoming almost unnoticeable. "I love you…"
Saeyoung's opens his mouth but… I don't hear anything.
My eyes shut.