Requested by: Tardiscat1

Warning: Suicidal Attempts, and Depression.

2017 (T-1000/ Pops) x Suicidal Reader

You were sitting on your bed, drawing, Your (eye color) eyes followed the pencil tip that slid across the white paper. The soft gray color slowly started to form a picture.

Your earphones brought music to Your ears, You loved listening to (genre/song) it soothed you and kept the pain away, but you were irritated at the fact this 2017 had these things now called Iphone's. You always had endless pain filling Your heart, it felt empty as if there was a part of You are missing, you removed the earphones from your ears and you were met by pure silence all you could hear was the cricket in the distance.

You stopped drawing and flipped through Your sketchbook and then pushed it away, when your thoughts took over.

-Flashback-

"Hey Sarah" you said with a hesitant tone

"Hmm" Sarah replied with her mouth stuffed with food, Her eyes did not leave her burger. You constantly had trouble eating and you couldn't realize how a hamburger can get her so damn glad.

"Can I please help you and Kyle? Just in case you're plan goes wrong." Sarah swallowed a large chunk and looked at you with wide eyes.

"Over my dead body, Me and Kyle we work well together. Three is a crowd" you dropped your head with your hair (color) falling down and covering your face.

''But What about Pops-''

''He isn't really interested in going with us.'' Sarah interrupted, again. ''He really doesn't have any intrests at all these days.''

You hung you're head and left the room feeling more and more glum.

-Flashback End-

And So You were always alone, depression took over like a dark cloud and most of the time you spent in Your room. You didn't judge the You're sister or Kyle or Pops, you knew that they were busy and that a lot of things rested on their shoulders.

You couldn't take it anymore screw the future apocalypse war, screw Skynet and screw fucking destiny. You were too alone And the walls were closing in on you, these four walls the same ones You see all the time and now they started to mock You, You couldn't bear it anymore.

You got up from Your bed and slowly walked towards the bathroom, Your brain was numb and Your heart was beating out of Your chest as You craved death and you wanted It now 'Escape escape, escape, escape', your mind yelled at you, with your pounding.

As you stood in front of the mirror and tucked your hair behind your ears, tears that started to drip from your eyes, falling to the floor. You started pacing restlessly around the bathroom, crying hysterically, you tried your best to breathe.

So You turned back towards the mirror and for a moment You rested Your hands on the sink, looking yourself in the eyes from the reflection in front of you. You were pale and trembling from crying for what felt like a really long time. Finally, you came to a conclusion, all you thought of was the escape, the end.

You grabbed the painkillers from the mirror cabinet and tried to open it, but you were weak and weary. Tears streamed down your pale cheeks, your body was shaking uncontrollably.

You didn't hear the heavy footsteps of familiar boots hit the floor outside the bathroom and the slight breeze.

"(Name)!" A deep voice yelled

"I Can't even get the fucking cap off" you screamed, but Pops tried to take the painkillers away although you protested, but Of course he was stronger. It fell to the floor and all you heard was pills scattered all over the cold white tiles "look what you did!" you held your hair back screaming at Him. Pops eyes were filled with something like pain, he hated seeing you like this. You pushed him away with extreme force, but he didn't move.

He then appeared behind you and gently grabbed you and pulled you into his arms, he held you tight and all you did was cry and you didn't stop. He tried to restrain you so you wouldn't harm yourself. You stained his grey tee with your tears Your warm tears that ran down his neck

"Why can't you just let me die" you cried out as he tried to calm you down with your eyes red and puffy they started to burn slightly. Your head now buried in his neck as if you were trying to hide yourself from the world.

He gave you a kiss on your forehead and rocked you in his arms while brushing his fingers through your hair, it was extremely soothing. Pops was one of the three who had the power to calm you, he was the only thing In your life that radiated such a calm aura and it had a large effect on the people around him. He was as calming as the waves of the ocean and the sweet smell of rain cleansing the earth also as soothing as a nearby water fountain or a river stream.

And there was silence, only the sound of your sobs which were slowly starting to settle down, you listened to his heartbeat and his breathing, soon enough your tears were gone.

Suddenly Pops removed his arms from you and slipped off his trench coat and later his suit jacket, shirt and tie was also on the ground, you watched him closely and waited till he was done, you clenched your teeth when you saw his revealed chest and muscles. You again rested your head against his warm chest, you couldn't help but slide your hands across his firm exposed body, He gasped at your touch which caused you to bite your lip. His grip around you tightened and his heartbeat increased. You could feel his celestial aura radiate from his body, his pure heat

There was no other place that you would rather be, a safe and warm place in his arms. He was always the one who cared since 1973, he was the one who felt your agony and he saw the darkness deep inside every corner of your mind. You were just resting your eyes when you felt Pops pick you up with your Arms around his neck, he held you up with the support of his hands and carried you out of the bathroom towards your bedroom where it was much warmer and way more cosy.

Pops moved you to your room and laid you down on your back, though he didn't join you, you worried that he was going to disappear

"Pops?'' You questioned. But he was silent and then there was thunder. Loud-loud thunder in the room and in the room only, you looked at Pops and you could see a liquid metal coming from his back , he groaned a little from agony and his breathing was rapid, Pops groaned some more. "Pops! What is happening!".

Before you knew it you saw the most beautiful silver wings reveal themselves spreading free from Pops back like a bird ready for its first flight.

"Pops are you alright?" You still stared at his wings in awe

"Do not be afraid, I will comfort you now and bring you warmth" You nodded eagerly. You wanted to feel his wings all those silver metal feathers against your skin the thought gave you a slight tingle of excitement.

You removed your oversized shirt and saw that Pops was looking down at your body with his bright blue eyes absorbing each detail, He then turned to face the wall when you saw him looking at you

"I apologize" you got up from the bed

"No, Pops you can look, " he turned around and looked you in the eyes with his wings tucked behind his back, your hand reached out and touched his chest

"I am unfamiliar with this type of situation" with his voice hoarse.

''Don't worry about it" you whisper as You lead Pops to lay down on the bed, he sat upright and leaned against the headboard. He opened his arms and welcomed you, You crawled towards him, his breathing stopped for a moment as you climbed on top of his body straddling him. His warmth pleased and You rested your head on his chest with your fingertips exploring each muscle, you closed your eyes and breathed in his scent, Pops smelled like 'wait since when did he start using cologne' you thought to yourself. Pops Spread his large liquid metal wings and wrapped them around you covering your body completely.

It was exhilarating and warm as the feathers slid against your bare skin and now you felt safe, it was only seconds until you drifted off into deep sleep.

"I can't let you die" Pops said in his usual deep voice tone "because I love you (name)" as he gazed down at you while brushing his fingers through your (color/length) hair.

"I love you too" you whispered into his chest as you were half asleep

"I will always be your guardian"