AN: It's about damn timeAlso please be patience things are slow now but that's just to put the pieces in place.
Disclaimer: I don't own Girl Meets World. If I did it wouldn't have been cancelled, there, I said it.
'Is this really what you want to do; to drown?'
'No!' Maya thought.
The bathroom suddenly filled with exasperated gasps and gagging as Maya coughed up the water she was letting consume her lungs. She immediately turned off the flowing water that was drenching her mind and body. The once noisy, steam filled room now rang with silence and a damaged girl ragged breathing.
The scene in question closes in on a fogged-up shower door hiding a blonde beauty whose head lay rested under the shower head. Her chest rising and falling faster than usual.
"Shit" she spoke in between her breathing and spitting up water. Maya grabbed a towel and stepped out into the warmed-up room surrounded in steam. She wrapped herself and then proceed to the mirror. Where once again she finds herself staring into the girl, giving her a serious case of Deja-vu.
Maya could feel the drops of water creep their way down to the floor but using her skin as an alternate route. Her eyes still stung from when she opened them rapidly in the shower and the beating water attacked them. But through those redden eyes she could still see the visiting cuts and bruises on her body.
The minute Maya stepped out of that bathroom she knew the nurses would dress the newly cleaned wounds and Maya would have to act like that changed anything, that clean bandages made her feel like a new person and not a stranger in her own body.
As the lights slowly dried her skin, Maya thought back to earlier today when she wandered the halls looking to escape her mother and everyone's questions. Maya's vision blurred a bit as the steam crept inside her senses as she tried to concentrate and remember.
Katy finally visited her.
There was screaming, crying, yelling, hugging, and a lot of "Baby girl's" thrown around and now Maya really needed time to herself. Riley's questioning had lowered her people's tolerance that day.
With the never ending 3rd degree of her and Lucas, she tried to make a break for it but was cut off when Katy entered the room in a rush.
Maya only vaguely remembered it.
Katy was silent as she stood at the door just taking in the scene that her baby girl was standing in a hospital room wounded and damaged. As if Katy's nightmares had finally come true.
"Oh, my sweet baby girl!" Katy rushed to Maya almost knocking over the nearby tray and Riley along with it. It was clear on Katy's crying face that she was happy and relieved to find Maya alive and well, almost well.
Maya on the other hand wasn't ready yet to face her mother, she didn't know what to say or where to start. She also knew that from this point on any freedom she thought she had left was gone, Maya could tell this from the bone crushing hug her mother was giving her.
"Mom, -ow- you're hurting me, could you -ow- let go." Maya tried to exclaim through her mother's shoulder. Katy immediately released Maya but she kept a hold on her hands.
"Maya baby, I'm so happy you're safe and alright and I'm so sorry it took me this long to find you, Topanga only just today got a hold of me…" Maya, however, was no longer listening, her head was swirling like a drain. She was happy to see her mom, overjoyed in fact, but these emotions were washed away in the drain by a never-ending wave of impending dread and anxiety. Maya could see the warming faces of love from her mom and Riley's face, but her ears were ringing, her heart thumping, and her lungs constricting. What would Katy say when she finds out what really happened.
"Peaches what's wrong? Riley moved from her glowing corner of glee over the reunion towards Maya, who now noticed the pale blank stare that had arisen on Maya's face.
"Baby girl?" they both approached Maya slowly and closely. But to Maya, all she saw was cages closing in on her. She had to get out of there, she couldn't bear it any longer. Maya broke through her two loved one's arms and ran out the room, through the door and veered left into unknown territory all the while ignoring the ever-growing pain that was building up inside her.
The Florescent lights in the hallway were so much brighter than the ones in her room, beating down on her as if interrogating her for information and they just seemed to go on forever, no matter how far Maya walked and no matter how much her legs protested.
Maya was wandering aimlessly around the hospital, she wasn't keeping track of where she was. All Maya was thinking was that she needed not be the center of attention for an awhile.
It's felt like a whole day since she saw Lucas, he never came back after he ran out of the room about Jell-O or something. Riley kept insisting that there was something going on between Maya and Lucas no matter how much she denied it. but Maya couldn't bring herself say what she felt out loud, she could barely say these things to herself.
Maya had forgotten how long she had been walking, lost in thought and lost in pain. She didn't think it through carefully when she ran out the door. The fire hadn't only ignited again in her stomach but it felt as if she was running through a room of fire.
Maya had never seen this part of the hospital before, not that she was a frequent visitor, but Maya had closed her eyes half of the time she was walking along the hallway, leaning against the walls to steady herself so she didn't pass out.
She figured that Riley and Katy would be out looking for her so, she assumed that it was safe to find her way back to her room. However, Maya was still lost and couldn't take much more of this aimless wandering so she decided to find a nurse hoping they could direct her in the right direction. Maya turned the next corner still hanging onto the wall for support, all the while Mayas left hand was gripping tightly on the side of her stomach wear her stab wound was, encompassing the majority of her pain. Her side was getting warmer very quickly but she could feel warm liquid start to escape.
"Honey? Did you leave your bed? What's your name sweetie?" Maya noticed that she stumbled upon a nurse's desk, where there were plenty of nurses, one of which had already taken noticed of a shaky pale looking girl staggering around the corner.
Maya felt a shiver spread throughout her body that pulled her back to the present where she was still leaning against the sink in the bathroom staring into the nothingness that was her reflection.
The nurses had brought her back to her room and gave her the option of sleep or a shower, and Maya was already fed up with lying in bed all day. She chose the latter because it at least it gave her sometime to her thoughts.
*knock knock*
"Ms. Hart? When you're ready I would like to discuss your discharge."
Maya sighed she knew she couldn't stay in this white wall capsule forever, she knew at one point she, Maya Hart, would have to face the music.
She gave a heavy sighed and reached for her gown waiting on the counter for her. Maya's shivering ceased and she felt more at ease when her wounds were covered up.
When Maya opened the door to her room, all the steam came pouring out along with her and a wall of cold air hit Mayas face head on and gave her drowsiness a good jolt.
"Alright Ms. Hart, first off its hospital policy that we can only discharge a minor to their parent or legal guardian and your friends outside informed us that your mother stepped out for a bit, so as soon as she's back you'll be released." The doctor said all this with a smile on her face and Maya couldn't comprehend anything smile worthy from that information.
She can't leave yet because her mom is somewhere unknown and who said Maya even wanted to leave. She was scared to leave at all, honestly. Out there is where she got hurt, out there he could get to her if he wanted to.
"Another thing is, I'm prescribing you some medications to help continue your recovery. You will need to take oxycodone, for your pain. The pain you feel will fade of course but slowly. I'm also going to be giving you a low dosage of escitalopram, or more commonly known as Lexapro to help you with the mental trauma you have experienced." The doctor ripped of two pieces of paper and handed them to Maya. The doctor left the door open on her way. Maya knew it was so they could keep a close eye on her.
Maya looked down at the pieces of paper in her hand, it was all gibberish to her and she didn't care to understand it. Maya made her way to the bed, the effects of the shower were already wearing off and she wanted to lay down and go to sleep. That's all Maya felt like doing, sleeping, she didn't want to think, to talk, to do anything anymore, or to be strong anymore. Just to lay down and not care.
"knock, knock" Maya was half way in the bed when a tall huckleberry made his way in to the room closing the door behind him. He stood behind the chair next to the bed and didn't look away from her. As if he took his eyes off of her she would vanish. His continuing staring though, was getting on her nerves already.
"what do you want Huckleberry?" Lucas still didn't say anything instead he walked from the chair to the window, looking around on his trip there. He now stood facing the window staring out to the world outside. Maya could feel heat rising to her face out of pure frustration. She couldn't understand what he was doing just standing there and not saying anything to her.
"Damn it Ranger Rick! Why are staring out the window like creepy creep!? If you have something to say just say it, but if you're just going to keep being a sulky cowboy then leave!" Maya started to look around for anything small, she wanted to throw something at his stupid huckleberry face.
She locked onto her small plastic cup on the side table, the perfect ammo, Maya was all ready to nail him in the back of the head with plastic. However right as Maya was about to make the shot Lucas turned around towards her.
It was the glistening tears rolling down his handsome face that made her dropped the cup. Lucas, the Lucas Friar was crying in front of her very eyes.
"Luc-"
"I'm so angry Maya. Please…" Lucas's eyes were content; the low setting sun had set the room ablaze in orange and fueled the fire that was burning in Lucas's eyes.
"Please let me stay your side Maya, I don't know how I- We, will live with ourselves if this ever happened again or if you just let yourself fall into a pit of self-darkness." Lucas had knelt down next to the bed, Texas-Lucas was breaking through the normal Lucas exterior. But Maya wasn't sensing any malice from him and she wasn't scared off from his anger. She found herself comforted by this.
Maya looked into his sweet green huckleberry eyes and sighed. She wanted to give him the simple answer to tell him everything, to say 'yes please stay by me.' But Maya couldn't bring herself to say anything to those standards. Sarcasm ran in her blood, and that's all she could muster when things got too serious for her liking.
"Whatever you want sunshine, I won't stop you." Maya internally screamed at herself for being so blank but it was just easier for her. Lucas had the faintness smile on his face but he wiped it away along with the tears staining his face.
"Well" Lucas stood up and walked back towards the window again "I heard your being discharged any time now, I'll go and see if I can help."
Right as Lucas was about to walk out, the whole entourage of her friends and family came through the door along with the doctor and a wheel chair.
The sky was screaming colors, the sun was bright with shades of orange and it made Maya sick especially being wheeled out in a wheel chair. All too cliché for her liking. Maya leaned her head directly back to look up to see her Riley smiling directly down on her, like her own personal sun dispelling the darkness from inside her. Riley's presence behind her and Lucas's solidarity to her right made Mayas iron heavy worries feel a little be lighter about stepping outside into the world once again.
Sorry for the wait but life gets in the way. But please review and if you any questions or comments please ask.