Chapter 5 – Feeling

Eleanor could get used to waking up next to him.

Yesterday it had been a little bit of a shock to see Jasper Frost on the other side of the bed but today she knew exactly where she was and who she was with.

After last night's activities, their bodies still entwined into one another underneath the sheets, as close to each other as possible, they fell asleep in pure bliss.

She could feel he was already awake but he didn't want to say anything first.

With a sigh Eleanor rolled away from her still-husband, instantly missing his warmth.

"Seriously Jasper, how are you so warm? That's weird."

"Good morning to you too, Princess. And are you saying I'm hot? Because if you do thank you very much baby."

Eleanor only rolled her eyes. He was pretty hot, especially with that rough sleepy voice, but she wasn't going to tell him that anytime soon. She would never give him that satisfaction.

Instead she slowly rose from the bed, leaving the blanked and Jasper behind.

"I'm going to take a shower so you better get up too. I don't want to be late to our appointment."

"So you're leaving your husband behind, just like that?"

Eleanor could hear him smirking while he spoke.

"Yes. And please don't ever use the h-word ever again."

"Why not, this is probably the last time I can say it?"

Without any further reply Eleanor went into the bathroom, trying to find a towel in one of the cabinets.

She knew leaving the door open probably wasn't a very good idea as soon as Jaspers arms wrapped around her waist from behind but she couldn't help but moan when his lips attacked her neck and shoulder hungrily.

"We don't have time for that, bodyguard. Our appointment…"

"Enough time for this, princess."

Like every time before that the sensation of Jasper's skin on hers and his lips traveling over her body was way too much for Eleanor to find a clear thought. With every stroke of Jaspers hands she wanted him more and more. He wasn't very happy when his wife stepped away from his touch but then she turned around, pulling his head down towards her lips.

Needless to say their shower took a lot longer.

Jasper Frost could make very delicious pancakes, who would have thought.

Not Eleanor, that's for sure but it was a very nice surprise. One more little thing she knew about him now.

After getting ready they had some time left so Jasper made breakfast for his wife. The rest of the morning was surprisingly nice. Each of them were prepared to ignore all awkwardness surrounding their marriage and their upcoming divorce but it wasn't necessary – at least not a lot. Both of them separately did their best to just ignore the reasons why they were here together in the first place.

They ate breakfast in peace while Jasper told Eleanor how he thought Jo how to make breakfast when they were children and how she almost set the kitchen on fire the first time she did it without his help.

In exchange Eleanor told Jasper about her first trip to France with her family when she was younger, how she loved visiting the Eifel Tower with her parents, and how her brothers tried to rebuild the palace out of sand on their trip to the beach.

It was nice talking like that, sharing stories about their lives.

Almost effortless the words tumbled off Eleanor's tongue.

No paparazzi or rules that kept her from doing so. And Jasper listened to every word coming out of her mouth as he was actually interested in what she had to say and not just waiting for her to say something wrong, like most people did.

The other way around Jasper was relieved to tell Eleanor about his past. There were many people who would be all too happy to use every little piece of information against him in some way but with Eleanor he just couldn't keep himself from trusting her.

Way too fast their happy moment came to an end as Jasper parked the car in front of the lawyer's office and Eleanor was cursing herself for not having a few pills in her handbag. This was a bad time to run out of drugs.

How else was she supposed to get through this day?

Jasper as well as Eleanor didn't feel like getting out of the car so they just sat there in silence, already five minutes late to their appointment.

"Maybe we should go."

"Maybe."

Eleanor could feel how heavy her heart was underneath her designer dress. If she would be honest in this moment she would tell her soon-to-be-ex-husband to turn the car key and drive away.

But she wouldn't do that.

And neither would Jasper, who would prefer to face all the demons of his past instead of getting divorced from Eleanor.

And there were a lot of demons.

"Are you sure we want to do this?"

"My family would never allow this so yes, of course I'm sure. Are you?"

"If you are."

Eleanor felt like crying after hearing the hesitation in his voice. Was it possible he didn't want to get divorced from her?

Absolutely not.

Even if it was true, she shouldn't even think about this. Jasper Frost didn't care about her, he blackmailed her and cheated on her.

He was nothing but a liar.

But at the same time he has always been there for her when no one else – not even Liam – was able to protect her and comfort her in times of despair.

So many times he stood by her.

So many times he helped her to not give up.

Like a rock she could lean on, that kept her back straight when facing challenges.

Yes, being with Jasper had always been a challenge by itself but one she could face without being torn apart by the media. Instead every time the two of them went head to head – even if she lost - she grew a little bit inside.

She couldn't allow herself to think like that right now. It would only make it hurt even more once they signed the papers.

The former princess took a deep breath and opened the door.

"Come on, bodyguard. Let's get divorced."