Blaine didn't know how this happened. He was standing in front of his mirror fixing his bowtie and frowning thinking it didn't look right. He had already thrown a hundred bowties and vests on the floor and nothing seemed perfect or suitable. It was his first date with Kurt, well to be honest, his first date since highschool and he didn't want to look over dress, but he didn't want to look too casual either and Kurt, he always looked impeccable.
He's been staying over Kurt's place for the last week. He didn't find the sense into going back to his side of the apartment and they still haven't finished knocking down that wall even though Kurt had agreed he'd help him do it. Even though they had this date, all week had felt like a date to Blaine. They watched their favourite rom cons, Blaine found out that Kurt liked all of his own favourites ones and they watched musicals. They made out in between RENT and Moulin Rouge, and Blaine smiled as he thought of how turned on Kurt was when Blaine started kissing him during come what may. Kurt was a mess, but Blaine was just as much so. Neither of them had gotten any work done that week and Blaine knew he had to do something about that if he wanted to keep them staying there.
"Wow," Kurt commented and Blaine turned around in horror as Kurt giggled at the sight in front of him. "Honey, I wouldn't have cared if you just wore a shirt and jeans,"
"I'm sorry but have you seen you? You never just wear a shirt in jeans," Blaine sighed as Kurt carefully tread around his clothes to reach him. "I haven't had a date in a long time," He reminded Kurt. Kurt helped Blaine with the bow tie he was struggling with and then kissed him "You look perfect, and I'll help you clean up the clothes when we get back okay," Blaine smiled and looked Kurt over. "You on the other hand should be on the cover of vogue,"
Kurt blushed as he self consciously tugged on his marc Jacobs jacket and held out his gloved hands to Blaine. "Weren't you meant to pick me up at 5?"
"It's 5:15, I wasn't sure if you wanted me to go to the front door or …" He glanced back at the hole in the wall and Blaine laughed. "But I wanted to know how you felt coming to my apartment,"
"It's like the shire isn't it," Blaine commented and Kurt laughed "You're such a dork, but yeah I suppose it is,"
"I'm sorry for being late," Blaine cringed as Kurt linked his arm in his and they walked out of the apartment together. Blaine looked down at their linked arms and stared at Kurt.
He could get used to this.
Blaine hadn't done anything about contacting Sebastian's psychiatrist. To be honest he wasn't sure if he even wanted to. He liked how things were and he didn't want to screw things up with Kurt.
Would it be wise to even go down that path? It wasn't long before he had to deal with this situation whether he wanted to or not because when Kurt took him to the movies he froze when he saw who was already in the movie lobby.
Kurt looked at Blaine with worry in his eyes when he noticed his discomfort. "Blaine?"
Blaine without warning gripped Kurt's hand and held it tightly.
"Blaine honey," Kurt tried to get Blaine's attention but he was staring at a good looking tall guy who had his gaze set on Blaine as well.
"Sebastian," Blaine whispered to Kurt as Sebastian moved towards them. Blaine gripped harder onto Kurt's hand and Kurt worried he'd break his circulation, but he didn't mind so much either if Blaine needed to hold his hand, he wasn't going to deny him that access. He rubbed his fingers gently over Blaine's knuckles and that action seemed to calm Blaine down a little as he glared angrily at Sebastian "What are you doing here? I thought you said you were done with the stalking,"
"I am," Sebastian defended. "I'm actually here on a date," Sebastian frowned looking slightly embarrassed. "I didn't know you'd be here,"
"Do you want to leave?" Kurt whispered but Blaine shook his head "No if anyone should leave it's him," Blaine was angry. It's the angriest Kurt has ever heard him.
"Blaine," Sebastian tried but Blaine held out his other hand like a stop sign which worked effectively. Sebastian stilled for a minute. "Don't Blaine me. Do you know I've been living in fear for the last 6 years wondering when you'd show up?"
"I know I'm – " Sebastian stepped closer but Blaine didn't stop. "No, I haven't finished," Blaine cut him off and Kurt realised what he was doing. He was facing his demons.
He wanted to move on. Kurt continued to rub his fingers over his hand to soothe his boyfriend and remind him he was there.
"You break into my apartment, destroy everything I owe and then make it look like it was all my fault in a letter because I tried to get away from you, do you have any idea the kind of fear I've gone through? This is the first time since highschool I've been able to go on a date and feel like myself and yet here you are, I'm not letting you do that again. This is my date, you need to leave. You own me this Sebastian, what are you even doing here in New York?"
"I wanted to make amends. I don't expect you to forgive me. Not after what I put you through. I just want you to hear me out. My psychiatrist mentioned how much I might have affected your life, and I realise after seeing you today that she's right. I am sorry Blaine, I really am,"
"You said you were on a date?" Kurt added and noticed he was still alone and Sebastian nodded smiling "Yeah, we've been going out for a year," It was Kurt's time to grip Blaine's hand tighter when he noticed who his date was. Dave Karofsky walked up next to Sebastian with a box of popcorn and kissed his cheek. He looked curiously at the company in front of them and appeared stunned "Kurt,"
"Dave," Kurt replied with bitterness. Blaine looked to Dave and Kurt "You know this guy?"
"He was the bully I told you about," Kurt whispered. Blaine's eyes darkened in recognition remembering Kurt told him about him on one of the nights he stayed over at Kurt's place and the whole story behind McKinley and how he felt unsafe at his own school "The guy that stole your first kiss?" Kurt nodded.
Blaine growled at him "You know what, you guys enjoy the movie. We're leaving," Blaine said tugging on Kurt's arm "Come on let's go," Kurt didn't follow though and Blaine wondered why. Kurt kissed him gently "We can't move on if we keep running from our fears," He whispered after Blaine kissed him back. "Sebastian said he wanted to apologise, I think he should," He nodded towards the other boy as Sebastian held onto Dave's hand for support.
Dave looked uncomfortable but he didn't appear afraid or unsure like in high school.
Maybe Sebastian was good for David.
"How did you guys even meet?" Blaine asked wondering if it was just coincidence or payback.
"I was on a working visa in France. I worked in a pub where I met Sebastian. My dad thought I needed to get away from everything when I tried to commit suicide," Dave added calmly. Kurt didn't know about this and his eyes widened "You what?"
"After what I did to you Kurt, I never felt normal. I felt like my life was slipping away, and it'd be better of if I wasn't even here. I lost all my friends when they found out I played for the other team. They started to treat me the way I treated you for all your years in high school, and I got severely depressed. I was in hospital for a couple of days after my suicide attempt and my dad told me he knew something wasn't right, and he knew there was something I wasn't telling him. He didn't like the fact that I was gay but he said I was his son, and it'd break his heart if I died. That was like a turning point in my life. He said maybe I needed a break from it all from studying from work. I realised I wanted a change of environment. When I told him about this he supported the idea and suggested I do a working visa, I found a job in Paris that said they needed a bartender so I applied and got the job,"
"He was a popular bartender too," Sebastian smiled at Dave "Everyone loved him," Dave laughed "Yeah but there was always that one favourite customer," Dave looked at Sebastian with a look that reminded Kurt of how he looked at Blaine. Their story was kind of sweet actually, but he could see Blaine was finding this difficult to adjust too.
"That's where you met Sebastian" Blaine added for him looking at Sebastian. Sebastian nodded. "When I found out his story, I told him about mine. Look we're not out to get you or anything. This isn't us trying to stalk you. Okay maybe a little, but for good reasons. I came back to New York so I could make peace with you Blaine, and when Dave found out that Kurt was also here, we decided to come back together,"
"So you're not here to stalk us," Blaine added. Sebastian and Dave shook their heads in unison. Dave put his hand around Sebastian's waist. "I'm just here with the boy I love," Dave said and Sebastian looked stunned as he turned to Dave. "You love me?"
"Like you didn't know you idiot," Dave laughed and Sebastian kissed him. Kurt smiled at them.
"They're kind of sweet," Kurt whispered to Blaine while the other boys had their moment.
"How can we trust them?" Blaine asked Kurt as Kurt brought his hand up to kiss it. "Just look at them and think for a minute, do they look like people who want to hurt you?" Kurt asked and Blaine did look. He looked at how Sebastian was kissing David after his announcement of loving him. He heard Sebastian whisper "I love you too," and realised Kurt was right.
"And you told me Sebastian wasn't always like that right, maybe he is trying to change,"
Blaine nodded as Kurt made sense.
"I want to get out of here," He said. Kurt frowned "You don't believe me?"
"No it's not that, I feel like we're intruding on their date, and to be honest. This is my date with you too, I don't want to be thinking about anyone else but you,"
Kurt smiled. Sebastian and Dave were still having their moment as Kurt and Blaine discussed this and they began to leave but then Sebastian called out to him "Wait! Blaine Wait!"
As he was about to push the door open he turned around to find Sebastian handing out a letter. "You don't have to hear from me again, but at least take this please,"
Kurt nodded at Dave as David added "I'm really sorry Kurt. I'm really good at bear hugs if you'd allow me to give you one?" Kurt eyes widened. He'd never in a million years have thought he'd let his ex bully do this, but for some reason he wanted to give David that opportunity to move on. He smiled and nodded. He let David pull him into a hug and exhale carefully "I'm sorry for hurting you, I hope you and your boyfriend are happy for a long time, he's really cute,"
"He's the cutest," Kurt agreed looking happily at Blaine who was still talking with Sebastian.
Blaine was nodding slowly at something Sebastian said and allowed him to give him a letter.
"We won't bother you guys again," Sebastian added. Blaine nodded in understanding and took Kurt's hand.
Kurt took it as well silently they walked out of the theatre.
They decided to go to for a walk and it began to snow. Blaine looked up and smiled "I haven't felt snow in years,
"Kurt grinned at the boyish look on Blaine's face and laughed "What are you doing?" Blaine laid down in the middle of the grass. They had been walking through a park. "Lie down with me," Blaine held out his hand and Kurt for once tried not to think about the fact that his outfit would get drenched and did as he was asked.
Blaine made a snow angel and Kurt laughed as he told Kurt to do the same "What are you 5?"
"Do it," Blaine encouraged. Kurt went into a fit of giggles and laughed as he made a snow angel with Blaine. Blaine began to sing and Kurt stopped making snow angels as he leaned on his side and watched his boyfriend "If I lay here? If I just lay here….would you lie with me and just forget the world?"
Kurt moved over an inch and kissed him "I don't quite know how to say how I feel. Those three wods are said too much, they're not enough," Kurt sang back. Blaine's finger trailed down his icy flushed smooth cheek. Kurt leaned into the touch as Blaine continued to sing. "If I lay here…If I just lay here, would you lie with me and just forget the world? Forget what we're told, before we get too old, show me a garden that's bursting into life,"
Kurt smiled at Blaine and it was like forgetting the world as the snow continued to fall on them lightly. Blaine didn't want this moment to end as Kurt sang to him "All that I am….all the I ever was is here in your perfect eyes, they're all I can see….I don't know where confused about how as well, just know that these things will never change for us at all, if I lie here….if I just lay here, would you lie with me and forget the world,"
"You forgot the lyrics," Blaine whispered quietly and trying not to laugh after staring at Kurt for 5 minutes smiling in silent. Kurt shook his head "I did not,"
"You did so," Blaine argued with a giggle. Kurt looked offended and looked ready to argue but Blaine laughed and he rolled on top of him and kissed him hard. Kurt moaned in response "I love you so much," Blaine whispered as he let go of Kurt's mouth with a sated sigh.
He bit his lip as though worried he ruined the moment and spoke too soon when Kurt didn't respond straight away. As he was about to get up and start apologising Kurt pulled him in for another kiss and replied "I love you too Blaine,"