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FYI : This is in Nathan's point of view, about a week later.

I took a breath in, and let the breath out. I scrubbed my hands and arms all the way to my elbows, getting ready for this surgery while the scrub nurses prepped the patient. I should not really be doing surgery, but seeing as I am the only cardio attending here, I kinda have to. I know I'll regret it later and probably be in pain, but oh well. I had to push through and save this guy's life. I just listened to the water as it fell, wondering how bad the damage to this guy was.

My thoughts were interrupted when DeLuca came bursting through the doors that lead to the OR. "The patient's stats are dropping." I glanced through the tiny little widow above the scrub sink at the monitor, and sure enough this guy's stats were dropping. I quickly rinse my arms, grab a towel and half run half walk into the OR.

The scrub nurse helps me into a gown and some gloves, while another one ties on my surgical mask. I move quickly to the side of the table, the adrenaline making me completely forget about my broken leg. "Scalpel."

The scrub nurse hands me a scalpel, and I immediately begin the incision. This guy is going to die if we don't move fast enough and begin to repair all the damage he has suffered. "Is Doctor Bailey on her way, we need general now!" I stood on the side of the table where I was unable to see into the scrub room.

"I'm here to help and Bailey is on her way." Kepner said, now entering the OR. I hear some shuffling as the nurses help her into gown in gloves, until Kepner is at my side helping me pack him. "More packing!" Her voice boomed as the patient stats were getting worse.

"Clamp!" I yelled, and seconds later there was a clamp in my hand. I clamped the bleeder that I saw, but there were plenty more where that came from. "More packing!" We continued packing for about a minute, until I heard her voice and I stopped.

"Quickly, gown and glove me." I heard the nurse once again shuffling to gown and glove someone. "What do we got?" She asked as they helped her into the gown and tied it.

I didn't really know what to tell her. I know I have to focus on the patient but my mind wondered to the last time I saw her, which was about a week ago.

I was struggling with my crutches, trying to learn how to use them and balance my weight and everything. I was trying to get to the waiting room to meet up with Amelia. I wanted to talk to someone before I saw Megan for the first time since she woke up, and it would feel weird to ask Mer. I was nervous, and Amelia said she could help me. I stumbled a little, catching the wall next to me. I regained my balance when I was almost to the waiting room. I didn't walk in, because I heard her voice, and I wasn't sure what I would say or tell her. She acted so happy for me when she told me about Megan, but I could tell deep down she was hurt. I looked around the corner just to see if it was her, and sure enough, it was. I could see her tiny frame and wavy blonde tresses falling over her shoulders. I heard her laugh at something Amelia said, which only made me smile seeing as she has the cutest smile and laugh. I would kill to hear that laugh or see that smile for the rest of my life. I was so focused on Mer, I jumped when a nurse put her hand on my shoulder and asked how I was doing.

"I'm doing just fine, thanks for asking." The nurse smiled and continued down the hall doing whatever she was doing before she stopped to talk to me. I thought I was quiet, but I guess not. Mer and Amelia both were looking at me. As soon as my eyes met Mer's, she turned and looked away. She reached down and picked up the bag next to her, handing it to Amelia. "Here is some clothes for the both of you for like 4-5 days." She said softly, but loud enough for me to hear it.

I started to walk towards them, but as soon as I did, Mer gave Amelia a quick hug before disappearing down the hallway closest to them.

I got to Amelia and asked the obvious. "She was running from me, wasn't she?" Amelia nodded, knowing it was true.

"She has been through a lot, and I think she probably wants to know where you guys stand, or maybe how long till you think you'll figure it out. But don't give her hope if you don't plan on getting back together with her, 'cause I might kill you." She stated, obviously wanting to protect her sister, which is understandable. She started looking through the bag Mer had brought for her and Owen.

"I definitely don't want to hurt her. I just don't know what to tell her until after I see Megan." I paused unsure if I should tell Amelia this. "I-I didn't plan on falling in love with her. I really don't know what I'm going to do. Someone will probably get hurt either way, and I don't want to make the wrong choice either.

"Oh, it's definitely not going to be easy. Just don't going telling her you love her before you make a decsion, that would make everything messy and confusing. Make it special, if you decide to stay with her." Amelia grabbed her bag and motioned me to follow her to Megan's room.

"What do we have?" She asked yet, interrupting my thoughts.

All I could think was breathe. I'm going to be stuck with her in this OR for a while, so I had to breathe. I was hoping Kepner would fill her in, but she looked at me, not knowing anything about the patient other than he had a traumatic diaphragmatic hernia. "Male, mid-thirties, multi-car MVC. He has got a traumatic diaphragmatic hernia, with the spleen and some of the large intestine. There is also a liver lac that needs to be taken care of.

She moved to the other side of the table, directly across from me. "This guy was hit pretty hard, wasn't he?"

"Yep." There was usually some talking in the OR, but at the moment it was awkward silence. The silence was broken by DeLuca coming to help with the surgery, and asking where he was needed.

"Right here. Suction. Lap pads." Meredith spit out orders like she owned the OR, which at the moment, she did. That is just what the OR sounded like for a while, everyone yelling out orders.

Suddenly the guy's heart stopped beating. Meredith immediately jumped on it. "Get a crash cart! Pack him! Push one of epi and DeLuca, start cardiac massage!" DeLuca started to massage the heart while she got the internal paddles. "Charge to 20. Clear!" It shocked him, and we all paused to watch the monitor to see if his rhythm was back. After a couple second DeLuca began cardiac massage. "Push another of epi! Charge to 30. Clear!" Everyone removed their hands from the patient. Nothing. "Push one more of epi and charge to 50! Clear!" Once again, nothing. Kepner ripped off her mask and let out a big breath of air.

"We lost him." Kepner stated the obvious.

"No, no we didn't." Meredith stated. We all looked confused until we heard the heartbeat return on the monitor. "Bohkee, get Kepner a new mask and DeLuca let's find that damn bleeder."

I continued what I was doing, which was just checking the chest and repairing any injuries I saw. I looked up at the beautiful woman standing in front of me, focused on her work. I feel bad for not knowing where we stand, and the fact that we haven't talked in over a week until today. I stared at those amazing emerald eyes, remembering back to when I told her I joked to make her eyes do that thing they do. I didn't really notice that I had stopped what I was doing until those emerald irises were staring back at me.

"Riggs, do you have a problem?" She questioned.

"I'm fine, just thinking." I looked back down to the patient in front of me.

"Well, I do have a question for you."

I swallowed, uncertain of what she meant by that. "Uh, go for it."

"Aren't you supposed to be resting that leg and not putting any weight on it?"

Not really the question I was expecting, but it shows that she is still thinking and cares about me. "Yes, actually. But I'm sure you know that there was only one of every specialty's attendings here, seeing as we weren't supposed to perform surgeries till later, and the ER isn't even open yet. This guy was in an accident right around the corner, so they brought him here knowing that there were a few surgeons here. I'm here, because I wanted to get my mind off things before Megan comes home this weekend. I might take a few days off next week to spend with her. So no, I'm not supposed to be putting weight on that foot but I'm saving someone's life. Now, your name wasn't on the list of attendings that would be here, so the real question is why are you here?" I let another breath, and looked around to see that everyone had stopped what they were doing to listen to me.

"I, uh, don't really have a reason why I am here other than I love my job." She looked down her feet, obviously hiding something. "So, Megan is coming home this weekend?"

"Yeah, she is going to stay in the guest bedroom at Owen and Amelia's house. She is pretty healthy, remembers most things. She is very strong, stronger than I would be." I guess that's a trait I like in women, seeing as Meredith is very strong. "She is going to therapy 3 days a week, to make sure she is doing alright. We have to slowly start introducing her to new technology, seeing as it has changed so much in ten years. She has already said she want to get back into medicine as soon as possible." Medicine has also changed a lot, it would be like she was an intern again.

"Oh, well that's nice. You'll get to spend some quality time with her, which is good." You could hear the jealousy in her tone. I don't know what to tell her, Megan and I hadn't really discussed our relationship.

"Yeah." We had saved this guy's life, and now it was finally time to close him up and scrub out. Also, time to put my feet up, seeing as the adrenaline rush was gone and my foot felt like someone was stabbing it. "Kepner, can you close?"

"Sure." She hadn't really spoke much the whole time we were in the OR, probably could feel the tension between me and Mer, or just wanted to find out if we were still together.

Mer immediately walked away from the table, and quickly pulled off her gown and mask, throwing it away before walking into the scrub room. I struggled a little, wobbled over to the medical waste bin, unable to bear much weight on that foot. I stumbled into the scrub room, where Mer was already scrubbing out, and I joined her.

"You look like you are in pain, you should take some medicine and rest that foot." She looked over her shoulder and gave me a soft smile. Her smile could literally melt my heart. It made her one hundred more times beautiful than she already was. I couldn't help smiling back before she looked away.

"I will." She finished rinsing off her hands and reached for a towel, and I quickly finished mine and grabbed a towel. "Meredith, I-I…"

"I have to go Doctor Riggs." She was quick to interrupt me, probably not wanting more small talk. She reached for the door, turned back and gave me a smile.

"Meredith, wait." But she already out the door. I decided I was going to talk to her, so I followed her down the hallway. Once I caught up to her, I wrapped my arm around her waist, causing her to jump, but I pulled her into an on-call room anyways. She didn't resist once she realized it was me.

She waited until the door was shut before saying anything. "What, Nathan"

"Meredith, I just wanted to talk to you." I said softly. I knew what I was going to do.

"About what? Me and you?" She snapped back.

"Meredith, this isn't easy, for either of us." I continued talking softly, hoping to keep her calm.

"Are you… are you breaking up with me?" Her voice got quieter, realizing what was happening.

"Meredith, this isn't easy. I want to spend time with Megan, and that would take time away from you. At the moment, we are just friends and I don't know if it will stay that way."

"Oh." She said with her voice breaking, and it was obvious that she was holding back tears. "Well uh, I think I'm going to go know."

She turned and started toward the door, but I grabbed her wrist, pulling her into me. Her eyes met mine, trying to figure out what was going on. I filled the space between us, leaving my lips inches away from hers. My hands moved to cup her cheeks, but she pushed me away.

"We are broken up, we shouldn't be doing this." Her eyes moved to the floor.

"Meredith." I took a step back, wanting her to be not as close and less awkward.

"I-I got to go check on a patient." She quickly turned and left, leaving me alone in the on call room.

I'm not a doctor so there are probably mistakes :(

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