Sorry for the delay in the update, I had camp for 5 days and really bad writers block /
Sorry if this looks wierd, my computer wasn't working so I tried it on my phone :)
After sitting on the on-call room bed for several minutes, Alex finally got me to calm down.
"Look, Mer. We don't know what we saw. The only way we could know for sure is to talk to them. Okay?" Alex asked while still holding me in a tight hug, with my head resting against his chest.
I pull away and just gave him a look. How am I supposed to bring up a topic like that? Oh hey, by the way I saw you and Teddy together. Is that who you cheated on Megan with? Uh, no. He seemed really upset earlier when we were talking about it, so not the best idea. I want him to be in a decent mood, so I can tell him about the baby. But, I also want to know if he cheated with Teddy.
"I want to know. I will feel rude for asking, but I want to know. I still need to tell him about Peanut also." Alex let out a laugh, for who knows what reason. "Why are you laughing?" I say, getting all defensive and crossing my arms.
"You are actually calling it peanut. It's funny, cause you got mad at me the first time I said it." He laughed again.
"Oh. Well, it does look like a peanut, so it seems fitting. At least until we know what the sex is, then we can start calling it "he" or "she"."
"Is there a preference?" He asks, and I am not sure what he means.
"What?"
"A preference of gender. Do you want a boy or a girl?"
"Oh. I don't know honestly. I haven't really thought about it." I pause to think what I would want. "A boy, so Bailey isn't the only boy. But a girl would be nice, seeing as I still have a lot of Ellis's baby clothes."
"True. For my first child, if I ever have one, I don't think I would care. As long as he or she is healthy, it wouldn't matter." I nodded, agreeing with him.
"Have you and Jo talked about babies recently?" I ask, knowing he has been here a lot for me the past couple days and we have talked a lot about my relationship, and not his.
"Maybe soon. We are still working everything out, but maybe soon. I hope."
"Well that's good." I smile, being happy for my person since he might finally be getting the family he has always wanted. We enjoy the silence, which is rudely interrupted within a few minutes by our pagers.
"ER 911, what about you?" I say as I scramble to get my lab coat and stethoscope.
"Yep. Better get down there." He says and we walk together down to the pit. When we get there, the ambulances have already arrived and multiple patients are being wheeled in to trauma rooms. I follow a gurney into trauma room one, and forcing a smile once I see who is in there.
"Dr. Grey, there is bleeding in the abdomen." Jo yelled over all the commotion. Nurses are shuffling around to give us what we ask for and the monitors are beeping like crazy.
As I move to examine the patient, I accidentally elbow him, causing him to give me a look. I shrug it off, knowing it was an accident. "Dr. Riggs, aren't you supposed to not be weight bearing on that leg of yours?"
"Well Dr. Grey, I can put some weight on it. Plus I still would like to operate, so I can pull up a chair, and from the looks of it, you and I are going to be in the OR together for at least a couple hours." He smirked, not even looking up from the patient.
I decide to completely ignore what he just said, and pretend he is a different surgeon. "Wilson, call up and make sure they have an OR ready. Okay guys, let's get ready to move!" We all shuffle around and begin our way to to the elevator. We go by the other trauma rooms, I peer through the window to see an obvious tired Alex. I see his mouth move, but can't hear him. But I knew exactly what he was saying. Time of death. He looked defeated and stomped out of there in enough time to see Riggs and I pushing this patient down the hall. He puts a hand on his stomach, and looks over a Riggs. He wanted me to tell him, I would just not in the OR.
I took a deep breath in, and let it out. I listened to the sound of the water running as I scrubbed in. I don't know why, but the sound of the water calmed me. Or it least it did till the sink next to me was being used, and I knew it wasn't Wilson by how big the arms were. I couldn't bring myself to look up at his face. It wasn't until we were in the OR, standing side by side.
"Scalpel." My favorite scrub nurse, Bohkee, hands me a scalpel and I begin my part of the surgery, with Wilson assisting.
I decided to make small talk, seeing as the OR was to quiet. "So, Riggs. How much longer you got in the boot?" I already knew, but small talk is better than nothing.
"Like 4 weeks. I can't wait honestly, it's annoying."
I smile, which you can't see under the mask. "Yeah, I know that feeling. Except I wasn't aloud to put weight on mine till it healed. Which really sucked, by the way."
"Wasn't that around the time when I first got here?"
"Yep." Much of that time I'd rather not remember.
"I knew after you went through that, that you are a very, very strong person." I blush a little, and Wilson looks up at me.
"Uh, thanks, I guess."
"You're welcome." We return back to what we are doing, in silence again. Nothing is really said till the three of us are scrubbing out.
"Uh, Wilson. Great job today. You can take a break. I'll page you when I need you." I smile, getting a smile in return from my exhausted resident.
"Thank you Doctor Grey." Wilson says, before leaving Nathan and I in the scrub room together.
"So, how well do you know Teddy? I mean, you guys seemed like you knew a lot about each other, and I didn't even know she worked here till after that conversation with the three of us." He questions.
I scoff. "How well do I know Teddy? Really? What about you? How well do you know Teddy?" I fired back.
"I don't know why you seem upset all of sudden, are you okay?"
"I'm fine, and I asked you a question. How well do you know Teddy?" I snatch a towel a begin drying my hands while I wait for his answer.
"We are friends..." He trails off.
"Friends hmm?" I put of the biggest fake smile I can. "Or more like friends with benefits?"
"W-what?"
"The conference room. You call that just friends?" I fire back at him, getting even more upset. I can feel the tears coming.
"You saw that?" He asked, his eyes getting wide.
"Phft, that's what I thought." I say as I brush by him and out of the scrub room. I dash down the hall, barely sliding into an elevator in time. I turn around to see Nathan following not far behind me, but didn't make to the elevator in time. I let out a sigh of relief as we head up to the peds floor.
I go to the nurses station and grab a tablet to update my patients chart while I wait for Alex.
Within a few minutes, Alex appears. "Hey, Mer."
"Hey. Rough day?" The look on his face said it all.
"Yeah. Lost two patients, and had to give another one bad news."
I hand the tablet to one of the nurses to put it up for me. I look down at my watch, and see my shift was going to over in a few minutes. "When is your shift over?"
"I've got an hour or two. Why?"
"I think I am going to go home, seeing as my shift is over, I miss my kids, and I am exhausted." I say, and let out a breath of air.
"Oh okay. I should be home later."
"Alright, I'm going to go get the kids from daycare." I smile, and head for the elevator. As I head to the attending's lounge to get changed, I just hope he isn't in there, seeing as I don't want to deal with that right now. I let out a sigh of relief when the lounge is empty. I quickly change into whatever I was wearing this morning and head for the door. I pick up the kids and head home.
Once we get through the door, I make the kids a quick dinner, and put them to bed seeing as it is late. Usually right about now, I would kick back and relax with a bottle of tequila. But because of little peanut, I can't for several months. As I am cleaning up the kitchen, I become a little nauseated.
"Peanut, seriously now?" I ask, putting a hand to my stomach. It comes in waves as I clean up the kitchen, only getting stronger and a little bit of pain coming with it.
I manage to hold it back, but decide I really should get a shower and sleep. After my shower, I feel a little better. I lay in bed on my side, and look to the side of the bed that is always empty. Gosh, I wish it was wasn't empty. I shrug it off, and turn off my light. As I drift of to sleep, I notice a small pain in my stomach but decide to ignore it.
I awake in severe pain in my stomach. I grab my phone to look at what time it is. 9:26. I have to pee, so I throw the blankets off of me, but before I can get up, I notice the pool of blood I am currently laying in. Immediately tears flood my eyes, as I realize what is happening. I grab my phone and call Alex.
"Alex?" I barley choke out.
"Mer, I'm at dinner with Jo. I'll call you later. Okay?"
"Alex, wait." I cry out this time, barley able to hold myself together.
"Mer? Are you okay?" He voice changes to concern when he hears me crying.
"I-I.." I trail off, not even wanting to finish that sentence.
"Mer, tell me what's wrong. You are worrying me."
"Alex, I-I am having a miscarriage." Is all I can say before I completely break down in tears.
Sorry for the short chapter and the awful ending :( I will try to update this weekend I promise you, Mer will tell Nathan :)
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