Chapter 3
The next morning, I am still awake. I feel Happy start to stir next to me and feel him pull me a little closer, careful of my ribs. "Morning little girl." he says. "Morning Happy." I say softly. I turn to face him and he looks at me. Seeing that I look exhausted, he asks "Did you sleep?" I shake my head no. "Scared the nightmares will come back." I tell him. Cupping my face, he kisses me softly and says "I won't let anyone hurt you again. I'll be right here to protect you." he tells me. "I know." I tell him, believing him. He caresses my face. Something he used to do all the time when we were alone together. "I missed you Happy." I say softly. "I missed you too baby." he says. Kissing him softly I say "I want to work things out with you but Happy, I have to know I can trust you." I tell him. "I promise baby. I love you so fucking much. I'm not the same man I was back then." he tells me. "I can see that." I tell him. He reaches up and takes my hand and runs my fingers over a tattoo on his chest, right over his heart. I look at it and am shocked. Rhealinn is written in beautiful script. "Happy? When did you get this?" I ask. "Right after you left. It was the only way to keep you close to my heart." he tells me. "I mean it. I love you Rhea. I always have." he tells me. I still can't say it yet but I feel it and he knows it. I kiss him softly and say "It's beautiful baby." I tell him and he smiles softly. "You told me at the hospital that I'm yours. That means you're mine and you know my rule." I tell him. Nodding he says "That you can cut my dick off no matter the zip code." he tells me laughing. "Damn straight." I tell him. We lay there just looking into each other's eyes before I snuggle closer to him and my head is against his chest. "I do love you Happy. I never stopped." I tell him and feel him hold me tighter.
A little later, he helps me out of bed and into the main room. Sitting me down at a table, one of the croweaters walks over and puts a cup of coffee in front of both of us. "Thank you." I say. "Can you make her a plate?" Happy asks and the croweater nods and does as she's asked. "That's new." I say. "Yeah. Croweaters we have now, are more respectful than the ones in the past." Quinn tells me and I just nod. Bobby sits down and sees Happy with his arm around me and kissing my temple and asks "You two look cozy." Happy nods. "Happy and I were together back when he was a Nomad." I tell him. "What happened?" Bobby asks. "I was a dumbass and fucked things up." Happy tells him. "You giving him another chance?" Bobby asks me. "Yeah." I say as I look up at him and he kisses me softly. The croweater puts the plate in front of me and a glass of orange juice. "Thank you." I say. "Let me know if you need anything else Doll." she says before walking off. I eat and listen to everyone else talk. After I eat, I give the guys all the intel I have on my ex, Mark, and let them do what they need to do. I look at Happy and ask "Can we talk a minute?" He nods and we head back to the dorm. "What's wrong babe?" he asks. "There's something else I need to tell you and I don't want you to be mad at me." I tell him. "What?" he asks and he's actually calm. "When I went to the clubhouse and caught you with that sweetbutt, I was coming to tell you something." I tell him. "Okay." he says. "I was pregnant." I tell him and he runs his hand down his face. "What happened?" he asks. "I miscarried at eleven weeks." I tell him. "Doctor said it was the stress that I was dealing with." I tell him. "Shit." he says before standing up and waking over to me. Pulling me close, he asks "Were you happy about the baby?" I nod and say "Yeah. But then when I lost it, I just didn't care anymore. I lost you, our baby. I didn't have anything else to keep me going. I went into a deep depression and that's when I met Mark. I guess he played on my pain and I fell for it." I tell him. "Well, you're here now. Baby, I love you more than anything. More than the fucking club. You're it for me. You always were." he tells me. "I want this to work. You are the only one I ever saw having my crow, being my wife, having my kids. You. No one else." he tells me and I feel the tears start to fall. "I want that too Happy. Please don't hurt me again." I say. "I won't baby. I won't." he tells me.
We walk out to the main room after I splash water on my face. Sitting back at one of the tables, Quinn sits beside me and asks "You okay?" I nod and say "Just had to fill Happy in on a couple of things that happened when I left. Nothing that would help with finding Mark though." I tell him. He looks at me with that look that big brother look he gives me when I know I'm not getting out of it. "When I left, I was pregnant. Lost it at eleven weeks." I tell him and he hugs me. He looks at Happy and says "You fuck up again and I'll take Mayhem." Quinn says and Happy nods before kissing me deeply. "I love you little girl." he says. "I love you Giant." I tell him and he actually smiles. Holding me closer, we wait on the info on where to find Mark.