Adam

It was cold outside, the start of winter slowly blowing in. The news was on in the living room, the weather guy talking about the first snowstorm of the year that was coming. I was eating my dinner in silence watching the news as I ate. My mum and Step dad were out on a date night again. Jack was off with his girlfriend and Raven was cuddling his boyfriend on the couch.

"Hey Adam, found a guy yet?" Raven asked changing the channel to a random Christmas movie that was playing. I looked over at him, giving him a half glare.

"No, if I did, I wouldn't be home alone would I?" I snapped shoveling food into my mouth. Relationships were a touchy subject for me, mainly because of who my crush was. Yeah, I had a crush on someone. It's not that surprising since I knew this was going to happen. The more I tried to avoid this, it moved in closer and closer to me.

"You know you can always tell him and then see where that goes." Raven said playing with Johnny's hair as he curled up into him. I was so jealous of them right now I wanted to murder the two. I know it's not their fault, but I wanted to have what they had.

"Sure, just walked right on up to him and be like "Oh hey, so you know I hate you but I actually have been harboring a crush on you. Wanna go out?" That's so romantic and shit." I muttered angrily putting my plate in the sink and heading up to the stairs. Raven didn't answer, probably because he had nothing more to say. He just continued to cuddle his boyfriend on the couch, the two of them talking to each other quietly.

I whipped out my phone and pulled up my friends contact. I pressed it and started texting him, needing a whole lot of help on my "issue".

7:45 pm Adam: Zander, I really need help.

7:48 pm Zander: Yeah? What do you need mate?

I bit my lip looking that the screen of my phone thinking of ways to word my issue. Zander and I met when we had football tryouts. It was the beginning of the tryouts and I ran into him when trying to catch one of the footballs. We were actually going for the same ball and rammed into each other. It was a funny encounter but after that we got to know each other more and became friends.

He was a transgender, and he looked pretty good for one too. He told me a few weeks ago because he was afraid if he kept in his secret I would stop being the case. I was chill with him being trans and confessed to him that I was gay, and our manly bond was improved. We could talk to each other when we needed to and there would be no judging between us. It was one of the better friend relationships I had ever had in my life. Anyway, back to my conversation.

7:50 pm Adam: Ok, so there's a guy I like in school. And I am want to let him know I like him. Issue is that in school I actually look like I hate him….for reasons, and don't know how that would affect me confessing to him. I don't want a heartbreak or something worse happening.

7:53 pm Zander: Alright. Boyfriend issues. Got it. Well if you really like him, just tell him, I'm sure it won't be that bad. Explain to him why you were "hating" him and then things should go your way.

7:54 pm Adam: Yeah but, like…

7:54 pm Zander: Like?

7:54: pm Adam: My crush is Jason Raymil.

7:55 pm Zander: …

7:55 pm Zander: You mean to tell me, your crush is Jason Raymil, the guy that all the girls are trying to get laid by!? The playboy?

7:56 pm Adam: Yeah….

7:56 pm Zander: Well, just try and do what I suggested, but seriously man, don't get hurt if he rejects you or breaks up with you after a month. It's typical with him.

7:57 pm Adam: Yeah. Thanks man.

I turned off my phone after that, not wanting Zander to start asking me questions about what was going on. The last thing I needed from him was him asking me questions.

I laid in my bed for a long time, consumed by my thoughts and fears. What if he does say yes, what would I do then. No don't be silly, this is stupid. Maybe I should just stay quiet, have him come to me? Would he even like me back? I mean he is a playboy after all, his whole life is about getting as many hearts as he can and breaking them all. God why did I have to fall in love with him?

The next day at school I was avoiding everyone, even my brothers. THey quickly caught onto my unusual behavior, but it didn't seem to phase them too much so they left me alone for the most part. Jason on the other hand, was trying to talk to me constantly.

For example, when I got to first period, he walked in right behind me and was tapping my shoulder trying to get my attention. I of course didn't turn to him and continue into the class, taking my seat and getting out the previous night's homework. This didn't cause Jason to stop, clearly he didn't understand I didn't want to talk.

Through all of first period he was throwing me notes, trying to get my attention. I ignored that all. Next he tried talking to me, saying my name over and over again. He was again ignored. This went on and on and on until he finally had enough and stopped me in the halls on my way to basketball practice.

"ADAM WOULD YOU GOD DAMN LISTEN TO ME?!" he yelled into my face, his expression red with frustration, and maybe a little bit of anger. I stared at him blankly and sighed not looking happy with him.

"What do you want." I said looking at him. He took a deep breath as if it took him a lot of energy to yell at me.

"I have been trying to tell you something really important all day." He said, pouting slightly. I rolled my eyes. I had no time for this. He noticed that I was slowly losing my patience with him and decided to act fast. And act fast he did.

Before I could process him leaning closer to me, I felt something connect with my lips. Jason Raymil was kissing me.