Her Past Catches Up With Her

AN/ I did change a little bit of a procedure to fit the story. So please, bear with me. Thanks and I hope you all enjoy this chapter. I don't own Criminal minds.

Chapter 31

The next day, JJ seems nervous the more the day. As it gets closer to her appointment time, she starts to act a little more unlike JJ. She's unable to concentrate. Everyone notices, but says nothing.

At 2:30pm the next day, JJ and Shawn leave the FBI building. They go to Shawn's car and head to JJ's first appointment to see how the baby's doing. She so relieved that Shawn wanted to go with her. She wasn't sure she'd be able to do this alone.

On the drive to the medical building, Shawn grabs JJ's hand and laces his fingers in between hers. He looks over at her and they smile at each other.

"What are you thinking?" Shawn asks.

"Just that this appointment is about to change my life forever. I just keep telling myself that this one I CAN keep. It was an enjoyable pregnancy the first time, but painful knowing that she wasn't going to be with me. But now there's the whole 'what if I screw it up this way' or 'what if I don't do this right'. It's very scary thinking that I have that kind of power over another human being. I can mess it's life up or make it the best I can." JJ starts to tear up again. "Damn these hormones." JJ laughs when Shawn laughs at her. And he squeezes her hand to let her know that he's with her all the way.

When they pull into the parking lot, JJ takes a deep cleansing breath. Shawn squeezes her hand.

"You ready baby?" Shawn rubs the back of JJ hands with his thumb.

"I guess. After this, it's really real. No more pretending it's not. I'd be lying if I said I wasn't scared." JJ says, looking straight ahead out the windshield.

"But remember, you're not alone. I'm here and you can lean on me." Shawn pulls her over to him and kisses her. This makes JJ smile. Shawn smiles back. They get out and head into the building to fill out the short novel that they call paper work. They walk hand in hand into the office.

As JJ fills out the paper work, she gets to the point where it asks her to list the father's name. JJ's body tenses and Shawn could feel it and see it.

"What honey?" Shawn's awareness heightens.

"They want the father's name. If I put Josh, then nosy Pen can get the info. But it's legal, so if I put you down, the you're responsible." JJ's unsure what to put down.

"Well, I told you that you can list me as father. I'm not going anywhere." Shawn bands down and kisses JJ's temple. JJ knows that Shawn's serious, but she decides to leaves it blank. A few minutes later, her names called. Shawn and JJ follows the nurse back to the exam room. She gets here weight on the way to the room.

"If you have a seat. And you need to change into this paper gown. Just pull this curtain around, undress and then have a seat on the table. Dr. Rosem will be in shortly." The nurse says and leaves.

"This is going to be a bit awkward. Once I'm done changing, I'll have to come and stand up by my head. That way neither of us will be embarrassed by the nakedness of me from the waist down. Like the sex we'll have won't be awkward enough." JJ says, nervously laughing.

"Don't worry baby. This is going to be a beautiful experience." Shawn clueless says.

"It may be beautiful to you, but I'm the one that's going to be looked at and have hands where only my husbands hands should go. I still remember the pain of childbirth. There's NOTHING beautiful about that. Trust me when I say OUCH!" JJ says, while getting undressed.

"Yes, but honey, you get to keep and hold this one. He or she will nestle in your arms. You will change his or her diaper, feed him or her. You get all the rewards for your pain." Shawn says, hoping he's getting through to JJ, with her on the other side of the curtain he couldn't see her reaction. There's a knock on the door.

"Come in!" JJ says, finishing up folding her cloths.

"Hello. I'm Doctor Sally Rosem." She says, shaking hands with Shawn.

"Hello. I'm Shawn Michaels. Jennifer's just finishing changing. Honey, are you ready?" Shawn says.

"Ok, I'm ready." JJ had sat on the table in a way so Shawn could get up to the head of the table. The doctor opens the curtain to see JJ sitting there.

"Hello Jennifer. I'm doctor Sally Rosem. I'm happy to meet you. So, when did you fin out that you're expecting?" Dr. Rosem asks, taking her blood pressure reading.

"Well, that was Saturday, early morning. I had gone to the ER for an accident and they called to tell me my blood work indicated I was anemic and the baby should be fine." JJ says, shaking a bit. Knowing that the exam was coming. No one had touched her down there since the rape kit.

"Wow, what a way to find out. Were you two trying or was it an oops?" Dr. Rosem writes down the results.

"It was an oops." JJ didn't deny or affirm that Shawn was the daddy. Shawn noticed this too.

"Well, you both look excited. So let's have a look. Then we'll do an ultrasound so you can hear the heartbeat. Lay back and scoot your bottom to the end of the table. Then place your feet in the stir-ups." JJ did what she was told, while trying to keep her body covered. That's when JJ heard the snapping of the latex gloves being put on by the doctor. JJ jumps at each snap. Shawn grabs her hand and squeezes. She looks up at him and he looks down at her. They both smile at each other. Then the doctor starts the exam. Once contact between the doctor and JJ are met, JJ pulls on Shawn's hand. He places the other hand over her hand to re-enforce the comfort and support. Shawn can see the tears forming in JJ's eyes. He could tell that this was hard for her. He wasn't sure about pain, but hard all the same.

"Yes, you are definitely pregnant. It seems healthy. I mean it's doing good. Any pain, spotting, vomiting or headaches?" The doctor asks, looking up at JJ as she removes the gloves.

"Vomiting, dizziness and I've had a couple headaches." JJ answers.

"Why didn't you tell me about the headaches?" Shawn asks, hurt.

"Because I figured it was all the throwing up caused them." JJ argues.

"Ok, we can't give you anything to help with the vomiting. Just drink a little ginger ale and eat some crackers. The headaches, just take a plain ole aspirin. The dizziness, you're going to have to learn how to stand up slower. Slow your movements. If you get any pain or spotting, call me. What is it you do for a living?"

"I'm an FBI agent. I work with the BAU. I'm the Media Liaison. Do I need to stop doing anything?" JJ asks, nervously.

"Well, I don't think you should be running after bad guys. Just try to keep from falling, being kicked or punched. Don't get shot or stabbed. You know, all the stuff that isn't good for you if you AREN'T pregnant. Just remember that the first trimester's the most common trimester for miscarriages. Now, let's have a listen to your baby's heartbeat. We can tell how far along you are. And get a guest-a-mate on the due date." The doctor squeezes the gel on her stomach and turns the machine on. She takes the wand and places it into the gel. Moving it around, she turns the sound on. They hear a whoosh whoosh. "That's your baby's heartbeat. Don't worry about the fastness of the beats. That's normal." She moves the wand and points to what looks like a white spot in the gray and white monitor. "That's your baby."

"Oh my." Is all Shawn can say.

"It looks like you're about 8 weeks pregnant. So your due date is looking to be about March 8th. Now this date may change due to the earliness of this ultrasound. But it gives you s rough idea. Let me print this out for you while you get dressed and then we can talk about the prenatal vitamins. See you in a few minutes." Doctor Rosem leaves and Shawn steps behind the curtain so JJ can get dressed. As soon as JJ's dressed, she pulls the curtain open. She stands there and they both just stare at each other.

"So, did you like your first baby ultrasound?" JJ asks Shawn.

"It was amazing. That really makes it real. Doesn't it?" Shawn asks in amazement.

"Yes. That's exactly the way it felt the first time." JJ lets a few tears streak down her cheeks. Shawn can't fight the urge to get up and go over to hug JJ.

"What's wrong baby? Are these happy tears?"

"I don't know!" JJ bursts into a full out sob. Shawn squeezes her tighter. Before Shawn can continue the conversation, the doctor knocks on the door. "Come in." JJ says.

"Here's the script for the prenatal vitamins. Just fill it when you run out of what the ER doc gave you. I want to see you back in a month. But feel free to come in if something seems wrong or call with any questions you might have." Dr. Rosem says.

"I remember the drill." JJ pipes in.

"Oh, you've had a child before? Did I miss that on your chart?" Dr. Rosem looks on the chart. "I don't see that on the chart." Dr. Rosem looks confused.

"I had a baby about 11 years ago. She was given up for adoption. I'm sorry. I didn't even think about her as being in my history." JJ says, wiping tears away, but feeling like she was going to start up again.

"I'm very sorry to hear that. But we need to make sure you have EVERY thing down in the history. Is there anything on here that you didn't mark that you should have. Sit down and we'll go over it to make sure it's as correct as possible." Dr. Rosem sits down as JJ sits next to Shawn.

"JJ, I think we need to tell her. All of it baby. It might be important for her to know it all." Shawn looks JJ in the eyes, to show he was seriously worried about her health and the health of the baby.

"What's going on folks?" Dr. Rosem is concerned now.

"My first baby was a product of rape. And this baby is too. The same father. I was drugged this last time. I was unconscious and was raped by two men. But I don't remember it. But I'm pregnant. So Shawn's worried that the drug they gave me might hurt the baby. You know side effects or whatever." JJ's looking at the floor as Shawn holds her hand.

"That's horrible dear. No one should have to go through that. But it would have been helpful to know. I wasn't to rough or anything with the exam was I?" Dr. Rosem says, gently tapping JJ's knee.

"No. I was just not happy about the procedure. But who really LOVES those exams." JJ laughs and looks into the eyes of her new doctor. Dr. Rosem realizes that JJ's not as fragile as she thought.

"Yeah. I'm not to happy with them myself. Well, if you need anything you call the office. It seems you have a support system. But are you going to counseling?" Dr. Rosem asks.

"Yes. Thank you for understanding. I had a problem with the fathers name. Do I have to put the rapists name? Shawn wants me to put his name. The rapist's dead." JJ says with a little curving of her lips. Not quite smiling, but feeling relief at the thought of never having to see Josh again.

"Does this guy have family?"

"I think so. Can't we just put a special note in my chart in case something medical comes up? They don't know about either child. I would prefer it stay that way." JJ hopes that something like that can be done. If Pen did her magic and sees that she's pregnant, then she wants Shawn to be thought of as the baby's father.

"I think we can arrange something like that. Now, here's your ultrasound pictures. Don't you hesitate to call me for any reason. You know what feels right. And let me say Mr. Michaels, you are good people I my book. Jennifer's lucky to have you." Dr. Rosem shakes their hands and lets them leave. Dr. Rosem thinks that JJ's gone through so much. Then she realizes that JJ's strong and a fighter. So that little baby was going to be just fine. So she goes on with her next patient.

Out in the car, as they both buckle their seat belts, JJ stops and looks at Shawn.

"She's right you know. I'm lucky to have you." JJ smiles at him.

"No, I'm lucky to have you. And this tiny baby." Shawn puts a gentle hand on JJ's flat stomach. JJ giggles a little bit and throws her head back.

"Shawn, I love you so much."

"I love you too baby." Shawn places the hand that was resting on her stomach, on her cheek and pulls her head closer to kiss. JJ moans a little bit in the pleasure that was Shawn. When he pulls back he says, " Why don't we go put something up for dinner and go back to your place and pop in a movie. We can cuddle and watch something you want. I'll buy."

"How about we pick something up for dinner, then start a movie. But I say we finish with a little more something sensual." JJ shyly smiles, waiting for a reaction from Shawn.

"If it happens it happens. I don't want to plan it. I don't want to make you feel you have to baby." Shawn likes the thought of having JJ in that way, but all the same, he doesn't want to go too fast and lose her.

"So what do you want to eat?" JJ asks, deciding to drop it for now.

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