Chapter 5

A/N

I lost my notebook with all my stories so I'll be putting them up a bit slower. I had a whole chapter written for this, D.S.N and L.A.F.S and now it's all gone. I'm still trying to find it, but for now, I'm really sorry! Oh, and I really like this chapter!!

The time Nate, Jason, and worst of all Shane were sitting at our-Tess, Caitlyn, and me-table seemed like eternity.

"So, where did you 3 go to university?" Nate asked us trying to make small talk. All of us could feel the tension between Shane and I. Go figure, huh? What was I thinking going to Shane's favorite place on his favorite day?! I hate myself officially.

"We stayed here in L.A and went to UCLA. Mitchie spent a lot of time taking care of Brooke." Tess replied.

"Me Brooke!!" Brooke joined in. Everyone laughed.

"Oh, that's cool." Jason commented. Yeah, right. Connect 3 was on tour and the though going to UCLA was cool?

"So, what else have you guys been up to?" Nate asked.

"Nothing much, just school and taking care of this kid." Tess said pointing to Brooke.

"Ohhh…"

"So, how was the tour?" Tess asked.

"It was awesome!! Performing in Mexico was the best though. The fans were amazing and people camped out in like, 100 degrees just to see us or get tickets!" Jason exclaimed getting into his character.

"That's great!" Tess replied also getting excited.

"So, how about you, Tess? Did singing career take hold?" Nate asked.

"No, I was helping Mitchie with Brooke." Tess explained. Okay, now I felt really bad. I took Tess' singing career and dream away from her!

"What about you Caitlyn? Did your producing career take hold?" Nate addressed Caitlyn.

"No, same as Tess, taking care of Brooke." Okay, now I felt really, really, really bad. I took dreams away from two people who have always been there for me. I'm such a bad person! Again, I hate myself.

"Mommy, I thirsty. Drink please!" Brooke said.

"Alright, Bee. Here's you orange juice." I replied handing Brooke her drink.

"Thanks!" She put her mouth to the drink hole and drank. She looked at Shane. Oh no…

"Hi!! You like my mommy?" Brooke asked Shane. Crap. I covered my face with my hands. Shane laughed,

"She's a really great person Brooke."

"Really? If she's such a great person, why'd you leave her?" Tess asked. No, no, no. I shot Caitlyn a 'Help-Me-Now' look. And she gave me a 'Sorry-I-Can't-Don-Anything' look back. Oh, so she was playing safe and keeping quiet. Caitlyn was defiantly the smartest out of all of us. Shane was very caught off guard with the question.

"W-what?" Wow Shane, smart answer.

"I said if Mitchie's such a great person, why'd you leave her? She's your daughter too Shane." Tess repeated. Shut up Tess!!

"Who your daughter?" Brook asked curiously.

"It's just –a girls sweetie. Just a girl." I answered before anyone else could.

"Me girl!" Brooke exclaimed. Boy, if she knew how right she was.

"I-I left because I have a life and it doesn't revolve around Mitchie or anything in particular." Shane replied. Okay, that hurt.

"That's it? I've been asking my self 'What did I do wrong?' all these years and that is the answer I get?!" I cried. Why was I crying?

"Mitch, you know I didn't mean to hurt you."

"No," I whispered my voice cracking, "No I didn't." I could feel everyone's eyes on me; especially Brooke's. I could feel the arm tears flooding down my cheeks. I could taste the saltwater in my mouth.

"Mommy?" Brooke asked.

"She's fine Bee. She's just telling Shane something important." Caitlyn answered for me in a reassuring voice.

Then, Shane reached out to wipe a tear, and I let him. I let him take me in his strong arms and cradle me. I let him stroke my hair and whisper 'I'm sorry' over and over again. I let him do it in front of all my friends. Then it hit me. I knew why I was letting him take over me like this again. I was still in love with Shane. Even though he was the guy that broke my heart and the guy that was the father of my dad-less daughter, I still loved him. Despite everything he ever did to me. Shane was my other half and I wouldn't be complete until I admitted how I felt.

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I know, it's super, super, super, duper short, but there's a cliffy! It's one of my best chapters even though it's short! I need more reviews to get me going. Everyone who reviewed, this one is dedicated for you. I'm also a very talented rhymer! =)

J