A soft exhale on the back of her neck caused Olivia to stir in her sleep. After a moment the tender press of lips to her jaw caused her eyes to flutter open sleepily.
"Mnm...'Talia?" she murmured quietly as she wiped at her eyes with her hand.
"I'm right here..." Natalia responded quietly her lips still grazing Olivia's jaw ever so slightly.
"Hey" Olivia whispered as she rolled over to face the other woman.
"Hi" Natalia smiled softly as she squeezed Olivia's hand softly.
"I thought that I was dreaming" Olivia spoke up as she shifted her gaze away from Natalia's awkwardly "That maybe, when I woke up you wouldn't be here...That I'd be alone again..."
"I'm Sorry..." Natalia said as her face crumbled into an expression of sadness "I'm sorry that I didn't realise..."
"Shh" Olivia interrupted her with a quick kiss which left Natalia momentarily speechless "It's Okay..."
Natalia remained silent as she smiled lovingly at Olivia and moved a hand to Olivia's cheek, caressing it gently. Olivia frowned as she suddenly recalled that they had been in this position before.
"This kind of love?" Olivia asked softly lifting Olivia's hand to her cheek.
Natalia pulled away.
"You're not ready!" Olivia exclaimed covering her face with her hands.
Natalia reached up and pulled Olivia's hands away from her face and held them gently in her own as she gazed sadly at Olivia.
Olivia snapped back to the present and as she did her mind was thrown back into reality as the love filled haze Natalia had wrapped around her dissolved. She quickly pulled away from the dark haired beauty and jumped out of bed as if she'd been stung.
Natalia sat up and looked at her in confusion and hurt "What?" she asked "What did I do?"
"Nothing..." Olivia replied as she ran a hand haphazardly through her hair "But...shouldn't you be going? I mean you must have things to do or...or something..."
Good one Spencer she thought to herself throw the old defences back up...kick her out before she leaves, right?"
"You're THROWING ME OUT?" Natalia asked incredulously as hurt shimmered in her soft dark eyes and her lower lip began to tremble. Olivia's heart broke at the sight in front of her and she stepped forward concluding that she'd rather hurt herself than have to see Natalia in the slightest bit of pain.
"No..." she said softly as she took a seat right next to Natalia "No, but...Natalia...What IS this? What changed?"
"What do you mean?" Natalia remarked in confusion pushing the covers off herself.
"I don't understand what changed since yesterday..." Olivia spoke refusing to look up into Natalia's eyes "What about Rafe, Frank, Emma...Your RELIGION?"
Natalia took a deep breath, gathering her thoughts before speaking up "Look at me Olivia..." Olivia looked up rather begrudgingly into Natalia's eyes before the younger girl continued "My religion...I already told you Olivia my religion is about LOVE..."
"But that's not what other people will say!" Olivia argued stubbornly "They'll say that it's WRONG and...and there'll be whispers and people talking about you. I don't want you to get hurt Natalia!"
Natalia moved forward slightly and took Olivia's hand, relived when the other women didn't flinch away from her touch "Well than they can whisper and talk Olivia because I LOVE YOU. They can't change how I feel or what I believe...God won't stop loving because I'm in love with you!" seeing that she was starting to get through to Olivia she continued steadily "Beloved, let us love one another, because love is of God; everyone who loves is begotten by God and knows God, Whoever is without love does not know God, for God is love." Her vision blurred with tears as she clutched both of Olivia's hands tightly "You can't leave me Olivia...if you do it'll hurt more than anything...I love you..."
"Hey..." Olivia said in alarm as she moved forward quickly and wrapped Natalia into a tight comforting hug "I'm Sorry Natalia...I won't leave you I swear..."
"You love me, right?" Natalia questioned quietly into her shoulder.
"I do" Olivia answered honestly as she pulled away to look into Natalia's eyes "I'm sorry..."
"Do you want to be with me?" Natalia asked cautiously, vulnerability audible in the question.
Olivia nodded without hesitation and Natalia smiled unreservedly as she leaned back against the headboard and held her arms open to Olivia "C'mere"
Olivia instantly moved into her embrace and leaned back against her "What about Rafe and Emma..." she winced "And Frank?"
"I think Emma will be the easy one to tell" Natalia replied thoughtfully as she breathed in Olivia's calming scent "And Rafe...Well...I'm not sure about him..."
"And Frank?" Olivia pressed.
Natalia bit her lip nervously "I don't know...I'll have to tell him...I don't think he's going to take it well..."
Olivia sighed and tightened her embrace on Natalia "That's what I'm worried about..."
"We'll get through it" Natalia stated surprising both Olivia and herself with her optimism "We'll get through it Together"
Olivia smiled up at Natalia "Sooo..." she said teasingly "Have you been reading a lot of those books? You seem to be throwing a lot of quotes at me all of a sudden..."
"Shut up" Natalia blushed as Olivia placed a soft kiss on her cheek.
After a minute or two Olivia broke the comfortable silence between them "Natalia?"
"Mmmhm?" Natalia mumbled.
"What are we now?" The older woman asked "To each other, I mean...Are we like...Dating?"
"Yeah" Natalia smiled as she looked into Olivia's eyes "I guess we are...If that's okay with you, that is..."
"Of course it is..." Olivia responded before she moved forward and captured Natalia's lips with her own. Natalia wrapped her arms tightly around Olivia happy to just be with her and pushed the thoughts of telling people to the back of her mind...for now...
