A/N: So, I'm really bored and don't feel like working on my Mello story at the moment so this chapter's coming up now. Get ready for some depressingness coming up. It's not what you think...yet...but it's still sad. And don't forget to read Perfect. It might cheer you up after reading this! Please review!

Chapter 27: Worry

Watari sat comfortably in his chair as he nibbled on his breakfast, which consisted of a doughnut and some coffee. He was in his own special room that L had assigned him to work in, keeping watch like he normally did. There was nothing going on at all, so Watari found this as his moment to relax.

He closed his eyes for a moment before hearing something from behind him. He whipped around in his chair, only to see L standing there looking down at the ground. L wasn't one for showing his emotions, but as Watari watched him standing there, he couldn't help but notice that the young detective was looking absolutely devastated.

"Ryuzaki, is something the matter? What is it? What's wrong?" Watari asked in concern.

L didn't respond though. He just stood there, looking to be on the verge of tears.

"Ryuzaki, tell me what's wrong," Watari coaxed.

L shut his eyes tightly and clenched his fists.

"Did something happen with Miss Yamagata?" Watari wondered.

L took in a deep breath and faced the old man that had taken care of him since he was a child. "I'm worried," he finally managed to say. "I can't say this to Miya because I know it would frighten her, but I have to tell someone. Something is going to happen."

"What do you mean, Ryuzaki?" Watari asked unsurely.

"Even though there is the Thirteen Day Rule, I still believe Light Yagami is Kira and that Misa Amane is the second Kira. Now that they are free, I have a feeling things aren't going to end well. I believe they are conspiring together and are going to kill me. It's out of my hands now." He hung his head down in defeat.

"Are you sure, Ryuzaki?"

"My intuition is almost always correct, Watari," L replied. "It's not death that worries me. I have never loved a woman and had her love me back before and now I wish it had never happened. If I am to die today, I would leave Miya all by herself. She'll have to take care of a baby alone again." L sighed. "Her mother was right. This will be like last time for Miya, because I will end up leaving her on her own."

Watari did not like what he was hearing. He had never seen L so happy before he met Miya. "I can't believe you would say that," Watari said. The disappointment in Watari's voice made L raise his head in surprise and stare back at the old man. "Miya has been the best thing that has ever happened to you. I know that there is no part of you that wishes you had never met her before."

L nodded slightly. "You're right. If I could go back, I'd do it all over again." His voice was firm, and Watari could tell he meant it.

They were both silent for a moment. Watari was the first to break the silence. "Are you sure about Light Yagami?"

"Almost positive," L replied swiftly. "Watari, if anything happens to you, I want you erase all the files we have immediately. I have put together a fund for Miya that will help her when I am gone. With all the money I saved for her, she won't have to work a day in her life anymore, and she won't have to struggle to support our children. It's the best I can do now that I'm going to abandon her…"

The two of them were silent again, deep in thought. One thing was certain though. They both hoped, with all their might, that Ryuzaki's feeling was incorrect.

L tried his hardest, later that morning, not to go up to Miya's room and lie in bed with her until she woke up. As much as he wanted to, he just knew he couldn't. He had to focus on the notebook at the moment, and see if there was any possible way that he could change his fate.

L took the Death Note and opened it, holding the corners between his thumb and index finger. He scanned it carefully and was surprised when he saw that there was a corner missing from one of the pages. "Hm. Interesting. The corner of the page of this notebook has been torn off." He looked up at Rem, who was standing across from him. "Can you kill somebody by writing a name on the piece?"

"Can't say," Rem answered vaguely. "I've never tried using it like that and I don't know of anyone who has."

"Then let me ask you, do gods of death love apples?"

"Not necessarily. You see, our internal organs have already degraded. We've evolved to a point where we do not require sustenance."

At this moment, Miya walked downstairs. She only glanced at Light, but then smiled when her eyes landed on Ryuzaki. It fell however, when her eyes fell on the Shinigami.

"Morning all…"

"Good morning Miya," L replied distractedly. He tried to focus on his work in front of him. Miya was making it difficult, however, when she leaned over to him and kissed his cheek. "Missed you," she murmured.

L cleared his throat before addressing the boy in the back of the room. "Say Light. You're finally free to leave headquarters on your own but it seems like you never go out. Even when Misa comes to visit, you only chat with her for a few minutes outside. You do realize you're free to have a relationship with her now."

"That can wait until we've managed to solve this case. I'm not in the mood for love or anything else right now," Light replied curtly. L knew that was a jab at him and Miya but he chose to ignore it. "Anyway, are you suggesting that I'll be a nuisance for staying here?"

"Yes…"Miya said under her breath.

"No," L replied. "You're free to stay as long as you want."

"But not right now," Miya interrupted. "You too Shinigami," she said, facing Rem.

Light rolled his eyes at her. "You have a bedroom don't you? Go in there."

His tone pissed her off more than the words themselves, and Miya suppressed glaring at him. "Fine." Miya then grabbed onto L's hand and pulled him, making him stand and follow her. He trudged along behind her as she laced fingers with him.

The made it to her room in silence. When Miya was finally sure they were alone, she turned to L and gave him a concerned look. "What's wrong?" she asked immediately.

"There's nothing wrong," L said.

Miya raised an eyebrow. "I know you, L. You're acting more bizarre than usual. There's something wrong and you're not telling me about it."

"Miya, I assure you, there is nothing wrong. I just have my mind on that notebook."

Miya pursed her lips in thought as she eyed the man in front of her. "You know, for some reason, I don't think that's the truth." She sighed and stepped closer to him. He didn't step back so she placed a hand on his cheek to keep his eyes on her. "I know you're not used to letting people in, but you can. I'll always be here for you, okay? So if you have something on your mind that's worrying you, I want you to tell me. Understand?"

"Yes Miya," L said. He leaned forward and kissed her lips gently. "There is nothing bothering me, but I must go now. I need to find out more things about the notebook." He couldn't tell her all of what was on his mind. How could he?

Miya sighed. "Alright then. I'll be down later, okay? I have to make Noah's breakfast and get him ready for day-care."

"That's fine," L said. He then turned around and left the room.

Miya looked after him. Even though he said there was nothing wrong, she just didn't believe it. Ever since Miya had gotten to know him better, his emotions had become easier to read. She knew the others couldn't tell what he was thinking, but Miya was getting better at it. And she knew, from the second she realized he wasn't lying next to her on the bed, that something was wrong. Ever since he was freed from the handcuffs, he hadn't left Miya's side if he could help it. He was always in bed with her. That morning, however, he was gone. When they were talking a moment ago, Miya could see it in his eyes that he was worrying about something. Miya was slightly hurt that he didn't share with her what was going on, but she figured he would tell her in his own time.

A few days later, after Miya had dropped off Noah at the day-care center, she made her way back to the high-security building that was headquarters. Things were going good so far, now that the Death Note was in task force hands, but what the men were discussing came as a shock.

"What's going on?" Mr. Yagami said. "I heard criminals are being killed again."

"What?" Miya asked, surprised. "For real?" Miya had thought before that there must be another notebook. This was probably the second Death Note that was killing people again.

"There were sixteen deaths just yesterday," Aizawa informed them. "All of them were broadcast after Higuchi's death."

"Immediately after, huh?" Matsuda asked.

Mr. Yagami turned to L. "Do you think this could mean that Higuchi wasn't necessarily Kira after all?"

Light answered, "No, it's safe to say Higuchi was the one punishing criminals until we apprehended him." That much was true, Miya was certain, but then who was punishing criminals now?

Aizawa seemed disgruntled at this piece of information. "Then this means we are dealing with yet another Kira."

"Aw man!" Matsuda groaned. "Not again!"

"Damn! Damn you Kira!" Light yelled clenching his fists. Miya really hated his reactions to everything. He always played it out like he had a huge grudge against Kira, but it almost always seemed overdone.

L had been quiet for a moment, eating panda cookies as he processed everything. "These killings began as soon as Misa was free, didn't they?"

Miya's eyes widened. That was true. Every since Misa left, criminals had started dying again. It couldn't be just coincidence. If Light was really the main Kira, when he was acting lovey-dovey with Misa, he could have been instructing her on what to do.

Light didn't like his answer, but then again, when did Light ever like anything L said?

"Ryuzaki, are you still going on about that? She has nothing to do with this! Think about it. This started as soon as Higuchi died."

"I suppose you're right," L replied. He proceeded in dumping all the cookies on the table, looking at them rather than eating them. Miya was surprised he gave up so easily. Was he losing faith in himself? "If there is another notebook floating around, and someone is now using it to kill criminals, I'll just have to bring that person to justice."

"That's right," Miya agreed. "And you'll be able to do it too!" Miya saw a ghost of a smile on his face and smiled herself. He just needed a little encouragement.

"Ryuzaki," Light started. "I've been thinking, even if we do manage to catch the person who's been writing names in the notebook, will we really be able to legally convict and punish them for mass homicide?"

"What?" Matsuda asked surprised. "Of course we can convict them! This guy is intentionally writing names in the notebook, knowing that these people are going to die. Even if we don't plan on publicly acknowledging the notebook, the least we could do is execute the killer!" Miya nodded in agreement.

"It's not a very humane way to do things," Aizawa commented, "but the higher-ups would probably want to take measures like that."

"If they admit to killing with the notebook," L said, "they will receive the death penalty, or life in prison at least." He took a bite of one of his cookies before continuing. "That's the best that they could hope for."

"Has anyone seen Ryuzaki?" Miya asked the group of men when she entered headquarters. She had been expecting to see him sitting in the usual crouched position in his chair, but found that it was empty.

"Sorry Miya," Matsuda apologized. "We don't know where he is."

Watari's voice from the computer made her jump slightly. "I think he's outside on the roof of the building."

Miya furrowed her eyebrows in confusion. "Outside? In the rain?" She then made her way to the elevator where it escalated to the top of building. It was just one more flight of stairs to the roof and as she finally made it outside, she saw L standing there, looking up at the sky.

'What is he doing?' Miya thought to herself. She was glad she brought a jacket with her before she went outside. She put the hood over her head and began walking through the rain to L.

He hadn't looked at her yet, even though she knew that he was aware of her presence. Something was definitely wrong.

She put a hand over her head to cover the rain from her eyes as she stared at him curiously, now facing him. "What are you doing out here?!"

L finally looked at her. His face was completely void of emotion now and Miya felt her heart starting to pound faster against her chest. "What is wrong?" she asked in desperation. "Don't hide this from me anymore!"

L didn't say anything as he continued staring at her. The rain was sliding down his face in little droplets and his raven hair was matted against his face and neck. His white shirt was clinging onto his skin and Miya could clearly see his muscles through it. If Miya wasn't so worried, she would have probably tried to make a move on him.

L gave her a half-smile. "There is nothing wrong," he assured her. He leaned forward and placed his lips on hers. As Miya was kissing him though, she felt his lip quiver slightly. She pulled away quickly and gazed up at him.

"There is too something wrong!" Miya yelled over the rain pouring down. "Tell me! Please!"

Instead of answering her, he wrapped his arms around her and put his head on her shoulder. "What…?" Miya began to ask, breaking the sentence suddenly when she felt L's body shaking against her. It took her a moment to realize that he was actually crying.

Miya's eyes widened and she could feel her own tears pushing against her eyes. "You're scaring me. Why won't you tell me…?"

"I love you…" L whispered against her shoulder. She had barely heard it over the pounding rain, and it only caused the tears to actually flow down her cheeks. Even though she knew how he felt about her, he had never actually told her he loved her in words.

Her tears mixed with the raindrops as she wrapped her arms around his slender body and held him close. They stayed like that for a few moments, before L finally pulled away. He then got down on his knees before her and placed a hand on her small stomach. There was a slight baby bump, but it wasn't big enough for someone to guess that she was pregnant yet. He then hugged her waist and placed his cheek against her stomach.

'Why is he acting like this?' Miya thought as more tears slid down her face. When he released her again, he stood back up and looked into her brown eyes.

"I want you to know that if anything happens to me, Light Yagami is Kira," L told her simply.

"What?" Miya asked. She then shook her head. "Nothing's going to happen to you. I've told you before and I'll say it again. You worry too much." Though as she attempted to settle his nerves, she felt her own worry double.

L chuckled slightly. "You're probably right. You should get inside. I don't want you to get sick. That won't be good for the baby."

Miya nodded as she wiped her eyes. "And don't stay out much longer either. You can't afford to get sick yourself."

She leaned forward, pressing her lips to his once more. Her hand moved to the side of his face, feeling the strange mixture of cold rain and warm tears that moistened his cheek. She then pulled away by just an inch, looking into his midnight eyes that were so clearly filled with a worry neither she nor the rain could wash away. She met his lips for just the briefest moment again before stepping back, letting her hand linger on his cheek as she gave him what she hoped was a comforting smile. Reluctantly, she then turned away and headed back inside.

The cold building and wet clothes caused Miya to shiver as she walked through the hallways. She really needed to go back to her room and change before she left to run her errands, a small task that seemed insignificant now. She considered for a moment staying behind, but she decided maybe what L needed was some time alone to think and so she managed to keep her feet moving forward.

On her way, she saw Light heading in her direction. He only glanced at her for a second, but didn't really acknowledge her existence. Miya was slightly interested in the fact that he was heading in the same direction she had come from. Did he need to speak to L about something?