She was beginning to get nervous and didn't notice that Jack was as well "Get some sleep and some of the pain should go." Melinda nodded and watched him about to leave but just before he left completely she grabbed his arm making him turn to her "Melinda?"

Melinda looked him in the eye "Jack I want to tell you what was true. I mean I want to tell you some of my past." When Jack sat down again she said "I told Sawyer but I know I am going to regret telling him and I only told him because I was annoyed and sometimes I end up telling people about my past when I'm annoyed but I want to tell you some of my past because I actually trust you."

When she looked him in the eyes he said "You don't have to tell me." Jack didn't want to admit that he didn't like the fact she told Sawyer about her past and not him but this just confused him.

"That's the thing Jack I know I don't have to tell you I want to tell you." Looking at her hands she added "I know Sawyer didn't judge me but I am scared of you judging me."

Jack didn't really know what to say to that as he now knew his view of her meant a lot to her so he said "I will try not to judge you."

So Melinda told him what she told Sawyer "I will say this though I deserved those five years anyway since I have killed someone before just I was never found out."

Looking him in the eye she told him "I killed someone which was for my own protection, a guy tried to rape me I had to wait till he had an opening which was when he dropped his pants, I grabbed his neck and snapped it." Her hands now again felt like they needed to be washed as she did back when she snapped his neck, when she got to her home back when she killed him she washed her hands so hard they began to bleed.

Jack grabbed her shaking hands even though he did feel some fear towards her and she knew he would what normal girl could snap a guys neck in a few seconds even when they were struggling it was her strength that helped her do it the strength of a Slayer and the strength of a vampire.

"I won't lie to you and say that I'm alright with you having killed someone but you were protecting yourself, it's a natural instinct in a person to protect themselves."

Melinda looked at him then released one of her hands from his and gestured to her bruises "That's why when someone hurts me now I let them unless I become angry which is when I tend to do something stupid."

Jack stood up and went to the door or at least what the opening resembled "Get some sleep."

Melinda nodded even though she knew he couldn't see "You too Jack, maybe one day I'll explain to you why I never got caught." I don't know if I could do that to him, drag him into a world that most people are oblivious to, the world where the monsters under your bed are in fact real. Where life is much harder due to the evil's in the world, a world which is in a constant war between good and evil.

When he walked away Melinda grabbed her bag and sat in a corner so no one could see her unless they actually came in then she began to drink some of the blood, straight after she put the tub back in her bag and went to sleep on her chairs not bothering to put a top on leaving her in her black shorts and her black bikini top.

-- Flashback --

She bit her lip to stop herself from screaming when she was rammed into the wall having the bricks dig into her back made some of her skin rip.

She felt the mans hands ripping her dress open, if she wasn't in a state of fear she would have already gotten away but even a Hybrid becomes scared.

She watched him rip her dress like she was stuck in her mind and couldn't control her body any longer that is until he began pulling his pants down and they got stuck, her body instantly went into action her hands shot out from under his and grabbed his neck digging her nails into his neck and snapping it even when he began struggling against her, before his neck snapped he drove a knife into her stomach making her fall to her knees when she dropped his lifeless body to the ground.

Taking his clothes she got them on then ran home once inside she shed all of her clothes and immediately got to work on her wound first she began scrubbing her hands clean to get rid of the dirt and the sin of murder, she didn't stop until her hands where bleeding. With her shaking bleeding hands she stitched her wound up and cleaned it up as best she could she then cleaned and bandaged her hands.

The thing that scared her the most was the fact she didn't really feel guilty for killing the man not until she found out he had a family. She got away with his murder because in those days they had to have witnesses to link you to the crime they didn't have ways to find finger prints or any of the fancy things we have.

This scared her more as she only felt guilty for taking a life when she found out she took a little girls father away from her much like she had done to her when she was younger, she never wanted to make a kid go through what she went through… Never… and she just did.

-- End of Flashback --

Shooting up she touched her cheeks to feel tears sliding down her face, she was shaking so much she had to clutch her knees so they would stop shaking.

Remembering her dream (memory) so clearly she ran out of her house and was sick, it was as if she was there all over again she could smell everything she smelt including the coppery smell coming from the blood that was on hands after she dug her nails into the guy, she didn't even notice someone come up to her and hold her hair out of the way because she was so lost in her memory.