It was so dark he didn't see the hurt in her eyes… he didn't know he had done something that would help her in the future, she turned away from him and silently cried she never did listen to what the people said when they made a hole into where they where and began talking to them, her heart felt like it had broken and from that moment on she promised herself never to trust anyone like that again for it would only bring her pain.

Her soft nature began to harden much like it had done in the jungle and during the game she once again became the girl from the jungle who needed no one but herself.

She could hear Jack talking to Charlie who seemed to be their rescuer then she heard Jack telling Charlie he had a dislocated shoulder which Charlie then asks why didn't he get Melinda's help which the answer was she was in too much pain to be able to help relocate his shoulder.

When he yells out in pain she glances at him once before looking at her legs that had already began to heal quickly thanks to slayer and vamp blood.

But her hunger was starting to make it self known after the blood loss and with her face turned from them her face vamped out but not like the others of the world her eyes turned completely black and fangs appeared but her face didn't change at all.

When Charlie starts talking about seeing a light Melinda returns to her normal face and watches him dig when he and Jack turn to help her she doesn't let them and gets out herself not once looking back she limped with them to the people in the cave.

She hated the wave of jealousy that ran through her when Kate hugged Jack and when he seemed happy about it. When people tried to help her she told them to leave her alone and everyone seemed to be shocked when she even said it to Claire who had come to see if her friend was alright.

"I'm only trying to help Mel."

Melinda looked at Claire and decided then and there "Claire I don't need your help in fact I don't need anyone's help so just back off." She hated herself when she saw the hurt look on Claire's face but it was for the best if Claire hated her then what she was going to do wouldn't hurt her friend.

She watched Kate make Jack a sling and him smile at her that was what made her go to the beach grab all of her stuff shove it in her bag drink more blood than necessary then right a note just to attach it to her door then she left into the jungle deciding she would rather live alone than feel the pain in her heart any longer.

So Jack hurt her more than anyone had ever hurt her but by hurting her made her confront her fear.

It wasn't until the next day when Sawyer went to see if she was alright that anyone noticed she was gone, after reading the letter Sawyer put it in his pocket along with another letter he had.

He went to Jack even if he didn't want to and told him exactly what the letter said but also said he had ripped it up. Claire, Hurley, Charlie, Sun, Jin (even if he didn't understand), Kate and John all listened to him.

Dear whoever finds this, you can have my home for I have left for reasons only one may know about and I have left in my mind for good but nothing ever goes the way we plan so I may come back in the future.

Tell Jack to keep my secret to himself or try to forget it like I know he wants too. Also tell him thanks for the reaction he gave to my secret he reminded me why I never told anyone I never told anyone because it would always end with pain and right now it feels like I'm torn in two (tear stain).

Tell Claire that I'm sorry for telling her to go away (tear stain) from me when she was only trying to help but I wanted people to hate me so when I left they wouldn't be bothered about me leaving and just forget I was ever alive.

It was for the best that I left so I just wanted to say sorry to anyone who actually thought of me as a friend.

Oh and one more thing tell Kate I'm sorry we didn't become friends, I think we only clashed because we are alike in some ways and I saw myself in her sometimes that it made me scared.

Melinda Collins

Linguist and Archaeologist, I thought I would tell you my doctorates as you where all probably thinking what they where.

Oh tell Sawyer to not hide behind the cover he made, for too long it can make you weak… (tear stain) I should know.

Bye.

Claire looked at Jack to see guilt on his face for a split second and then added some pieces together in her mind Melinda likes Jack and somehow he broke her heart that's why she left. She didn't know that she got it in one go except there where some things she couldn't have thought that made her leave. Looking at Kate helping Jack a few hours later she noticed how they seemed together She noticed that Jack likes Kate and that broke her heart.

She ended up telling Charlie all of this and he told Claire "You know they didn't seem to be on the best of terms when I went in and rescued them."

"Charlie one of my friends has just had her heart broken and now she's gone and left, I want her to come back."

Charlie nodded "You never know how much someone means to you until they are gone."

"She's not dead Charlie so please stop talking as if she is."

-- Melinda --

She didn't stop walking until she collapsed from pain and exhaustion but luckily she collapsed near a cave that was under a waterfall, she didn't notice until then and dubbed the cave her home.

She makes her new home homey by getting a few blankets out of her bag laying them on the ground then she went and found something for her door, what she found was only something she could move, she moved it in front of her home even with the pain shooting up her legs.

Once she had done this she laid down on her blankets and got a pillow out of her bag then she went to sleep.