04.10.2016 – Minor changes/Edits

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EPOV

She lifted her head up so she could look at me and gave me a kind smile. I looked into her eyes, her big beautiful chocolate brown eyes, and then I couldn't look away. She moved in closer to me, closing the gap between us a bit more. My eyes roamed from her lips to her eyes, and I had the urge to close the gap completely between us, I wanted to feel her soft, warm lips on my own. I moved in closer, only a little bit. We were now only a centre metre away from each other.

I couldn't move. This could turn out bad, I shouldn't even be in this position with her. But she made me feel so good about myself, even if she didn't say anything just being with her made me feel like a better person. I actually had the urge to BE a better person.

I watched as she bit her bottom lip, her eyes were focused on my lips. What could it hurt? Really, I mean if she doesn't want it she'll pull away, right? I placed two fingers under her chin and slowly lift her head up so she was looking at me, and not my lips.

I stared at her for a moment then slowly moved in, as I got closer her lips parted slightly and I could feel her warm breath on my face.

"Edward" She breathed, her eyes closed. Our mouths so close that our lips were grazing

"Yeah?" I asked, not pulling away

"We can't do this" She said, but it didn't sound believable, so I remained still. Lips still almost touching, all it would take was the slightest movement and I'd be kissing her.

"Why not?" I replied in a whisper

"Jasper" Was all she said

"What about him?" that was a mood killer, I pulled away and rolled onto my back

"He and I aren't broken up. We're on a break"

"Then you're technically not together" I stated, it was a weak point, one I knew wasn't necessarily true.

"But it's still wrong"

Why was it that when she was being reluctant that I wasn't arguing with myself on whether or not we were doing the right thing? I wanted it, more than I have ever wanted anything before. I rubbed my hands over my face, suddenly feeling even more tired.

"I'm sorry" She whispered

I closed my eyes, not wanting to look at her. She basically just led me on. So this is how the girls I lead on feel...

I felt her get off the bed, but I didn't look up. Then I heard my door open and close, I'm guessing she's gone now. I grabbed the pillow and pulled it over my face.

Stupid, stupid, stupid!

Why the hell would she do that? Why would I do that? This is the whole god damn fucking reason I do not get involved with females, this is why I do not let myself have feelings for them. How the hell did I let this slip up?

I sighed and threw the pillow roughly on the floor, I got off the bed and walked over to the glass door, partially hiding behind the curtains I peered out and looked over at Bella's room. She was walking around her bedroom, with her hand over her eyes. She was on the phone. I grabbed a cigarette and my lighter and walked outside, maybe I could hear her if I was out here.

I lit up my smoke and rested my elbows against the railing taking a drag. I didn't care if she saw me watching her, she knew that I liked her. At least I think she did, I made it pretty obvious.

She stopped pacing around the room and removed her hand away from her face. Her eyes looked red and her cheeks were flushed, is she crying? Oh god I made her cry.

I had the urge to climb over the railing and see if she was alright, to comfort her. But I forced myself to stay. She closed her phone and threw it on the bed, she didn't look happy.

She looked out the window and saw me standing there, I took another drag of my cigarette as she walked outside.

"Hi" She said timidly

"Hey"

"I'm sorry about before" She whispered

I shrugged "Don't worry about it. It was my fault"

"No, no it wasn't" She shook her head "It was mine, I shouldn't have let it go so far." She sighed "But to be honest with you, the only reason I didn't pull away earlier was because I wanted it. I want it" She said the last part in a whisper as she looked at the ground.

She wants it? She didn't lead me on? It made me feel all giddy and happy knowing that, but then what about Jasper?

"Are you going to tell me what was wrong when I came over?" She asked as she looked up at me

"You" Was all I said

She frowned "Me? What about me?" She asked

"You seriously didn't figure it out from what just happened?" I thought she did, I thought I made it obvious.

"Well, I did but I didn't know if I was right or not" She laughed "So I was right? You... like... me?" She asked, seeming a bit unsure.

I just nodded my head. She smiled brightly at me.

"I think I like you too" She admitted shyly.

Now it was my turn to smile.

BPOV

I left Edwards pretty quickly, confused, trying to make sense of what just happened. It was so sudden; I could barely wrap my mind around it. I'd obviously re-developed feelings for him, and maybe he felt the same. But what about Jasper, things were still up in the air with us, we were meant to be having time apart to think about what we wanted.

And now I really had a lot to think about. Edward, Jasper… I'd been with Jasper for over a year, he just told me that he loved me. Edward and I hadn't been friends for some time, and now we are suddenly friends and on the verge of… something.

I'll just have to take the risk. I'll call Jasper and talk to him, tell him how I have been feeling. Tell him I'm sorry but I'm just not sure what I want, and if he didn't want to be with me after admitting everything then I'd accept that.

I grabbed my phone off my bedside table, no time like the present right... I dialled the all too familiar phone number, my thumb hoovered over the send button. You can do it.

I quickly pressed the button then stared at my phone. I slowly brought it up to my ear and waited for him to pick up while I paced around the room

"Hello?" I heard him answer, he sounded a bit distracted

"Jazz, it's me"

"Bella?" He sounded worried

"Yeah, Is everything all right? You seem a bit distracted"

"Uh, yeah... everything is fine" He replied.

"Ahh ok then, look I think we need to talk" I sighed

"what did you want to talk about" He asked

"Who's on the phone Jazz?" I heard a female voice in the back ground, a very familiar sounding female voice.

"Who was that?" I asked

"It's uh... no one"

"It's not know one Jasper. It sounded like Alice"

"It was the television" He replied, a little too quickly. Now I was suspicious, why would he lie to me? He can't seriously think I'm that stupid.

A shot of anger ran through me, he was lying and why was she even there? She hadn't even checked in with me, and I was meant to be her best friend "You're lying Jasper, I'm not fucking stupid. Why is she there?"

He sighed "She came over to make sure I was ok after I left"

"She's been there since you left? That was hours ago" I accused

"Nothing is happening Bella. She's just a friend"

"Bull shit Jasper" I all but screamed. This would explain why Alice has been acting weird when she is around him "Did you cheat on me?" I asked once he didn't reply, tears started to spill out of my eyes and run down my cheeks

"No Bella I would never do that to you! I love you, I told you that" He was starting to sound desperate

"I don't know if I can believe you, Jasper" I whispered

"I'm sorry Bella, but it's true, nothing happened between us" He said "What did you want to talk about?"

Oh crap, I forgot about that. "I don't think we should be together anymore" I don't even know where that came from, I felt almost as guilty as he was, I was in another guys bed and here I am going off at him because Alice was there. I felt like a hypocrite "I'm sorry"

"Why Bella? I thought we were going to have some time apart" He said sounding hurt, but to be honest I didn't really care at the moment, I was to pissed that Alice was there and had been since he left, not to mention he tried to hide the fact that she was there

"There seems to be something between you and Alice" I spat her name "And I like someone else" I added, and bit more cautiously. I didn't spill about the almost kiss I shared with Edward, guilty or not it didn't happen.

"There isn't anything between me and Alice, Bella." He said trying to convince me " And why didn't you tell me sooner that you like someone else? Who is it?" He said, sounding a bit upset.

"She's my best friend Jasper, I'm not stupid. You were trying to hide the fact that she was there. And I'm not telling you who it is, I'm sure you'll find out soon enough" Then I hung up the phone and threw it on my bed.

My best friend? Seriously? What the hell, why would she do that to me?

I stared at my phone, I couldn't believe she would do that. I was hurting just as much as he was and she went to him? WHAT THE HELL!? I would never do this to her... he is my boyfriend, or was my boyfriend.

I turned to go to the bathroom to wash my face to try cool it down a bit when I saw Edward staring at me from outside. I walked outside, into the cool air, it felt nice on my warm face.

"Hi" I whispered

He continued to stare at me "Hey"

"I'm sorry about before"

"Don't worry about it. It was my fault" He shrugged

"No, no it wasn't. It was mine, I shouldn't have let it go so far." I sighed "But to be honest with you, the only reason I didn't pull away earlier was because I wanted it. I want it" I could feel my heart beating in my chest, so fast and hard that I thought I was going to pass out. I tried to steady my breathing and asked the one thing that I had been asking since I first went over to his house "Are you going to tell me what was wrong when I came over?"

He didn't even hesitate in his answer this time, and he maintained eye contact "You"

"Me? What about me?" I frowned, because how could I be the problem? As far as I knew, we had a decent conversation, became friends again and he gave me good advice. I couldn't even think of anything I may have done to upset him.

"You seriously didn't figure it out from what just happened?"

I laughed, mainly because I thought I'd done something to upset him "Well, I did but I didn't know if I was right or not, So I was right? You... like... me?" He nodded and I couldn't help but smile "I think I like you too"

He smiled at me, but it wasn't his normal smile. It was a smile I had never seen before, a crooked smile. It was breathtakingly beautiful.

"Sooo..." He said, bringing me out of my reverie

"So?" I replied.

"Why were you crying?" He asked

"I was talking to Jasper" I sighed. His facial expression changed, and I saw a bit of jealously flash in his eyes "Are you jealous?" I laughed

"What? No" He scoffed

"Sure" I grinned, teasing him "Anyway, I called to talk to him. To tell him how I was feeling... And well I heard a female voice in the background – "

"Alice?" He said cutting me off

"Yeah, how did you know?" I asked

"She had been following him all night" He stated "It wasn't hard to figure out"

"Oh ok. Well anyway he tried to deny it... and so that made me think he had been cheating on me. That's why I was crying" I sighed, he nodded his head slowly, looking at me as I spoke. He seemed genuinely interested "Then I told him what I called to tell him, and I ended it" I said, looking at him carefully.

He nodded again "Are you ok?"

"Yeah, I'm a little upset that Alice would do that though"

"Yeah, it doesn't seem right"

"No it doesn't, she's supposed to be my best friend. And he was my boyfriend, she didn't even bother to call after she left. Actually, she didn't even say goodbye" I sighed, I had to calm myself down. I was getting all worked up again.

"You can do better than them"

"Like you?" I asked with a small smile playing on my lips

"You could even do better than me" He replied laughing, shaking his head

"What if I don't want to do better?" I said, turning more serious

He looked at me intently for a minute, and I held his gaze, making sure he knew I was being completely serious.

"I'll change" He said, it was completely random. I don't even know why he thought he needed to change, but I just nodded because I could tell he was being serious.

"I trust you" I replied "what are we going to do about this?" I asked motioning between him and me.

"I'd like to give it a go" He said "But only if you want to, I don't want to make you feel too uncomfortable"

I wanted to agree, and dive straight in. But Jasper and I had just broken up and it didn't feel right to jump into something else so quickly, no matter how badly I wanted to. So I made a suggestion instead, and hopep that we could stick to it "Maybe we should be friends first, and see where that takes us"

He looked thoughtful for a moment, then nodded "I can deal with that"

"Ok. Well I'm going to go to bed. But I'll see you later?" I smiled as I turned towards my door, glancing at him over my shoulder

"Yeah sure. Good night, Bella"

"Night Edward"

I opened my door and closed it behind me, I watched him disappear inside before closing my curtains and changing into my pyjama pants and a tank top. I brushed my hair out and climbed into bed. Despite what happened with Jasper and Alice, tonight has been a pretty damn good night. Being just friends with Edward is going to be hard. Then I have school on Monday, where Jasper and Alice will be. That will be weird. And what's going to happen when I get together with Edward... seriously. What will people say, how will Jasper react?

We still had a lot of hurdles ahead of us that we needed to get through, it was definitely going to be interesting.

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