A/N: WOW…. Just WOW.
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Jumping to Monday
BPOV
The rest of the weekend went by in a blur. I had 57 missed calls from Alice, 70 missed calls from Jasper and a numerous amount of text messages and voice messages that all went along the same lines
Bella please answer your phone, I need to talk to you. – Alice
I love you, Bella. Please don't do this to me; I swear nothing is going on between me and Alice. Just please talk to me – Jasper
I still haven't spoke to either of them. I refuse to. I was so angry at both of them. Him for lying and her for betraying me.
Today that would probably all change, its Monday and we all go to the same school, and sit at the same lunch table. It is going to be hard to ignore them now and I was dreading it.
I hadn't really spoken to Edward either; it seemed if we were around each other it was hard to keep up the friend façade. We would stare at each other, and smile in a way friends just do not do. So we limited our time together to an hour on Saturday night and an hour on Sunday night. We kept to our own balcony and just talked. He avoided the subject of Alice and Jasper, and I didn't bring it up. It was nice talking to him.
After showering I pulled on a pair of white skinny and a black and cream lace cami and a pair of Tri colour heel with lavender, pink and silver peep toe.
I blow dried my hair and pushed it back with a diamante head band and pulled out my fringe. I applied a light amount of foundation and light brown eye shadow, I added a touch of eye liner and mascara then applied a tiny bit of bronzer on my cheeks.
Once I thought I looked half decent I made my way downstairs. I would call this my 'I don't give a shit you stabbed me in the back Alice' look.
Emmett and Rose were already waiting for me in the car. I climbed in and buckled up just as Emmett sped off down the road towards the school.
"Well Bella, don't you look extra nice today" Rose said with a slight chuckle in her voice.
"Yep. This is my 'I don't give a shit Alice stabbed me in the back' look" I replied, laughing
Emmett burst out laughing and Rose was giggling.
"That's funny Bella" She laughed
"Yeah well, I'm not going to let her know that I'm bothered by it by dressing sloppy" I shrugged.
"Good point" Rose sighed "It's going to be weird isn't it?" She asked
"I hope not. Please don't shut Jasper out because of me though"
"But he is an ass! I can't believe he did that to you" She said angrily
"He is your brother Rose"
"Fine, I'll try being nice"
I gave her a smile and turned to look out the window. We were already parked in the school parking lot so I took a deep breath and climbed out. Rose walked over to me and threw her arm around my shoulder. She had agreed to try and keep Alice away from me for as long as possible. I would talk to her when I was ready.
On the way to my locker we passed Alice and Jasper… They were talking together beside the fence. I felt like ripping her head off and kicking him where the sun doesn't shine. They are begging me for forgiveness and yet they still stand in public looking all cosy and shit together.
Rose scoffed beside me as she watched the two together. And it being my lucky day Alice turned and looked at us, then started walking over to me. Rose tried to move us a bit faster but Alice was too quick.
"Bella" She called "Bella, please" She said once I didn't reply
"Alice, go away. She doesn't want to talk to you" Rose hissed
"Rose she is my best friend. I need to talk to her… Bella come on… please" She begged
"No Alice. Leave me alone" I said as I pulled away from Rose and started walking away from Alice.
I looked over my shoulder to see if Rose was following but she wasn't, she was still standing with Alice; it looked like they were arguing. Jasper was standing in the same spot staring at me sadly; I shook my head and continued my way to my locker.
"Bella" I heard a velvety voice call.
"Hey Edward" I said, not looking at him. This was the other part I was dreading, being around Edward and not being able to hug him or anything without people asking questions. I wouldn't be able to lie if someone became suspicious.
"How are ya?" He asked, leaning against the locker next to mine.
"Yeah pretty good, all things considered" I replied, turning around to face him.
He gave me that same crooked smile he gave me the other night and I found myself struggling to keep my distance from him.
"I saw Alice and Jasper" He said slowly.
"Yeah so did I" I scoffed
"I take it, it didn't go well?" He laughed
"I didn't talk to either of them. Alice tried and I ignored her" I said as I started to make my way to my first class.
"You will be alright. Let me know if you need help keeping them away" He said "I'm going to class now, but I'll see you at lunch" He smiled as he turned and left in the opposite direction.
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Morning classes went by rather fast. I found myself silently begging that Alice and Jasper wouldn't sit at our table, hoping they got the picture I didn't want to talk to them.
I grabbed a tray and dished out some salad and a bottle of water then sat down at our table. Rose and Emmett were already there along with Claire, Natalie, Tyler and Sharleen. Thankfully Jasper and Alice weren't here yet.
I sat next to Rose and Sharleen and took a bite out of my salad.
"Cool party the other night" Sharleen said with a big smile on her face.
"Yeah wasn't bad" I replied shrugging my shoulders
"You seemed to have disappeared pretty early. What happened?" She asked
"Nothing"
"Umm Ok then. Did you hear what Claire said to Edward?"
My eyes shot up to look at Claire, she was nervously chewing the inside of her cheek.
"No, what did she say?" I asked, curiously, keeping my eyes on Claire
"She asked him to fuck her" She laughed.
Was she serious?
"Umm ok?" I said, more like a question
"I was drunk" Claire said from the opposite side of the table
"Doesn't mean you didn't want it" Sharleen laughed "You have wanted him for how long now?"
"Shut up" Claire said as she turned red and looked down at the plate in front of her.
This was new to me… I didn't know that Claire had a thing for Edward. Just one more problem we will have if things turn serious between me and Edward,
"Speak of the devil and he shall appear" Sharleen whispered under her breath
I looked up and saw Edward sitting down next to Tyler and Natalie. I watched Claire carefully, she was staring at Edward. How I never noticed before is beyond me. Edward didn't seem to notice her staring at him. Did he sleep with her?
"What have I missed?" Edward asked
"Not much just talking about how Claire asked you to fu-"
"Shut up Sharleen" Claire hissed
"-ck her" She finished ignoring Claire's death glare.
"Thanks Shar" Claire said looking down again.
Edward laughed and shook his head "She was drunk" He said
"So did you two… ya know" Natalie said.
"NO" Edward almost yelled
That was a relief. Claire's head popped up and she looked hurt at the desperation in Edward's voice. You could tell she wished that they did.
"Hey guys" Alice said as her and Jasper sat down.
I glared at her… She is still hanging around him despite the fact that is the reason we are not talking. Shouldn't she be trying to prove that she did nothing wrong? Instead she is making herself look worse.
"Bella" She said as she looked at me carefully
"Alice" I hissed
"You can't ignore me forever Bells" She sighed
"Alice" Rose Warned, staring daggers at her
"I can, and I will" I replied sourly, ignoring Rose
"You have it all wrong, it isn't what you think it is" She continued
"Really? Not what I think it is? I was just as upset as him Alice and you decided that he needed comforting more than your own best friend. Then he tries to hide the fact that your there! What the fuck?" I screamed
She looked at me wide eyed; everyone at the table had gone quiet, including the cafeteria. I could feel all eyes on me.
"You were supposed to be my BEST FRIEND Alice! How the hell do you think I felt when you went running to check on him, you were with him for 3 god damn fucken hours. I didn't get a call, or a text from you. Not even a hey how are you going, are you alright? Nothing." I seethed
"Bella I'm sorry, really I am. I don't know what I can do to make it up to you. But I swear there is nothing going on between me and Jasper. I thought you were with Edward so I thought you would be ok" She replied desperately.
"I was with him Alice, but that doesn't mean I don't need my best friend" I spat at her
"Please listen to her Bella" Jasper interrupted. My eyes shot over to him who still had that look of sadness on his face.
"Excuse me?" I laughed, narrowing my eyes at him.
"Your one to talk Jasper. You lied to me, you never lie to anyone. So because you lied it must mean your hiding something!" I scoffed
"It is not like tha-"
"Save it" I said holding up my hands "I don't want to hear it"
I got up out of my seat and stormed out of the cafeteria. Fucken stupid Jasper. Think they can talk to me and everything will be alright. Like bloody hell it will.
I walked through the school grounds fuming. I stopped at a tree and tried to calm myself down. What part of 'I don't want to talk to you' do they not understand?
Without thinking I kicked the tree… hard. It fucken hurt. I grabbed my foot squeezing it tight hoping up and down
"Owwww bloody hell that hurt. Stupid tree" I muttered under my breath.
"Bella!"
"Fuck off Jasper" I yelled, I sat on the ground and started rubbing my toe that got scrapped by the bark on the tree.
"Why are you doing this?" He said as he sat down next to me
"I'm not doing anything Jasper. You went behind my back and lied to me." I said, not really paying any attention to him.
"I'm sorry" he whispered
I looked up at him, his head was in his hands and he was shaking his head.
"Stop it Jasper" I sighed
"I promise nothing happened between me and Alice. She was just there to see if I was alright. I don't know why I lied to you when you called. I just freaked out I guess" He said looking up at me
"I never ever cheated on you" He whispered.
"Well, I'm sorry for going crazy on you. I know you couldn't help it, but she is my best friend and I can't seem to wrap my head around the fact that she didn't bother to call or text to see if I was ok"
"I understand" He said, taking my hand in his "I really do love you Bella"
"Yeah I know. But you need to understand that you and me, we just… I don't know I don't think we are meant to be together. I think there is more out there for both of us"
He nodded his head, but didn't look to happy. I felt like a bitch doing this to him.
"I get it. And I think I know what you mean. I was thinking about it last night, and although I love you, I don't think that I am in love with you" He sighed.
"Ok, so can we be friends then?" I asked, giving him a small smile
"Yeah, friends" He laughed pulling me into a side hug.
"So who is this guy you like then huh? Anyone I know?" He said changing the subject.
"Yeah you know him" I sighed
"Well who is it?" He laughed
"I can't tell you" I replied, playfully slapping his arm
"That's alright, I think I know who it is anyway"
"Who do you think it is?" I said, raising an eyebrow at him
He nodded his head in the direction of the school and I saw Edward walking past eyeing us carefully. He looked a bit angry, or was it upset?
"So am I right?" Jasper said, interrupting my thoughts
I looked at him, he had the cheesiest grin on his face. It made me laugh. I slightly nodded my head and looked down at my hands.
"What are you two doing about it then?"
"We are just going to be friends" I sighed "See what happens, if it takes us anywhere. Neither of us want to rush into anything"
"That's a good idea. I think you two would mesh well together" He chuckled
"Mesh well together?"
"yeah, I mean, look at you and look at him. Your both popular and you both have guys or girls wanting and chasing you. I have always seen something between the two of you. I may not like it, and I hate the fact I'm losing you, but as long as you're happy then I'm happy" He shrugged
"You know this is weird… Right?" I laughed
"What, the fact your talking to your ex boyfriend about your new interest?" He laughed
"Yeah" I replied. "So, what about you? What are you going to do?" I asked, biting my bottom lip.
"Nothing" he shrugged "I'm going to enjoy being single"
"That's a good idea, have a bit of fun"
He nodded his head giving me a sweet smile, then the bell rang and we were off to our lockers to get ready for the rest of our classes.
EPOV
The rest of my weekend was boring. I played my guitar on my bed most of the time, trying to compose a new song. Bella and I had short meetings out on our balconies. It was going to be hard staying friends, I found myself wanting her more and more. I couldn't stop thinking about her.
I got up, showered and dressed and rushed out to my car and drove to school. Bella, Rose and Emmett had just gotten out of their car and I watched as Rose put her arm around Bella's shoulder and headed towards the school. Bella looked exceptionally good today.
I continued to watch as Alice ran up to her and tried talking to her. Rose looked annoyed, Alice looked desperate and Bella looked angry. I watched as Bella said something to Alice then walked away. I ran after her and found her at her locker pulling out some books.
"Bella" I called, coming up from behind her
"Hey Edward" She said, not turning around. She was trying as hard as me.
"How are ya?" I asked, leaning against the locker next to hers
"Yeah pretty good, all things considered" She replied, turning around to face me.
I gave her a smile, and tried to stop myself from enveloping her in a hug..
"I saw Alice and Jasper" I said slowly, mostly trying to distract myself.
"Yeah so did I" She scoffed
"I take it, it didn't go well?" I replied with a small laugh
"I didn't talk to either of them. Alice tried and I ignored her" She said as she started heading down the hall way towards her first class.
"You will be alright. Let me know if you need help keeping them away, I'm going to class now, but I'll see you at lunch" I gave her one last smile and headed in the opposite direction towards my class.
Lunch came around quickly, though the teacher decided to hold me back to discuss my lack of concentration in class. I apologized to her, and she instantly said it was ok. I knew the effect I had on woman, and I used it to my advantage. It always came in handy when it comes to teachers and being in trouble. Even male teachers gave in, now that was fucken creepy.
When I finally got to our lunch table, I noticed that Claire looked a bit flushed and Sharleen was smiling widely. Did I miss something?
"What have I missed?" I asked as I took my seat.
"Not much just talking about how Claire asked you to fu-"
"Shut up Sharleen" Claire hissed at Sharleen
"-ck her" She finished, Claire glared at her.
"Thanks Shar" Claire said, looking down at her plate. Her cheeks turned 5 different shades of red.
I laughed and shook my head "She was drunk" I said, it was kind of funny. But Claire looked really embarrassed
"So did you two… ya know" Natalie asked with a smirk on her face
"NO" I practically yelled. I instantly regretted it from the look on Claire's face. She looked… disappointed?
"Hey guys" Alice said as her and Jasper sat down.
I noticed Bella stiffen and clutch onto the table.
"Bella" Alice said, looking at her intently
"Alice" Bella hissed
"You can't ignore me forever Bells" Alice said as she let out a sigh.
Jasper was watching the exchange carefully. I noticed how his eye softened as he looked at Bella. I felt a pang of jealousy roll through my body
"Alice" Rose hissed at Alice.
"I can, and I will" She replied sourly, ignoring Rose
"You have it all wrong, it isn't what you think it is" Alice said defensively
The whole cafeteria was silent watching the two girls argue
"Really? Not what I think it is? I was just as upset as him Alice and you decided that he needed comforting more than your own best friend. Then he tries to hide the fact that your there! What the fuck?" Bella Yelled.
Alice's eyes grew wide at the tone in Bella's voice
"You were supposed to be my BEST FRIEND Alice! How the hell do you think I felt when you went running to check on him, you were with him for 3 god damn fucken hours. I didn't get a call, or a text from you. Not even a hey how are you going, are you alright? Nothing." Bella continued once Alice didn't say anything
"Bella I'm sorry, really I am. I don't know what I can do to make it up to you. But I swear there is nothing going on between me and Jasper. I thought you were with Edward so I thought you would be ok" Alice replied
"I was with him Alice, but that doesn't mean I don't need my best friend"
"Please listen to her Bella" jasper interrupted softly.
"Excuse me?" Bella laughed. "Your one to talk Jasper. You lied to me, you never lie to anyone. So because you lied it must mean your hiding something! Otherwise, what reason do you have to lie huh?"
"It is not like tha-"
"Save it" She said holding up her hands "I don't want to hear it"
With that, she stood up and stormed out of the cafeteria. I struggled to stay in my seat and not go after her. If I did, people would know something was up. Jasper was watching me carefully as he stood up.
"I'll go check on her" He said as he turned around and left the lunch room.
I tried to hide my anger as best I could but I don't think I managed that very well. I watched Jasper disappear out the cafeteria doors and fort with myself to stay put and not tell him to piss off and go see to Bella myself
"Edward, are you alright?" Sharleen asked, looking at me
"Yep, I'm fine" I replied
"Ok" She said carefully, though I don't think she believed me.
Alice was looking at me with an I told you so Look. I narrowed my eyes at her, she raised an eyebrow at me then turned to her food.
I hastily finished my lunch then left the cafeteria.
On my way out I noticed Bella and Jasper sitting under a tree, talking. I was partially hidden behind some bushes so I continued to watch. I didn't really care if I looked like a stalker, I needed to know what was going on with them.
Jasper threw his arm around Bella's shoulder and pulled her into him. My eyes grew wide as I watched them sit there, her leaning into his side. They were laughing and smiling. Go over there and break it up. I thought. But I couldn't. What if I was getting the wrong idea. Then I would totally fuck up. And possibly loose all chances with Bella. She already thinks I'm a player... I don't need her thinking I'm possessive as well. I need to earn my respect.
"Edward?" I spun around and saw Claire standing behind me, fiddling with her thumbs.
"Yeah?" I asked, hoping she hadn't realized what I was doing.
"Can we talk?" She asked, looking a bit nervous
"Yeah go for it" Anything to take my mind of Bella and Jasper
"I uhh… wanted to tell you something" She stuttered
"Ok, go on" I encouraged her
"I… well… You see." She said, lost for words "I like you" She blurted out.
She liked me? What was I supposed to say to that? I don't feel the same…
"I was wondering if maybe there was any chance that you like me too." She asked cautiously
"Umm.. Claire. Look I'm sorry but I don't see you like that. I kind of already have my eyes on someone else and I really like them" I said as I watched her carefully, I didn't know how to say, I'm not interested in you, and never will be. I like Bella. In a nice way
Her face fell and she looked sad.
"Oh ok then. Well, sorry" She said as she turned around and walked away. Nice going Edward!
I turned back around, Jasper and Bella were still in the same position so I walked away. Jasper looked up at me. I'm sure my face had anger or jealously written all over it. Jasper said something then Bella looked up and watched me walk past before she replied to Jasper.
I turned away, not looking at them anymore, it peeved me so much to see them sitting there, and it looked like they were still a fucken couple again. Maybe Bella was going to take him back; maybe she didn't like me as much as I thought she did.
I told you, you would get hurt.
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The rest of the day dragged on. I didn't see Bella so I never got the chance to talk to her and see what the hell was going on with her and Jasper. I was sort of angry at her for doing that. I was really starting to think that they had gotten back together.
I parked my car in the driveway, Emmett's jeep was already next door so Bella must be home, unless she went out with Jasper. I pulled my books out of the car and walked inside.
"Hey honey, how was school?" My mother, Esme asked
Esme was a lovely person. She was a caring and sweet person. Everyone loved her, she was easy to get along with. She has bronze hair like mine, but brown eyes and pale skin. My father, Carlisle, was tall, had blonde hair and green eyes.
"Hey mum, yeah school was fine" I said as I plunked my books down on the kitchen table.
"That's good" She smiled.
"What's that nice smell?" I asked
"I'm baking a chocolate mud cake"
"Mmmm Yum" I said as I scrapped the bowl with my fingers
"Stop that" She said lightly smacking my hand away from the bowl "You will ruin your dinner"
"Alright mum" I laughed.
I gave her a quick kiss on the head and made my way upstairs to my bedroom, I threw my books on the bed and pulled out a smoke. I hadn't had one all day. I opened the sliding door and stepped outside.
I sat down in the plastic seat and kicked my legs up, resting them on the railing. Emmett and Rose where in his bedroom, it looked like they were mucking around. I couldn't see inside Bella's room, her curtains were shut. Well that fucken sucks. I thought.
She probably has Jasper in there with her. I still couldn't understand how she could do that to me. The first time I was completely honest with someone about how I felt, instead of pushing them away I told her. I showered her, now look at me. Maybe this is payback for all the times I screwed a chick over or something
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