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BPOV
I didn't see Edward for the rest of the school day; I was beginning to think he was avoiding me. Jasper and I had become friends. And I still couldn't find it in me to forgive Alice. For some reason it was a much bigger deal with her then what it was with Jasper. The fact that she is my best friend and went behind my back and didn't act like she really gave two shit's about me... That could be it
I got held back after school so I told Emmett and Rose to leave without me. I had to talk to the teacher about my reading list, and why I wasn't reading. To say the teacher was shocked when I told him that I had already read all the books on the list would be an understatement... He let me off this time, so I don't need to re-read all the books; I just have to do the assignments.
I had to walk home, I was going to catch the bus but I couldn't be bothered waiting half an hour for it to arrive so I walked. I got home earlier by walking because I only live half an hour away...
When I got home I went straight up to my bedroom, I opened my curtain and looked to see if Edward was outside. He wasn't. And I couldn't tell if he was in his room or not. I didn't really get to see him as much as I would have liked at school, and I missed him.
I picked up my cell and sent him a text message:
To: Edward
Message:
Hey I didn't see you much today. How are you?
I sat on my bed and crossed my legs, impatiently waiting for his reply.
I continued to stare at the screen on my phone for about 10minutes, maybe he wouldn't reply. Did I do something wrong?
I put my phone down and walked back over to the window, there was no change in his room. Perhaps he isn't home. My phone started vibrating on the bed and I literally ran and flew across the top of my bed grabbing my phone and falling off the opposite side in the process, landing with thump on the floor, all tangled in the doona and sheets that came with me.
From: Edward
Message:
I am fine. Meet me outside?
I quickly sent him another text
To: Edward
Message:
Sure, I'll be out in a sec
I quickly threw my covers back on the bed and ran outside; in my excitement I almost forgot to actually open the sliding door and almost ran head first into it. Luckily for me, I skidded to a stop just in time before I went flying through the glass.
I walked outside... after safely opening the door.
"Hi" He said once he came out and saw me
He looked... different. His eyes weren't sparkling; he looked confused.... or upset
"Hey" I replied, giving him a smile
He didn't say anything after that; he just stood there staring at me with those sad eyes. It was driving me crazy.
"Are you ok?" I asked breaking the silence.
He tore his gaze away from me and looked up at the sky letting out a small sigh.
"I saw you and Jasper" He said, looking back at me.
"Yeah?" Where was this going?
"It's ok if you two are getting back together... I would just appreciate it if you told me"
"What?" I said a bit confused. What the hell is he talking about?
"I saw you two, sitting under the tree all wrapped up in each other. Smiling and laughing like a fucken happy couple" He said, sounding a bit angry
"I don't know what your tal-"
"Don't" He said, cutting me off and looking down at the ground "It just would have been nice if you had of told me. So I don't get my hopes up" I hated seeing him so distraught.
"Edward, please stop" I whispered "Nothing is going on between me and Jasper"
"But, I saw you" He said, looking up at me
"Yeah, you saw has forgiving each other. Becoming friends. He knows about you. He guessed. That's what we were laughing about"
"You mean... You're not getting back together?" He asked, watching me carefully.
I shook my head and gave him a small smile "No, we are friends. I like you Edward, I'm not that selfish, and I wouldn't do that to someone, I wouldn't do that to you" I whispered
"I feel like an idiot" He scoffed, shaking his head and looking away from me
"Don't" I laughed "I can see how you got the wrong impression. And I'm sorry I didn't mean to make you doubt me"
We stood there for what could have been minutes, or hours just staring at each other, Every now and then he would smile at me, and I would giggle, or blush.
"This whole, being friend's things is hard, isn't it" I said breaking the comfortable silence
"Yeah it is. I had to fight with myself just to stay put when you ran off at lunch" He replied, shaking his head
"Awww really?" At least I no he cares about me
"Really, really" He said with a big grin on his face.
I smiled at him. This all felt so different to what I was use to. With Edward it was like there was some... magnetic force or something around us. It just pulled us together, I was finding it even harder to resist now than ever before. I didn't want him to doubt me, or be upset because of my. I want him to feel secure and no that he has me, no matter what.
"Bella, honey dinners ready" I heard my mum call from downstairs
"Looks like I have to go" I said sadly "But I'll see you later?" I asked hopefully.
"How about I come over at say 9?"
I nodded my head smiling at him then disappeared inside.
EPOV
I was still sitting on my bed. Silently cursing at myself for being such a fucken idiot when my phone vibrated. I picked it up and opened the new message I had received
From: Bella
Message:
Hey I didn't see you much today. How are you?
I stared at my phone for a minute, why the hell would she message me? She wants to hurt me some more? Rub in the fact she doesn't need me anymore.
I got off my bed and started pacing around the room absentmindedly. I can't reply, if I reply I would probably get hurt even more. She is probably messaging me to tell me that her and Jasper are getting back together.
Fuck it I thought as I picked up my phone and started writing a reply.
To: Bella
Message:
I am fine. Meet me outside?
I got a fast response from her
To: Edward
Message:
Sure, I'll be out in a sec
This was fool proof; well I think it is anyway. I can ask her what the hell is going on, or tell her I know what's going on. I can't get hurt even more then I already am.
I stepped outside onto my balcony, Bella was already there. She was looking at me carefully; I hope she couldn't tell something was bothering me.
"Hi" I said once she didn't say anything
I tried my best to keep a straight face, hoping she couldn't tell anything was wrong.
"Hey" She replied, smiling at me.
How could she stand there and smile... It isn't helping anything.
"Are you ok?" She asked, breaking the silence
No, no I am not ok because you decided to tell me you like me then go back to your fucken ex! I felt like screaming at her
"I saw you and Jasper" This was a better way of doing it, acting calm and collected. Not like some possessive, obsessed person.
"Yeah?"She said, sounding a bit confused
"It's ok if you two are getting back together... I would just appreciate it if you told me" Be nice Edward, calm... remember the plan... stay calm
"What?" She was acting stupid. Playing dumb with me.
"I saw you two, sitting under the tree all wrapped up in each other. Smiling and laughing like a fucken happy couple" I was getting a bit angry, so I took a few small breaths trying to calm myself down
"I don't know what your tal-"
"Don't It just would have been nice if you had of told me. So I don't get my hopes up" I cut her off, looking at the ground
"Edward, please stop" She whispered "Nothing is going on between me and Jasper"
"But, I saw you" I felt like yelling
"Yeah, you saw has forgiving each other. Becoming friends. He knows about you. He guessed. That's what we were laughing about"
What? I had it wrong? But... but.... Well damn aren't I a fucking idiot.
"You mean... You're not getting back together?" I said, needing to confirm it for.... I don't know what reason. Confirmation... comfort....
She shook her head, giving me that smile that makes my legs go weak "No, we are friends. I like you Edward, I'm not that selfish, I wouldn't do that to someone, I wouldn't do that to you" She replied in a whispered
"I feel like an idiot" I scoffed. How the hell could you be so god damn stupid!
"Don't" She laughed "I can see how you got the wrong impression. And I'm sorry I didn't mean to make you doubt me"
I didn't say anything, I just looked at her. Watched her facial expressions change when I smiled at her. It's like I had the same effect on her that she did to me
"This whole, being friend's things is hard, isn't it" She said, breaking the comfortably silence
"Yeah it is. I had to fight with myself just to stay put when you ran off at lunch" I laughed, remembering how I clutched onto the table
"Awww really?" Her eyes were glittering and her face lit up
"Really, really" I replied, grinning at her
She smiled at me, and again my legs started to feel weak. What is it about this girl? I mean I have always noticed her just like more than half the guys at school had. But this felt different... I couldn't work out what it was
"Bella, honey dinners ready" Her mum called.
"Looks like I have to go" She said sadly "But I'll see you later?"
"How about I come over at say 9?" I asked grinning at her.
She nodded her head then disappeared inside, I felt like dancing, and jumping... a possibly screaming... Once she was gone, I walked back inside and downstairs to wait for my dinner to be ready.
"Hey Mum, how long until dinner is ready?" I asked, taking a seat at the bench
"It's ready, I just have to dish it up" She replied taking a pot off the stove
"We are going next door for dinner tomorrow" She said as she put some vegies on each plate
"How come?" I asked... Our parents were friends, but it was very rare that we went over there for dinner. Oh well, an excuse to see Bella.
"Because Renee invited us. Your friends will be there too, Rose and Jasper with their parents, Alice and her parents" She said
Umm what? Jasper? Alice? Ahh this might not go so well
"Oh ok" I replied
Oh fuck no! This will not be good... Me and Jasper in the same room? Alice and Bella in the same room? Rose wasn't the biggest fan of either Jasper or Alice at the moment. Not to mention the fact no one knows about me and Bella, and her parents probably don't know her and Jasper have broken up. This would be very.... Entertaining.
After eating dinner I ran upstairs and jumped in the shower. It was only quick, I needed to go over to Bella's... which meant I need to use that ladder, and I can't really go over there and knock on the door. Her parents might freak if I say I'm there to see Bella, and then don't leave for a while... or at all.
I can't call Bella stupid anymore for using this damn ladder. It would make me a hypocrite. I had pulled it away so she couldn't use it again, I was too worried she would fall and kill herself or something.
I climbed on top of the ladder and crawled across. I hope Emmett doesn't see me. The ladder started to wobble and I freaked out. I stiffened like a board and held still waiting for it to stop wobbling. My hands had turned white from gripping on so hard. Once the wobbling stopped I quickly crawled the rest of the way and jumped off at the end. That thing is a fucking death trap
I knocked quietly on Bella's door and waited for her to open it for me. About 2 seconds later the door flew open and she pulled me into her room.
"Did you hear about tomorrow night?" She asked, looking slightly panicked
"Yeah I did... It's going to be weird" I replied
"Yeah I no. I haven't told my parents about Jasper yet. I don't know how to" She sighed.
"Don't worry about it. Tell them when you're ready"
She smiled up at me then wrapped her arms around my waist and rested her head on my chest. I put my arms around her pulling her closer to me. This might not be acting like friends, but by the looks of it neither of us can really resist much longer. She seemed to fit perfectly against my body. I brushed my nose through the hair on the top of her head, she smelt good, like strawberries. It was mouth watering.
"I don't know how much longer I can do this" She whispered, it was a bit muffled from her face being pressed into my chest. I could feel her warm breath against my skin.
"Do what?" I asked
"Be friends with you" She replied
I nodded my head "I don't want to stay away from you anymore"
"Then don't" She replied looking up at me.
He eyes melting into mine. She smiled and moved her arms to wrap them around my neck pulling me down slightly. Her eyes were rested on my lips, I gave her a smile and I heard her breath catch in her throat. I slowly moved in closer to her so my face was beside hers, my lips next to her neck.
Breathing in her scent I lightly kissed her neck, lingering there for a moment before I pulled away so I could look at her. Kiss her, Just do it I thought to myself.
She was looking at me, expectantly biting on her bottom lip. I cupped her face with one of my hands and softly caressed her cheek with my thumb.
She smiled at me, and I slowly lent down a bit further, closer to her. My lips lightly brushed against hers, I could feel her smile beneath my lips as she wrapped her arms tighter around my neck and pulled me to her, crushing her lips to mine. I felt her lips part slightly and her warm breath seeped into my mouth. I softly ran my tongue along her bottom lip and hers parted more granting me entrance.
I pulled her closer to me tightening my arms around her waist, as I softly rubbed the lower of her back. She brought her hands up and tangled them in my already messy bronze hair.
She stared walking backwards; I followed her not separating our lips as our tongues danced together. We fell back on the bed and I supported myself on top of her so I didn't squash her beneath me. I untwined one of my hands and run it up and down her smooth skin on her waist.
I could feel her chest rising and falling beneath me as her breathing became more heavy. Her hands ran down my shoulders and over my arms, squeezing lightly as they ran over my flexed biceps. I heard a soft moan escape her lips as I pulled away and trailed kisses down her jaw as I moved down her neck.
She tugged on my hair, and pushed her head back into the pillow. Once we had caught our breath back I crashed my lips on hers again. Again a soft moan escaped her lips once she felt my tongue in her mouth.
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