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(Weezer/all time low/ Alicia Keys)
-BPOV-
I picked at a blade of grass and rolled onto my stomach. Edward was lying beside me with his eyes closed. He looked so serene, so peaceful. The shadows were playing across his face and every now and then he would sigh happily. I had never seen Edward so at ease. A smile touched my lips and I sighed as well.
Edward opened one eye and looked at me. I blushed at being caught staring at him.
"What?" he asked curiously.
"Nothing." I said quickly.
He frowned and rolled onto his side, propping himself up on one elbow.
"That is highly frustrating Bella. Please do not feel that you need to edit your thoughts around me."
I pouted.
"I was just thinking that I had never seen you so relaxed before. You look happy." I explained and blushed a little deeper.
He beamed and sighed blissfully again. He rolled onto his back and closed his eyes once more.
"I am happy." he whispered and I smiled.
I was glad Edward could be so at ease with me and that he enjoyed spending time with me.
"What are you thinking about?" I asked curiously.
He turned his head to me without sitting up and opened his eyes.
"Our date." He said simply.
My stomach flipped.
"Our fake date." He corrected himself.
I couldn't breath suddenly. He was thinking about me?
"What about it?" I asked, trying to sound casual even as my heart was beating erratically in my chest.
He closed his eyes and sighed.
"What is the plan?" he asked.
"I don't know." I admitted.
He chuckled.
"Another project administered by Alice I see."
I laughed.
"She's quite the force to be reckon with." "Alice is Alice." he agreed.
Suddenly he sat up and frowned.
"This is about you though Bella. What would you like the plan to be?"
I blinked. I hadn't really thought about it. I didn't even realize I had a choice. I thought Alice would just run with it and tell me what we were doing when she had decided.
"I don't know." I said slowly, still thinking. "I guess I just want to have fun and not be harassed by Mike." I admitted.
He wrinkled his nose in distaste when I mentioned Mike.
"Oh! And not to fall on my face when I'm forced to dance!"
He chuckled at my sudden outburst and I blushed.
"Forced to dance?" he asked, humor coloring his tone.
"Well, I don't want to dance but I'm guessing you're not going to let me get away with that."
I looked to him with my head tilted in question. He smiled and his eyes crinkled at the corners. I felt my breath catch because of his beauty. I had a hard time believing Edward was even human sometimes.
"You are correct in that assumption." he clarified.
I sighed.
"You are not going to trip Bella." he assured me.
"You haven't seen me in gym." I scoffed.
He chuckled.
"Are you referring to the fact that you can not walk across a flat surface without finding something to trip over?"
I blushed and nodded sadly. I had come to terms with my lack of grace long ago.
"You will not trip." He repeated and he seemed very sure of himself.
"How can you be sure?" I asked, almost defiantly.
He stood up and offered me a hand to help me stand. I pulled my eyebrows together in confusion as I sat up and took his hand.
He grinned mischievously before grabbing me around the waist and pulling me close. He moved my hands so that they were around his neck and he spun us around.
A burst of laughter shot out of me due to the surprise and then he dipped me. I stopped laughing immediately as he kept me with my head almost touching the ground and my leg flung haphazardly around his waist.
"It's all in the leading." he responded with an evil glint in his eye as he gracefully righted us both.
I stood frozen and he chuckled.
"Trust me?" he whispered and I nodded numbly.
He began spinning us in graceful circles once again.
"I would hate to frighten you Ms. Swan." he whispered with his lips at my ear. "But you are dancing."
I shivered like I had when he whispered my name when he thought I was sleeping but then my eyes flew open wide. I was dancing!
"I guess I am." I said, slightly smug.
He chuckled and stopped spinning us. He kissed my forehead and released me before taking one of my hands in both of his and bowing in front of me.
"Thank you for the dance." He said and I giggled.
"You are quite welcome my dear sir." I mocked.
The rest of the day past without consequence. We just sat there enjoying the sun that our meadow provided us. Edward laid with his eyes closed and I sat watching the butterflies float past until one of us would have a random thought and then we would turn to tell the other what we were thinking. But for the most part we simply sat in the quiet enjoying the peaceful comfort of being together.
Pretty soon though the sun was fading and I reluctantly pointed this out to Edward. It was like a whole other world out here with just me and Edward in a place that no one else knew was here.
He must have seen the physical pain it was causing me to leave because he smiled a timid smile.
"would you like to eat dinner with me and my family?" he asked.
"That would be great! Thank you Edward."
He grinned his lopsided grin.
"It is no problem in the least Bella." he assured me and I felt my cheeks warm.
"Perhaps you should call Charlie and tell him where you are though." He suggested.
I already had my cell phone out but I didn't have a signal.
"Why?" I asked playfully.
He got onto his hands and knees so that he was eye level and only a couple of inches away from my face. His breath blew across my face, momentarily stunning me.
"So I'll have some reason to bring you back." He growled playfully and then winked.
I sat there stunned for a moment. I wasn't sure if my mouth was hanging open or not.
"Bella?" he asked, sounding worried, effectively breaking me out of my daze.
"Yeah?" I breathed.
I looked up to see he was standing, offering me his hand. I shook my head to clear it and grabbed his hand.
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Charlie said it was fine if I ate with the Cullen's but I could tell he was apprehensive. I was spending most of my time at Edward's house recently. I felt bad about neglecting him. I would have to make something good for dinner tomorrow to make up for it.
Esme and Carlisle said it was fine if I stayed. Esme had been sneaking glances at me ever since I sat down in her kitchen as a matter of fact. every time I would say anything to Edward or he would say anything to me she would glance over with a small smile.
"Is my mother assaulting you with her sideways glances?" Edward whispered and I giggled.
Had my attempt to avoid eye contact been that obvious?
"Are you sure if it's alright that I'm here?" I asked.
Maybe she was staring because she was upset I was intruding… but she was smiling these "I know something you don't know" smiles. I didn't know what to make of it.
Edward scoffed.
"Bella I keep telling you; it is no problem. And my mother loves you."
I glanced skeptically at Esme.
"Mom." Edward called and my head shot back to him.
He wasn't going to confront her was he? I tried to send him signals through my thoughts that I would never speak to him again if he did but I didn't even believe that.
"Bella and I are going to go visit the music room I believe."
Esme smiled radiantly and nodded.
"That sounds wonderful dear." she said in her serene sing song voice.
Edward rolled his eyes and shot her a look before grabbing my hand and leading me to the music room.
"I'm sorry about that." he laughed.
I giggled.
"It's alright. What was that about?"
He ran his free hand through his hair and looked to the floor, a slight blush playing at his cheeks.
"I don't know." he said.
I looked at him skeptically. Since when did Edward blush??
"So this is the music room." He announced, throwing the door open grandly.
I knew this was his way of trying to distract me but I didn't mind. I didn't want to make him uncomfortable and I was eager to see the music room. This was something new to learn about Edward. I had been over here with Alice several times since movie night a couple of weeks ago and each time Edward would disappear at least once sometime during the night and it was always to the mysterious music room.
"So you play the piano?" I asked running my fingertips gently over the top of the grand piano sitting in the middle of the spacious room. He nodded but didn't say anything more. I was guessing his music was very personal to him and I was honored to be one of the people that he let in.
"Very impressive." I commented and he rolled his eyes.
"Would you like me to play something for you?" he asked and a little nervousness snuck into his voice at the end.
I nodded enthusiastically.
"I would love that!"he chuckled and walked over to the piano, patting the bench next to him.
I eagerly sat down beside him. I was excited to discover this secret widow into Edward Cullen's soul.
-EPOV-(I was listening to Bella's lullaby when I wrote the rest of this chapter actually. Just in case anyone wanted to know…)
I had been determined to play her song for her when I sat down at the piano bench, the one I had written the night she had told me about Zach. But my certainty wavered as I realized the absoluteness of the situation. Everything depended on this one moment. Once I opened my mouth to sing her lyrics she would have no doubt that I loved her with absolute devotion. All I would be able to do after the completion of that one song would be to sit and wait for my angel, my love's reaction.
I knew I would be disappointed because there was no possibility of Bella loving me as deeply as I loved her so I put my fingers to the keys to play another song. A song that she had inspired, and held as much meaning, at least to me as any of the others but it would not be excepted to alter my fate. I played Bella's lullaby.
-BPOV-
He played the first song with supreme grace and perfected concentration. The melody he played was the most gorgeous sound I had ever heard. It was upbeat and soft, romantic even but there were undertones that hinted at more complex feelings and emotions. By the time it was finished I could feel tears forming in my eyes simply because of the shear beauty of it.
He played the last note and then there was silence. He sat equally quiet and he seemed nervous for some reason. Before I could get myself together long enough to assure him that it was perfect and moving he surprised me by beginning another song.
I was surprised further when he opened his mouth to sing while he played. He looked unsure of himself at first but as he sang his voice grew strong and sure and all of the questions left his face.
I cannot sleep
Just lie here
With thoughts of you
You know they are
Always here
Always here
I fought with everything I am
But I can see
I can see now
I should have listened to Em
Never bet against Alice
I was fighting fate
Because I was always meant
To be in love with you
Be in love with you
I sat frozen on the piano bench, sitting beside Edward Cullen as he sang me a love song. I just kept repeating it to myself. I still couldn't convince myself that it was true. I remember that first day that I met Edward. I remember wondering if I was dreaming. I kept thinking that if I were dreaming I was going to be very upset when I awoke. If I were dreaming now, which seemed highly plausible I would be far past upset. I was going to be shattered, dejected, and completely and irrevocably inconsolable.
Edward was sitting there in silence watching my expression intently. I took in a deep breath, as I had forgotten to breath once again.
"Did you have inspiration for that song?" I asked and my voice came out almost inaudible and very shaky.
He ran a hand through his hair, took a deep breath as if he were preparing to take a dive into freezing water, and looked down at the piano keys.
"You." He whispered.
(AN: Aww. Cliffy! Sorry. I have another five chapters written actually but my time on the computer is over so review! Review! Review! And I'll put the next chapter up very soon! So I'm curious. Did anyone remember the song I mentioned in chapter17? Did anyone think that was going to be such a huge part in the plot? Hmmm…. Anyways I have to go but I love you all and please review if you want me to update. P.S. counting this chapter the entire story 102 pages! Yay!!)
-PREVIEW OF NEXT CHAPTER-
"DID EDWARD PLAY SOMETHING FOR YOU BELLA?" ASKED ESME COMVERSATIONALY.
I BLUSHED A LITTLE DEEPER AND ALICE SHOT ME A LOOK. ESME WAS SMILING SWEETLY AT ME.
"TWO SONGS ACTUALLY." I SAID.
