BPOV
The night dragged on, Edward spent most of his time with Joey and some other guy... Dean I think his name was. They were catching up.
I could barely walk in a straight line and I was slurring my words
"Bel-la you know... you know I love you right?" Alice asked.
We were lying on the grass in the middle of the backyard, arms and legs spread out, staring up at the dark night sky.
"Yeh Alice, I love you too" I sighed. The sky was spinning in circles, making me feel like I was free falling through the sky. "I'm flying" I told her with a giggle
"I'm dancing" She laughed "Hey, hey... Remember that time... that we... umm... we... Oh shit I forgot"
"I remember my 13th birthday and you cracked it at me cause I got to wear a dress and you weren't allowed to cause it was my birthday, so you rubbed cake in my hair" I giggled
Alice burst out laughing "Oh! HA! I remember that. I was like sooo jealous of you"
"Just because I wore a dress" I laughed
"It was a nice dress" She sighed
"I'm going to miss you" I said, after a moment of silence,
I didn't even realize I had said it until it came out... and I hoped that Alice hadn't noticed.
When she didn't say anything, I sighed in relief.
I loved being drunk... right now anyway, I actually felt good. Numb like I wanted to. But I knew it wouldn't last much longer. I stopped drinking about half an hour ago.
"Bella?" I heard a male velvety voice call "Sweetheart what are you doing down there?" He stood above me looking down at me.
"I was watching the stars" I told him "Did you know, that you're sexy" I said with a giggled
He chuckled and sat down next to me "No, I didn't. But thank you... Ahh you know Alice has passed out" He said pointing over to Alice
"Oh... No I didn't know" I leant up on my elbows and looked over at Alice, her arms and legs were still spread out and her mouth was open slightly. "Maybe you should get Jasper to get her" I suggested, I needed to lie down again; my head was starting to spin.
"JASPEEERRR" Edward yelled
"You lazy shit" I giggled
He looked at me and smiled "I didn't want to leave you by yourself" He pouted
"Aww aren't you sweet" I gushed
"What's up" Jasper said when he finally got to us
"Your knew lover has passed out" I giggled, pointing over to Alice
I turned my head to look at him, and then turned to look at Edward. Then I started laughing... and I had no idea what was so funny, I just had the urge to laugh.
"Ahh, bells... honey what's so funny?"
I pursed my lips and looked at Edward, realizing he just rhymed and laughed again.
"You.... HA..." I laughed
"Your drunk Bells" Jasper laughed as he picked Alice up "Well I'll take this little one to bed, looks like she had a good night"
"Jazz" I whispered, rolling over onto my stomach "I'm happy for you and Alice" I told him
He smiled at me "Thanks Bells"
I giggled "Now go look after my BFF" I demanded playfully
"You ready for bed?" Edward asked
I rolled back over onto my back and looked up at him, his green eyes sparkling.
I bit my lip and nodded at him, trying to get up but stumbling around.
"Here, let me help" Edward said, he grabbed onto my arm and supported the back of my legs and lifted me up bridal style
"WOO" I yelled, kicking my legs and arms in the air.
EPOV
"Dude!" I said, chuckling a bit "I did not do that deliberately" I laughed
"Bullshit!" Dean scoffed "It fucken hurt" He laughed
We were talking about the time we were playing cricket in the backyard, I hit the ball, and his face at the same time. I swung the bat so hard it made me spin around. He was being the wicket keeper and copped the bat to his head, knocking him out.
"Ahh good times" I sighed "Where's Bella?" I asked, I hadn't seen her in a while.
"Don't know man" Joey said
"I'm going to go look for her" I told them
I walked away, back into the back yard. There were people passed out everywhere.
"Bella?" I called
I could faintly see two bodies lying down towards the back fence. I walked over there to see Alice and Bella sprawled out across the lawn
"Sweetheart what are you doing down there?" I asked, standing over her.
Her eyes were glazed over, I knew she had one too many to drink.
"I was watching the stars" She said, then averted her eyes to me "Did you know, that you're sexy" She giggled
I sat down next to her and laughed "No, I didn't. But thank you... Ahh you know Alice has passed out" I said, motioning towards Alice. Her eyes were closed and she was breathing heavily
"Oh... No I didn't know, Maybe you should get Jasper to get her" She said
"JASPEEERRR" I yelled
"You lazy shit" Bella giggled
"I didn't want to leave you by yourself" I pouted
"Aww aren't you sweet" She said in a teasing voice
"What's up" Jasper said, making his way over to us
"Your knew lover has passed out" Bella giggled.
She looked at Jasper, then over to me and started laughing. Yeah, really drunk I thought
"Ahh, bells... honey what's so funny?"
She looked at me, with a strained look on her face then burst out laughing again
"You.... HA..." She laughed
"Your drunk Bells" Jasper laughed as he picked Alice up "Well I'll take this little one to bed, looks like she had a good night"
"Jazz" She whispered, rolling over onto her stomach, I couldn't help but let me eyes wonder over her perfect body "I'm happy for you and Alice"
"Thanks Bells" Jasper replied
"Now go look after my BFF"
"You ready for bed?" I asked her as Jasper walked away
She rolled back over onto her back and looked up at me, biting her then she nodded then tried to stand up but almost falling back over.
"Here, let me help" I said.
I pulled her into my arms, and picked her up bridal style
"WOO" She yelled, kicking her legs and arms in the air.
I laughed at her a little bit as I walked us into the house and up the stairs to my room.
"You know" She started "I really, really love you" She said, looking into my eyes
"And I really, really love you too" I chuckled
She gave me a smile and wrapped her arms around my neck, her lips lightly grazing mine. I could feel her hot breath crash over me.
I smiled and pulled her closer, closing the gap between us and pressing my lips against hers. A soft moan escaping her mouth when I ran my tongue along her lower lip.
She pushed me back, forcing herself harder against me. She forced my lips apart, her tongue sliding in and exploring my mouth.
I let my hands wonder up and down her smooth back and around to her sides.
Her touch was almost as desperate as mine, to feel the warmth of her naked body pressed against mine.
She pushed me onto the bed and stood between my legs, biting her lip sexily looking down at me though her long thick lashes.
She pulled the dress like thing she was wearing over her head, dropping it behind her. Leaving only and bra and leggings on (A/N: If you look at the photo n my profile you will notice her dress has leggings with them) My eyes trailed up and down her almost naked form, taking in each curve and bump in her body.
She climbed on top of me, keeping her eyes locked with mine.
She leaned down, her eyes fluttering shut when she softly moulded her lips back on mine.
"I love you" I whispered, wrapping my arms around her tiny waist
"I love you too" She replied.
I had never felt like this before, sure I had been with a couple of girls before but it felt nothing like this. And I couldn't believe what Bella and I were about to do.
BPOV
I moaned and rolled over, snuggling closer to Edward. My eyes fluttered opened, causing them to hurt when the bright light hit my face. My head ached, this was the part I hated about drinking.
The events of last night crashed over me, remember the beautiful night we had just had.
I knew I was leaving soon, and I wanted to leave Edward with something special. It felt so right giving him my virginity. I was nervous as hell, and didn't know what I was doing, but I did it. And it felt so good, and overwhelming at the same time.
I ran my fingers down Edwards perfect chest, he wriggled a little then his eyes slowly opened.
"Morning Sleepy head" I whispered
He rubbed his eyes then turned to face me "Good Morning Beautiful" he smiled
I returned his smiled then rested my head on his chest. His hand lightly tickling my back.
And, I remembered what I needed to do today. Suddenly I felt sad again, depressed.
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After about an hour of lying in bed Edward and I got up and had some breakfast or lunch.... I had no idea what the time was. There were still a few passed out bodies around his backyard, and the house was a mess. Alice was already up cleaning, along with Jasper, Emmett and Rose.
After eating I took Edward back to his room. I needed to tell him before I backed out.
"What is it?" He asked, looking at me carefully
"I need to tell you something... Important" I told him. He nodded his head
"I...I...Spoke to m-my parents"
The look of confusion crossed his face, then recognition then hurt.
"Your leaving aren't you" he whispered
Tears started to trickle down my cheek
"I'm sorry" I sobbed. I grabbed onto his shirt. Not wanting to let go and hoping that somehow we could become one and I would never have to leave him.
"Please don't go" He whispered, resting his forehead on top of my head
"I have to" I cried "Please Edward, never forget that I love, I will always love you"
I hated my parents for this... If they weren't my parents, I would stay and I wouldn't care if they left, but they are. And I couldn't stay away from them, no matter how much it killed me to leave Edward and all my friends.
"God" he breathed "I can't do this Bells... I can't let you go" he whispered
"I'm sorry... I'm sorry...I'm sorry" I repeated, over and over
"It's not your fault baby... I'll wait for you" He said, his voice shaky
II pulled away from him, looking up at him, his eyes were red.
"No... No...No" I shook my head "Don't wait for me... As much as it kills me to say this, I want you to live your life. Enjoy your friends... go to college. Don't lay around miserable day after day because of me. I want you to move on, I want you to be happy" I said, each word killing me, stabbing me in the heart and ripping out my soul
"Please don't ask me to do that" He whispered, pushing his forehead against mine he closed his eyes
"I need you too" I told him, trying to be strong and not collapse
"Bella...." He begged, His body was shaking
"Please Edward... I would love to stay with you, remain your girlfriend.... but I'll be on the other side of the world... It's too hard to keep a long distance relationship and I know it will hurt both of us, not being able to hold each other. So please, do this for me, just this one thing. Be happy, that's all I care about. Live your life and move on"
He fee to the ground, tears running down his cheeks. His eyes red and puffy. What have I done? I hated myself even more, I hated my parents more than I thought was ever possible.
I pulled his close to me, holding onto him tighter. Struggling to breath as the sobs came faster, more rapid almost causing me to choke.
"I'll always love you Bella... Always and forever until the day I die" He whispered
"I n-no Edwar-d" I whispered back "I'll always love you too, for all eternity"
EPOV
"What is it?" I asked, watching her carefully. It better not be what I think it is.
"I need to tell you something... Important" She said, I nodded my head.
"I...I...Spoke to m-my parents"
It is... It is what I think it is. Someone, please tell me I am living in a nightmare, this is all a dream, not real
"Your leaving aren't you" I whispered
"I'm sorry" She sobbed, clingy onto my shirt.
I could feel her tears seeping through my shirt.
My heart clenched tight as I held onto her "Please don't go" I whispered, resting my forehead on top of her head
"I have to" She cried "Please Edward, never forget that I love, I will always love you"
I squeezed my eyes shut tight, tears pouring out of my eyes and onto her hair.
"God" I breathed "I can't do this Bells... I can't let you go" I whispered
"I'm sorry... I'm sorry...I'm sorry"
"It's not your fault baby... I'll wait for you" I told her, trying to hide my shaky voice but failing miserably
I hated her parents. I hated my parents, they supported this... They actually fucking supported their leaving. Like they didn't care that they were tearing us apart... like they didn't care that we were madly in love or that Bella and Emmett have friends here and they were taking it all away. AT least that's what I thought, they had to support it... Right? Otherwise they would stop them, they wouldn't let them leave. I knew they Knew about this, Bella's parents have to of told them.
She shot her head away from my chest, looking up at me with those big sad brown eyes
"No... No...No" She shook her head "Don't wait for me... As much as it kills me to say this, I want you to live your life. Enjoy your friends... go to college. Don't lay around miserable day after day because of me. I want you to move on, I want you to be happy" She said. I could see the hurt in her eyes as she spoke each word.
I cringed... I couldn't even think about being with anyone but Bella... and I certainly couldn't see myself being happy, not for a long time at least. She would be in my mind constantly.
"Please don't ask me to do that" I whispered, pushing my forehead against hers I closed my eyes
"I need you too" She told me
"Bella...." I begged
My body was trembling and I could feel my knees grow weak.
"Please Edward... I would love to stay with you, remain your girlfriend.... but I'll be on the other side of the world... It's too hard to keep a long distance relationship and I know it will hurt both of us, not being able to hold each other. So please, do this for me, just this one thing. Be happy, that's all I care about. Live your life and move on"
I sniffed, unable to hold myself up anymore I fell to the ground, bring her with me. She pulled me closer, holding me tighter "I'll always love you Bella... Always and forever until the day I die"
"I n-no Edwar-d" She whispered "I'll always love you too, for all eternity"
The words eternity echoed in my head, over and over... torturing me to no end.
I felt my whole world crash around me, realizing that she meant more to me then I ever thought possible. This woman held my heart, my soul... Fuck, she held my whole fucking life in the palm of her hands.
The love I felt from the events of last night, slowing getting pushed to the back of my mind, hatred and sadness taking over. I never wanted to act like this in front of a female, or feel like this... at all.
It hurt... It all hurt so much, and slowly, the crashed pieces of my world, began to crumble into tiny pieces. I knew that Bella was the only one who would be able to piece them back together again, make me whole.
I hated knowing, that If I felt like this now. How was I going to feel when she was actually leaving.
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