So You Really Like Me?

Chains: Things are really starting to heat up.

Kir-Kir-Chan: Yep, it started just a light hearted little fic and is starting to get a little bit more dramatic. Thanks for all the great reviews and thanks to those who gave me some good criticism.

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Two 10 year old boys ran threw a field of yellow flowers, their hands out stretched and laughing happily. One boy, whose hair was as black as night and skin as pale as paper took the others hand, who was the complete opposite, his hair was as bright as the sun and his skin was nicely tanned, and dragged him trying to make the other run faster and further into the huge field. Their happy faces slowly turned down as they came to a stop. The Yellow flowers had been dyed red from the pool of blood, a mangled body laid out, eyes still wide but glazed over and lifeless.

The two boys stared down at the body, their innocent eyes wide with shock, their mouths open with a scream that would not escape their throats.

The young blond boy turned to see if anyone was around to help but as he turned the flowers before them shrivelled up and instead of being bright and beautiful they had turned a horrid brown and no longer stood tall for the sun but down to the ground as if the flowers were ashamed. The sky no longer held a baby blue colour with a few fluffy white clouds dotted around in the never ending sky, the sky was now dark and roared angrily with the sound of thunder.

The blond boy turned back to his friend, terrified, not knowing what was going on and needing some form of comfort but his black haired friend was no longer there, he was alone. Alone with that bloodied body. His shaky blue eye travelled back down to the bruised and discarded body and he finally let the scream out as he recognised the face of the corpse.

It was me.

I wake up screaming, I was sweating and breathing hard. A pair of arms wrapped around me but as soon as they did I through them back. Scared that it was that body...that it was me...

"Naruto! Naruto calm down i'm here for you!" I turned to the voice and in the darkness I saw Sasuke, he was worried, he was really worried. It was the fourth time in a week I had woken up screaming and sweating from another dream – I mean nightmare – where I found my dead body, or I was being abused by my loving brother. "You okay...?" Why do people ask that when the person they are asking it to obviously isn't? I just nodded my head, holding my chest tight with my hand. My heart was beating really fast and for a second I was terrified I might have a heart attack.

"Yeah....i'm fine." Of course I wasn't but I said it anyway. I leaned onto Sasuke's chest and I let him hold me tight, he was finally hugging me as tight as I really wanted him to and I finally felt protected.

I was protected in his arms.

After I was released from the hospital I moved in with Itachi, Sasuke and Kisame. Dei has been around a lot lately with his boyfriend Tobi and so has Kiba with Hinata. Looks like my little family is growing. They have been so great I just wish I could repay them by stop acting like a frightened little kid who freaks out when someone moves to quickly or touches me when I don't see them. They all say they understand and it's okay but I can't live this way forever.

Itachi has been great, really great, really really super great. He should get some sort of award. I wonder if I could nominate him for something or make something up for him.

It's a little weird but I have noticed Itachi looking a little...i don't even know but it's weird whatever it is. He looks at Kisame a lot and when he does Kisame just nods his head. I wonder if they can talk through each others minds. That would be so cool if Sasuke and I could. But I would feel bad if he was having the same nightmares as me because of it.

I see Frank Charles a lot, I want to nominate him for an award to. And Sasuke and Kisame and Deidara and Kiba and Hinata and Tobi. I just meet Tobi and he is still really supportive and so is Hinata who I just became close with.

She makes really nice cakes.

Anyway, I see Frank a lot – Ashley got an A on her English paper – and he keeps me up to date with all the cop stuff in trying to find Kyuubi which is surprisingly hard. He really does stand out.

Kyuubi, he is 6ft 1 short spiky red hair, really deep blue eyes and has the same tanned skin as me. I would think someone like him would stand out anywhere but apparently not.

"I love you..." Sasuke likes to whisper that to me all the time now. I'm glad I can finally kiss him without being scared he will suddenly turn into Kyuubi and rape me – another dream, I mean nightmare I had. Frank set me up with someone to talk to, his name is Kakashi and apparently Itachi knows him and he is really good. I went to speak to him yesterday and yeah he is a nice guy but sort of weird in that he covers his face with a scarf.

He sat me down and I talked with him about the general stuff for about ten minutes. Stuff like my dreams and home life and then he got down to the real business and not even one minute into talking about it I broke down into a hep of tears I could barely understand myself yet he managed to understand everything I said, when I finally calmed myself down I was really impressed.

I cried about a lot of stuff, like how my own brother could do that to me, how I hated myself for not fighting back more and how I lost my virginity in rape. Kakashi told me I didn't lose my virginity and that really confused me, he told me that your virginity is given to the first person you make love to and until you make love to someone then something like rape or even casual sex doesn't take your virginity. At first I thought it was just a pile of crap but the more I thought about it the more it made me feel better. Kyuubi didn't take my virginity, that was for the person I made love to and that person will be Sasuke when I can finally allow another person to touch me in that sort of way.

"Sasuke?" I looked up at Sasuke who was still holding me to his chest and stroking my chest.

"Yeah?" He looked down and kissed my forehead.

"Thank you for...everything."

"You don't need to thank me Naruto." He closed his eyes and leaned his head on mine. "I am doing this because I love you not to get any thanks." I really want to give him an award.

"Love you." I kissed him then stretched, I really needed a piss. "I need to go use the bathroom." I got off the bed, "It's okay I can go allow this time." I decided I wouldn't be scared anymore to do the simple things. I knew that Kyuubi couldn't get me here and I would be okay. Sasuke just nodded his head and stayed put and let me walk out his room and make the 20 steps to the bathroom alone. It sounds stupid but this is the first time since....Kyuubi that I could go anywhere alone. I felt sort of empowered and terrified at the some time. Weird combo huh?

"Are you okay Naruto?" I turned quickly to see Itachi at his door staring at me. "Sorry." God I nearly wet myself!

"I'm fine, but I might throw up my heart." Itachi smiled – well, he sort of smiled...with his eyes? Top Model!

"I heard you crying."

"Oh....bad dream." He nodded his head.

"Did you bring it up with Kakashi?"

"A bit, he said he wanted to talk more about it my next visited."

"Is he helping you?" He actually was which was the weird thing, I always thought shrinks were just people who got paid to listen to crazy people bitch and whine all day.

"Yeah actually. I got a lot off my chest." He nodded his head again, he is like one of those dogs in people's cars that nod when the car moves.

"I'm glad to hear you are feeling better. And even going to the bathroom alone has shown how much you have improved in just a few days. I don't want your life to be controlled over what one evil person did. I miss the old happy Naruto." Yeah...so do I.

"Well he is slowly coming back. I bet in a few weeks I can even sleep in my own room!" I laughed a little.

"Sasuke will be upset, he likes when you sleep next to him."

"I thought he would be getting a little...annoyed by me. I always wake him up." I did feel guilty about that, Sasuke does not like to be woken up at all.

"He doesn't mind." I know, I know he doesn't mind waking up at 3 in the morning to my screaming and crying. I know he doesn't mind holding me until I fall back to sleep, I know he certainly doesn't mind missing school with me. Too bad Itachi is getting us a tutor, damn him.

"What are you doing up anyway?" He folded his arms.

"I just couldn't sleep." It wasn't weird to see Itachi up and about in the middle of the night, Kisame snored. "Go to the bathroom then get back to bed." I nodded my head, said goodnight and went to the bathroom. Usually he would say 'and get some sleep' but he knew I probably wouldn't be going back to sleep tonight, I will pretend to so Sasuke can go back to sleep but I will stay wide awake, the vision of my dead body still fresh in my mind.

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"So how are you feeling today Naruto?" I sat back in the comfy chair, the first time I came here I was a little disappointed that I didn't have to lay on a sofa. Kakashi laughed and said he could bring one in if I really wanted to. I decided no, the chair was nice.

"Better...i think."

"You think?"

I nodded my head. I really was starting to feel better. Sure I still felt scared, scarred and like a piece of me has been ripped out and thrown away and can never be replaced – which isn't my virginity. But I did feel...better.

"Yeah, I went to the bathroom for the first time alone last night." Kakashi smiled at me, in a way he seemed proud of me. "And I had a really bad dream again last night but I actually managed to get back to sleep and not have anymore nightmares"

"I am very proud of you Naruto, you are very strong. Now, tell me about those dreams." I wonder what he has under the scarf. A scar maybe? Or maybe he has some funny looking lips or a huge mole on the side of his face.

"My dreams..." My dreams...yeah...my dreams. "I was in a field with Sasuke, we was about 10 years old and running around laughing and stuff...then we came across a pool of blood..w-w-with...a-a-a dead body..."

"Are you sure you can go on?" I took a deep breath and nodded my head. "Okay then, take your time."

"Anyway...so...i was in the field with the body, then I turned around to get some...to get some..." I leaned over the table to get the glass of water and downed it and breathed hard. Kakashi just sat there and waited until I was ready to start speaking again. "..To get some help but then everything changed, it was a really nice sunny day but then it got really cloudy and grey and the flowers had all died...i was really scared and turned back to Sasuke to...i think like...ask him what to do..." Kakashi filled my glass up again and a took a few sips. "But he was gone..i looked.... I looked back down at the body and..." I bit my lip and let a few tears run down my cheek, I took a shaky breath, "It was me..." Kakashi nodded his head. "Then I just woke up...screaming like a baby as usual heh..." I tried to lighten my mood but it didn't work. So I just took another sip of water.

"You are feeling like a part of you has been taken away from you yes?" I nodded my head, not sure how he knew but not caring. "It sounds like you feel as if Kyuubi has taken away your innocence and perverted it."

Yeah...That's how I feel. Before it all happened I was still a kid...just a normal kid with normal problems, like dealing with my sexuality, my love life, homework and trying to fit in with everyone else. I used to always think 'Thank god for junk food' but even though the first night I stayed in Itachi's house I filled up with as much junk food I could get my hands on nothing made me feel any better, I just felt sad and bloated.

"Think you hit the nail on the head there doc..." I was looking down at my hands, I still had bruises on my wrists. I pulled down my sleeves, looking at them made me sick.

"All the dreams you have had all have innocent themes to them, such as the fairy tales and the one you was just describing to me, you always start off happy and with Sasuke, you feel like he is your protector, but then he always leaves and you are left alone, that's when something bad happens to you." I do feel so much safer with Sasuke... "You still have that innocences left inside of you Naruto you just need to find it again." Easier said then done. "Do you have a favourite place to go with Sasuke?" I nodded my head.

"Yeah...in the school yard under a big tree. We used to sit there a lot and just talk...sometimes we just sat there and listened to music."

"You should go back to that place with Sasuke and try to remember all those good memories you shared with him under that tree." I nodded my head again.

That sounded like a good idea.