Chapter 20: Selfish
"A spy you say?" Mustang asked Master Sergeant Fuery, who was giving him a briefing on a case the Fuehrer had put them in charge of.
"Yes sir, we've learned the organization's leader is a bit of a…um..lady's man" the Sergeant explained "So it was suggested that we use that trait as a sort of weakness"
"I see" said the colonel before turning to his lieutenant. "Hawkeye I need you to find me a women who you think can handle this kind of job, preferably someone with undercover experience and good looks"
He knew it was stupid to look for someone else, the perfect woman was standing right in front of him. There was a faint flash of hurt in her eyes before she nodded and departing.
"I just screwed up didn't I?" asked Mustang, who had his head in his hands.
"I don't get it colonel wouldn't Hawkeye be the perfect person for the job" Havoc asked.
"Of course she is, its just…" he trailed off but the men understood. He hadn't chosen her because he knew how dangerous this could be and he cared too much to put her in that kind of position.
"Maybe you should let her know that sir" Fuery suggested quietly.
"Maybe I should" he agreed thoughtfully.
Half an hour later Hawkeye returned with a folder on the woman she thought most qualified to go undercover as the terrorist leader's girlfriend. Since he had sent the men out on an early lunch Mustang was the only on in the office.
"Here's the information on your number one candidate sir" she said in a tone that was as emotionless as her expression.
"Thank you Riza and I'm sorry" he replied.
A look of confusion crept onto her face at both his use of her first name and his apology.
"That's the number two candidate, you are the best person for that job and the only reason you didn't get it is because I'm selfish." he said sorrowfully "I'm just so afraid that something would happen to you and I don't think I could live with myself if something bad happened to you because of some stupid order I gave."
Upon hearing this, her expression softened.
"Thank you for telling me that Roy" she said with a small smile.
Those little smiles and every little sweet moment he spent with her were the reasons why he acted the way he did, and if being selfish was what it took to protect that he would do it. Like people always say "Love makes you do crazy things"