"Um... Mrs Durbridge ... should I get a Doctor? He hasn't moved." A nurse in the corner of the room said suddenly.

"No... he has just been told that he has lost two years of his life and his wife. Wouldn't you be in shock? Now leave." My mum said with the most authority I had ever heard her have. The nurse left immediately. "Tobey love?" She came and sat next to me. I just stared, motionless. I didn't even blink. The white tile I was staring at seemed to be getting bigger, or was my will to live getting smaller? I tilted my head slightly at the tile, and it looked like it moved too. Strange. "Tobey. Are you listening?" I looked at my mum.

"Do you think ... the tea here is half decent?" I asked her distantly.

"Tobey! Focus!"

"No? The coffee?"

"For goodness sake Tobey. Stop being such an idiot. I have just lost my daughter. My only reminder of one of the only people I have ever loved. Her Nan died last year, so I am on my own. You have your mother, and Jess. You can find someone else." Sephy snapped.

"How can you say that Sephy?" My mum asked appalled. She put her arm over my shoulder.

"I am sorry. I just ... I can't get my head around it. It can't be happening." I stood up and walked over to the door. "Tobey dear, where are you going?" I looked at them both distantly.

"Cafe."

"Tobey. Please, stay here, we need to explain what happened."

"I know what happened." I said in a monotone.

"Tobey."

"Sephy."

"Tobey." Mum said exasperatedly. "Please stay here."

"I was born OK? I grew up with Callie, fell in love with her the moment I saw her when I was about 2, carried on loving her until she started dating that tit Lucas. Got annoyed when she started dating Lucas. She dumped him, and I considered us boyfriend and girlfriend. She got shot, I therefore consequently to avenge her getting shot killed 5 people accidently. We went to university, got married, and the day of our marriage, the airport exploded. I forgot my whole life for two years, didn't know who Callie was, then remembered about two minutes after she died of a rare hit to the brain. There? Do you need to explain anymore?" I opened the door before they could answer and slammed it, making sure that they realised that I didn't want to be followed. I walked down a stupidly white corridor. I saw an even whiter desk and went up to it. "Callie Rose Durbridge?"

"Um.. Sir. I am really sorry, but she has j - " I put my hand up to the receptionist.

"I know she is dead." I said flinching at the last word. "I just want to see her."

"Um... sir." She said again. I looked at her and boy if looks could kill, she would be with Callie right now. I wished she was dead instead of Callie. I know that sounds selfish, but maybe I am, the new me. She obviously interpreted my look as I intended it. "I think she is still in her room. Follow me." She hurried off and I put my hands in my pockets to refrain me from 'accidently' knocking anything down. The receptionist opened the door to her room and I gasped and fell to the floor. It hit me then. The receptionist tried to help me up, but I managed it myself, and I shoved her out of the room and locked the door. I went and sat in a chair that was furthest away from her.

I am so sorry Callie Rose. I am so sorry that I didn't know you. That I forgot you. That I wasted so much of your life. I cannot get over how rude I was. Did you just move? I moved to the chair next to her and took hold of her hand. This is impossible. It just doesn't happen.

You look like a nought, sort of. Your skin is whiter. I can't help thinking that life would be easier if I never knew you. Because I could never hurt you. I am so sorry. But I want to be here, for you. When you wake the face you see.

Because you will wake up.

Or I will fall asleep.

I woke up with a banging on the door.

"TOBEY! LET US IN." My mum was screaming. I had a wet face. I stared at Callie.

"I love you baby." I whispered to her. "I love you so much. So much." I kissed her on the lips and then on her forehead. "I love you." I went to the door, slowly, reluctantly letting go of her hand. I slowly unlocked it, and mum threw herself at me. I hugged her tight, and pretended that it was Callie. I started crying again.

"It's alright Tobey. It's ok." I thought about Callie again.

I love you Callie. And I will see you again.

Because you will wake up, baby.

Or I will fall asleep.