May

"Dunder Mifflin this is Pam."

It was a typical boring day at the office. Michael was usual wasn't doing any work and catching himself a quick cat nap before taking a business meeting in his office. Dwight was being extra annoying chewing gum and blowing huge bubbles with it, and Meredith silently sipped from her 711 cup in the background.

Ryan meanwhile sat at his desk which used to be Jim's. Sitting there had it's advantages and disadvantages. There was Dwight, always being extra loud and always blowing pencil shavings on Ryan's desk while referring him still as "Temp" Then…there was Michael. Somehow having his back to him made Ryan even more creped out. Often Michael would sneak out of his office and try to scare him, or like last week when he suddenly out of nowhere began to rub Ryan's shoulders as he tried to make a sales call. Ryan tried his hardest to put up with it through…

Because there was only one advantage.

Pam.

The two were only a few feet away and Ryan liked it this way. The two had started living together shortly after Valentine's day, right around the time they broke the news to the entire office. Ryan remembered the night before and how nervous Pam got as she paced back and forth in his condo.

"I think we should just get new jobs, that might be easier."

Ryan grinned watching her, somehow over the last couple of months everything she did seemed to cute to him. He didn't know if it was him growing up, but before Pam wasn't his type at all. Now he found himself falling in love with her.

"It will be fine, don't worry…if I can survive starting a fire, we can survive this."

The next day they went straight to Toby and broke the news. Toby seemed completely stunned.

"You…and Pam?"

He stared at the two in disbelief. Ryan squeezed Pam's hand as they sat beside each other. Before they could say another word Kelly peeked over the divider and screamed, scaring them.

"Oh my God!"

She raced out through the kitchen before they could say another word. Ryan and Pam looked at each other before Toby sighed and got up from his chair.

"Let me handle this…"

He followed her.

Both sat in silence for a few minutes before they faintly heard Michael scream.

"Should we just start digging a tunnel outside or commit suicide?"

Ryan took her hand and brought her through the kitchen. Once they came out everyone went still and didn't say a word. Kelly was by Phyllis's desk crying. Michael and Dwight stood together by Toby at the copy machine and turned and stared at the two of them. Nobody said anything, just stunned faced staring at them. Ryan felt Pam squeeze his hand back before Michael finally walked towards them.

Ryan didn't know if he was going to scream or cry. Walking up to them he stared at the two of them for a very uncomfortable few minutes before wrapping his arms around the two of them and bringing them in for a big hug.

"My Ryan and my Pam! I'm so proud!"

Pam and Ryan seemed shocked as Michael hugged them tight, letting go a bit he looked at them and grinned.

"Who would of thought you two were screwing around?"

Pam's face went red as she looked away, Toby cleared his throat and stepped forward.

"Michael…"

But Michael went on.

"Wow…I always thought you had the hots for Jim…"

A few of the others nodded in agreement before Michael smiled again.

"Well Ryan, this is certainly a shock to us all…a good shock though, you knocking Pam up."

"Michael…"

Toby started again. Ryan held Pam's hand tighter.

"I just can't wait to be godfather to the hottest couple in the office!"

Ryan and Pam just stared at him before Angela stood up with her arms crossed.

"You two are getting married right? You don't want this child to be a bastard?"

Before they could say anything Creed walked in from a very late lunch and a box of pizza.

"Hey guys, anyone want pizza?"

Everyone turned his way.

Now all this time later, after all the awkward talks in the office and Kevin's giggles and Angela's disapproving glanced and Kelly's outburst they had finally found a level of normal. At least as normal as they could get.

Michael never seemed happier before in his life and became sort of annoying when he began to pry in their personal life. It finally came to the point that Ryan went to Toby on the side and told him it was upsetting Pam. After a very long talk with Toby Michael tried his hardest to hold back…which wasn't a lot.

Dwight and Angela made rude comments and seemed to join Kelly in the group that thought the two of them having a baby together was disgusting. But none of that seemed to brother them. They had some support from their parents and each other. Both made it perfectly clear they were going to do this together.

Ryan watched Pam, as he often did and smiled.

They became engaged just last month. Ryan got down on one knee while Pam and him were cooking dinner together in the kitchen and showed her the ring. Pam nearly dropped the plate she was holding when her eyes became wide and she squealed.

"I know this is fast Pam, and I don't want you to think I'm doing this just because of the baby…I'm doing this because as scary and as fast as these last few months have been…I've never been happier. Will you marry me?"

Pam stared down at the sparking ring and thought of Jim. Instead of telling him all the reasons why they shouldn't, that it would be better just to be friends raising this baby together, she nodded her head quickly while fighting back tears of joy. Ryan's eyes lit up as he stood up and the two began kissing against the counter.

Just then…

The baby kicked.

Both Pam and Ryan smiled at each other as Ryan touched her stomach.

Since then, in Ryan's eyes everything seemed perfect.

Pam's pregnancy hadn't been easy. She had gained a lot of weight for her small frame and began having a hard time moving around. At the last doctor's visit the doctor told her in just a few weeks she would have to take time off from work until the baby was born. He ordered lots of time off her feet and bed rest.

Living together had been easier.

They adjusted to each other slowly and the strangeness seemed to wash away after the first time they finally slept together sober. Pam remembered at first feeling shy and out of place before he gently began kissing her down her neck. Closing her eyes she fought back from screaming out another man's name.

There was a different side to Ryan, a caring cute side.

They began looking forward to the baby, and soon that was all they could think about. Just a few weeks before hand Ryan was turning his spare room into a nursery.

In a few more days would be Pam's baby shower. Angela as much as she disapproved of their relationship seemed to warm up once the office heard of their engagement. Offering to throw it, the shower would be after work in which everyone was invited.

Kelly made a rude comment and said she was going to the gym that night.

They soon began acting like a regular couple. They would take their lunch breaks together, have small inside jokes, kiss each other, and share many romantic nights in at Ryan's condo. Every other weekend they would go and visit Pam's parents. Ryan's mother made it clear she wanted nothing to do with this. But that didn't seem to bother them.

They were in their own little world.

Watching her answer the phones, Ryan smiled.

He really was in love with her.

He loved to spoil her. He often took her out on the weekends shopping for the baby and then taking her out for lunch. They shared each other's interest and soon couldn't seen to keep their hands off each other. Ryan told her that on their baby's first birthday they would have the wedding. Smiling before kissing him on the forehead Pam told him that was a wonderful idea.

Smiling, Ryan went back to his computer. Pam and him were in the middle of trying to choose names. She was in charge of boys, he was in charge of girls. Scrolling down on the different websites he saw one that had caught his eye the last couple of names.

Ginger.

He thought that would be sweet if they had a little girl, most of all because of Pam's hair. Just then he thought about it. What if Pam was going to have a girl?

The two had decided during their doctor visits that they didn't want to know the baby's sex. During each sonogram the baby seemed big and healthy. But both thought it would be a better suspire when it was born. Ryan at first thought having a son would be better. He could teach him sports and do everything he wished his dad had done with him. But as Pam's stomach slowly grew and each time Ryan's fingertips would gently dance across it, he felt tiny kicks and felt his heart flutter.

It was crazy, but he couldn't wait to be a father.

Thinking of having a little girl, a daughter that looked just like Pam seemed wonderful. Ryan knew if he did have a daughter he would spoil her rotten. Smiling he decided he would ask Pam about the name Ginger on their break.

Just then the door opened.

Jim appeared.

Jim hadn't been back since Halloween…in fact Pam hadn't spoken with him since the night Ryan had gotten her pregnant. He had no contact with this branch at all…until now.

Nobody had heard nor talked with him. Kevin mentioned that Jim emailed him a few months back with sports scores and said he had a new girlfriend…her name was Karen.

Kevin told Ryan he didn't say anything about the two of them.

Ryan knew how Pam felt towards Jim…but out of sight out of mind. He didn't see him as a threat until now.

Jim looked almost exactly the same other then a shorter haircut. Walking in almost everyone froze. He had a few boxes of files in his hands. Pam almost dropped the phone. Her mouth opened but no words escaped. Jim walked over smiling.

"Hey Pam…"

"Jim?"

Jim set down the boxes.

"I was supposed to hand deliver these while I was taking a meeting over in Westfield. Thought I might see how everyone is doing."

Pam just stared at him, right away they locked eyes.

"Wow…you look…great."

Jim said staring at her. Pam looked up, her eyes in a daze.

That's when Ryan felt himself begin getting worked up. That was his girlfriend…the one he was going to marry. The one who was going to have his baby. Not Jim. Getting up, nearly knocking over his chair he walked over. Everyone watched in silence.

Jim snapped out of his trance on Pam before looking over at him. Pam looked as well, embarrassed and caught off guard. Ryan walked over, leaning against her desk.

"Hey Jim, long time no see."

"Hi Ryan…what's going on?"

Ryan glanced down at Pam, their eyes locked.

Ryan wanted to scream. For the last seven months it had been just the two of them. They were living together and engaged. Ryan was in love with her and counting down the days until she had their baby. Their entire life's had changed simply on a promise because of this unborn child.

"Jim…ummm…"

Ryan glanced down at her before Pam backed her seat up enough for Jim to see her pregnant stomach. Her hand gently rubbed the huge bump that was under her sweater. Jim stared down for a second before blinking.

"Yeah…you've missed a lot Jim. Pam and I are engaged…"

Jim blinked again completely speechless. Pam watched helplessly wanting so badly to just get him alone so she could explain herself.

Jim made a nervous laugh before shaking his head.

"Wow…oh wow and you're…"

"Pregnant…yeah she's due on my birthday this July."

Jim just stared down at Pam before Michael burst through his door, slamming it open.

"JIM! PAM AND RYAN ARE HAVING A BABY TOGETHER!"

Nobody said anything.

A few hours later both Ryan and Pam stood in the empty hallway outside. Pam had her coat on as Ryan looked at her with angry eyes.

"You wanna do what?"

"Talk with him, I mean that was a lot to take in."

"Pam you have nothing to explain. You two haven't seen each other in almost a year. He moved on and left!"

"I know! He…was just my best friend before and I wanna let him know what's happening in my life. I want him to know how happy I am."

"Are you?"

Pam blinked.

"What's that supposed to mean?"

Ryan shook his head.

"Nothing, listen I'm sorry…I just don't want you getting upset."

"Ryan…I love you. You know that right?"

Ryan just stared at her before Pam leaned up and kissed his cheek.

"Ryan…we're going to have a baby…we're going to get married…I'm in love with you."

Ryan looked uncertain yet sighed before rubbing the back of his head.

"Listen, I'm going to get some coffee down the street, I'll be back in a half an hour and I'll pick you up. If you bothers you just call me and I'll be back right away."

Pam tried to smile.

"Thanks Ryan…"

Kissing him, his hand slid against her stomach. The baby kicked.

"Half an hour?"

Pam nodded before watching him go. All the meanwhile her heart raced in her chest. Turning back inside the empty office, everyone had left all ready. She knew everyone would be talking behind their backs on Monday. Hating being the center of attention, she wished none of this had happened. Walking in she took a deep breath.

Jim was sitting at his old desk…Ryan's desk.

He was looking at the framed photographs.

One was of Ryan and her a few months ago, smiling with their arms around each other. The other one was them at the condo with Ryan's dog. The third was a framed photo of the sonogram. Pam had one taped behind her desk as well.

Standing there, she felt her legs shake. Jim looked up, his eyes sad.

"Wow…so you and Ryan."

"Jim…"

"There's no need to explain. I guess I'll admit I'm in shock…anyone would be."

"Jim I know this is a lot…"

"No, it's okay Pam. I left…what was I supposed to think? You would wait forever for me?"

Pam sighed looking at him, fighting back tears.

"Jim…I…"

"Do you love him?"

"What?"

"Do you love him?"

"Of course I do. What kind of question is that?"

Jim shrugged.

"And your having his baby…I take this wasn't planned."

"That's none of your business."

Jim shook his head.

"Your right. We both moved on that's all…I have a life and so don't you."

"I love Ryan Jim…I really do."

Jim stared at her before Pam thought she would scream.

Then…

A terrible cramp washed over her.

"Ah!"

Pam's knees buckled. Jim's eyes right away widened before he jumped up.

"What's wrong?!"

Pam clutched herself as she fell down to her knees, the pain was terrible.

"Oh my God…"

Pam snapped her eyes shut before Jim rushed over to her, right away he looked down and was speechless.

"Oh Jesus…"

Pam opened her eyes as the pain became worse, looking down she saw blood.

"No…the baby…"