Two weeks later

Pam nervously sat behind her desk staring at her computer before grabbing her compact and checking her hair quickly. Ryan meanwhile glanced up watching her, his grip tightening against the arm of his chair. Looking back down at his computer, he glanced over at the framed photograph he had of Ginger and slightly smiled. Somehow he was putting up with this simply because of her…and the fact he still truly did love Pam, but now wasn't so sure if she felt the same way.

Things had been weird after that night in which Ryan told her what he would do if he ever found out Pam still had feelings for Jim. Since then the merger had happened and as awkward as it had been, Ryan thought it went smoothly as it ever would. Right away Michael scared nearly everyone away and on that early Monday morning Jim came strolling in.

Pam couldn't help herself, having been back to work for nearly a week she nearly flew out of her chair wrapping her arms around him. Ryan who watched, cleared his throat loudly before both looked over and the hug broke as Jim looked away in a very uncomfortable way. Right away Jim tried pulling out the chair at his old desk before Ryan quickly walked over and sat it in before he could. Pam watched before sitting back down, her face burning.

"Oh…you're sitting here now."

Ryan just stared up at him before Jim took the desk beside him.

The silence nearly killed Pam before nearly an hour past and Jim walked up to her desk, Ryan's eyes sharply watching her.

"So let's see photos…I wanna see what the Beesly offspring looks like."

Pam smiled before turning her computer screen towards him as he leaned down and looked.

"There she is…she's my desktop background."

Jim grinned looking at the photo.

"Wow she's beautiful."

Pam smiled up at him.

"Thanks…"

"Have you taken her here yet?"

"Only once…Michael likes to hold her…and throw her up in the air."

Jim made a face making Pam laugh before the new girl Karen walked over, putting her arm around Jim.

"What's so funny?"

Jim looked over at her smiling.

"Just looking at Pam and Ryan's daughter."

Karen leaned down looking at the screen before smiling.

"She's so cute! How cold?"

"Almost four months."

Just then Michael yelled out that he wanted a meeting to welcome everyone and called everyone into the conference room. Rolling his eyes, Jim made another face.

"Ah, how I missed these…"

Just then Karen kissed Jim.

"Stop being such a baby."

The two nuzzled their noses together as Pam's face dropped. Watching them walk into the meeting room together, she noticed they were holding hands.

So didn't Ryan.

Right before Jim went into the meeting room, he slapped Ryan on the shoulder.

"Hey man. The baby is beautiful…has your eyes huh?"

Ryan saw Pam's face and couldn't help but grin.

"Yeah, thanks man."

As everyone went into the meeting room, Ryan waited for Pam to get up. Slipping his hand into hers, the two sat together as Pam watched Jim and Karen closely.

Weeks went by and in the end only Karen, Jim, and Andy stayed at the office.

There were plenty of awkward moments and it seemed as though any time Pam and Jim talked, Karen and Ryan were watching closely.

The night after Beach Day, Pam sat on the carpet floor of the condo with Ryan watching Ginger lay underneath her hanging play rings as she giggled each time Ryan moved one.

At Beach Day, Pam spent the entire time watching Jim and Karen and couldn't help for some strange reason feel jealous. In fact the last two months had been horrible for her. Somehow seeing Jim again and remembering everything seemed too much. She watched from afar as Karen and Jim laughed, kissed, or joked around like they used to. She knew Ryan was noticing and she could tell it was upsetting him.

The last few months for Pam had been dull, it seemed as though every day was the same. She would get up with Ryan, drop Ginger off at her parent's, go to work which now seemed to crawl by, then get Ginger, go home, spent the rest of the night fussing over her, then put her to bed.

Once they were alone Ryan was either studying, or Pam watched TV. The romance was slowly fading away and as much as Ryan tried, he could feel Pam pulling away. It now seemed as though every night she had a headache or didn't feel like it. Every night Ryan would lay awake wondering when they did make love…was it Jim's face she was pretending was there instead of his?

He tried to make things work. Often he tried suspiring her and even had flowers delivered to her desk for a whole week while Jim watched. At the end of the week Pam told Ryan that it was a waste of money and all of the flowers around her desk was making her eyes water. Ryan then tried taking her out whenever Pam's parents could baby-sit. But she always seemed half there, almost in a daze.

At dinner Ryan finally gave up on trying to talk with her. Most of the time she wasn't listening anyways. Instead he would direct his attention on Ginger and keep busy feeding her. In fact whenever they were home there seemed to be distance between them that Pam was making. So Ryan simply started paying all of his attention to the baby.

After studying as exhausted as he was, he would spent a good two hours playing with her or bathing and feeding her. Once she was in bed he would shuffle out to the living room where Pam would be blankly be staring at the TV with no expression at all.

They would sit together, and sometimes Pam would lay her head on his shoulder. But most of the time they didn't even touch each other at all.

At work it seemed the worse. Ryan tried so hard to make her happy. He would often looked up from his desk at her whenever he was staring over and wink at her. She would make a small smile before dropping her eyes. Ryan meanwhile would know the real reason why she was looking up in the first place.

To look at Jim.

At Christmas, Ryan made the biggest deal of it being Ginger's first Christmas. Pam meanwhile had the flu after the office party and spent most of the holiday in bed. Ryan suspired her with a beautiful set of wooden carved paint brushes in which Pam wrapped her arms around him thanking him.

When he tried to kiss her, she backed away telling him she didn't want him to get sick.

But Ryan knew better.

The new year came and past and still things stayed the same.

Now the two of them laid on the carpet together watching Ginger play before Ryan looked up at her.

"You're unhappy aren't you?"

Pam looked as though she was being shaken out of a bad dream.

"Huh?"

Ryan sighed.

"Pam the last couple of months have been awful…you pretend I'm not even here."

"That's not true."

Ryan just stared at her before Ginger giggled and looked at Ryan from the floor. Ryan smiled touching her tiny feet before looking back at Pam.

"It's weird isn't it?"

"What?"

"Work…seeing Jim."

"No Ryan…"

"No, it's weird seeing him with Karen after all this time…I get it. Also it's been a tough year getting used to Ginger."

Pam looked down at the baby before sighing.

"I guess…"

"I wanna tell you something."

"What?"

"I got a phone call today."

"Yeah?"

Ryan grinned.

"I got the job."

Pam froze.

"What?"

"The promotion at New York…the one everyone has been trying to get. They called me and I'm in."

Pam was speechless as Ryan smiled. Finally she spoke, slowly and in shock.

"You…got the job in New York?"

"Yeah, isn't that great! I wanted you to know first so I waited."

"But…what does this mean?"

"It means we're going to New York Pam…isn't that great?"

"But…New York?"

"Yeah, we've talked about this. That's why I'm been putting in so many hours."

"Wow…that's…wow…"

Pam couldn't believe it as Ryan smiled sitting up.

"I have to go next weekend for a meeting, while I'm there maybe we can look for apartments or something."

"Wait…we're moving there?"

"Well yeah Pam…I'm not leaving you and Ginger behind."

"But…"

"You promised remember? We're set now with this job. You can study art and we'll hire a nanny for Ginger."

"But…my family?"

"We'll visit them, hell we'll even drive down every other weekend."

"My job?"

Ryan stared at Pam.

"You hate it there Pam…you said so yourself."

"Yeah but…everyone I know is here…"

"Jesus Pam! I thought you would be happy!"

Pam blinked.

"I am…it's just a lot…I mean…wow…"

Ryan reached over gently touching her face.

"Pam, I told you the moment you got pregnant that I was going to take care of you."

Pam nervously smiled.

Right away she thought of Jim and how really awful and awkward the last couple of months had been. Looking at Ryan's big eyes she knew he really meant it. He was trying his best. Right away a million thoughts went through her mind and how terrified she was of moving to the big city with Ryan and the baby.

This seemed like too much and she wanted things to slow down.

But before she could, Ryan was kissing her.