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A/N: My first try on writing a songfic...It wasn't bet read...
Broken
4.I've got you under my skin
On the way to the hospital thousand thoughts were running through Hotch's mind – all at once. He slowly realized what he had just done – he just told Gideon about the fact that he had fallen for one of his subordinates…
To distract himself from his thoughts he turned on the radio, but when he heard the song which was played right now he was for a moment tempted to turn it off again – but he couldn't keep himself from listening to every word of it…
(I've got you under my skin
I've got you deep in the heart of me
You're so deep in my heart that you're really a part of me
And I've got you under my skin)
Hotch smirked sadly when his mind went back to his conversation with Jason but his train of thought was interrupted by the ringing of his cell-phone. It was Haley who wanted to know if he was going to come home soon. But he knew that he couldn't go home yet.
( I've tried so not to give in
You know I've said to myself this affair ain't gonna go so well
But why should I try to resist when baby I know so well
That I've got you under my skin)
When Hotch ended the conversation with his wife he felt guilty for telling her he had still something else to do before coming home – but he needed to see Elle…
( I'd sacrifice anything come what might
For the sake of having you near
In spite of a warning voice that comes in the night and repeats in my ear
Don't you know you fool, you never can win
Use your mentality, step up to reality
But each time I do just the thought of you
Makes me stop before I begin
Cause I've got you under my skin)
Hotch suddenly realized – while listening to the lyrics of the song – that there was only one thing he knew for sure : He could never give up his career or his family – nor could he risk to lose his friendship with Elle – for giving in to his feelings…
( I'd sacrifice anything come what might
For the sake of having you near
In spite of the warning voice that comes in the night
And repeats – how it yells in these ears
Don't you know you fool – no chance to win
Why not use your mentality
Wake up, step up to reality
But each time I do just the thought of you makes me stop before I begin
Because I've got you
You're under my skin
And I love you
Under my skin)
When the song ended Hotch had arrived at the hospital – he took a deep breath and got out of the car.
Tbc
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