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Author's Note: Thanks to all who reviewed. I thought about doing Duncan's POV and Giovanni's but Gio's is a little harder than I thought, so I will try my hardest, Duncan's I was going to do a little later but if you can't wait then I will do it sooner than planned. Also, don't expect fluff or a lot of happiness right now. One, I kinda don't like sappy stuff and two, a lot of people write love stories and not enough stories that are sad are hurtful so I just wanted to express that side. So yeah. Continue to read now. :)

Underlined is the lyrics.

Italics is her thoughts.

Chapter Six: Why 6 is Afraid of 7... Part Three

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I started running again. My legs were burning and aching in pain with each step I took. I probably shouldn't be running considering I'm already underweight but, it helps clear my mind.

Why are you even trying?

Replayed in my mind the whole time I left my dads house. I just want all this to go away. I stopped once more, my breathing becoming ragged. I placed my hands on my chest trying to steady my heartbeat but no use. Breathing was becoming a problem and I started to feel light headed.

What's happening?! Make it stop! I was breathing heavy and hard trying to steady myself. Seconds later I felt my head the sidewalk and darkness filled my vision.

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"Oh my God! Are you okay?! Can you hear me!? Please, you need help! Someone help!... Hello, hi my name is Vivian Green and I'm located on Estuary Street and Barrett Lakes Blvd. there is a girl who looks about the age of 16 or 17. She is breathing but very slowly. She looks like she collapsed because her head is bleeding. Please send an ambulance, she has lost a lot of blood...yes I will, thank you."

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Beep! Beep! Beep!

That damn beeping noise was irritating. I still couldn't see anything. Only hear. I wonder where am I? What happened? All I remember was me running away and never looking back.

"Geeze Courtney, what the hell happened? Are you hurting so much this is the outcome? I wish I could have noticed, I should have noticed. I feel horrible, I feel like shit. I wish I could trade places with you. I mean, isn't that what love is?" I know that voice. "Love is where you would sacrifice anything just because you love them. Huh, I know that one from my mom. She always told me that's what love meant. I saw you every single day and I haven't even told you I'm sorry. I'm sorry I didn't find out... This is it, right? That day after school, when I asked you why you were mad at me and you told me because I didn't find out. This was it. What made you run away from your dad's house? Princess, you have you wake up. Everyone is worried. Your mom is crying. Bridgette, Geoff, Gwen, and Trent are here. Your mom told me and I told them. I hope you don't mind. Bridgette told me you didn't tell her about your anorexia. She's really beating herself up because she wasn't there for when you needed her. I even saw Geoff cry...which is weird but understandable. He even got on me because I didn't shed a tear and you're my girlfriend. I know you're strong...a little too strong but which is fine with me, I don't need a softy lacking behind me.

"The doctor told everyone that you had a minor concussion, you lot a lot of blood from when your head hit the concrete. I wish you would have called me, I would have came and got you and took you home. Your father came by, but he only brought your stuff then he left. He seems like a bigger bastard then when you brought me to your house to meet him. The prick-- sorry didn't mean that. He was so pissed at you! he was even mad at me! I didn't even steal anything from him and he was mad at me.

"Well I'm going to go back in the waiting room. I think Bridgette wants to see you. Wake up okay?"

Duncan...

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"Oh Courtney! I'm so sorry!"

Bridgette...don't cry please....

"I should have been there, we all should! You are my best friend. We do everything...but not lately... Is that why you haven't talked to me lately? Oh, I'm so sorry, please forgive me! I don't want to say goodbye to my best friend. Court, we were going to go to college together and be roommates and study together. We said we were going to be best friends until the end, but don't let this be the end. I wish I was there, someone who you could tell your problems to like best friends do when they're in kindergarten.

"I remember when we first met, I though you were so in-denial, you still are. You can be stubborn and not to mention a kill-joy sometimes, but that's what I love about you. You hear that? Love. I know that if something goes too far, you will always be there to make sure things go back on track. Duncan told me that you used to think that no one loved you. God, Court, we all love you no matter what. I promise.

"When you get out of here we're going to go shopping and buy everything. I know you're going to get out. Just have faith, okay? I'm going to go. Gwen wants to see you next. Goodnight."

Goodnight....

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"Hey Courtney. It hurts to see you like this. You would be the last person I would think to end up in this situation. I wish something else happened, anything but this. I don't want to loose a friend so soon. We're only 17. It seems like yesterday we just met. I was new in class because I got my schedule changed and Mr. Hoya made me sit right next to you. I was so mad, I thought you were a preppy know it all, I mean you kinda are but you're so much more. I realize that now. You're everyone's best friend weather you know it or not. At least one person could say something about you that like most. Mine is you strive. You never stop. You keep going weather it breaks you down. You won't give up without a fight. So don't give up on everything that you worked for because that means everything that you have fought for would mean nothing, but I know you won't give up without a fight.

"So Courtney please, please, keep fighting. You're so headstrong and strong, you could pull through anything. I swear when you wake up everything will change for better. Please forgive me for not being there. I know you're going to apologize when you wake up, but don't okay. It's going to make me feel worse because you would think it's your fault like you do when everything else bad that happens. Sleep well, may the Gods be with you."

I'm sorry...for being sorry.

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"Whoa... Courtney...you look bad. What happened? I've never seen you like this. I never thought I would. I always imagined you to be classy and elegant...but I shouldn't have thought that. Who knew you were hurting so much inside. I wish I could have been there. I hate seeing my friends in situations like this. It makes you believe in the saying 'things aren't always what they seem'. You are sort of like the day. You seem to bring good but sometimes there's bad. Like light does not always bring as night always brings evil. It's so true. Remember last week?

"You yelled at me because I was putting down my music then you told me "Trent, your music is so amazing, one day you're going to be famous and when you are everyone will see what you have to offer. I don' think you realize this, but in a weird hidden way you seek out the good in all of us. I don't think I would ever forget that. You are an amazing person. You will never be forgotten nor lost within our hearts. I think that if you leave tonight, we'll be devastated, but I think we'll understand. Maybe, just maybe you couldn't take anymore and you wanted to be free of pain. So go to sleep but don't go away to the Land of the Nod. Be well"

Trent...why?

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"Dudette, I didn't want to believe it. I couldn't believe that my best gal is in so much pain. Never you. Maybe Beth or Heather but not you. You have so much to offer. You in-denial-perfectionist. You helped me with all my classes and helped me pass junior year, now I'm a senior. You make sure that I'm always passing and doing what I'm supposed to before I can even think about throwing a party. You have a way with people and I hope that never changes. I even shed a tear and so did Gwen, Bridgette, and Trent. You're a cool kid Courtney Barnes. Such a cool kid. Dude, I have to go, so be chill."

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"Oh, honey! You should have called me. Y'know you have really good friends. They all came and cried with me. You should really hang onto them, they are keepers. You normally don't see people like them around. Courtney, I just want you to wake up and come home. I really need to know you're okay and hearing the doctor tell me is not doing me justice. It's getting late. G'night.

Goodnight mom.

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I can't believe they all feel so highly of me even though I'm a train-wreck. Was I wrong all along? I think I hear the door opening then some shuffling then someone began to speak.

"What happened to us? We were best friends you told me everything. You were my baby girl and still are. I swear I ever meant to hurt you the way I did. I just believed that if I acted like I never cared all my wrongs will be drowned by my new family. To be honest, I never had an intention on ever leaving you and your mom but I was wrong and right now...I'm reaping what I sewn and to say the least, it hurts. It hurts to see I make my little girl cry at night, run away from me, and probably hate me. You can't even hear me and this is the only time I can say I'm sorry. I'm sorry. You'll always be my little girl no matter what. So, please, forgive me?"

I heard the same shuffling and the door close.

And that was the end of that...

Ohkay so this was my own way of doing everyones POV but still keeping it in Courtney's POV. I really hate changing POVs because it kinda messes me up unless I establish two different point of views in the beginning. If i made someone confused, just let me know and I will redo the chapter or tell you myself. The italics are her thoughts that she's saying in her mind like if she was to say that outloud. mmk? Im rambling so Im going to stop now. Done.

So tell me how bad do you really want it. Do Not Disturb by Lets Get It

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