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Author's Note: Last Chapter, then Epilogue!
Italics are the lyrics. Enjoy.
Chapter Seven: Cherry Sunsets
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I heard one of the nurses come in, I had regained a little feeling over the 24 hours. She was touching my arm and I think checking my blood pressure. I felt something way too cold! I gasped in a lung full of air and my eyes shot opened and I shot up. The nurse was startled to say and she looked at me with wide eyes. She was a plumpy little woman who looked around the age of 36 and she was in her uniform with strawberry blonde hair in a bun. She ran out shouting.
"Doctor! She's awake!" She came back smiling. "Hi, I'm Fawndora but just Fawn is nice." I was still gasping slightly and I smiled. Then Dr. Jekly came in with a smug expression on his face.
"Good morning Courtney. I see the dead has arisen. You gave your mom and friends quite a scare. Your mom said she was on her way before you woke up so this will surely be a surprise. You had a minor concussion but everything seems fine. You did however, loose a fair amount of blood so you'll be a little wobbly. Other than that, I need your mom to sign you out because you're done here." Then he smiled his drop dead gorgeous smile and I almost melted spite my overwhelming groggy feeling. On his way out I stopped him.
"Dr. Jekly!" He turned around and looked at me. "Thanks, it means a lot that you never gave up on me."
He gave me one of cocky grins that I've become accustomed to and nodded.
"Courtney, it's my job and I'll never have little faith in my patients." He turned back around and I rested my head against the cold metal headboard of the bed. I heard the door open and I saw my mom. Her mouth was hanging over and tears were falling from her eyes, she walked to my bed and looked at me. Then she hugged me.
"Oh! Courtney! I'm so glad you're awake! You have no idea how much you scared us!" Oh, but I do...I remember everything thing I heard.
"Right mom. Can we just go home, I feel really drained."
"Of course." She held her hand out and I took it and she helped he off the bed. That's when I really felt the bloodrush. I clasped my free hand and placed it on my head. "We have some Tylenol at home, don't worry everything will be fine. I think you should call you friends and tell them that you woke up don't you think?"
"I am mom." She smiled at me and guided me out the hospital room and into the help desk to sign me out. The plump lady was standing there and she smiled at me.
"I hope you'll feel better Miss. Barnes." I nodded and continued to walk with my mom guiding me to the car.
Once we reached the car she opened the door and I got in and laid back in my seat. This headache was a taking a toll on me more than I expected. My mom shut the door and got in the car and drove off to go home. A place that I so desperately miss. I looked out the window and I closed my eyes. They were getting droopy and I rested my head on my ganky arms and dozed off to sleep.
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"Courtney, wake up. We're home." My mom shook me awake. My eyes fluttered open and I got up, then bloodrush ceasing and I went to the living room. Once I did, I saw all my friends and Duncan sitting on the sofa smiling at me. I stopped dead in my tracks and I'm sure my mouth was agape and then Bridgette came running at me and hugged me.
"Oh Courtney! You woke up! I was so worried!" She let go and looked at me.
"Sorry, Bridgette, didn't mean to make you worry like that." I said scratching my neck nervously.
Then Geoff came up to me and gave me a big bear hug. It caught me by surprised so I managed a little gasp.
"Dang CIT! I'm so glad you woke up!" Then he gave one of his famous, "Woo-hoo!" I managed a little giggle and then Gwen came up to me and hugged me.
"Good to see our little Miss. Goody-Goody is back." She said and I knew she was joking.
"Yeah, it's kinda good to be home." I said then Trent came to me and gave me another one of his comfort hugs like he did when we were in front of my door.
"Welcome back." He said. After the hugs were done I plopped down on the sofa and closed my eyes and opened them right back up.
"Dudes! Do you know what this means?" Geoff shouted.
"What?" Duncan spoke for the very first time since I came home.
"A celebration and you know what a celebration means?"
"A party!" Everyone -except me- said in unison.
"Un-un you guys, I can't. I have a lot of studying to do. All my grades have dropped and I have to get them back up if I want to even be considered to be accepted to a college."
"Ah c'mon Princess, one party isn't going to hurt you. Besides, everyone needs fun when they come out from the hospital." Duncan said giving one of his sloppy boyish grins.
"Awe c'mon Court, this will be fun! Do it for yourself!" Bridgette piped in.
I looked at Gwen and Trent who both nodded their heads yes. I groaned and nodded my head meekly.
"Woo!" Geoff cat called. Everyone smiled and nodded their heads thinking of a way to throw the best party ever.
Well at least things are on the road to getting back on track. I have all my friends and boyfriend with me. My mom is happy again talking to her mysterious man. I'm at the turning point of my life where I'm starting to see things a new and clear way.
I smiled to myself at my friends discussing a way to throw a party and I listened and nodded when needed.
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I woke up and oddly enough, I smiled. I got up and went to the bathroom to freshen up, then I went back to my room and put on a pair of jeans and a shirt and walked out the door. I felt a breeze of morning dew in my face and I continued to go where ever I was going. I didn't really need a place to care. My feet knew exactly where they were going and to me, that's all that mattered.
Today is Sunday, a day where people go and rejoice and praise for all their blessings that has happened to them within the week.
I think I'm starting to realize the meaning of life. Live it to the fullest. I don't think that when I'm on my death bed I'm going to be thinking to myself 'damn, I wish I turned in that paper work I was going to do' no, I'm going to wish that I went to that awesome party and partied my little heart out. I think we all should just sit down and watch the sunset because how the hell do you know if you're going to see another one? I mean we're all gonna die and this world is fucking up big time, so why don't we make the best of it.
Look around us, the world is falling apart, our environment is in danger. There is a vacant canvas so paint what you want in life, do whatever, you're in charge and you make it what you want it to be. Enjoy the simple things in life. Take pictures of everything, film the simplest things, because they will last longer than our lives.
Question: if you were told you were going to die tonight, would you regret the lack of stuff you have done in your life? Don't you wish you had done stuff, seen more of the world, lived a little? It's so easy to do nothing that you could die regretting everything. What I'm talking about is if the apocalypse came today, there would be so many people kicking themselves because they spent all their lives in education and education and education and then jobs. It's not worth it. Think about it and live.
As my feet kept walking I kept thinking and I knew exactly where I was going.
Have you ever noticed that you get treated better when you're dead then when you're alive? I don't want to be treated any differently from when I'm alive then when I'm dead, so I'm going to burn myself to ash, that way I'll die the way I want to and no one will have to mourn over me. I don't want people being sad because I had to go away, they still have to live and have fun. They don't need me to slow them down. I'll be fine.
A cherry sunset blossoms,
But we're not there to watch it fall,
On the vacant canvas, we should be waiting,
With our face down on the grass,
Staring till our eyes give way,
Let's paint this city black,
While the night's still young,
You,
This cherry sunset withers,
Our words as frail as paper,
A dawn I thought we'd never see,
Alone on this silent beach,
Nothing we can do,
There is nothing we can do,
The sky, it burns itself,
The sky, it burns itself,
The sky, it burns itself out,
The sky, it burns itself,
The trees rot down to nothing,
Throats dry out and corpses fill the sidewalks,
These promenades our graveyards,
The sky, it burns itself out,
The sky, it burns itself out,
There is nothing we can do,
The sky, it burns itself,
And I think we're all about to fucking die,
The trees rot down to nothing,
Throats dry out, corpses fill these sidewalks,
These promenades our graveyards,
Kneeling down on what's left,
Sacrificed upon doom's day,
Oh, if we could take it back, and see one last twilight,
Take a picture, take a picture,
Take a picture, take a picture,
Take a picture,
Take a picture, take a picture,
Take a picture, take a picture,
It will last longer,
Our hands in prayer formation,
Our elbows on the bed,
One last try for Heaven,
Thinking who wants flowers when you're dead?,
You're dead,
When you're dead,
Cherry, cherry,
Cherry, cherry,
Cherry, cherry,
Cherry, cherry,
Cherry,
A cherry sunset.
Once I reached my destination I looked up and the big french doors with crosses on each door. I opened them and walked in. No one was in here so I guess service is over. I went to the pulpit and knelt down in front of the cross. Me and my father would come down here and pray together and go to brunch. I clasped my hands together and prayed.
When I was down I felt someone put their hands on the shoulders. I opened my eyes and looked up at the person who put their hands on me. I smiled and he smiled back. I gave him the biggest hug I could muster. I let a few tears fall. I knew He hasn't forgot about me. I smiled within our embrace and looked up.
"Brunch?" He asked me and I pulled away and smiled and laughed a little.
"Sure...daddy." He grabbed my hand like he used to do when I was little and led me out of the church that we used to go to.
Sometimes, you just have to fall to learn how to get back up again....
AH! The last chapter! :D I think I ended it on a fairly good note. I think I'm going to do a sequel after the epilogue. I'm so happy I finished!!!!!
MMK! So the lyrics is by Bring Me the Horizon and it's called Who Wants Flowers When You're Dead. Nobody. OMG! Same title! Well, this whole song was my inspiration for this story and it's about living life to it's fullest. I hope that you liked the ending :D
Tomorrow is the epilogue! Stay tuned mmk?