Ch.5- Secrets & Dating

A/N: sorry I haven't written in so long, but I'm in the middle on some shitty international examinations so I don't have that much time on my hands… plus, to make it even worse my aunt is in the hospital, they just found out she's got cancer, so my mind has been everywhere these past days… sorry here's the update.

Disclaimer: I OWN EVERYTHING!!---Yeah right… ¬¬

BPOV:

We got in my car, and I had to drive, because Edward said my car was too girlie for him to drive it, and went off to our date. We hadn't really decided where we were going to go so I slowed the car to a full stop on the red light and asked, "Hey, we never said where we were going, so… were do you want to go?" he seemed deep in thought and sort of jumped a little when he heard my voice, but quickly looked at me to answer, "I don't know… why don't you pick the place?" he said still with his mind somewhere else, I started giggling and he seemed to focus on me this time "I'd love to , but given that I've been in this town for like two days, I think we'll be better if you choose… I mean unless you want to go all the way to Arizona for dinner…" I said this time laughing really hard. He noticed his mistake and blushed softly "oh right…um… then how about Italian? We could eat lasagna or something…" he said looking at me, but something wasn't right, he seemed detached somehow… "Sure… but hey, what's wrong?" "What? Oh, nothing really, sorry… take the next right over there…" he said pointing to the road avoiding my gaze.

He refrained to give me instructions every couple of minutes and I obeyed silently, he was acting weird and he wouldn't tell me why, so I stayed quiet until he decided to talk. I was giving him some time to clear his mind, he obviously needed it. Maybe all of this was going just too fast, or maybe it was something else I didn't know of, but whatever it was it was apparently hurting him, and I hated to see that expression on his beautiful features, especially when the change was so sudden.

We got out of the car as soon as we arrived to "Piccola Italia" the restaurant Edward picked, and I realized it was oddly warm for September so I left my jacket on the back seat. Edward still wouldn't direct a word to me so I just followed him, he was so distant and I hated it, if he didn't start talking soon enough I'll make him talk… he opened the restaurant door for me and the first thing I noticed was the maître 'd checking Edward out. She was wearing a formal black dress, nothing to flashy, but the look on her face and the drool almost coming out of her mouth ratted her out immediately. She just stared passed me towards Edward, now that's what I call an eye-fuck, and a good one too.

"Hello and welcome to Piccola Italia, my name is Christine, table for two?" she asked with the most annoying voice ever. That's when I heard the most beautiful voice speak again "Yes please, and could it be somewhere remotely private? if you know what I mean…" he said eyeing the restaurant which was packed. "Uh, yes of course, follow me please." She responded with clear disgust and a fake polite smile eyeing me out, I almost gagged, but a feeling of peace filled me when Edward put a hand around my waist to lead me towards a very secluded booth.

"Okay, what the hell's wrong?" I asked a bit irritated once we were sitting and alone. We were facing each other so I could see perfectly the guilt flash in his beautiful eyes. He looked down and began to answer but just then a pretty bimbo walked in, she was relatively hot, you know the typical dyed blonde, blue eyes and skinny, nothing special. "Hey there, are you ready to order?" she spoke directly to Edward not even acknowledging me. "Uh… I don't know… Bella?" he looked at me pleading with his eyes, I was now fuming so I picked the menu the previous lady had put on the table and read out loud the first thing on the list, lucky for me it was lasagna, my favorite, "Yeah we'll have two of those thanks… and coke?" he eyed me again, I nodded and he nodded back to the waitress without really looking at her.

"Okay now would you please explain yourself?" he looked down clearly guilty or ashamed I couldn't see, then when he looked up through his lashes I melted and regretted saying anything, clearly there was something wrong, I could see it in his eyes "Ugh… sorry, that was kinda bitchy, but seriously, what happened? I mean everything was just fine, and all of the sudden in the car it was like you tuned out or something, your mood just changed drastically from one second to the other… is something wrong? You know you can tell me Edward…" I said grabbing his hand on top of the table and rubbing soothing circles on the back, while I looked at him with real concern in my eyes. He sighed and squeezed my hand back, he then sat up straight took a deep breath and closed his eyes, like he was trying hard to focus and speak. "Bella, it has nothing to do with you, I promise… I swear… it's just that I don't know, in the car I was thinking while I watched you drive and sing and enjoy yourself… and I realized that you shouldn't be with me…" he opened his eyes to gauge my expression, I don't know what he saw, honestly I was frozen in place, but apparently it wasn't good, because he fixed his sight on the table once again with a guilty face. "I… I'm…" but just then the stupid blond bimbo of a waitress strolled in with the food, and suddenly I was no longer hungry, I nodded to her while Edward didn't even lifted his face, he stayed still until she left, and started talking again.

"Listen Bella, is just that I consider myself damaged goods you know? And I don't think you deserve that… you deserve so much more, than just a stupid guy who's probably ruined beyond repair… and it just hit me, while we were on the car, that you need more than me, and that made me so sad… but I don't care because its best for you… so I guess I'm happy if you'll be eventually happier than this…" he sighed again, and I felt my eyes prickle with unshed tears.

"So what, you are saying she shouldn't go out any more because you think you are too damaged?" I asked skeptically "Edward, who in this world isn't damaged, every single person's got his own luggage, and even though we've known each other for like only a couple days, I like you… so much and I don't think you can avoid that…" I said with a smirk to get him to smile, and he did but it didn't reach his eyes completely. "And listen to me, I'm no better than you, so stop putting me in this like pedestal… and I'm a grown woman now… so how about I decide who I want to date and who is just not enough for me?" I said chuckling, and she laughed along… "Okay, I guess you are right, I'm sorry, I just freaked out momentarily… forgive me?" he pleaded with the most adorable pout and I couldn't help but melt and chuckle at the same time, he just reminded me too much of the pussy on boots from Shrek- and seriously the name!- with those big glassy green eyes and the adorable pout. "And do you want me to forgive you for? For being way too adorable and sexy at the same time for anyone to resist? For making the waitress drool on our table every time she comes to ask you something?" I asked giggling, he blushed slightly and shook his head with that panty-dropping crooked smile "No… because I almost ruined our first date…" I just smiled and nodded back, not trusting my voice with the sight in front of me, I would have either purred or my voice would've cracked. It was all I could do not to jump him right then and there.

He then leaned in across the table and gave me a soft but lingering kiss on the lips, just then my stomach grumbled, revealing the fact that I was famished. He chuckled against my lips breaking the kiss and sitting back on his seat; I just blushed furiously and looked down in embarrassment. He stretched his hand to caress my cheek, from my temple to my chin lifting it to lock his emeralds with my eyes. "Don't hide your blush; it's just too lovely and sexy for me to miss it." He said smirking knowing a new blush would come following his compliment, and it didn't disappoint, but this time I didn't look down following his request.

"Dinner was great... thank you" I said in almost a whisper looking up at him through my eyelashes. We were already at the door of my dorm, and we were saying goodnight. I was a bit nervous not knowing how exactly to proceed, after all I've only dated twice in my life, the second was my ex-boyfriend and we didn't slept together until we reached the year, so this was the first time I actually dated someone I had already been intimate with. I was biting my lip and fidgeting with the pendant on my chain.

"I love that necklace... you wore it the first time we went out... remember? To the black hole?" he asked with a gorgeous smile and a tone of remembrance. In fact I did remember, I use this necklace only on special occasions 'cause it's my favourite, but men never remember what you are wearing, much less accessories... "I do..." and a smile lit my face when a saw the grin on his, it was almost giddy... almost. "I can't believe you remember... that's so sweet..." I said smiling while I leaned against my door, "I'll always remember everything about you... you are to memorable and breathtakingly beautiful to ever forget you or anything about you for that matter..." he said with such confidence I believe him every single word he said.

He had talked over dinner about taking things slowly, since it had already began so hurriedly, so we could maybe take things a little forward instead of leaving things at this, a one-night-stand or something. We both agreed that both times the night after dancing and today earlier christening my car had been more than fun and enjoyable, but that in order for us to be able to have a real relation-something we both craved for-we needed to take things at a more reasonable pace.

He had confessed to me that mainly he was acting the way he was because he had gotten a broken heart before me. His previous girlfriend had left him suddenly claiming she didn't love him anymore and saying she had cheated on him several times, but that apparently he was too stupid to realise and act on it. He loved her, or at least he thought he did and his heart broke when facing this realisations, he hadn't been with anyone ever since, because he'd lost his faith in women, and having me so close to him, everything moving so fast between us got him scared and a little freaked that he was feeling the way he was after such little time together.

But after what he just said to me, being all sweet and gentlemanly I was pretty much convinced that taking it slow was bullshit and all I wanted was to pounce on him that second... he was just too sweet for his own good, and hot as fuck for that matter. But I didn't want to pressure him so I decided to take it slow, without it being continental drift slow.

I grabbed the collar of his shirt to slowly but forcefully bring him close to me to kiss him. he got it and got closer to softly peck me on the lips. I leaned forward to prolong the kiss and he kissed me back, I lightly traced my tongue through hi bottom lip as a request for access which he granted almost immediately, and so it began one of the sweetest kiss I've ever gotten. It was filled with unspoken feelings, untouched caresses and unfulfilled desires. It was so much more than a kiss it was a hidden message evoking and pronouncing everything we wanted to say to each other and couldn't quite put into words.

He softly pulled away and remained with his eyes closed catching his breath, leaning his forehead against mine. We were both panting, gasping for air, but I didn't want that kiss to finish, it was too special, too intense for me to want it to be over.

"Bella we need to stop now..." he said panting, opening his eyes to lock them with mine, his forehead still leaning against mine and his hand on my neck caressing my cheek with his thumb.

"Why...?" I said in a low whisper pouting.

"Because Bella," he said chuckling "if we don't stop now, I'm not sure I'll be able to stop..."

I sighed looking down "okay...fine..." I said smiling up at him.

EPOV

"Okay fine..." she sighed and smiled up at me, and I couldn't help the smile growing on my lips matching hers, I pecked her softly on the lips and took her hand. We went in her dorm and sat down on the new purple couch I had sat previously on. I lay with my back on one of the armrests and she lay between my legs with her head leaned on my chest.

"So did you notice the waitress? She was pretty, wasn't she?" she asked me with a tone in her voice I didn't recognise. Was she jealous?

"Umm... no, I didn't notice her really, only that she took forever to get our orders and she came by a lot to check on us... but again who could possibly notice anyone with you in the room..." I said smiling and stroking her soft hair with one hand while the other rested on her tummy holding hers.

She looked up and she was blushing a soft pink, she smiled up at me and it transformed into a lovely giggle. I was confused as to what I'd said made her laugh, so I asked "Hey... what's so funny?" I arched my eyebrow looking at her.

"You really didn't notice..." she said laughing harder than before and with a sceptic and surprised tone. Notice what? What was she talking about?

"Notice what...? Bella what's so funny" I asked seriously confused, are we still talking about the waitress?

"Oh nothing is just that you are so innocent, maybe too innocent for your own good... I can't believe you didn't notice that blond bimbo flirting her ass off with you! I mean she was all over you!" she said with an amused expression.

I didn't get it, I mean really? Who would flirt while one is clearly on a date? and with the most beautiful girl ever if I might add."Really? Are you sure you are not exaggerating?" she started laughing again and between gasps she managed to say "hell no! I mean how could you not notice her eye-fucking you every time she entered the room? That's why she came every two seconds and why she took forever to take our order... she was ogling... and not subtly if I might add... I swe-swear I thought our food w-w-was going to have drool all over or that sh-she was going to trip and spill everything the second she c-ca-came near you!" she finished laughing so hard you could barely make out the words.

I started chuckling and wondering if she was right, on the check I did notice that the back had something written like maybe a phone number or something, but at the time I didn't make anything out of it, I just turned the paper, began reading what it said 'hey gorgeous-' and got distracted by my angel's voice asking what was I doing, I replied nothing and turn the paper around to pay for our dinner, and that's it. Maybe she was right, but heck I'm happy with my girl and I couldn't care less if suddenly the whole female population began to throw themselves at me, I have eyes for Bella, and Bella only.

"But then again who could blame her? You are one walking eye-gasm" she said as her laughter died down bringing me out of my reverie. What?

"What are you talking about?"

"Pff!... like you haven't noticed..." she said rolling her eyes, I gave her a confused look and her eyes widened, she rolled till she was on top of me with our chest pressed together, she put both her hands on my chest and looked at me directly on the eyes. "Are you serious?" apparently the confused look remained in my face because she continued without a response from my part "I can't believe you haven't notice, either you are stupid, blind or unbelievably naïve... I 'm going to go with naïve, because I like you too much to call you stupid, and I know you are not blind... but still it doesn't cease to amaze me how oblivious you are to your surroundings... I mean you are beyond gorgeous, and you can make any girl wet herself with one of your smiles only, so I can't figure how come you haven't notice the effect you have on the girls surrounding you, the way they flirt to death with you and practically pounce you on the streets..." she chuckled.

I was honestly surprised I had never notice that, I mean I don't consider myself ugly but I don't think I'm hot either, suddenly it hit me something that she said... 'you can make any girl wet herself with one of your smiles only' "Really? Haven't notice... much less now with you by my side..." I grinned at her evilly "So... do I have that kind of effect on you too?..." I asked in a suggestive tone "are you kidding me?!" she said in a sceptic tone arching one of her perfect eyebrows and my face fell, feeling suddenly bummed, I looked down but when she remained quite after her question I looked up to see a beautiful smile lighting up her face, it was no a smirk or a grin it was a soft, sweet smile.

"Every time. When I see you, think of you, smell you, hear you... feel you..." she traced her hands to my neck to pull me closer and kiss me softly on the lips "...taste you" she ended whispering and kissing me again, I felt giddy and exited and a smile broke through my lips and suddenly I wanted to make her feel that way too so I closed my arms on her back and pulled her even closer to me to kiss her passionately, I could feel myself getting harder underneath her, and now that her core was aligned with my hard on she whimpered and I lost my mind.

I grabbed her ass to lift her even more, she moved her legs and so did I so now she was straddling me. She rubbed herself on me and a moan escaped both our lips and drowned in the other's mouth. Suddenly Bella stopped and pulled away gasping, but it wasn't to regain her breath, it was to stop the kiss, "Edward we have to stop, otherwise I won't be able to stop..." she said panting looking at me square in the eyes "then don't stop..." I panted leaning forward to kiss her again, she kissed back for a couple of seconds and then pulled back again I sighed and opened my eyes to see her with her eyes closed taking deep breaths trying to steady her pulse and breathing, after a couple of seconds she opened her eyes and spoke again "Edward you were the one who wanted to go slow, common we both agreed it was for the best so we have to stop... trust me it's not easy for me either, but we made a choice and we have to stick to it..." she said smiling but I could tell this was in fact difficult for her too and that gave me the strength to stop, if she could, then I can. I sighed knowing she was right but not wanting to acknowledge it. "Yeah, I know... but you make it so hard... you are too sexy" I told her with my crooked grin, she smirked back, pecked me on the lips and lifted herself from me; she stood up and stretched a hand to help me up.

"In a hurry to get rid of me already? We only started dating today..." I said smirking as I stood in front of me, her smile disappeared and a look of shock crossed her eyes, then the smile returned. "What's-" I began to say but she interrupted me first "Is that what we are doing? Dating I mean?" she said with a hopeful aura, I smirked as I realised that she wanted this as bad as I did, and I was glad, because I didn't know if were in the same page, and now I know we are.

Today was the first day of school and after last night I couldn't think of a better way to start school. We had come to the agreement that we were dating she kissed me happily and intensely and we said our goodbyes, I only dreamt of Bella yesterday, and it wasn't sexual or anything, it was just us in a future I hope we get to. We were getting married and she was walking down the aisle in a beautiful white dress, carrying a bouquet of white peonies, she looked stunning.

Since both of us were majoring in music (though different areas of it) we got quite a few classes together, though apparently not on Monday, since we hadn't seen each other since this morning when we gathered for some coffee at Starbucks with Alice, Emmet and Rosalie. Jasper didn't go because he didn't have classes till 10 so what was the point in getting up at 8, though apparently Emmet was so loud in the mornings he probably woke up anyways.

After breakfast we walked together to the main hall and then Bella and I split to go to the music building. She had music history at 8, while I had piano at 8:30 till 10:30; fortunately it was my only class on Monday so we agreed we were going to get together at 1 for lunch since she had another class at 10:15 till 12:45.

It was currently 10:35 and I was walking down the hall of the rehearsal rooms to go back to my dorm to shower and change to see Bella, when I heard the most amazing voice, it was soft and smooth like silk, high and in perfect tune to the guitar playing along. Usually you can barely hear the noises coming from the rehearsal rooms, because they were built that way but this room had the door slightly open. As I got closer the voice became clearer and it was like it filled my head and I couldn't think of anything else, not even Bella who owned my every thought, memory and daydream. I felt slightly guilty that I was craving a voice this badly, like somehow I was cheating, because this voice was too sensual, it stimulated all my senses and it left me to its mercy.

Needing to know who this amazing voice belonged to I peeked inside the room to see a guy sitting on a piano stool playing the guitar that accompanied the beautiful voice. I couldn't see anyone besides the boy, he was about my age, but he looked younger, he had a round face-not fat just round- blond messy hair which you could tell had had gel applied to, and pale skin. I couldn't tell the colour of his eyes because he was looking down while he played until he looked up to the girl singing and I could tell they were light blue. When he looked up the voice stopped and it was like you had taken a piece of me away, I needed to hear it again no matter what. He left the guitar on his lap and began clapping and I felt like doing the same except when I heard my favourite voice in the world speak "Thanks Mike, and thank you for offering to help me you are so sweet" then I saw her approach him, he left the guitar on the floor and stood up, she embraced him and he hugged her back, it was short but enough for me to almost barge in and kick his ass.

"No problem Bella I can help you every Monday if you want to, I honestly don't care... actually it would be my pleasure" and then that motherfucker grabbed her hand and kissed it! I saw her blush and I almost killed that bastard, that was my blush!

"Hey Bella would you like to go grab a cup of coffee or maybe lunch after we are done here?" that's it, I can't believe he's flirting with her!

"I'm sorry Mike, I can't go out with you, I have plans to lunch with my boyfriend..." she said with a cute, sweet smile- wait, did she just say BOYFRIEND?! Suddenly I felt all giddy and proud that my Bella had let this guy down for me! And she called me her boyfriend! I was doing a happy dance inside that became more of a touchdown victory dance when I heard her let him down again "But Bella we both now you want me... I mean there's no point in denying that, I see the way you look at me when you sing, with such a passion and lust it's oozing through your pores! I mean come on let's get this over with... what do you think?" he said putting his hands on her hips to pull her closer, and I thought I was going to explode right then, but she acted so quickly it didn't leave me anytime to act or even stop doing the victory dance inside. "Mike, get the fuck off of me! Don't you ever touch me again! and you know what you are right I do look at you with a passion and lust that I feel like I'm going to spontaneously combust with all the fire I have inside me, but is only because I'm thinking of my boyfriend and wishing he was here instead of you, you dimwit!" the victory dance was now a flat out party in my head, I was so proud of Bella and how she handled the situation, and so proud that she is that committed to me, to us, and happy she felt that way about me.

"But Bella-" he tried again "No Mike, fuck off! And you know what I won't be needing your help not now, not ever! You hear me? Now I'll leave early, you can't stay here if you please, I don't give a shit, oh! And if you ever attack me like that you'll be answering to my boyfriend, got that?" and with that she turned around picked her bag from the floor and headed toward the door where I was standing. I stood to the side and leaned against the wall waiting for her to come out. She was fuming as she left the room. "Hey there beautiful..." I said in a soft sexy voice, she stopped dead on her feet and gasped "Edward" before spinning around to face me.

"Edward!" she said as a huge smile broke through her beautiful pouty lips, she threw herself at my arms and hugged me with her arms around my neck giving me a small but passionate kiss.

"Why aren't you happy to see me..." I said chuckling while I nuzzled her hair when she brought her head to lean on my chest, the delicious scent of strawberries filling my nose. She smiled sweetly looking up at me, "Is just that I missed you a lot and- wait if you were here does that mean that you heard the argument I had with Mike?" she asked cautiously, she was probably scared of what I would do to mike if I knew what had happened. "Yes love, and I'm sorry I eavesdropped, and if you want me to kick Mike's ass I'll gladly do it for you, but I couldn't stop myself your voice hypnotized me and practically dragged me all the way here to revel in the delight of your singing..." she went from being slightly shocked, to happy, to extremely happy, to finally extremely shocked after I was done talking, and I couldn't understand why.

"Love why do you look so shocked? I already apologized for eavesdropping, what's wrong?" I asked concerned, she looks as if I had done something wrong, or if she had done something extremely wrong afraid I'll find out...

"Umm... besides eavesdropping -and I don't mind about that seriously- were you also looking inside?" she asked nervously.

"Yes love, what's wrong?" I asked concerned again, impatient to know what was putting that look in my angel's face.

"Umm... and you don't mind what Mike did to me?" she asked now sad looking at the floor and then peeking at me through her eyelashes. What? Was I missing something?

"Bella what's wrong, tell me now... did that bastard do anything to you?!" I was seriously pissed but not at her so I had to control my voice to not yell at her when it wasn't her fault. How was it possible that I had missed something I was looking all the time!

"Well umm... he tried to kiss me... and... he sort of did... but I pushed him right away and slapped him-hard..." she said slow at first, then ended in a rush when she saw my face. I was confused and pissed out of my mind; how the fuck did I miss that? I must have being when I was giggling doing the stupid victory dance on how she had rejected this asshole that he actually kissed her, fuck the fucking fucker! He'd had the nerve!

I think a growl escape mi lips because Bella put both her tiny little hands on my chest to stop me from killing the SOAB and began whispering loudly and in a rush "Edward baby, leave him alone, I promise I took care of it, and I promise if he ever steps out of line ever again I'll call you and you can kick his ass, but not now, please?" she pleaded with me with those gigantic beautiful brown eyes, and I couldn't resist. "okay fine... this time only... I just can't believe I missed that I swear I was looking all the time... god I'm an asshole! how did I not notice?!" "Edward, stop it! You are not an asshole okay?! You probably got distracted and that's it, I handled it myself and everything is right now... okay?" I nodded helpless "now kiss me you jealous, sexy Adonis..."she said with a smirk and I couldn't help to chuckle at her comparison, I leaned in and kiss her softly on her pretty, big, red, scrumptious lips.

She hummed against my lips and we walked out of the building. "so now that you are out early, what do you want to do?"

A/N: again sorry for being so late please R&R and make me happy... :)

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