I arrive at the mall parking lot. After taking ten minutes to put on my clothes in the car and the drive here, I wind up here at 3:30, which gave me time to spare.

I grab my phone and walk through the mall to Pac sun. On my way there I see a few kids staring at me, like I have something on my face or something. Oh, I do, Its called being hot. Five ghetto boys walk by and they keep staring at me. I roll my eyes playfully and one of them says something to his boys and runs over to me, "Ay, mommy."

I look at him but keep walking, "I don't have any kids so I don't think I can be a mommy, nonetheless your mommy."

"Ah-ha-ha, well, you can be my baby's mamma anytime you want." He smiles.

I roll my eyes, "You have a kid?"

He shakes his head, "Nah, we can make one."

I laugh and stop to look at him, "Does that line ever work?"

He bites his bottom lip. When I'm not moving he is pretty cute but he couldn't handle me. "Depends on who you're asking."

"Well, go take a survey and get back to me, kay?" I smile and turn on my heel to walk past him.

He grabs my arm, "Well, can I get your number or something?"

I close my right eye, "Um, I don't even know you."

He let's go off my arm, "Ain't that the point in calling you."

I shake my head, "Nope but I'm sure you'll see me around if you come here a lot." I smile then start to walk away. I look behind me and of course he's staring at me and grinning.

Okay, so I'm gay but does he really need to know that? He didn't ask, I didn't tell. I don't see a problem with any of that. I wouldn't consider myself bisexual, I mean, guys are hot to me but there's never really a connection with them the way there is with the girls. My mom's still hoping that'll change.

I finally arrive at the store and I see Darryl hanging clothes on the rack, "Hey Darryl."

He turns around and we hug each other, "Hey. You ready to work?" he asks.

I nod my head, "Yep, get me started."

"All right, let's go." He walks me through the place explaining to me what I'm suppose to do. Everything he says is pretty easy stuff: hang up new merchandise, take old merchandise and put it on the clearance rack, blah, blah, blah. It was easy stuff.

Then he introduces me to my co-workers. Will, Asian guy with black hair, he looks about 20. Erin, little framed blonde girl; looks to be 18. And then some girl caught my attention, I gotta say she was pretty hot. Okay, so my ex is in the hospital, on the verge of dying but what am I suppose to do? It's not like I'm making out with her, I just think she's hot. I'm allowed to, right?

Erika's her name. She smiles at me and gives me the once over. She's checking me out, "Hey, I'm gonna be helping you out around here."

I nod, "That's absolutely fine with me."

She giggles, "Well, if you need me I'll be in the back." She smiles and walks away.

I watch her and I guess Darryl saw because he started snapping at me, "Back here."

I shake my head then look at him, "Sorry, she's hot."

He laughs, "Just so you know," he leans into my ear, "We don't care if you fraternize."

I laugh and push him away lightly, "Shut up. All though that might be good."

He smiles and laughs, "All right, get to work."

I walk around the store doing random things like hanging up merchandise, taking merchandise down. While doing all the easy shit my eyes find my way over to Erika. Every time I see her trying to help a customer I walk over and make conversation, just so I could get a closer view of Erika. After working for four hours straight, I decide to take a break and go get something to eat and I ask Erika if she wants to come with; she says yes.

We walk down to Chick-fill-a and grab some delicious grub. We find a booth to sit in and I slowly start off the conversation, "So, how long you been working here?"

She opens her box of nuggets, "Um, about three months give or take a few days."

I nod and chew on a waffle fry, "So it's pretty fun?"

"Yeah, I don't have any complaints."

"So do you ever meet anyone in there?" I ask bluntly.

She takes a sip of her Sprite, "What do you mean?"

I grab one of her nuggets even though I have my own, "Like, do you ever hit on anyone that comes in or does anyone ever hit on you?"

She smiles at me then takes one of my fries, "Yeah, some pretty hot people come in and out."

I smile, "Good." She looks at me, like she wants to ask me a question, "Yes?" I say.

"Oh, sorry, I'm staring. I was just wondering if I could ask you a question."

I shrug, "Go for it."

"Do you like-I mean, are you-"

I cut her off while smiling, "Am I gay?" she nods, "Well, I've gone out with guys and girls so I'm not really sure what I am." I start thinking about Lily, "But, uh, I did just end my two year relationship with my girlfriend."

"I'm sorry." She says like someone just died.

I shake my head, "It's alright. I'm trying to bounce back." I wink at her.

She blushes and looks down at her nuggets, "So when did you end it?" she chews on another nugget and looks me in the eye, still blushing.

"I ended it yesterday. I know that I sound really slutty by saying that I'm gonna bounce back but I'm really not the kind of person to cry about something." I take a sip of my coke.

"No, you don't seem like a slut… at all." I smile at her, "So how'd it end or why? Well, you don't have to tell me I mean I know we just met and all."

"It's alright, I can tell you. She lives in Ohio and that's where I use to live, I moved here like two months ago and it was really weird because I didn't know rather we were together or not." I look down at my food, "I still talked to her like we were going out, but I just felt so disconnected." I clear my throat, "Anyway, we got into this huge fight and we didn't talk to each other for two days and I pretty much bitched out all my friends." I laugh, "When we finally talked I spilled my guts out, I told her that I would runaway to Ohio for her and then she told me she kissed her friend, Miranda. And so I ended it because she accused me of not loving her and other crazy shit like that, blah, blah, blah am I boring you?" I ask her.

"No," she shakes her head fast, "I'm listening. It's interesting."

I laugh, "Okay. So this morning Miranda calls me and I'm thinking it's to tell me her and Lily are going out or she was gonna yell at me for dumping her or something. But, nope, apparently Lily got into a car accident and she's in a coma." Erika gasps, "Yeah, I know. She was on her way to Miranda's house after we broke up and I guess she was just so distraught that she didn't pay attention so she ran into the back of a car. And here I am." I smile.

Erika looks at me with sad eyes, "Oh my god, I'm sorry. I bet you feel horrible. You didn't have to tell my you know."

"Nah, it's fine. It's not a secret. She's in a coma but I think she'll come out of it." I say with the most sincerity in my voice.

"Wow." She says.

I nod, "Yeah, it sucks, but tell me about you." I say trying to change the subject.

"Well, that's a long story."

I sit back in the booth, "I got time."

She smiles and starts from the beginning.

She was born in Florida but moved here when she was 16 and she was completely straight, or atleast she thought, until her best friend kissed her. She went out with her friend until 12th grade then she just wanted to do stuff with people. Um, now she's in college and her parents don't have a clue that she's gay.

I never thought I'd be one of those people to go basically on looks but she doesn't look gay to me. I don't know how gay looks, I know I probably don't look gay to people but hmm oh well. "You're in college? What year are you?" I ask her.

"I'm a freshman what about you?" she asks finishing up her drink and nuggets.

"I'm definitely a senior. Oh hell yes."

She laughs, "You don't look that old."

"I'm a senior in high school." I smile.

"You are? I thought you would've been out of high school, you seem very mature."

I nod, "And by mature what do you mean?"

She blushes, "I don't know… hot." She whispers the last word.

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thankx for all the happy birthday wishes, i am enjoying the seventeen year old life... it's only been one day but so what. lol. ummm hmm i'm getting a kick ass tatto on my wenis[[skin between thumb and index finger of a music note, i'm in love with music lol. anyways mid season of SoN this weekend, i think it's coming back in Feb... yep that's deff. gay. maybe for valentine's day awww sweet. lol

hmmm in a way this chapter is pointless buuuut it wont be for long

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