I watch the coach while walking over to sit next to Ashley. The coach smiles at me, "I'm Coach Anna."

I place my bag down first then raise my hand, she calls on me, "First name or last name? Anna?"

"My first. I don't like my last name." Coach Anna says while I stare at her lips. It's crazy how much of a slut I am after being in a two year relationship.

"Well, what's your last name?" I say smiling and wiggling my eyebrows. I also cross my legs because I think it looks hot, from her point of view.

"I don't have one." she says then starts talking to the class as a whole.

I look away from Coach Anna to Ashley, "Hey."

She looks at me, "Hey." We don't talk for the rest class until I can't stand the silence any longer. "What's up with you?" I ask.

"Is Spencer going out with that Carmen girl?" Ashley asks plain and simple with no emotion on her face.

"Um, you should ask--"

"She is, right?" Ashley sighs, "I came by Spencer's this morning to see if she needed a ride and I saw you guys get into a car that I now know is Carmen's." Ashley starts to lightly shake her right leg and then she looks down at her feet, "Great."

What do I say to a girl that hates me but I feel sorry for? "I'm sorry."

Ashley doesn't even look up at me, "Whatever."

I look away from her... knowing that we're not gonna be all buddy-buddy today, "Okay."

"I just—I gave her everything that I had in me. I went through shit with her mom and that was a handful. And now... Carmen's here and I feel like I meant nothing—our relationship—meant nothing to her."

Lily pops in my head, "I'm pretty sure y'all relationship meant the world to her but maybe she just needs time."

Ashley looks at me confused, "Time to do what? Screw her?"

I roll my eyes, "No, time to think about stuff. Time to... figure out what's going on."

"Okay, so what's going on?" Ashley says.

I get a little hostile, "Listen, I don't know what's going on with your relationship."

"Yeah, you're right, you don't know." Ashley says with anger in her voice.

And that just makes me snap, "Look, I'm not Dr. Phil, I can't help you with everything."

"I didn't ask you to, why are you--"

I cut her off, "Maybe I actually do care about someone else's feeling but my own. Maybe I actually know what pain is and--" I notice that the other kids are getting up from the bleachers, the bell must have rang, "Deal with it Ashley. God, you Californians are assholes." I say walking out of the gym to my second period class.

I see Spencer and Carmen in the hall... I'm not talking to them right now. Ugh, I'm actually the first person in class instead of the last. I sit in my seat and as I do Kyla walks in, "How was 1st period with my sister?"

I shake my head, "She knows about Spencer and Carmen."

Kyla's eyes grow bigger and then sits down behind me. I turn around to look at her, "Tell me everything."

"So she came by Spencer's this morning and saw all of us getting in Carmen's car... and that's pretty much it." I say.

"Why did she come by this morning?" Kyla asks.

"She thought Spencer might've needed a ride to school and she was gonna give her a ride. Cute, right?"

Kyla sighs, "This isn't gonna be good."

"Uh, duh." I say to Kyla.

Kyla rolls her eyes, "Shut up." I turn around in my seat. Kyla taps me on the shoulder, "I'm just kidding, talk to me."

I scoff then smile, "I was just thinking."

"About what?"

"Lily." I say with little emotion in my voice.

Kyla rubs my shoulder, "Have you talked to anyone yet?"

I shake my head while looking down at my shoes, "No, I have--" my cell phone interrupts my sentence. I take it out of my pocket and look at it. "Miranda" it says. I show the phone to Kyla.

"Answer it." Kyla says.

I shake my head, "Why?"

Kyla snatches the phone from me as kids start piling into the classroom, "Hello?" she says into the phone. "Yeah, she's here, one second. And you did call her cell phone." Kyla smiles then hands the phone back over to me.

I narrow my eyes at her while snatching the phone. I place the phone up to my ear, "Hello."

"Can you talk right now?" Miranda asks.

"Well, I'm in school right now but if it's important, I guess I could--"

She cuts me off, "It is important."

I sigh, "Okay, let me call you back when I'm alone, okay?" I don't wanna talk to Miranda. I close the phone and stare at Kyla angrily, "She says she has something important to tell me."

Kyla smiles, "Good."

"I don't wanna talk to her Kyla. She ruined my relationship."

Kyla shakes her head, "No, don't just blame her. It was all building up and--"

I stand up, "Blah, blah, blah. I'm gonna go to the bathroom to call her back."

Kyla narrows her eyes at me, "Don't cut me off just because you don't wanna hear it. Go." she says pointing in the direction of the bathrooms.

I roll my eyes, "Sorry, Ky." I say then walk out of the classroom to the bathroom. I don't even know what she wants. It's only been one day since I found out about Lily. Ugh, I couldn't handle losing Lily, yeah, I'm mad at her but I still love the cheating skank. No one knows how bad I wished I still lived in Ohio.

I walk into the bathroom and I see Ms. Queen Bitch of King, Ariel, with her little minions, "The freak shows and queers bathroom is on the other side of the school." she says smiling as her minions laugh.

I roll my eyes, "So I'm guessing this is the sluts and porn stars?" I say throwing a smile back in her face.

She rolls her eyes, "Get out. I don't want you checking me out."

I scoff while smiling, "Like you're on my to do list? In your dreams, you're not hot enough for me, toots."

"Ugh, you're so gay." she says like that's gonna hurt me.

I gasp as I place my hand on my chest, "Really? Oh my god, I so did not know." I roll my eyes.

She narrows her eyes at me, "You think you're so funny."

I take my hand away from my chest and nod, "Yeah. Well, actually I know I'm funny." I wink at her. She scoffs and pushes my shoulder on the way out of the bathroom. Her little minions follow behind her, "Bye-bye, Barbie's." I say waving at them as they leave. The last of the minions, Tori, stops to look at me, "What?" I say jumping at her, "The rest of your pack is gone, they're on their way back to hell."

She smiles and giggles at me, "You know I don't have the same thoughts as Ariel."

I just stare at her, "And your point would be...?" I say meaning the statement as a question.

"I don't hate you because you're gay." she says smiling at me.

I raise my left eyebrow, "Okay, so why do you hate me?"

She shakes her head, "No, no, I don't hate you. I was just--"

I cut her off because I guess I should call Miranda back if it has anything to do with Lily, "Listen, I have a phone call to make so if this conversation was going anywhere could you make it go there now?"

She stops smiling and shakes her head, "No, it doesn't." she says then walks out of the bathroom. Weirdo.

I walk into the bathroom stall then take out my cell phone. I look through my incoming calls and see Miranda's name. I don't wanna call her back, I don't want to talk to her. Maybe Kyla's right, though, maybe we're all just... fucked up. Maybe I should put this all behind me. I sigh then press call on my cell. I place the cell phone to my right ear and it rings. Once. Twice, "Hello?"

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quinze85: don't worry carmen is deff. psycho, that's all i can tell you, there will be spashley again but what's the fun in getting right to the point?? there is none. and maybe Roxy chooses kyla... or Erika [[coworker... or maybe Lily because maybe she makes a special visit to her love lol. i do not know.

blonde gone wild: Roxy should be with Erika? what happen to the wonderful power couple of Rily? lol that was very stupid sounding hmm? i'm sorry u have gay hw, maybe u should try going to a dumber school... like me lol

shadows89: maybe ashley's grown and she won't get jealous and kick carmen's ass... yeah, okay, that's deff. not the ashley we've all grown to love. who grows up anymore? we're all children at heart lol

thanks everyone for the reviews... i do not know when this story is ever going to end but if u keep giving me ideas, it'll most likely be never lol

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