"It wasn't even a exorcism." he says.

I roll my eyes, "Jer, she got a priest... and holy water, that's fucking close enough."

He sighs, "She's sick, Rox."

"I know but that doesn't stop her from hating me and that won't stop me from avoiding her. I'm sure if she's dying she wouldn't wanna see me..." I say. Jeremy' s giving me this stupid sad face.

"Roxy, it's gonna be fine."

"Yeah, okay." I say sarcastically, "Every thing's gonna be just fine. She's gonna ask to see picture of me and Lily, ask if we're using protection, oh, and she might wanna know how the sex is."

He narrows his eyes at me, "You don't have to be so sarcastic about it."

I nod slowly, "Apparently, I do to make you get it. Grandma hates gays. We're an abomination." I say rolling my eyes. He looks at me, sadly, and right now I don't feel like I need the pity thing so, "Hey, I need to get back to class, I've been gone forever."

"Alright, Roxy." is all he manages to say. I start to walk away, "Hey, are you still gonna do the show on Friday?"

I stop. I totally forgot about that show. Ugh, the songs he wants to play would only reminds me of Lily but I guess I gotta get over it. I kinda promised him and I'm trying to be more dependable, "Well, I don't know. A lot of stuff has happened in the past few days..."

He nods, "Yeah, I understand. I hope you do the show... it'll most likely make you feel better." he's like my very own Dr. Phil.

"Okay. I'll see you when I get home." I turn around and start walking to class again and as I do I look over to the parking lot and see Ashley driving away. Tsk, tsk, bad girl. Truth is... I wish I could be doing the same thing right now.

I shrug it off and enter the class, "You're la--"

I don't let him finish his sentence, "I was here before the bell ring, I had an emergency." I say walking to my seat.

"What kind of emergency takes twenty minutes?" Mr. Carney asks nosily.

"The kind that's really important." I say not trying to be smart Aleck but I'm not gonna say, 'um, my ex-girlfriend's mistress called me to tell me about how my ex is doing.' That would be a little on the odd side.

"I don't think that's a good enough reason to leave my class and come back 20 minutes later. It-"

I make up a lie to get him off my ass, "My Grandma had a stroke, okay?" I say sitting in my seat, in front of Kyla.

He stops talking, "Oh, I'm sorry." he's silent and in my head I'm smiling, "So class..."

Kyla rubs my right shoulder and whispers, "I'm sorry."

I smile and slap Kyla's hand, "Shut up."

"Didn't--is she okay?"

I turn around in my seat and whisper back to her, "She did have stroke but I was talking to Erika and Miranda. My grandma had a stroke yesterday or the day before...I can't really remember." I laugh quietly.

She hits me lightly on the shoulder, "Jerk."

Mr. Carney talks about classwork, which I actually did this time. I never pay attention in this class but today feels different. I guess maybe I'm starting to change for the better, starting with school? We'll see how long this lasts. After an hour of Mr. Carney talking he finally ends class with ten minutes left to spare, Kyla and I use this time to look at each other's nails.

Kyla holds on to my left hand, "Yours are so shiny."

I use my left hand to look at hers, "Yours are just as shiny as mine."

She examines my nails further more, "But you don't use anything on yours. I have to pay a pretty penny to get mine this way."

I look her in the eye then smile, "I bet a Vietnamese lady did them right?"

She scoffs and smiles, "No... she was Chinese." she laughs and so do I.

We continue to compare nails or she does because I'm not really interested in who's nails are shinier until Derrick comes over, "Hey Kyla."

She looks up at him smiling from the last joke I told, "Hey Derrick."

He looks at our hands, "Can I get in on that?" he says.

I roll my eyes, "Sorry, I'm not really into threesomes." I smile at him.

Kyla smiles at me as he laughs, "Well, can I watch?" he says.

Derrick laughs as Kyla lightly pushes him, "Ew, freak." she says.

I take my hand away from Kyla's so I can get all my books ready to go. "So, what are you doing today? I got a new car today." Derrick says trying to impress Kyla.

"I have homework tonight, so much homework." she says.

"Well, maybe I can come over and we can do it together, you're in every single class with me."

Kyla laughs, "We only have two classes together."

He laughs, "And those are the two classes I'm failing because I can't stop staring at you."

"Okay." Kyla says sounding like she doesn't believe him.

"For real. That's why you should tutor me." I roll my eyes. I don't even know Derrick but I know that I don't want him doing anything with Kyla. He's a total jock, with his nice car and his huge mansion. Okay, I have a car and a huge house but... he such a dick. When I first got here he was my welcome committee. Kyla and Derrick are just so different, she'd be better off with me than with him. Ugh, am I seriously jealous of Derrick? No, I'm probably just in love with my best friend, a very unheard of story.

I roll my eyes while snapping out of my daze to hear Kyla agree to hang out with Derrick, "Okay, fine. Tomorrow. Around eight."

The hair on my neck stands up, "Alright, alright. I'll see you tomorrow. Friday at eight." he says smiling then walking back to his seat.

The bell rings so I stand up, toss my book bag over my shoulder then look at Kyla who is making eyes at Derrick. Ugh, it really irks me. "I'll see you later." I say to Kyla.

"Hey, I'll see you after school?" she says.

"Uh, no. I'm busy." I'm not lying, I have to go to work. I don't think there's anything else going on today.

"What are you doing today?" Kyla asks me.

"Working. I'll see you later." I say then walk to the door only to have Kyla glued to my side.

"Hey! Bi-polar much?" she says joking.

"Nah, I'm just really ready for lunch." I say walking to my locker.

Kyla doesn't believe me. Why is it so hard to look someone in the eye and tell the truth when it involves your feelings, "You hate lunch."

I shake my head, "No, I hate class more than I hate lunch. I hate the whole concept of school."

"Okay," she says not pushing the question further, "So I have a date with Derrick tomorrow."

We arrive at my locker just as I'm blowing air out of my mouth. Kyla doesn't notice because there's so much commotion by my locker, "Where are y'all going?" I ask not really wanting to know.

"He's gonna pick me up from my place and we're gonna go to dinner and just talk." Kyla says like talking is the only thing on his agenda. She needs to be less naïve.

"Then where are you going afterwards? His place?" I say pulling my locker open.

Kyla scoffs, "No. I don't plan on sleeping with him." she says.

I smile, "Okay, that's your plan... what about his?" I look at her, waiting for her answer.

She smiles a little bit, "It doesn't matter, I'm not gonna sleep with him."

I shake my head and look away from her, back to my locker, "Okay."

"Do you not believe me or something?" she asks.

"I believe you." I say.

"Okay. So you wanna double date or something?" Kyla asks.

I take out my red notebook, the one I write all my songs in, and put it in my book bag then close my locker, "What?"

"Double date? Me and Derrick, you and Erika?"

I roll my eyes, "No." I kinda laugh too.

"Why are you laughing? I thought you liked her." Kyla turns on her heel and starts walking to the cafeteria, I walk next to her.

I shake my head, "No—well, I think she's hot but I don't like her. Hello, my girlfriend is in the hospital... I'm still pretty much in love with the cheating skank."

"Ex-girlfriend?" Kyla corrects me.

I sigh, "Yeah, that. Thank you for making me realize I have no one now. You are so sweet." I say sarcastically.

"I didn't mean it like that. I was just--"

I wave my hand, "Don't worry about it. I know she's my ex, I guess I should get use to calling her that hmm?" I feel like that's gonna be one of my impossible tasks. I'm in love with Lily and nothing will ever change that. No one knows how hard it is to not just quit school, take my car and drive to Ohio just to be with her. I feel like our lives are dependent on everyone else's, like, if we were on our own we'd be fine. It's hard to understand but we'd be better off without nothing. I'd give up my money, my cars... anything to have everything back to normal. Like her being the hot cheerleader and me being the devil... good days.

"Would you take her back?" Kyla asks.

"Yeah." I say without hesitation, I guess Kyla expected another answer because she made a face.

"Really?" Kyla asks.

I nod, not looking at Kyla, "Yeah. I love her."

"Even after she cheated on you?"

"Yeah, in a heartbeat. Kyla, that's two years I just can't throw away."

"I don't expect you to. I was just asking, I mean, you seemed smarter than that." Kyla says

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Yes, people spashley rox. i could never keep them seperated forever... well i could but happiness is key.

You think Kyla's jealous of Lily? or Erika? or both? You think she might kick sum ass over Roxy? Hmm, i would but Kyla is way more level headed then me. lol.

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