Chapter 19:
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3 hours. 2 hours and 59 minutes, until the love and only joy of her life flies away, for ever. She had to get there in time, she had to see him, kiss him, hold him, and tell him…
Tell him exactly what? She asked herself. The truth was, she didn't even know, but she felt so strongly the need of seeing him again that it couldn't be only because of her love; it was her intuition, that told her things couldn't be left like that.
You're a foolish, silly, hopeless romantic and it felt good for your pride, conquering the Prince, but what is enough is enough! You can't give up everything for someone you don't even know!! You know the right decision is staying with whom you know; those who gave you birth, raised you, lived with you and know you like you yourself don't.
But that's just it, William knows me, and I know him! I love him, we belong together, I can feel it!
If you are 'destined to be together', then why do you have to sacrifice so much for him? Isn't it supposed to be only a matter of 'yes' or 'no'? Isn't Destiny supposed to make what is destined to be, easy?
If you chose the easy way, you are never going to achieve anything! You have to fight for what you want, for what you need… The more you fight, the bigger the price. Compared to what I would get, Him, giving up my life as I know it is nothing.
…so you say now. But what will you say when you are fighting with him, and there is n body you can turn to, nobody there who would take your side? What will you do when you both realize this can't work, and you're kicked out of the royal dwellings? Or when the Prince, noting you are completely at his disposal any time, decides to ask you to fulfill expectations you may not be prepared to fulfill? And you can't say no, because at the end of the day, he takes care of you, and he has total control of you, your life, your actions, everything… What will you do when his gentlemanly manner gives way to base emotions that lead to blackmail, bribing or even worse?
Come on, that can never happen… I mean, he is royal, and he respects me, he would never-
Respects you?! The way he respects your judgment, your passion about saving the Earth? It's not only a matter of 'sign' or 'no sign'; it is a matter of whether he cares enough to listen to you, to comprehend you and take in considerations how you feel! Don't be silly, you can't be with a man you barely know, who all his life got everything he asked for, and who would have complete, 100 control over you! Leaving yourself this vulnerable is never a good idea. If he loves you enough, he will fight for you even though the distance and the complications… if he doesn't, you are better off without him and should feel no regrets at all.
It seemed her mind finally convinced her heart, about what was the most reasonable decision to make. She had a funny feeling throughout her body; neither decision was right nor wrong, but both were lacking a good solution.
She looked out by the small window characterizing every airplane, and saw the clouds pass like the minutes left she had to see her William again. Her mind wandered away at the blissful times they spent together, most memorable of which was the infamous park scene only a few days ago… There they both swore eternal love, though not with words I wasn't needed; their hearts, their minds and souls connected in such a way hat only by a look they knew what the other thought and felt, and how much they felt it.
BUT I LOVE HIM! She shouted at herself, inside, with a newfound energy and determination brought out by memories. True love has no obstacles; true love stays true for ever!
You're so naïve, that is your brain-washed mind talking thanks to movies like "A Walk to Remember" or "Pirates 3"… you heard him; how can a person so cynical be so very much in love as you suppose? And you; aren't you too young to feel so passionately, so eternally, as you say? Come on girl, think!
YOU are doing that for me, and quite honestly, I'm getting tired of it! Can't you shut up for a moment??
No, because then you would make the wrong decision, and you know it!
'Wrong decision' by your way of thinking; in my opinion, All You Need Is Love! You say destined love should be without sacrifices; yet Satine sacrificed the most valuable thing in the world; her life!
She was already going to die, she didn't kill herself! And she wouldn't sacrifice her friends, her own career for him!
Yes, and she regretted it later, when he came back! But Will is never going to come back, it's now or never!
Can't you see?! Even though they were destined to love one another, she chose not to run away with him, because she knew how foolish that choice is! You can't live off love, for goodness' sake!
But in the end she still decided to be with him; screw everything and choose the "penniless zitar player"! Except, it was too late, it only served her for dying happily in love!
Perhaps it was better like that, don't you think? Rather than eloping, and then have them both fighting and blaming the other for not having money to eat, and all that blaming, and all that starving can make the magic of love swoosh away very easily! Like this, she was in love and only saw the good side of her lover, and he stayed alive!
…this is ridiculous; we are fighting over a movie! And what's even more ridiculous is that I am fighting with myself, about a movie using fictional characters to guide me in the most important decision of my life!
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All right, like you better like this: silently not commenting.
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Look, all I know is, I love him more than anything in my life; I feel like when with him, we can overcome anything. And I know it's a lot, but he is sweet and understanding… he would never judge me or criticize me to hurt me, I know that. I'm not saying he's perfect, but... well, he is perfect!
"Twenty minutes 'till landing, I am sorry everyone for the delay, we will be arriving with 35 minutes of tardiness, approximately. I want to thank you all for choosing Lan Peru airlines, hope you enjoy your stay in Lima."
Half an hour late… that gave her exactly one hour to get to her loved one. With a heart and mind made up, she firmly awaited for touchdown.
Storming trough immigration and all the rest of the irksome processes that using an airport requires, she realized she had no idea where she was going; it wasn't as if there were signs and arrows everywhere, glittering and saying "to love of your life!" pointing to the right direction.
When she was about to give up, she stopped and looked up towards the sky as if asking God t help her, when…
"President's Club"? That should do it… doubt there's a 'Royalty Club', he must make do with mere President…
She slid past the receptionist Lady, and ran towards the only isolated room in there; she must have given off a unique image, with her hair a mess and running like a maniac, She got to the entrance, where she found another stop; bodyguards.
"But look, the Prince knows me, ask him yourself! Go on, tell him Lizzy is here, he will know right away! Go on, damn it, hurry!"
"I am sorry Miss, we will have to ask you to leave."
"Please, please, I'm begging you, I have no time, don't do this to me!!! He invited me himself, I just arrived, his plane leaves in less than 20 minutes… it is a matter of life and death, Please!!!"
"Miss, if you don't leave I will have to call security-"
"I will scream, I swear, if you don0t let me in!"
"Miss, I-"
"AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH!!!!!!!!!" she screamed. She was desperate, she was tired, she was irritated. Fortunately, the head of the bodyguards came, who knew her well (since he NEVER left the Prince's side and knew of their.. affair.)
"Mr. James! Thank goodness you are here, please, Please let me in!"
"All right then, if you promise not to shout again" he said with a wink. He liked that girl, he approved of her and had a secret dream, a wish of happiness for he whom he thought of as a son almost.
"…I promise. Give me love to Georgiana…. You too mother." The Prince was on th phone. He didn't see them come in, but after a cough from Mr. James, he exclaimed
"Lizzy!"