A/N: Now that I see I have some readers for this story I'm going to write a note. Thank you once again for reading one of my fics. This one I'm going to make a bit different it's a few years later and everyone is older so I'm going to make it geared towards an older crowd. So there will be sexual content, nudity and such. I want the characters to be at a different level then they were at the end of breaking dawn I hope no one minds this and that everyone continues reading. I have some good twists for you in this one. I hope you enjoy this chapter and thank you again for adding it to your favorites and leaving me comments.
4. Don't Walk Away
Don't walk away when I'm talkin to you
This ain't no time for your bad attitude
Don't gimmeThat face
When you know I'm really down for the chase
Cause my hearts already in it
And I'm never gonna quit it
When you finally gonna get it
Don't walk away
A week had passed and Renesmee was back from her vacation so I hadn't seen or heard from Jacob since the night at the beach. I started to work at the public library and hated every waking moment of it. School was almost done for the year so many kids were in there last minute getting books for projects. How many times in one day can you say be quiet in the library.
It was Saturday night and the gang was meeting up for a fire on the beach. I got into the car with Seth and Leah, Jacob would be there it was the first time I had seen him since then so I don't know how strange it would be. There would also be others from the pack there that I didn't remember too well. I still had me being a wolf under wraps I just really didn't feel like telling anyone it really wasn't a big deal.
We pulled up and I saw Jacob's car already there I sighed as I looked at it. Seth looked at me in the backseat.
"Hey don't do anything stupid tonight" he said to me.
"God Seth leave her alone" Leah said sticking up for me. She pulled the mirror down and started brushing her hair. I looked at her.
"It's okay Leah I can handle this"
"FUCK YOU SETH!" I stated jumping out of the car and slamming the door. I made my way down to the beach the fire was just getting started I noticed a bunch of half naked boys by the water. This should be a fun night. I looked around and saw Nessie cuddled up with Jacob by the fire. Jacob waved and I didn't acknowledge him. Hell if he couldn't call me for an entire week why should I bother saying hi. I noticed Embry sitting on the log next to Jacob and he waved at me too. I shot him a flirty smile and sat down next to him.
"Jacob… Nessie" I said eyeing them. They both smiled. I placed my hands behind me on the rough log and eyed Embry. He had a grin on his face that was pretty cute.
"So" he said looking at me. I smiled back at him.
"So haven't seen you around" I told him.
"Well I'm a working man you know" he said. I laughed.
"I'm a working woman, what do you do?" I questioned him.
"I work at an auto store down town" he said.
"Lot's of hours?" I questioned. He nodded.
"Yeah always working I just moved up to the Assistant position it's okay I guess" he said.
"How's the Library treating you?" he questioned.
"Bunch of bratty kids trying to finish up last minute papers" I said. He nodded. A few more people had come to sit down including Seth and Leah.
"So Jacob tells me that you went skinny dipp…." Jacob smacked him on the arm and Nessie looked over at me. I saw her eyeing Jacob too. I looked over across the ocean.
"Oh yeah well you know cant skinny dip and tell" I said. I noticed Nessie's face getting angry. Jacob looked a bit upset too.
"Have you ever been?" I questioned Embry. He looked at me and shook his head.
"Be honest have you ever want to?" I questioned. He looked at me with a silly grin on his face.
"With a hot girl like yourself sure" he said.
"Well then come on" I told him. I stood up and looked at him. I heard Jacob and Nessie quietly arguing among themselves. Embry seemed a bit hesitant.
"Oh come on the sun is pretty much gone it's dark out no one will see you" I told him. He smiled.
"Embry don't make me take your clothes off of you" I told him. He smirked.
"Was that a threat?" he questioned. I nodded. He still sat there. I grabbed the front of his white shirt and pulled him up.
"Damn your strong" he said.
"Shut up" I said to him dragging him away still lightly hearing Jacob and Nessie's conversation.
"You totally just got Jake in trouble" I said to him.
"I know I lost my marbles I guess" he said as we made our way to the water.
"So you really going to do this with me or are you going to chicken out?" I questioned.
"I'm a man" he said. He began to take off his shirt and then took off his jeans. He was standing in front of me in his boxers. I looked at him up and down. Damn like I said these male wolves really get it all. He smiled and I could see him blushing even with the first glimpse of the moon.
"What?" he questioned as I pulled off my shirt revealing my bra and then taking off my jeans and flip flops. I pulled down my underwear followed by taking my bra off I threw it up the beach and looked at his expression.
"Never seen a naked girl before Embry?" I questioned.
"Plenty"
"Then stop staring and take your boxers off" I laughed as I turned and ran for the water. The cold of course didn't bother me one bit. I ran in and waited for him. I turned around and noticed him running for the water. He fell when a wave crashed and I started to laugh.
"So how's this for your first time?" I questioned.
"It's good in my book" he said with a smile.
"So do you remember me at all?" he questioned. I eyed him spitting some unnecessary water out of my mouth.
"A little bit I remember running through your sprinkler one summer when it was really hot outside for once" I said with a smile.
"Oh right and Jake chased you with that snake" he said with a laugh.
"Yeah let's not bring that up"
"Your not still afraid of snakes are you?" he questioned.
"I'm a big girl now" I said with a smile as another wave crashed on us. I stood up after it went over my head and looked at him.
"So if I were to…" he went to continue but I splashed some water in his face.
"Can you tell me what that is going to do since we are already wet?" I questioned. He laughed and launched for me. I smiled as he put his hands on my shoulders and pushed me. I grabbed his head and leaped up trying to make him go under it wasn't working. I kept jumping up and down literally to try and make him go under.
"Yeah about that…" he took my hands and threw them off of his head then he reached his hands forward and put his hands on my head and dunked me under the water as a wave came. When I finally resurfaced for air I practically attacked him. We didn't let anything bother us or get in the way we. It was nice to be free and not have to worry about feelings like I had to worry about with Jacob. At the same time however all I could think about was Jacob and our time we had together that last night that I saw him a week ago. I was taking it well for a while but I started to now feel my heart aching as Embry and I became friendly.
After swimming around for a good 20 minutes we both decided to go grab our clothes. On the way up we noticed someone had taken our clothes.
"Okay which one of you assholes took my clothes?" Embry questioned covering his private parts. I laughed a bit.
"What's so funny your naked too" he said.
"Yeah but it doesn't bother me" I told him. I ran my hands through my wet hair and then grabbed his hand.
"Come on lets go find the person who took our clothes" I pulled him along with me he was hesitant but followed. We went back up the beach and went to look for our clothes.
"I don't remember this being a nude beach" I heard Quill say as we got up onto the beach.
"Yeah care to join?" I questioned. He laughed.
"Avert your eyes perv now did you see where our clothes went?" I questioned crossing my arms. He eyed me.
"You have to be the only one who took it none of these other guys know me" I said to him. I noticed a few of them turn towards me and smirk.
"Was it one of you?" I questioned. The all looked away.
"That's what I thought Quill clothes before Embry has a heart attack over here" I said watching Embry cover himself even more. I laughed.
"You guys suck" he said throwing the clothes at Embry. Embry sorted through the clothes trying not to touch my bra and underwear.
"Thanks" I said. Both of us walked down the beach a bit and got dressed.
"Hey would you like to take a walk down the beach with me?" he questioned.
"Sure" I said with a smile. We walked side by side touching each other every once in a while as we walked.
"Are you happy your back?" he questioned.
"I guess I thought things would be different but oh well what can you do I'm moving on" I told him. Which in all reality I wasn't okay.
"Moving on from what?" he questioned. I shrugged my shoulders.
"It's really not important" I said.
"Allyson it's important of course it is you can tell me" he said being friendly.
"Is it Jacob?" he questioned. I looked up at him as I kicked the sand that trickled between my toes. I didn't answer him.
"It is isn't it?" he questioned. I shrugged my shoulders not wanting to get emotional but feeling it build up inside of me. God Damn it this boy made me cry too much. I tried to hide it but before I could I heard myself whimper.
"Hey Allyson are you crying?" he questioned. I shook my head no but in all reality I wanted to shake it yes. I kept walking.
"Allyson stop walking" he said. I shook my head.
"ALLYSON!" he yelled grabbing my arm pulling me into his chest. He took my hands and wrapped them around his body. I felt safe.
"I'm so sorry Embry I must look like a complete idiot right now" I told him.
"Hey no your not you can't help you who love" he told me.
"That's fucking true he's in love with Renesmee and he couldn't help it" I cried.
"I'm sorry that sounded completely bitchy.. I don't want to come off as one but…"
"Hey your not being a bitch you are just hurting" he said to me. I felt his soft hands run over my hair. He twirled his fingers delicately in my hair.
"I'm sorry Embry I didn't want to cry in front of you" I told him.
"Hey I'm pretty much the shoulder to cry on and that's it" he said. I heard the hurt in his voice as he said it.
"Why's that? You seem like such a caring guy"
"That's the problem" I pulled away and looked up at him. I grabbed his hand and put my fingers in his.
"Hello this is a prime example see… friend zone only" he said. I was guessing that he was referring to us.
"Who says things can't happen?" I questioned.
"What things?" he asked pulling his hand free. I had known Embry my whole life too but he never came up in my mind until I got back here to La Push. Since then we had only seen each other about 4 times in 2 weeks. I had hoped no one would think too poorly of me right now but I wanted him to feel better. I got on my tip toes since he was a lot taller then me and pressed my lips against his. He didn't pull away he pressed against mine harder.
"Don't pity me Allyson" he said pulling away. I grabbed the front of his t-shirt and pulled him in for another kiss. I wasn't sure how the kiss had made me feel but I wanted to make him feel good.
"Allyson don't… it's hard enough" he said to me.
"Hard enough what's hard enough?" I questioned.
"Nothing"
"Now who's not spilling their guts" I said to him.
"God Damn it Embry I'm trying to be a good friend" I told him.
"How is kissing me being a good friend?" he questioned.
"I don't know maybe it can lead somewhere" I said crossing my arms.
"If it's because of Jacob I don't want any part of it" he said.
I took a hold of his shirt again and wrapped my arms around his neck and pulled him closer. I placed my lips again against his this time not taking it easy on him. I let my tongue slide into his mouth searching for an answer. He didn't seem to mind because I felt him do the same. I pushed against him hard my body was now up against his. We were so close no air could pass through.
"This doesn't feel right we just got reacquainted" he said in between breaths.
"Just let it go be spontaneous and enjoy the moment you need to live for the moment" I told him. He looked down at me as I pulled away.
"You know I'm right Embry who cares what happens next just enjoy it seriously" I said. I had felt something odd coming over me I don't know if it was me trying to get back at Jacob or if I was really enjoying kissing him. I pulled back a bit further and looked at him I could see him even in the dark.
"I think I can do that" he said as he grabbed me and lifted me. I wrapped my legs around his strong body and kissed his lips again. I rubbed the back of his neck as we kissed and he seemed to like it because I heard him moan slightly.
"Have you ever done it on a beach?" I questioned him. He smiled.
"It would be a new experience" he said with a smirk. I hoped off of him and dragged him further down the beach to where no one was at all. I sat down on the dried up sand and pulled him down with me. I placed him in between my legs and kissed him again. I leaned back my head finally touching the sand.
"Are you sure about this?" he questioned.
"Embry do you even have to ask?" I questioned. I heard him unzip his pants as I pulled mine down.
"I don't have…"
"Birth control Embry no worries" I said grabbing his neck to pull him towards me. That's when I felt it rubbing up against me. I enjoyed the feeling and it wasn't the first time I've done it on a beach. Okay before I go any further I'm not going to portray myself as a slut I really am none of that. When I feel something with someone I just let it flow and plus how do you learn without experiencing things. I felt him slide inside and it felt really good.
"Wow" I said satisfied as I felt him slide back and forth slightly.
"Harder?" he questioned.
"Um yeah…" I said to him. I heard him laugh a bit and then I felt it. I had never felt like this with anyone else. He really had something and I don't know what it was but I really enjoyed it. As I felt myself on the verge of finishing someone popped into my head again. He just didn't want to leave me alone. I felt our experience come to an end.
A few minutes later he was zippering his pants back up and I was putting mine on. It was quiet for quite some time. Jacob's face stayed planted in my head as I stared off into nowhere.
"Can we keep this between us?" I questioned.
"Yeah why you don't want…"
"Embry I didn't say anything about Jacob so don't even" I said. I stood up and started walking down the beach.
"Wait" he said following after me.
"I'm sorry I just"
"Embry you were great okay is that what you want to hear because it's 100 percent true I'm not going to lie about that" I told him.
"Do you want me to run over to the fire and scream Embry and I just fucked" I said eyeing him. He looked at me.
"I'm sorry Allyson it's just I have a feeling I'm going to have a hard time believing you sometimes" he said.
"Great so I've already come off as something I'm not" I said.
"It's not that" he said.
"Embry let's not fuck this up okay"
"I like that idea" he said softly.
"Good now let's go have fun okay?" I questioned. He nodded. I grabbed his hand and pulled him along with me again.
"So where have you two been?" Quill questioned as we came back.
"We took a stroll"
"Is that what they are calling it now a days?" he questioned. I smacked him in the arm. I looked over to see Jacob sitting alone on the log. I walked over to him and stood in front of him.
"Hey" I said in almost a whisper.
"Can I sit?" I questioned. He nodded.
"Where's Ness?' I questioned.
"She had her Father pick her up"
"Jake I'm sorry I …"
"It's not your fault" he said.
"It is Jake it shouldn't have happened"
"Hey can you take me home?" I questioned. He looked up at me and nodded. I turned around to see Quill and Embry talking.
"One second though" I said to Jake. I walked to where Embry was and he stood up immediately as I came over.
"Hey I had a good time tonight" I said to him.
"Are you just saying that?" he questioned. I smacked him lightly on the arm.
"Hey you want to go out for lunch tomorrow?" he questioned. I nodded.
"Sure I have work but my lunch break is around 1 so you can come then and we can go somewhere local I have an hour to spare" I said with a smile.
"Great see you then" he said. I wrapped my arms around him and gave him a hug.
"Good night Embry" I said in a whisper.
The ride back to the house was quiet I knew he was hurting and I felt bad I had made things worse for him. I couldn't help it though this strange feeling every time I was with him haunted me. We pulled up to the house and he turned the car off.
"Thank you for the ride" I said to him.
"Yeah sure" he was facing forward instead of looking at me.
"Jacob please I'm so sorry" I said.
"I'm not mad at you" he finally looked at me. I eyed him back.
"Okay good I could not live with myself if you were" I said. It was quiet for a few minutes as we both stared each other down. I leaned forward not even hesitantly and kissed his warm lips. I left them there for a good three minutes before I pulled back and looked down.
"Jacob I…" he placed his finger on my lips to quiet me.
"It felt good" he said.
"I can't do that again Jacob it hurts too much and you can't hurt Ness" I told him. He nodded.
"We both know that"
"Embry and I had sex" I blurted out.
"What? You guys don't even…"
"I know…" I looked down and played with my fingers.
"I kind of told him to live for the moment I don't know what I was thinking it was good but I think I totally fucked up" I said.
"Why don't you go inside now" Jacob said.
"Great now I'll have the whole world against me I should of just stayed in California" I opened the door and slammed it shut. When I walked up to the door I felt someone's presence there as I heard Jacob skid away. He cleared his throat.
"Seth don't even" I said looking at him with tears in my eyes.
"I wasn't going to I was hoping we could talk…"
"You were going to just I don't want to hear it" I pushed passed him and made my way into the house. Leah and Aunt Sue were sitting in the living room it was still early around 11pm or so. I bolted through the house and into my room locking my door. I took off my clothes threw them on the floor and bundled myself up tight in the blanket. I closed my eyes letting the tears fall down them and cried myself to sleep. So much for being a good person, I thought.