A/N: Hey guys here's a small update it's been a busy weekend so i hope you enjoy this chapter and for those of you reading Broken Angel look for another chapter tonight into tomorrow i'm planning the next part in my head. Everyone enjoy your holiday and i hope you enjoy this chapter :) thanks for reading!

5. Don't Let Me

I looked up from my desk a few children and their Mothers were leaving, the kids were thanking me for reading them their favorite books. I really didn't mind kids it's just today things seemed off. My desk was in the front as soon as you walked into the Children's Books section. It was a cute little desk small and wooden. I was surfing the internet on the new high speed computers I had just gotten when I heard footsteps coming towards me. They didn't sound like kids. I looked up and there he was and I must say he looked really good. Instead of ripped jeans he was wearing tight blue casual jeans. He had on a black t-shirt with a red dress shirt over it. His hair was brushed neatly. He smiled at me.

"Hey Embry" I said standing up.

"Hey did you forget our date?" he questioned. I shook my head.

"You look beautiful by the way" he looked at me. I was wearing a black knee length skirt flats and a cute button down shirt.

"Thanks… look it's really slow today because it's Sunday they are letting me go in 15 minutes care to spend the day together?" I questioned him. I saw his smile grow bigger.

"Yeah that's fine I have something for you that you might like"

"Embry I…"

"Shush and accept" I took in a deep breath and looked down as I began to gather my thing. I felt myself about to tear but I needed to stop this was all my fault, Embry was a cool guy and I was the asshole. I noticed him watching me as I started getting clumsy from the blur in my eyes.

"Hey.." he said softly.

"Okay I'm ready" I nearly tripped over the chair when I almost hit the ground Embry caught me in his arms. I grabbed onto him and held myself up.

"Should I take you home? Are you sick?" he questioned. I shook my head.

"Just sick in the head" I mumbled.

"What?" he questioned.

"No hun I'll be fine let's get out of here" I straightened myself up. He looked at me.

I punched out quickly and then made my way back out to Embry he was waiting patiently with a concerned look on his face.

"Do you want me to show you what I got you first?" he questioned.

"Sure unless your hungry" I said.

"I'm good you?" he questioned.

"Fine" I said.

I got into his car and we headed back to his house I had not been here yet, it was pretty small he said it was just him and his Mom. It was a white house with a garage attached. His Mom loved gardening I could tell there were several gardens that hadn't bloomed yet but were waiting. We pulled up the driveway up to the garage door and he opened it from where we were sitting.

"It's in there" he said opening his door. I got out and followed him into the garage. As we walked closer I saw two motorcycles sitting there.

"You said you wanted to learn" he said with a smile.

"Oh no I can't accept"

"Allyson shut your hole" he said with a smile taking my hand and leading me forward. The bike looked like it was an older one and I noticed some tools lying around on the cold concrete floor.

"I stayed up all night fixing it up Jacob had an extra one from a while ago in his garage and I took it, he said he fixed it up but it hadn't run in a few years so I fixed it and now you can learn side by side with me" he said. I began to feel like shit even worse then before. Now he was fixing things and giving them to me I was being a selfish bitch and I hated it. I hated being in love with Jacob I hated the fact that I … maybe I… no I couldn't have he already did that with Ness, there is no way. Holy shit….

"Hey" he said trying to get my attention. I shook my head and looked at him with a smile covering up my new discovery.

"Yeah let's do it" I said to him. He smiled.

"I also got you this I sort of made it special for you" he said. Oh great another gift. I don't deserve this. He handed me a red helmet with flames on both sides.

"I repainted it and added the flames" he said. I wanted to bawl right there but I couldn't let him see me break down again.

"Embry really you shouldn't have"

"Accept it please" he said. I nodded.

"Thank you" I leaned forward and kissed his lips. It really did feel good to kiss him I loved how soft his touch was and how he was so gentle in how he kissed me. He didn't pull me forward with force he snuck his hands around my waste pulling me in slowly. He was gentle and he kept rubbing my lower back. His lips stayed closed but parted slightly as we kissed. I pulled away and looked at him. He smiled and blushed a bit and then I took the helmet from his hands and put it on my head. He grabbed both bikes and brought them out to the pavement.

"Have you really never ridden one of these?" he questioned.

"Maybe once with my Dad" I shrugged.

"Okay maybe a few times" he smiled.

"Thought so" he said.

I got on the bike and remembered mostly how to work it, once we were ready to go I slowly started and he stayed in pace with me. I had been on a few times when my Dad was teaching me it was right before he died. I didn't want to think that I used something that my Dad and I did to make Jacob jealous. I was really a rotten person and needed to change. We got onto a small road just a few blocks from Embry's house and we both sped up a bit. He kept looking over at me to see how I was doing. He motioned for me to follow him and so I did and we ended up at a park. We both stopped the bikes and cut off the engines.

"So did you enjoy yourself?" he questioned wrapping his arms around my waste. I nodded and kissed his lips again.

"It was fun but what are we doing here?" I questioned. I looked over to see a roach coach or one of those trucks with the food in them sitting on the other side of the road.

"We are going to eat at the park it's actually nice today so I figured we could sit down on one of those benches that is if you like that sort of thing"

"Are you kidding me I love it" I told him. He smiled. He took my hand and brought me over to the white truck with the short line of people waiting for food. We both stayed quiet until it was time to order, he looked at me.

"What do you want hun?" he questioned.

"Chili dog, chips and a coke" I said.

"Make that 2" he said looking at the older gentleman who was serving the food. Embry took some money from his pocket and handed it to the guy. I eyed him.

"What are you doing?" I questioned.

"Paying for you"

"I can't let you do that too now" I said.

"Just deal" he said with a smirk. I sighed and allowed him to pay for me.

A few minutes later we were sitting down on old wooden park benches eating chili dogs and talking like we had been best friends for years.

"See look not a single drop of chili on my plate" he said as he wiped his mouth with a napkin. I looked down at my plate and noticed a mess of chili. I grabbed a fork and scraped up the rest of it.

"See look not a drop" I said with a smirk.

"Slob" he said.

We got back on the motorcycles and decided to head back to his house. It was an awesome ride back and I enjoyed every second of it. We pulled up to his driveway it was getting late in the day and the sun was about to set. I looked over towards the road and noticed Jacob's car coming up the driveway.

"Um Embry I need to go home" I said to him.

"Are you okay?" he questioned.

"Not really I had a wonderful time I just…" I kept watching as Jacob's car approached and then stopped. He had Nessie in the seat next to him and then both stepped out of the car. Then I looked and saw Seth, Quill and Leah step out of the back seat.

"Don't tell me you forgot about Sunday night movie night" I heard Seth yell to Embry. I looked at him.

"Shit I did forget" he said looking back at me.

"I was so caught up with spending time with Allyson I forgot" he took my hand.

"If you want I'll take you home but I'd really like you to stay for movie night" he said to me. I eyed him and nodded. I wanted to stay and hang out with him longer if only it were just him and I. I took his hand and squeezed it.

"If your sick I will…"

"It's fine Embry I'm fine really" I said. Seeing Jacob had made me sick to my stomach. I felt like such a prick. I watched as Seth walked over to me giving me weird looks.

"So what are we watching tonight something scary I hope" Quill stated as they all stopped in front of us. I kept myself snuggled up against Embry.

"American werewolf in Paris" I heard Seth say.

"Seth your horrible" Jacob said throwing a movie at him.

"Hey be kind rewind" Seth reminded him as he picked up the DVD on the ground. He turned it over and looked at it.

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We ended up watching a bunch of horror flicks, Exorcism of Emily Rose, Blood and Chocolate, Interview with The Vampire and Clockwork Orange which I had seen way too many times to count. The guys were very noisy and I didn't hear anything coming from Nessie's mouth not once. I closed my eyes and was almost asleep during parts of Clockwork Orange when I heard my name.

"Is Allyson even with us tonight?" I heard Quill question. I felt Embry look down at me.

"I think she's passed out cold" he said.

"Why are you two so buddy, buddy tonight?" he asked.

"She's playing him that's all trying to make me jealous" Jacob spat out. This was going to get interesting.

"She is not Jacob we had a very good day" he said trying to defend us.

"Well apparently you let her talk you into having sex with her at the Beach" Jacob spat out. Okay he was about to draw the line and I was about to jump at him.

"Nice job bro" Quill stated acting all surfer dude like.

"Quill seriously shut up" I heard Embry say.

"It wasn't like that" he said.

"Oh really then why don't you ask her" Jacob said. This whole time I was wondering what Nessie was thinking of the whole thing.

"I don't think she's that into you she kissed me last night in the car" okay here was the line first off he told me he liked it so why was he making it like it was all my doing. My eyes shot open as I felt a growl in my chest. I started to get shaky and knew exactly what was going to happen. Embry and I were on the other side of the couch from Jacob and Renesmee. I felt my eyes grow wide and the shaking increased when I looked at him. I saw Nessie nudge him. He looked down at her and then noticed my stare.

"Allyson your shaking" I felt Embry squeeze me tighter. It felt relaxing when he did that but I still couldn't calm myself down. I felt myself about ready to explode. I pulled away from him and stood up. Everyone stopped talking and munching.

"Jacob why don't you go fuck yourself you told me it felt good I don't want to hear any of your bullshit, and for your information Embry and I are testing the waters you never know where things could go maybe he'll be the one to help me get over your sorry ass. I'm sorry guys I have to go" I felt myself shaking some more and I needed to get out of there because if I didn't I would break almost everything in Embry's living room. I bolted out of the door and the second I reached driveway I felt myself explode.

It actually felt good to be free in wolf form I just ran, I wasn't sure exactly where I was running but I kept going. The deeper I got into the wooded area the safer I felt. I stopped by a small creek when I thought I was far enough from everyone. The second I stopped I heard the sound of someone loading a gun. The sound echoed in my ears and the last thing I remember hearing was Jacob's voice screaming…

"ALLYSON!"