A/N: Another thanks to StoryTagger once again, I have to give you credit for giving me the idea for what to do in these next few chapters. I really hope you guys are enjoying the story and I'm sorry for not writing it for a long time. Here's some more though :)
8. First Step
"Do you mind telling me where the fuck you've been?" the voice rang in my ear, it was him, Jacob Black coming back to haunt me. I turned around to see him with his fists clenched tight and his body rigid and angry.
"Jacob if you don't calm yourself down you are going to phase" I said to him. He growled at me, and I could hear his breathing grow heavier.
"Do you have any idea what you did to your Aunt Sue?, Any idea?" he questioned, his voice got louder with every word he spoke. I nodded.
"Then why did you do it?" he questioned. I took in a deep breath feeling myself getting angry and I knew this wouldn't end well.
"Because I had to okay?" I yelled. He looked at me with a blank expression.
"That's no excuse Allyson, no excuse at all, that's bullshit" he said. His body still shaking with fury and he was ready to phase. I guess I could beat him to the punch because honestly I was getting pissed, since when did he care? He hadn't talked to me for a little over two weeks, so honestly he shouldn't give a shit. I got myself to the point and exploded into my wolf form. As I was phasing he did as well. Both of us circled around each other.
I was now pissed to no end, why care if you haven't been around?
"You think just because I stayed away that I don't care?" he questioned in his head. I snarled at him, not answering.
"Don't piss me off anymore than I already am Jacob Black" I said. He looked at me and laughed, which pissed me off even more. I jumped directly towards him and he and I began to fight. It wasn't playful either. Our claws were scratching at each other, deep scratches I might add, we rolled around in the dirt causing each other a lot of pain. Jacob was on top pinning me down as I threw him against a tree. We fought like that for a good five minutes before we both heard the voice of Sam.
"Jacob, Allyson, ENOUGH!" he wasn't phased but that doesn't mean we couldn't hear him. We both stopped I was on my side with my legs up guarding myself, and he was crouched down beside me with his teeth exposed. We both stopped exactly in those positions when we noticed Sam coming out of my house.
"PHASE BACK NOW" he yelled.
"Both of you I said now" he had to yell again because Jacob and I just stared at each other, unable to move. When we finally heard Sam the second time we both phased back. Leah ran out and draped a blanket around me, and did the same for Jacob. She gave me a quick hug and then ran back into the house. Sam came over to the two of us and looked disgusted. Okay, we both deserved that.
"Both of you need to quit it, we aren't in High School anymore. You two are acting childish and we can't afford to have a break in the pack. We have to keep together, if you hadn't skipped out Allyson you'd know that there have been random Vampire's in the area. The Cullen's don't even know who they are. We have to keep an eye out, but with you two acting like children then I don't know how we'll accomplish this" he growled. We both looked at each other, and for the tribes sake, just mumbled "sorry."
"Allyson, go inside your Aunt is worried sick about you" Sam ordered. I nodded and ran inside and when I got in there they were all right. Aunt Sue had bags under her eyes and tears in them. She was holding Chief Swans hand and he was reassuring her everything was alight. When she looked up and saw me, she gasped and jumped to her feet. Chief Swan looked at me and then before I knew it Aunt Sue had practically knocked me over.
"Don't you ever do that to me again, do you hear me?" she cried. I couldn't help it, but the tears in my eyes from the fight with Jacob, to seeing my Aunt a wreck, I sobbed with her.
"I'm so sorry Aunt Sue, I needed to get out of here, I needed to, just for a day" I cried.
"You could have said something to me" she scolded.
"I'm sorry, I didn't mean to worry you" I told her.
"Well, I can't punish you, you are too old for that" she said.
"Just don't do that again, okay?" she questioned. I nodded.
"Where did you go anyway?" she questioned pulling away and looking at my tear stained face as I looked at hers.
"I went to California with Embry" I told her. She nodded.
"Did you enjoy yourself?" she asked.
"It helped me get myself cleared up" I told her.
"Good, now next time promise to tell me?" she asked. I nodded.
"I'd just like to go and take a shower and go to bed, I'm exhausted" I said to her. She smiled.
"Yes, clean up and get some rest" she said turning back to Chief Swan. I heard her mumble something to him, but I was on my way to the bathroom already. A roadblock stopped me and it was Seth.
"Go ahead say it" I said to him.
"It's not like I haven't heard it from Jacob, Sam, Aunt Sue, I might as well add you to the list" I said. Leah stepped up behind him and smiled at me trying to make me feel better.
"I'm not going to say anything" he said.
"I'm sure you have something to say about me running off with Embry and how I should stop fucking with him, go ahead little Seth tell me" I yelled. He looked at me and shook his head, then reached his arms around me.
"I'm just glad you are okay" he said. When he pulled away I looked at him in shock.
"Really?" I asked. He nodded.
"Good, now let me shower" I said.
The darkness folded around me and so did the scenario between Jacob, Embry and I. This time we were on first beach, all phased, it seemed as if we didn't care if anyone saw us. There was a fight between Embry and Jacob, it was worse than seeing Jacob and I fight. The two of them went at it like there was no tomorrow. Fur flew up in the air and the growling was louder than the last dream.
"It's going to hurt Allyson, it's going to hurt worse than anything you have ever felt before" Jacob said. I was still trying to figure out what he meant, when the pain surged through me again. What was this pain and why was it hurting him too?
I woke up with the pain surging through me almost like it was real, but when I jumped up and looked around my room, I knew it was a dream. It had felt so real, and I was determined to find out what this pain was. He kept telling me it was going to hurt. I was already hurting enough what could be worse than caring so much about someone, who doesn't feel the same way back? What would hurt worse. The rest of the night I didn't sleep, I just sat there staring at my ceiling trying to figure it out. If I were to fall asleep it would just make things worse.
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"Hi, we're here to pick up pictures it's under Embry Call" I said to the tall blonde lady at the photo counter at the drug store in town. She smiled and quickly found our pictures. Embry stood beside me with his arm around me, and didn't let go even when I went to get my money out of my wallet. It had been several weeks since the incident and the weather was getting warmer by the day, although it was still rainy and miserable, summer was showing it's face. She handed us the pictures and I handed her the money and we were outside with the pictures in moments.
"Why didn't we do this sooner?" I questioned him. He shrugged.
"Too busy guarding La Push" he said rolling his eyes. The past few weeks we had to patrol more, some random nomad Vampire passing through killed a few local members of the town, we had to rip it to shreds. Now that was out of the way we were able to sit back and just enjoy the beginning of Summer.
We got outside and were relived that it wasn't raining. We headed back to my house and grabbed some pizza on the way home. We sat in my room and scattered the pictures all over the floor. It was nice to see us smiling and laughing and having a good time. Although we had been able to take things light and easy the past few weeks, I still had those moments where I had to break down. Jacob still hasn't talked to me, only for business purposes, and that hurt. I pulled forward a picture of the two of us, taken my Embry, he held the camera up trying to get us with the lake. We smiled at one of them because he had cut his own head off.
"You are terrible at picture taking" I laughed. He pushed me down and I began to giggle. He grabbed me and pinned me to the ground, I was still giggling until he bent down and kissed me hard. I wrapped my legs around him and pulled him down to me. It was nice to forget about things, I couldn't help but enjoy the moments I had been spending with Embry. The only time I was in pain was when Jacob was around, when he wasn't I was completely fine and content with being with Embry. He pulled away and hugged me, just plain hugged me, no kissing my neck or anything, just a simple meaningful hug. I hugged him back, and as I did I noticed something on my finger. It was the twisty tie ring that Jacob had given me. I suddenly felt pain and he knew because he let go of me and looked concerned. His face was hard and his eyes pleaded for me to tell him what was wrong.
"Can we go to first beach?" I asked. He nodded and then helped me up.
The ride there was more silent than our usual rides to the beach, he had the radio on low. He didn't dare ask me why we had to go to the beach, I just told him it was important. We pulled up and I jumped out of the car and he followed me.
"Where are we going?" he questioned as I brought him to the area of the beach where Jacob and I would always go. The last time Jacob and I came here everything was still okay, now it's the opposite. When I stopped and looked at the water crashing along the shore, Embry nearly smacked into me.
"I have to do something" I said to him. He looked at me with a confused look. I pulled off the twisty tie ring that had somehow managed to last years. I held it in my hand, and looked at Embry.
"I want to give my whole heart to you Embry" I told him. He looked at me.
"What do you mean?" he asked.
"This twisty tie ring was something Jake had given me years ago, and well apparently I won't need it anymore. He's not going to be the one to put a real ring on my finger in the future. I already know that, and I guess I have to accept the fact that he will never want me, nor will he ever love me." I took a deep breath and threw the ring as far as I could. I watched as it fell into the water and the tide pulled it away.
I felt like all of the air had been taken out of my chest, and I fell to the ground. Embry caught me as I hit the log beneath me. He held me up and then sat down allowing me to rest on his lap. He ran his hands through my hair. I felt tears weld up and I cried. I had to, that ring had been apart of me for so long I couldn't help it. Embry held me close and let me cry it out.
"Embry Call, I love you" I said, and I really think that I meant it. I may not be imprinted with him but somehow I felt it deep down. I felt a love that I couldn't explain, a love that kept me from crumbling into little pieces. He made me feel like I could be more than just the jealous girl trying to get someone I couldn't. He made me feel like I had it all, because with Embry I did. I looked at him when he didn't respond and noticed he had some tears in his eyes.
"I love you too Allyson" he said. We just stayed like that for a very long time, embraced in each others arms. We even watched the sunset together. I was happy that I was finally able to admit that I did love him, and I felt an feeling of relief as we spent the day on that beach. Nothing could come between Embry and I, it was true at that moment, but I was prepared for the worst and it was a good thing too.