Broken Moon
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AN: I am proud of this chapter. Enjoy the rest and review. I will post more later on. There are three more juicy chapters coming in the next few days. I hope that you enjoy them.
I Need You To Love Me
Embry's POV
I couldn't help smiling. It was so cute to see her act angry at me. She didn't talk to me after I got back. I felt sad for running away like a fucking idiot. But I needed to relax, calm down and just meditate on what had happened. I didn't want to hurt her. It was never my intention to cause her to cry. I apologized and begged for her forgiveness, but she just kept quiet and didn't answer. She only nodded and left with Leah.
"Bye, Embry." she mumbled, waving her little hand at me and getting in Leah's Toyota FJ cruiser.
I thought that she would come back. I thought that she was just teaching me a lesson, but she left. Moon left with her and didn't even look back to see how she broke my heart with her silence.
Wasn't she doing the same thing to me? She left me aching and wanting her companionship. But I was fine with knowing that Leah would protect her. They needed each other and if what she needed was time away from me, to strengthen the bonds between aunt and niece, I would not object or step in the way.
They deserved each other's company. In a way, they were both alone. Leah was alone and in need of someone to care for. She was hurt by the death of her mother, Sue, and hopefully Moon would be there to provide her emotional support and vice versa.
It was good to see them get along so well... But, I fucking missed Mallory so bad. I missed her smile. I was devoid of everything that I loved. I got to see her when she was visiting Paul's photography studio in downtown Forks. She didn't look at me, she just passed by me and didn't acknowledged that I was there. Did I hurt her so badly?
She was avoiding me and perhaps, just maybe, I deserved it. I deserved to be punished for running away like a fucking idiot. Man, was I a fucking dumbass!
It was never my fucking intention to upset her. She just broke the news so fucking fast. I wasn't prepared to hear the pain in her voice when she spoke of how her sister stole the only man she ever loved. I thought that my imprinting was going to be easier than Seth's, Paul's, Brady's and the others. I didn't even think that she'd already loved someone. It pained me in a way that I never thought possible.
It had been a two fucking months and three mother fucking days since I last heard her voice. I was pissed! The house became a battlefield of emotions. I had destroyed most of my cups and plates. They were all slammed against the damn wall and thrown everywhere. I wasn't eating! I barely went to work. I only drank beer, but the fucking yellowish liquid didn't do a fucking thing to my damn system. I needed to drown out the pain, but there was nothing that could calm my weary heart. I was fucked up over a woman. I became a fucking pathetic loser. I hated the way I was feeling. If only I could find something that would calm my damn anxieties, I was beyond repaired. I have never been at this lowest. I had never felt so down or depressed in my fucking life. For a minute, I hated this fucking imprinting. I wanted to run away and just fucking die. Moon wouldn't miss me, right?
My fucking love for her was greater than my own selfishness and damn pity. I loved her more each passing day and I needed to be with her. I wanted her to be near me. Damn, I couldn't do it anymore without her. I had to go to Leah's house and see her.
Moon (I swear by my mother's grave, that she would soon become Mallory Moon Call), was the only one that could fucking bring me back to life. She had to come back and put the pieces of my heart together... But, what if she didn't want me anymore? Oh, fuck! I couldn't live another day like this! I needed to see her! I just needed to see her green eyes.
I was sick of wallowing in my own fucking self-pity and self-doubting. I trudged and paced up and down the damn living room, until I created a deep dent on the carpet. I had to come up with a real good excuse to see her. It had to be a masterful excuse... something that I would even believe!
"Hi, Leah... I came to promote you back to Beta!" I muttered to myself. Hell, no! Something different.
"Hi! I just wanted to see if you had sugar!" I said in a high pitched voice... Who the fuck was I kidding? I lived ten minutes away from Leah and I didn't need sugar.
"I came, because someone called me RESTRICTED and I thought it was you!" I said, running my hands through my face in irritation. Whatever! I sound fucking desperate! But damn, I fucking was desperate!
"I heard Moon screaming and I came to... fuck! Ten thousand and a million times fuck! Nothing would do! I just need to see Moon! "
I thought of thousands of reasons and excuses to see Mallory. I went upstairs to my room to retrieve the keys to my Nissan Titan. I was going to see her. I didn't care if Leah tried to kill me. I was going to see my imprint, Mallory Moon.
I stopped in front of the mirror and tried to fix my unkempt hair. It had gotten longer and it fell a little longer, up to my ears. I was a walking mess. How could I let myself get so down?
"Just tell her that you miss her, idiot!" I told myself angrily, when I heard the front screen door opened, followed by a soft, almost inaudible knock.
I could sense the pull of my imprint calling me. It was tugging at my heart beckoning me to open. I jumped down the stairs and landed on my ass, as I tried to get the door. I got up and tried to tidy the living room a bit, but that would make my angel wait. I forgot about the appearance of my house and sprang towards the door.
"Hi." she said timidly, wiping the rain off her face. Angel, I missed you!
I opened the door wider and in came my angel. She was completely drenched in rain water and her white tank top clung to her chest, outlining her perfectly round breast and rosy nipples. She looked beautiful. I wanted to touch her and wondered how her breast would feel in my hands.
"Mallory." I whispered, sounding like a fucking idiot, looking at her chest, like a fucking pervert. Great! How shallow can Embry be?
"I... um, I wanted..." she trailed off, taking a step away from me. Oh, c'mon, don't leave! "I wanted to see... you... if you ate." she added quickly, turning around and waving at me. I grabbed her arm and spun her around.
"Wait, wait, Mall. Where... where the fuck are you going? Why are you leaving so fast? It's pouring out there! You can get sick!" I said worriedly, bringing her inside the house and locking the front door.
"It's alright, Em." she said softly, taking a step away from me. "I've never gotten sick."
"Oh, I didn't know!" I muttered, raking my fingers through my hair, feeling stupid. "Are you hungry?"
What kinda stupid question is that?!
She shook her head and sighed. She couldn't leave so soon. She had the fucking remedies to my maladies and pain. She looked so sad, so haggard and broken. Her hair was lose and wet. She was an ethereal being. Her white pale skin could be compared to the moon and her red lips were like scarlet roses, begging to be kissed. She was a living Snow White; beautiful and breathtaking.
I had missed her so badly. After what seemed like an eternity, she ran to me and wrapped her arms around me. I held on to her, thanking my lucky star for giving me an angel to quench my thirst and need of her. I held her tightly, pressing her against my body, never wanting to let her go.
I inhaled her rich scent and memorized it, just in case that there were future days without her. I couldn't live without her. It was obvious. I had been dead and now my heart was beating hectically. She brought me back from the dead. She resurrected my broken soul and now I saw everything with a new sense of hope.
"Embry," she whispered softly, snaking her arms around my neck, bringing her cold body against me. I wanted to taste her lips and erase that faceless man that had a hold of her heart.
"Mallory Moon, I've missed you!" I told her kissing her cheek softly. Oh, goodness! Her womanly softness was making me crazy. I needed her in so many ways.
"I have to go." she said, pushing me away from her. "I came to see you. I needed to know that you were alright. I wanted to know that you were still alive." she said shyly, placing her arms on her sides.
"You gotta be kidding me!" I said desperately. "You just got here." I said, taking her small hand in mine. They were so tiny that they got lost in my large hands. "Stay a little bit longer, please."
She shook her head and stared down at the floor. "I can't." she said softly.
I kissed the back of her hand and prayed that she would spare me a few more minutes. I needed her. I longed to be with her. I hated all the barriers that stood between us. I hated her past! I hated that idiot that occupied her precious heart.
"Stay, princess." I begged her, bringing her closer and imprisoning her in my arms. I couldn't let her go.
"Embry, I just came to see you. I know that I... I have to go." she said, her voice breaking.
I felt my heart sink in my chest and my soul shatter in to tiny pieces as I saw the silent tear stream down her pretty face. She looked so damaged and hurt. Her green eyes were dimmed and her face held no light or sign of the happy Moon that I adored.
She looked up at me and tried to force a smile. "I'm hurting without you, Embry." she whispered, kissing my lips softly.
"I'm hurting without you, Mall. I missed you so badly. I apologize if I hurt you. It was never my intention to hurt you or break your heart. I had to run and meditate on what was happening. I was mad and I needed to clear my thoughts, Mall. I was upset, but never with you, angel." I said quickly, trying to make her understand, that I wasn't angry at her. I could never be angry with her.
"You weren't!" she said surprised, wrapping her arms around my waist. I shook my head and kissed her creamy forehead and pressed her closer to me. It felt right. I was completed. With Mallory Moon beside me I could survive. I just needed her with me.
"I want to love you and protect you." I said bluntly, entwining her dark silky hair in my fingers and softly forced her to look at me. "I don't want to see you cry anymore. I want to make you smile. I want to take away everything that clouds your smile. You deserve the world."
She began to cry. My angel was crying. She was suffering so much, but I didn't know what to do. How could I comfort her soul?
I bent my head to kiss her cheek, but she turned her head. Our lips met and it was delicious. The kiss was better than I had dreamed. Her lips were soft and parted, as my tongue prodded her warm mouth. Our lips molded perfectly. Her lips were delectable; they were warmer than what I had expected, but they were as tantalizing as I had imagined. I wanted her. I wanted to ignite the fire in her heart and warm her spirit with hope, love and adoration. She closed her eyes and I felt her body press tighter against mine, getting my own clothes wet.
I placed my hands on her waist and lifted her closer to me. I wanted her to be close to me. She wound her arms tighter around my neck and brought my face closer to hers. It was all physical attraction for her, but for me... I was giving her my heart and my soul.
She brought her hands to my face and didn't let go when I tried to break the kiss. She wanted a cheap distraction to forget her sorrows and pain. I hated it! I hated the fact that I was just there to help her forget the faceless asshole.
Just thinking about that fucking faceless moron made me want to phase and run away. I hated him. I wanted to rip off his damn head and feed it to the fucking dogs. I wanted to skin the mother fucker alive. Just the thought of seeing him squirm in pain gave me satisfaction. How could such an asshole do such a terrible thing to an angel? How could anyone hurt her? It was like ripping the white wings of a cherub with green eyes and let her fall to her death. It bothered me so fucking much to know that she still carried the burden of a broken heart.
She slowly pulled away from me and looked in to my eyes. She was crying and I didn't know what to do or say.
"I heard your thoughts..." she trailed off, removing her hands off my face and looked down.
"You... you heard my thoughts?" I asked incredulous.
She nodded and wiggled uncomfortably in my arms. "I heard your thoughts and I am so very sorry that I have to put you in that position." she paused and cried more.
"I can't forget him! I have tried, but it's not something that you can do over night. It's been five months since it happened and I still can't forget him. I hate him for falling so easily under Addivani's trap. I hate him so much, but I can not seem to get him out of my heart, my mind and soul!" she cried angrily.
I placed her down on the floor and took a step back. I didn't know what to say. I knew that she could speak telepathically, but I wasn't aware that she could hear my thoughts. I felt ashamed that she had to hear them, but at the same time... I couldn't give a fuck. I hated the guy and that much was true.
"I don't want to hurt you, Embry. I also don't want to use you. But I need to forget him. I want to erase his kisses and place you in my heart. I want you to erase his touch from my skin and replace him with yours. I want to love YOU!" she sobbed, kneeling on the floor and grabbed my pants in her hands.
"I need to love you! I feel safe with you! I miss you when we aren't together! I know that I can love you! Please, help me learn to love you!" she begged, staring up at me from behind her tears.
I knelt in front of her and placed my hand on her shoulder. "I want you to love me. I will do everything that I can to make you fall in love with me. I won't give up on you, because you have placed all your trust in me, angel." I said softly, fighting back the anger and helplessness that I was feeling.
"I know I will fall in love with you." she said, placing her hands on each side of my face. She crashed her lips against mine and kissed me fervently. "I want to love you, Embry." she said against my lips.
I gently pulled her away and kissed her forehead. "You will fall in love with me, I have no doubt about it. I know it will eventually happen, but... not like this." I said, standing up to my full height.
She nodded and stood up too. "I understand!" she muttered, forcing a weak smile. "I have to go. I am sorry that I caused you so much trouble." she sobbed, turning around and exiting the front door in to the cold rain.