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Bittersweet
Embry's POV
Two more weeks passed and I was alone again. I didn't understand why it was so hard to love a person. I know that love is not easy, but I have a theory: Girls are the one that make a relationship difficult. They tell you that they want to fall in love with you, but then they don't do anything to work towards their goal. I was mad at the situation.
Mallory Moon was my life. I spent the entire two weeks and yesterday and today, thinking of possible ways to make her fall in love with me. I thought about sending her a dozen roses everyday, until she fell in love with me. I thought about taking her to the Bahamas and enjoy a nice weekend together away from all these werewolves that were now protecting her and keeping her away from me thanks to Leah.
I wanted her heart to know the true joy of being loved. I wanted to be everything to her. She became my life, the second our eyes met. I knew that she felt something for me. She felt safe in my arms. She only desired to be with me, but she didn't love me.
I sat near the cliff and stared at the setting sun. It was another waisted day. I went to work and sulk all day. I am glad that I have Jared Jay and Paul Maximus to help run the auto shop, because I have been a mess for the last two months and fifteen days.
I sighed and scooted closer to the edge of the cliff and let my legs dangle. I wasn't going to jump in the water or kill myself. With my good luck, I probably would not die. I laid back and watched the shapeless clouds floating in the vast sky.
"I know you are there." I said softly. I could smell her scent and hear her fast heartbeat. "You shouldn't sneak up on old person like me." I said jokingly, closing my eyes.
I didn't want to see her. She had caused me too much sleepless nights. I just wanted to face the darkness and let it be my companion, until the day she tells me that she loves me.
"Sorry." she muttered. I could hear the crunching of twigs and the ruffle of leaves as she got closer to where I was.
"Why are you here?" I asked nonchalantly, inhaling her sweet and soft scent. "I thought that you didn't want to see me?" I asked her, placing my hand on my face to block the clarity of the evening.
"Um," she paused, crouching beside me and placing her cool hand on my cheek. "I have done some thinking, Embry." she said quickly, taking my hand away from my face.
"And?" I said calmly. Though, inside I was dying to wrap her in my arms and kiss her.
"I want to... I want you to be my boyfriend." she said hurriedly, forcing me to open my eyes widely. She wants me to be... her boyfriend?
"Boyfriend?" I asked her, just in case my ears were deceiving me. "You want me to be your boyfriend? Why is that?"
She looked hurt by my words, but I swear that she was turning me in to a bitter Leah and Leah was turning in to a fucking happy punk.
"I want to be with you. I like you. I want you!" she said nervously, moving towards my head and raising my head in her hands and positioned it on her lap. "I want you for me." she said with determination.
"I don't think that is how it works." I said curtly, sitting up straight, my back was to her. "Have you thought about my feelings, Mallory?" I said angrily.
What about those two months were she left me alone and bleeding? I had feelings too! I had a fucking heart that had been shattered, stepped on and broken many times. I couldn't just let my heart beat with every single word she told me. I needed to be sure that she really wanted me.
"Embry! I want you! I do! I can't forget our kiss. I want to be with you!" she said sadly, placing her legs around me, until my back was resting against her chest. She felt so cool against my scorching skin.
"I know that I made you suffer for a few weeks. I apologize for it." she said, resting her hands on my shoulders. "I am so sorry for turning your life upside down. I am just a teenager that doesn't know what to do. I promise to be mature and become the woman that you need. I want to marry you and have children with you. I want to live happily with you. I promise to try!" she said crying.
Why does she keep saying the words that my heart wants and longs to hear? She'll probably tell me all these things and then quickly changes her mind. I couldn't afford another heartache.
"Please, baby!" she whispered, resting her forehead on my back. "Please, Embry!" she said dejectedly.
She was crying for me, but why? If doesn't seem feasible that she was in love me. If she doesn't love me; why did she cry for me?
I got up and turned my back away from her. I couldn't think clearly. I needed time to think. I did want to believe her. But like she said, she was still a teenager and was confused. I was once a teenager. I made so many mistakes and made so many promises, that to this day... I wasn't able to keep. What if I did cave and became her boyfriend, what next? What if she decided the next day or the next, that I wasn't what she wanted? I phased and ran like the little bitch that I was, leaving her hiding behind a mask of tears..
Ten more days passed and this time, I was the one hiding from her. I could smell her lingering scent when I entered the porch and unlocked the front door. She had been coming for ten mother fucking days. She was being stronger than me. I wanted to believe that this was the chance that I had been waiting for. But, was it? Was it my time to feel her love? What if she hurt me? What if we made love and she cried out his name? I fucking hated my life!
It was Saturday evening and I had finished patrolling and I was tired. I had been in a mother fucking awful mood! Fucks, I hated being around Leah. She was happy with Mallory, while I was bitchy and moody. I hated everyone. I only liked patrolling with Jared Jay. He was always serious and quiet. He didn't intrude in my thoughts.
"You should talk to her." he said.
I was saying?
"She's hurting and crying for you." Jared Jay said and showed me images of how Mallory Moon looked. She had lost weight and she was probably not eating enough. "Don't lose her, bro."
I was a few dozen feet away from my house when she opened the door to my kitchen. I hid behind the trees to phase and change in to my cutoff jeans. She was standing by the steps, waiting anxiously. I slowly walked, but she ran towards me and found refuge in my arms. She sobbed and begged me never to leave her again. Why did she cry for me?
I kissed her forehead and she smiled up at me. Her green eyes sparkled for me. Why would she reserve such precious smile for me, if she didn't love me?
She had her hands on my face and was speaking telepathically in my mind. Her mellifluous voice filled my heart with peace. I still hated myself for making her cry. She was my green-eyed cherub. I only wanted to make her smile.
"I missed you!" she said in my head. "Don't ever leave me again! I don't want to be away from you!"
"I am sorry, Mall. I have been so tired of playing around. I want to know for sure that you want to be with me. I can't just..."
She got to her tiptoes and planted a kiss on my lips. "I want to be with you!" she said coyly, taking my hands in hers and squeezing them softly. "I am sure! I won't hurt you. I will be faithful." she said, smiling behind her tears.
She was shy and her green eyes, practically blazed with an unknown passion, when she smiled. I wanted to bathe her with kisses and hugs. My desire was to protect her. I wanted to tell her how beautiful she was. She was so broken and hurt, all she needed was someone to believe in her and tell her that she could reach the stars if she wanted to. She just needed a little shove.
"Mallory," I said, kissing her cheek. I was afraid to kiss her. She was so fragile and I was afraid to touch her. I didn't want her to break in my hands. "Will you be my girlfriend?" I asked happily.
She smiled and jumped in to my arms. We walked hand in hand to the house and I took a quick shower and got dressed. I didn't want to waste another second away from her. We drove to Port Angeles and had dinner at a nice Italian Restaurant. It felt wonderful to be with her. She lighted my world with her smile. Everyone turned their heads to see her pass by. I felt proud to be holding her hand, for now.
We went to see a movie and I'd forgotten about all the sleepless nights that hunted my past. I was filled with a surge of happiness and security, as I held on to my princes hand. When we got back to La Push, I asked her if she wanted me to take her back to Leah's. She shook her head and asked to stay with me.
"I'll stay in your house!" she said cheerfully, kissing my cheek. "But you take back your room and I'll sleep in the spare bedroom, OK?"
I nodded and parked my truck next to the house. I got out of the car and mosey over to the passenger seat and opened the door for her.
"I'm happy, Embry." she said, smiling widely at me. "Thank you!"
I was smiling too. I felt renewed and alive. I carried her in my arms and twirled her around. She was mine! Maybe this was the beginning of a wonderful relationship.
I watched her sleep, practically all night, but stopped myself when I thought that I was a freak. Didn't I criticize Edward for watching Bella sleep at night? I looked like an idiot with my mouth opened widely staring at a beautiful sleeping princess.
I left my door opened to have better hearing if she woke up and needed me. I tend to not hear things when I fall asleep. I didn't want to miss a thing. Damn, WWIII could come and I still would not wake up.
The following morning I found Moon sitting on the edge of my bed. She had a breakfast tray in her hands and the food smelled like heaven. She had made breakfast for me and to be honest, I was famished. I didn't care if her toast tasted like asphalt or the scrambled eggs tasted like toothpaste. I would not hurt her feelings. I already made her cried and I wasn't going to put her in that position again. I would praise her and make her see what a wonderful soul she was. I would eat any food she wanted to give me.
"I wanted to apologize for yesterday." she mumbled, carefully getting up on her feet. "I know that I have said things that could've been better worded and I had been a pain in the buttocks."
I watched her walk to the side of the bed and placed the tray on the night table. It was great to see her in the bed where one of this days, I was going to make her mine. I enjoy her company and knowing that she was worried about me, made my heart swell with love.
"It's alright!" I said, sitting up in the bed. "I am also at fault for not acting mature. I should know better than… It's OK. Let's forget about it for now." I said, feeling uncomfortable.
She gnawed at her lower lip and her eyes drifted to my exposed chest. I laughed mentally, but covered my chest with the blanket. I forgot that I was completely naked and only the bed sheets covered me.
She wanted me!
"OK, but we'll have to talk about it later, Em." she said softly, her voice ringing like bells in a cold winter morning.
I nodded and stared up at her. She motioned me to move and sat beside me. I felt my heart beating fast and a flock of butterflies invaded my stomach. She knew how to make me feel uncomfortable and at the same time, feel peaceful. I'll get her one of these days!
"I made you breakfast!" she said lightly. "I hope it tastes as good as the one you made me the first time we met!" she said, smiling at me, as she reached for the plate filled with eggs and toast. "I made Huevos Rancheros and toast. I also made some chocolate chip pancakes; I'll bring you some when you are done. If you eat like my Papito, you will want second and third servings. I really hope you like the food, Em." she said shyly, uncovering the hash browns and bacon plate.
I took a whiff at the food and felt my mouth water. I was always hungry, but when a pretty girl like Moon made breakfast for me… it made me feel like a child opening his Christmas presents. I felt loved!
"It looks great, Mallory." I said, taking the plate from her hands. I grabbed the fork and took a taste-bite and the scrambled eggs tasted great. "Mmmm, who taught you how to cook?" I said, chewing on my food.
"Um, my mother." she said timidly, playing with the hem of her sundress. She looked like a little angel, with a light pink dress that exposed half of her creamy back and fell below her knees. She must have gone to Leah's house to get dressed. "She made sure that I learned to cook."
Her straight black hair fell down her shoulder in a tight braid with a white ribbon tied at the end. She smelled like a field of gardenias. I never thought that I would like the soft sweet citrus scent on her. It was soft and it didn't overpower my nostrils like the smell of a vampire would.
"Ali can cook better than Nessie." I said, smiling at her. She giggled and nodded. "How is your mother?" I asked her, not noticing the drastic change in her mood. "Have you spoken to your parents?"
She got up from the bed and walked to the window and sighed. "My mother was sad the last time I saw her. I broke her heart when I left the house. It's been almost six months since I spoken to them, baby." she whispered sadly.
I put down the fork and hated myself for asking such stupid questions. I should know better. Damn it! Damn, I hated myself for making her sad. I was fucked up beyond reason.
"I'm sorry, Mallory." I said regretfully.
She shook her head and sighed sadly. "It's fine, Embry. You are fine. Do not worry."
"I'm taking you shopping today." I said, hoping that she would turn around and face me. "I'll buy you a whole new wardrobe."
She turned around and narrowed her eyes. "You don't have to, Embry." she said, grinning at me. "I don't want to bother or trouble you."
"Don't beautiful girls like to go shopping?" I asked her, smirking at her and winking at her. "It's no trouble for me. It's actually a pleasure for me."
She giggled, her cheeks turning crimson red with awkwardness. What a lovely creature! I loved her! I loved her smile and everything about her.
"I do need new clothes." she whispered to herself, looking down at her dress. She walked to the foot of the bed and sat down. My beautiful shy angel!
"I have my own credit card that my great-grandfather gave me for my sixteenth birthday. I can use it! You don't have to waste your money on me." she said bashfully.
I sighed and wished that I could scoot to where she sat without showing anything that would send her running out of my house.
"I don't want you to use your money, Mallory. You are my imprint and it's my desire to buy you anything that you want. I have plenty of money to provide you a comfortable lifestyle. I'm not wealthy like your family, but I do have money." I said seriously.
I wanted to spoil her. I wanted to bathe her with gifts and jewelry. I wasn't rich, but I did have money. I had plenty of it. I had managed the auto shop properly (OK, lately, it had been Jared Jay and Paul Maximus) and I had done good investments with the help of Alice Cullen.
"I don't know, Embry. I don't want you to use your money on me. I don't deserve it!" she said, reaching for my leg. "But… it would make the other girls jealous when they see me with such a handsome man like yourself." she said teasingly. "My boyfriend!"
"That would make the girls jealous." I said, laughing heartedly. She laughed too and sighed contently. "Girls want to train their boyfriends to go shopping with them!" I laughed.
Definitely, Mallory didn't have to train me. I would do it with a fucking smile on my lips. I was already a trained puppy!
I continued to eat my breakfast, watching Mallory Moon, rummage through the room. I had to stifle my laugh. She looked so cute with her tongue cocked to the side as she went through my clothes in the closet.
"You also need clothes, Embry." she muttered, as she turned to face me. "I checked on the other closet and most of your clothes are covered in car grease, ripped in to tiny pieces. Your shoes are dirty and you are in dire need of new shoes." she said timidly, hiding behind the closet door. "You have some anger issues, don't you baby?" she laughed.
I nodded and continued to eat my breakfast. So far, I was actually enjoying my relationship with my girlfriend, Mallory.
"Then we definitely have to go shopping, Embry." she said.
"Whatever you want, princess. I'll do anything to make my girlfriend happy!" I said, hiding my smile, behind my hand.
"Then, we must be going, because I love to shop!"she said, hoping on the bed and taking the plate off my hands, resting it on the night table. She wound her arms around my neck and kissed the tip of my nose.
Bingo! Even hybrids girls like her enjoyed going shopping!
"It's settled then! When I finish my breakfast, I'll take a shower and get dress and then we can go to the mall!" I said, placing her on my lap.
Moon clapped her hand and grinned happily. "Will you hold my hand?" she asked coyly.
"If you want me to." I said nonchalantly, but inside I was shrieking like a happy school girl after getting asked out for prom.
I kissed her creamy chin and she giggled. She was beautiful and perfect. Her green eyes were shining brightly, illuminating the entire room.
"Will you kiss me, too?" she asked timidly, getting off from my lap and off the bed.
"If you want me to." I said lowly.
"Good, baby." she said, walking towards the closet and started picking out the clothes that I would be wearing. "I'll iron your clothes. You gotta look good today for me! I want the girls to fall in love with my tall, dark and handsome werewolf!" she joked, stepping out from behind the closet door.
"Remember to hold my hand and kiss me without asking me!" she said bashfully, holding my clothes in her hands and pressing them against her chest.
"I'm yours, Mallory Moon. I'll do anything that you want me to do." I told her, feeling my heart swell with happiness and love for her. Her smile was the medicine that I needed to be happy.
"You're mine, Embry." she whispered, walking towards the door and turning to face me. "I'll be completely yours someday!"
She exited the room and closed the door behind her, leaving me with a bittersweet taste in my mouth.